Not much.

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I just couldn't get to much.  Just... too tired.

I did make a portion of beef tartare.  The roast was quite frozen.  I had to take it out whole... or what was left.  Then I had to let it thaw a bit.  It never really did thaw well.  But, it did cut better.  While working the big, whole, roast, I cut it into portions.  And, really, should have cut those portions in half.

I have eaten larger portions, yesterday and today.  But think, after I have worn the novelty off, that five to eight ounces of meat should be plenty.  Then with the accoutrements, that should be plenty.  Further, I would keep the added bits to smaller portions as well.  I have quite enjoyed this though.

No work.  I'm just... barely staying awake.  Couldn't focus, to game.  Couldn't read much, online.  Just... drifted through the day.

I am hoping I can do better tomorrow.  This week.  I'll... see.

Haven't heard from my brother or mother.  I think they have definitely just stopped communicating.  Not sure if it was something I said or did.  But, so be it.  I am too close to death to push or pull.  I'll probably keep it to messages.  If they contact me, I will just text them back.  Keep it... distant.

Not feeling too bad, nor great.  Just... alive.  It is about bedtime though.  If I thought I could get to some work, I would stay awake.  But I think I would just ruin my sleep.  A few painkillers as I go to bed.  I took waterpills this morning, and will go so again yesterday.  But that should be about that.  Probably.

Oh, and I have been looking at recipes for keto.  Setasides, for the week, sort of recipes.  I have been thinking about doing things which could reduce my cooking.  These are done in the stove, but I think they would easily transfer, potentially, to being done on the griddle.  Especially with open framed forms, which... I just found.  Ordered two.  Yes... should work well.  Not that I will use them all of the time.  But, I could... get some things done this way, from time to time.

Perhaps I could work more, if I didn't have to stumble over food and dishes and... else... as often?  Maybe.  I could really see the pancakes, eggs, and maybe some alt form of potatoes?  Dunno.  Might just have to live with potatoes, for now.  Though I would like to try hashing jicama, daikon radishes, and some of the various roots.  Though, I think they would need to be at least parboiled, then shredded, before being attempted to be fried?  Dunno.

Oh, and some things that have been on my mind.  One, for the bathroom, this first video, is for creating shelving... a top one for sinks, a bottom one for towels and general storage.  Perhaps, if that worked out, a few others in various places around the home.  Maybe even in closets.  

The next?  I have wanted to put up a hammock inside, upstairs.  Just for a different way to sleep some nights.  And to practice sleeping, taking down, etc, without having to deal with the weather all of the time.  Well, and to experiment with various hammocks.  The thing is, I need to make sure the bolts will hold.  I'm thinking not just blocking, but double or triple blocking, on both sides of the sleeping bag supports.  Plus, experimenting with various lengths, so have, say, four very large eyebolts down through, so I can adjust, practice with, different lengths for hold, comfort, height, and just learning to adjust for my preferences, or preferences given specific situations.  

Just... ideas.

Well... A bit more water.  Then just on to bed.  Oh, and painkillers.  Goodnight.