It's 77 outside.

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Or was just a bit ago.  Still below 70 indoors.  But, a warmer day.  Not many clouds in the sky.  And it has been dry for... half a day?

I have been asked to an event.  And, if possible, will go.  I am washing pants.  Will need to wash some shirts and else.  As well, shower, trim or shave... haven't decided that part, brush my teeth a few extra times.  I will try to be ready.  Plus, it will get me going so perhaps I can get back to church.

I am in rough shape.  Not sure what is wrong.  The extended cool, wet, and dark?  I am not sure the heat will help, when it hits?  Once I get used to it, it... is like a springboard, until it breaks me again.

Blood sugar is a bit higher, at 184 fast.  Because I have been tyring to add sweetener in.  Cutting it has helped, but... no.  If I want lower blood sugar I have to completely go without.  So be it.  I have tried various ones.  Either they do nothing... I can't taste them such as with stevia, they cause a blood sugar spike, or both.  The both ones are very rude, I get trouble for nothing.

I am just feeling rough.  My legs have trouble with falling asleep.  It's because my weight loss is change the way my body sits, and lies while I sleep.  I used to have some padding, here and there.  Not all of it is gone, but more than one would think.  The thirty pounds, so far, off, has been there, plus over a hundred pounds more at one time.  That is a lot of space, volume.  And, it seems mostly fat is coming off.

I feel weaker, from losing weight, somehow?  You would think that would increase energy.  I would think so.  Well, and my body is still adjusting to the lower weight, but while losing more.  It is sort of a rough gig.  My organs are adjusting.  They don't hurt as bad as when medicine was killing me, but they feel... floating, bruised from being jostled, and achy.  I think in a good way?  It feels like... recovery, not failure.  There is a difference, though would I really know the difference?  I can only speculate.  They don't hurt as organs, they hurt as pieces of meat which are sore from being loose in the body.  Fat is going, they aren't held.  For now.  I think that will improve.

Nothing back from my friend.  It sounded like he was busy as heck.  And against it.  He probably doesn't believe in air conditioners.  Odd, when not needed, people can deny the need for such.  When it hits ninety, their minds change.  Brutal world, when it even hits 80, and stays there a while.  Lethal, for some.

Burgers, tonight, I think.  I just have patties.  Maybe with some bacon?  If I have some thawed, sure.  I need to thaw some meat, while at it.  Tomorrow is an out night.  Grilling?  So I hear.  I'll just have two patties and a hotdog, no bun or else.  Maybe some fruit, if they have it.  Bringing a jar of kefir for my drink.  Perhaps a vinegar tonic as well?  I do love that stuff.

And, on to gaming, again.  But, through the night, I am hoping to tend cleanliness, do a bit of laundry to have clean clothes to go, and do a bit of cleaning in the house while at it?  Something like that.

I got through two of the three in game challenges I was hoping to complete, plus another three I didn't think I would be able to do.  Burning through challenged.  Now I am trying to burn off one more challenge, while earning an item I seem to need for the most difficult runthrough.  Ugh.

The thing with this game is?  You really need to play it... a dozen times, or more, to get good enough.  Even then it is tight.  You don't just win this game.  It is too dynamic.  And, while you can (usually, mostly) get beyond constantly dying, you are never quite fully free of that possibility.  One lax moment and your 'toon is boot hilled.  But... you can get past death, save a few areas where you will die several times, very likely, or at least possibly, because the areas in the game are both excessively dynamic, limited in what you can use, very difficult, and partly based on random number generations which if they aren't in your favor, you can't win.

Still, it's something that keeps me busy.  And, as mentioned, I have completed tasks I didn't think I could.  I thought, with one of them, I had twice, only to not get the tag.  So I had given up on them.  I just... that one... got it qutie by... accident?  I had stopped trying, and was just trying to survive it.

Anyway... on with my new next day.