Can't sleep or wake.

.

.

I am sort of inbetween those two.  It is nice an cool.  Which I am enjoying.  Near the computer is the warmest, at 72.  If I opened the door, though, it would chill deeply and quickly.  The living room, and rest of the house, is more like 66 to 68... for now.  I do have it open, but I like the fresh air.

I may attempt to game a bit.  Not sure I can stay awake well enough to focus that much.  Not really interested, either.  Wouldn't want to try a new game, that just... takes way too much focus to sort out.  If all the old games I have are dull or have proven broken.

The problem with gaming, at this point, is nobody wants a ps5, even if they could get it at the promised price.  And all games are being made for the ps5.  But the updates are being crafted to attempt to make the ps4 be able to sort of limp by through the games... which are poorly crafted to boot.  Until something changes, the gaming industry is dead.  No one who can afford a decent computer is using it to play games, either, at this point.  Mining bitcoins, and else, and probably on their bosses, or neighbors, energy bill whether the other knows it or not.

My guess is, a lot of game buys are bogus.  Much like likes on social media, even many blog visits... fictions.  Though, for some, the likes and visits are hidden.  I've watched visits disappear on my site.  First, there are five, then two... or one, immediately, then it's gone.  Everything you see, or don't see, at this point, is a fiction.  Understand that.

But games?  Until everyone is at least up on the new platforms, and no one is going for it, gaming is dead.  I am beginning to suspect they don't even program.  They just have bits and parts of programs they try to meld.  It's all component parts, with most of their programmers in the bug fix area.  If... in truth... they have very few dedicated, functional, programmers.  And, given the modular aspect of game construction, there isn't all that much they can do.  Make the visuals tiny, so it has a chance to run, poorly even then, on a ps4, older computer, or such.  All last gen trying to run next gen.  Plus, horribly programming and political correctness by hating "minorities", women included.

This... isn't going to end well.  Which makes me think they, the elites, believe we are in the end game.  They think they will win, and wipe out "Rome".  They are doing it to the Romans, with what the Romans built, as well.  Interesting how that works.  Bread and circuses really does work at destroying a nation from within.

Oh, I may well end, easily or harshly.  But... I just... don't think it will be the first, or last, time.  And, if so, it would be for a cause.  Not... necessarily mine.  But... I have surrendered my causes, here.  I realize I can't win.  I am not in control, even when I happen to seem to win.  It isn't my game.  King?  Of myself, if to, a king is only a greater servant.  Understand these things and... prepare to kill... or die.

Why they don't like me is manifold.  And sometimes right.  But... not without purpose.  There are those who must not pass, and those who must, and those who will see to it at their very high costs.  So be it.

Anyway...  It's a difficult day.  I'll... get some coffee, insulin finally too, then maybe some roast beef.  And... try to sort out my flesh to do something.  I am crippled up, pretty harshly, today.  I'll... keep trying.  I let some people know some things.  And... will... keep trying.  Later.