Bit by bit.

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I just can't push through far, or long.  I can do a few dishpans at a time, or make a meal, or maybe get trash out.  Which is probably next.  But I can't work for long.  Just... running ragged.

I have gotten two loads of two dishpans washed, rinsed, then dried and set out.  Half of those have been put up, along with any other things which were out.  I made room for the quart jars.  The last load was three half gallon jars, and a bunch more lids.  How many lids do I have!?!  Never mind.  I did get that load washed a final time, rinsed, dried, and set out.

After a break, I set up the last two loads of dishes... which I have been working on.  I still have... three or four more dishpans of dishes to work through, or so.  After a break, I will get those loads washed a final time, rinsed, dried, and set out.  Then a shower.  Hopefully, as a final group of things, I will brine chicken which I thawed, cook some hamburger which too has been thawed (since the container for that is clean, finally), and work on the liver pate.

If I can get those things done, I will go on to bed as soon as possible.  Not sure.  Will see.  Actually, might do the pate before dishes or showering.  It should be an easier thing.  Probably.  Sounds more complicated, or fussy, but... I think it will be easy enough.

I have been looking up other tasks I would like to do.  Changing to leds for turn signals, breaking lights, interior (dome) lights, and headlights... but that is a bit pricy.  Perhaps by parts?  And, putting up whirlybird air movers, for the roof.  At least the main and back roofs.  The front roof should go with something a bit more... discreet?  Maybe.  Not that it really matters on my house.  And, still, it sort of matters on all houses?  As well, a few ideas about how to seal cracks in my driveway.  It needs more fill in a hole, if that is a ton better this year.  Even so, I would like to try to get that nearly completely flush.  If I can get the driveway perfected this year, next year I may put a new topping... two layers perhaps.

Not things for this year, or not all of them.  But... a few things here and there.  So many things to do.  Vent fans in the bathrooms, refitting one of the bathrooms, roof extension work... replacing the panels... maybe the wood supports, cleaning the house of course and the garage.  So very many things.  And here I am struggling to get dishes done.  Bleh.

Tired, but not as bad as I had been.  Shoveling snow really... I thought it had gotten me.  Busted me pretty hard, for a bit.  But I have recovered better, quicker, than I thought I would.  How do I know?  If I hadn't improved, there is no way I would even be doing the light work.  Though, I don't want to push too hard again.  That... really was difficult.

Yea, I'll get the pate going.  After reviewing the video.  I'll see how things work shortly.  

My mother and brother haven't called.  The last time I called my mom, she... avoided speaking to me... twice.  My brother just... isn't talking.  No thanks, or even a nod or text.  I guess that is the way it goes.  I thought things had improved.  I guess not.

The groups don't really want me.  I get it.  Whatever, or whichever, thing, gets in the way... I am alone here.  I realized I didn't fit in as a child.  I have mostly gotten used to that.  I just thought things were turning around.  No, no they aren't.  Best, probably, to be solo.  Though, I'll see.  I'm just staying low key and avoiding rocking any boats, or causing any problems.  Sometimes I forget the rules, say or do something which causes problems.  I... have to remember to be quiet.  True, false, doesn't matter.  Some things should never be spoken... or written.