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It was 68/69 upstairs, 67/68 downstairs, and 68 but warm feeling and humid, in spite of it raining, outside this morning.  Morning?  Midafternoon that is.  I think it was nearly 14:00 when I crawled out.  15:00?  I... can't even be sure.  It is a rough one.  I didn't get to bed until... at least almost six, perhaps as late as eight.  I... got stuck in the game.

Fighting through some of the roughest areas in the game.  Two, nearly in a row.  On the hardest settings.  These are two of the three or five areas where super duper equipment doesn't help.  Still, I made it through.  Then played a bit longer to get past those areas a goodly bit.  Then saved.  The problem with saving, in this playthrough, is I only get fifteen saves.  So I have to use them very sparingly.  Which... also means if my 'toon dies, I have to start way back... possibly.  Strategic saving is vital.  It... also means, when I get through a really tough area, I should shove on through as far as possible before saving again.

As well, being up so late, I... became dumfoundedly hungry again.  So, I hate.  Potatoes and ribs.  Had to eat.  Famished.  Starving.  I am learning, that if I stretch my day, I will eat, like, want, or choose it consciously, or not.  And it won't always be the best food.  I did have kefir before and with the start of the meal, and a vinegar tonic after.  So there is that.

I did figure out how to reset the r.o. devise, and have it working.  Having the replacements in, however, is a good thing.  Those will mean, probably, with soft water, two to three years of clean water per set.  I ordered two full sets.  That might last the rest of my life.  Or life here.

I will see how my finances are going in the next few months.  If it's looking really good?  I may put a bit more big bills against the house.  It'll be tight.  It IS tight, as I have things.  But... maybe.  I think that would take the paydown from like... eleven years to eight or nine.  And, set me up for serious saving after, in order to get it into much better shape, quickly.  If... I haven't gotten a much better bid between now and then and sold off.

Blood sugar?  198 fasting.  Not... good, but definitely not as bad as I feared.  Weekly average is 180?  Right, right.  Just don't do that too often.  Today?  Pork chops and eggs, probably.  Kefir, maybe two.  And coffee!  I will probably have two.  I have, or am, refilling the water reserve bottles.  May add a third jar, rather than put one in the fridge.  A compromise on having more storage in service.

My brother called, while I was sleeping.  Could barely talk.  He was very angry about that.  He... can't think it through, but his anger wasn't at me.  It was that he isn't allowed to sleep.  He is given lists of things to accomplish, and does so.  The next time we talk, we are going to talk.

If he doesn't want to do all these things, and really can't?  Buy a playstation 5, a few games, enjoy them, and sleep when he isn't doing that.  The last of his girls is leaving home, or at least going on to college.  The oldest is through with grad school, and going to work... soon.  His wife works, still.  So... he can... back off from life.  He doesn't need to slave for nickels, returns, sales his wife wants shopped, and else.

Now, I don't begrudge his wife.  I think... she has tried to keep him on his feet.  If he goes down, he may never get back up.  May not last all that long.  Or... he'll... manage.  Their life won't be as... social climbing as it is now, or what it might seem?  But... it would be a lot more comfortable.  He has too choose though.  And, deal with the consequences.

I remember, hearing about my brother and a cousin, at an uncle's.  They were told not to do something, but that cousin did as he pleased.  This time, my uncle asked my brother what my mom would do if he had done what my cousin did?  He said she would have beat his ass.  And... so it went.  While the analogy doesn't fit, the idea sort of does.

If he wants, and needs, time out, off?  Then he has to choose to take it, and damn the consequences.  He is a big boy now.  He can love his wife without being a her footservant.  And, she can learn to... live a little smaller.  But nothing will change if he doesn't make some unilateral decisions and stick by them.  Yes, we will talk.  No more taking his anger, for his life, out on me.  Oh... and I went back to sleep.  :)