Awake at a good time.

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Not sure how long I can keep this newfound schedule.  Something is just really off.  I know, I get that way.  But this time seems different?  Or, as has been happening more often these days, I am more aware that things are off?  More awake, to see the failure, somehow?  I can't be sure, but... it could go either way.

The latter issue might be a better thing.  While it is terrible to realize you have failed, it is better to realize you have failed, than to just blithely blunder through it, without a clue.  I mean, I knew, but usually after I had returned to some level of health.  Months would go by, and I would have no idea that time had been lost until I was again able to be aware of time, days, months, and such.

Up at about 4:30.  Or, out of bed and downstairs by then.  I was mostly awake by about four.  I just... enjoyed a rare mellow morning.  Not out of need, or want.  Sleep was fantastic last night.  I forgot my watch downstairs on the charger base.  I knew it, but by the time I was up there, settled in, and realized it, I had no interest or ability to drag my body down the stairs.  I couldn't even sit up, which was my first impulse.  I was... done, for the day.  But, I don't need the watch and algorithms to tell me I had a very good sleep.

I keep not wearing compression socks, with the idea that I will get a shower in right away, then never do.  So, I just put them on.  It might be inconvenient to have to take them off to shower.  It is far better to be inconvenienced, than to let water collect down in the feet, ankles, legs.  Oh, that is horrible.

On the good side of compression socks and else?  If I do well, for say three or four days, I can then wear the knee-high socks, then the thigh-highs, just for a day or two each, before having to go with full length.  It gives me a break, from the heat they build up, from the various pains at the various heights.  Juggling, between medical needs and comfort.  It's what is left to me.  But, at least, for now, I can afford these things.  The future is not looking bright.  But there is today, now, for as long as it will last.

I have been trying to get things paid off.  I almost made an impulse buy.  But... canceled it.  It wasn't even that much.  But... it... was more than I wanted for something I really don't need.  I plan to be very careful with spending, so as to have enough money to put more against the card I pay early, heftily.  My goal is to get that card to zero, while also saving some money, so that when next I want to do a home project, I can do half cash, half card.  Then cycle through payoff and saving until the next project.

Yes, I have been doing that.  There are... so many projects needed on this house though.  That is true of any house.  More so a starter home.  Just the way things go.  The removal of the window, and putting in of framing, will be done on a cash basis.  But the window, itself?  We'll see what the price is, when the time is ripe.  I may be able to do that in cash, too.  Preferable, if possible.  But, the thing after that, the electrical panel, will need to be a half cash/half card thing.  Though may be able to pay that off the next month.  Ugh.

Today?  Hoping to get some work done.  I'll just have to see.  I did have burgers, later in the day.  Eggs and corned beef hash for breakfast.  Probably that again, today.  And, I waited until after noon before eating.  So am roughly back on intermittent fasting.  As long as I can keep my day schedule flat as possible I think I can keep to that.

Blood sugar is 243 fasting.  Yes, no more first flush kombucha.  I have two bottles second fermenting.  I... have strong doubts about those.  I'll give them until Wednesday, then check for fizz.  If good, I'll refrigerate for a day or two, and have a cup at a time.  If not fizzy, I'll give them a few more days, twice if needed.  If it isn't fizzy after four days, I'll refrigerate and try them as is.  Checking blood sugar closely.  Yes, the raw, first ferment kombucha is far too harsh on blood sugar.

A quick coffee, lightly fatted, and then a vinegar tonic, to kick off the day.  Gaming, for a bit.  A brb if I can.  I'll be eating the kefir, stored in the fridge, and wash the containers as I finish.  I'll simply replace kefir into new jars as it finishes it's ferment.  Might be ready today.  New glass, for fermenting, on top of the cool, means it takes longer.

I do what I can, but it's all sort of a sad trick.  Then again, isn't that life for most people, whether they know it or not?  We are all just going through processes, steps, doing tricks to make... life seem better.  And, sometimes, we can improve things.  Kefir, both as a food matter, dietary inclusion, and as a hobby, helps me... keep going.  Gives me something to do, that is positive, or I certainly believe so.  Bm's are hella easier these days, without being too easy.  And, cleanup is a breeze.  :p  Seriously.  If you learn to eat this stuff, you will understand why the French could eat like they do and use a bidet.  No need for tp, if you eat correctly.  I love American food, but we, as a general rule, eat something between animal feed and processed junk, sugar, and other carbs.

Tricks, little things, some tech, knowledge, and wisdom.  Finding a better way.  But it takes some effort.  Took a long time to find what I have, eat what I do.  Even to be able to eat raw whole kefir?  That's tight.  Instead of living to eat, I am literally eating to live.  Is it working?  *shrug*  The life I have is easier and better.  But I am still dying, hurting, crippled.  Some things just can't be fixed.  A bandaid on a bullet wound, I suppose.  But... it's... what I've got.

It was 66 upstairs in the main, 68 near me, 44 outside, and is 66 to 67 down here, warmer in the front room.

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Wow.  Completely forgot I was writing this.  Here it is, nearly ten.  And I am just pushing "publish".  Oh well.  It is up to 67, outside, 68 to 70 indoors, downstairs.  I'm not going upstairs to check that, but probably similar to downstairs, if more like 68... for now.  Clear skies, for now.  I was mostly done writing the rest by, say, 5:30?  At the latest, if I went and got water going for coffee, and took a brb, plus probably did a few chores.  Hmm... just... wandered off.  Oh well.