A bit of a start.

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As mentioned, meat was put on order.  Further, if they have sirloin tip roast still on sale, I will order four to six of those.  Hmm, may call in, just to check, have it ready if so.  Medium to small.  Wonderful flavor, if, as mentioned, chewey if cut too thick.

I just hit the dishes.  Then set them to a rinse, as I think they are clean enough.  In an hour, or so, I'll get in and pull them.  Perhaps rinse them hot, again, before hand drying them and putting them out.  By the time I get back, at the lastest, maybe before I go, I will get the dishes put up and the freezertop cleared elsewise, so as to put some of the meats in the deep, drop in, freezer.

With this, the chuck roasts, chicken, and burger from last month, plus maybe the sirloin tip roasts, there is a chance I should be set up for several months.  Possibly five months.  I am eating far less these days.  The only thing to have to keep up on, a bit, is fresh veggies.  But, even those, I don't eat all that much.  It's just a matter of having it be fresh enough when I want to eat it.  That and salad.

The heart hurts, again, deeply.  So I am taking painpills.  As well, I am hitting waterpills.  I seem to be holding onto far too much water these last few days, week?  It goes with the heart pains, I think.  It's just not doing as it should.  We'll see if the painpills work, and the waterpills.  Hoping tomorrow morning will be easier.  Will take more, tomorrow, with some hope, if needed... wanted.  Getting to a full church mass will be... a bit claustrophobic.  I'm not used to crowds.  But, I am getting back to things, or for now.  So... will make all efforts to get there.

Yeah.  I need to get a shower, after dishes.  Then set up the next and nearing last loads, of dishes.  If I can cook outdoors more often, I can really cut down on pots and pans.  Flatware is what it is.  I have tried disposable, but that doesn't work well.  For some things, I may attempt to use chopsticks?  That could really help.  

Will have to process the food more, in prep.  But that will often be for making several meals.  So it will still be easier.  I don't know.  But maybe.  I am truly getting excited about the flattop.  It's not perfect.  It won't do everything (such as roasts, if the egg type grill might do those so even less indoor cooking?).  I just think cooking outdoors almost exclusively would work, at least until I can get a vent hood in the kitchen.  Though, even then... outdoor cooking would be better.

Oh.  I still haven't gotten to mopping the bathroom and bathroom hall.  And I will have to sweep again.  Which reminds me... while I do have mesh door mats, I am thinking of obtaining another sort, a finer mesh sort, so as to scrape bigger bits, then the smaller bits, off at the door.  Once I get my floors up to snuff, especially if I resurface them, some of them, then I want to keep them up.  I may even obtain "bath shoes" in many sizes, for guests.  If I get things cleaned to that level, I will have no difficulty requesting shoes be removed.  Either to wear socks, or the bath shoes... which will be lysol'ed when being put back up.

Hmm?  Well, just thinking out loud, ahead of things.  I have plans.  Not sure they will ever work.  But... so be it.  The plans are good.  Whether solid, and a real future, time only will tell.

Oh, and maybe later today?  I will set up some of the keto flour.  So as to make keto bread, fast or slow.  I have several recipes I'd like to make in slight bulk.  I no longer have xanthan gum, so may look for that at the store.  I looked on amazon, but the price has gone crazy.  If it's that at the store, I'll go without.  Just skip that particular recipe, or find xanthan gum keto alternatives.  Damn.

I have the rest of the ingredients.  From egg protein to oat fiber, maybe wheat fiber.  And, of course, the main types of keto flours, two main... almond and coconut.  And some alternatives even to those, perhaps.  It's just a matter of doing it.  And I have been busing working, cleaning, cooking, getting to town shopping and to mass, so things have... just not been good enough, open enough, clean enough, to get to flour.  But... I think I am getting there.  Tonight, or tomorrow afternoon, I will set up larger batches of the dry mix for various (probably) keto bread/roll/bun/etc flours.  Yes, yes indeed.

Sure, I'll put the recipes up for... some of what is on my mind.  And some alternative recipe types which just include breading of sorts.  Oh... I need to get pork rinds, while at it too.  That can make a decent breading, or even keto panko!  Which... I truly love.  Both of those, really, depending on the meal type.

I really miss these.  And, yes, I have all but the bagel, or whatnot, spice.

I am missing bread so much I am failing on it.  Not just bread, rolls, dogs in a bun, and other things.  With the flattop, and with ingredients mostly ready, I should be able to make some breads very quickly, without the microwave.  Or, even make whole loaves in the oven.  I... hate, or at least distrust, the microwave.  It has to corrupt any fats in it.  And keto food, from breads to whatnot, are based on medium to very high fat content.  Don't microwave that!  You want to microwave water?  Probably okay.  Not sure about starches, or other carbs generally?  Not sure if they break down at extreme heat.  But fat does.  Protein?  I don't know about that, either.  But fats?  You basically hydrogenate the fat.  Which, along with crisco and other such evil foods, is what is killing people.  Of course, that is what they want.

Funny.  Medicine wants to keep you alive.  Sick, but alive.  It looks like the MIC (medical industrial complex) is butting heads with the powers that be.  That... will come down to money.  With so many boomers now retiring, the MIC (medical) will become far too expensive compared to the money made.  A sip is fine, drinking the whole ocean not so much.

Best take care of yourselves.  Doctors have sold you out.  Hospitals are going bankrupt almost as fast as banks.  Whodda thunk murdering your clientele, or harming them without being able to make them whole, by shoving a bad fix at a possibly nonexistent illness might have reprecussions?  Damn.  As for financialization of everything, to the point of what normally would be called criminal?  Same same.  No loans coming through?  Go figure.  Central planned themselves into a grave, if us along with them.  Or... those who thought they had no choice?  Meh.

Just... be careful out there.  Take care of yourself.  Learn to eat rightly.  Watch what you do, take, and whom you trust.  Watch out for those who can be helped, let the damned, willfully ignorant, knowingly evil, and others, take their path, and medicine, as they will.  Do as they will, don't follow.  If you don't know better, or believe you have no choice?  I pray for some of you.  Certainly not all of you, in that way.  Not even most of you.  You chose the world, you must... sleep in the bed you made.  I suppose, being in the service, I did too.  I won't... make that mistake again.  Amen.