Up late.

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I didn't go to bed late, or all that late.  Between 20:00 and 21:00, I think?  But, I took two long trips to town, did some heavier cleaning, went to mass, and... other things?  It... was a longer harder day.  And, I am tired from the rest of the week.  Right down to a very sore, hurting, heart.

I didn't wake, finally, until 5:30.  I only got up then because I felt it was very late.  And, as per my recent schedule, it is.  It was about two hours later than the recent usual.  Still... not terrible.

I fed Sassy first thing.  If I wake at 3:00 to 4:00, I'll wait an hour or two.  But if I don't wake until 5:30 or later, I'll feed her first thing.  Just... trying to play fair with her.  Cats are very regular animals.  I think most animals are, once they become... domesticated to within their capacity.  Though cats would push it, at times, if they could.  They will try to wake you earlier, to get food.  Which is why I usually don't feed them for a few hours after waking.  It removes the immediate payoff of waking me.  And, that actually works well with them.  If I could just wake on a regular schedule.

I have never been good at that.  Nighttime allowed me to... be who I was, or wanted to be, potentially without interuption, punishment, brutality.  The... training, to be who I was supposed to be, was brutal.  So, yeah.  If there may have been health issues involved even back then, too?  Maybe.  But, with the heart added on, keeping days and nights, save for short periods of time, is... literally impossible.  Especially when I work.

Oh, while I have given up on Japanese... the call to it diminished beyond my ability to sustain the effort... I am thinking of attempting to learn Spanish.  More Argentinian Spanish, but alos try to dip my toes into Mexican Spanish.  There are... many reasons.

The hope of moving to Argentina, or visiting.  And maybe Ecuador?  But, too, many locals and Catholics speak Spanish.  There would be some opportunities.  And, depending on which Spanish they speak at the masses for the Spanish ones, that would be an oportunity to learn... hear and learn.  And make new friends.

Here is a fellow who seems to be, sort of, in my shoes.  Only he had a lot more cause to interact, and more serious reasons.  Yet, too, he only had his own resources.  No classes, not a lot of money to put into it, etc.  So far, I like his ideas.  I'll track some of his other videos, see if they have as much merit as this one.  But... as mentioned, we are (at the start) in a similar boat.  I'd love to let someone else make the mistakes that I can then attempt to avoid, as well, have found the better paths through the psychology of learning this particular language.

The thing with Argentina, is they are rather European too.  So, finding Italian speakers, French speakers, and maybe even German speakers, isn't impossible, or even unlikely.  It wouldn't be bad to brush up on those languages too, if also for other reasons.  Brush up?  Maybe more like nearly a complete overhaul.  But they are, mostly, back there.  Fluent, at once, in French and German.  With Italian, I was just starting.

I have pulled a few vids from y.t., I have bought a few books from amazon, and a few audio and digital books from them as well.  I just haven't even started.  I am thinking, to start, learning top phrases, and the top thousand words, or two thousand.  Just... for a start.  I have also found a cite which, if for a hefty fee, allows as many lessons per week as you want.  The price is high, but if I took, say, ten lessons a week... or even twenty... it would well be worth it.

Twenty lessons?  Yes, face to face, on some conferencing software.  I am thinking, taking a lesson with, say, five or even ten different teachers, an hour per, twice a week per, I could nearly get emmersion simulation.  While it would be brutal, on the mind, for a while.  It would really speed up... learning.  The speaking part.  And, yes, I could do it.  Even doing it for a month or two, taking a break, then hitting it again for a few months might work.  Time to process, rest, and it is, for me, very expensive.  So just affordability is an issue.  Ugh.

I am hoping to take a shower shortly.  Then set up a few dishpans of dishes.  Game and browse for a bit.  When the bathroom dries, sweep.  Then mop the bathroom and the bathroom hall.  Perhaps do some workin the kitchen table, clearing it.  Get some food downstairs.  So much to do.  And, yet, quite a bit done.  Not the half of it, in any given room save maybe this front room.  But I very solid strike.

But, I can't work too hard today.  Just... a few little things, here and there.  If It begin to weary, I will back off.  I have pushed a bit too hard, and my heart more than just hurts.  I really won't push myself to death.  However, I don't quite want to just quit.