She's not happy.

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I told her I was planning on selling and moving on.  She wasn't happy with just the thought, less so now.  Why though?  I can't take care of this place.  It should be in the hands of someone who can tend it.  But, that's... not what concerns her.

She does realize she could never live with me?  Right?  She does realize I can't afford an American wife, not a keeper.  Right?  And while, practically, too old to find a keeper wife, in another country that may not be the same.  And, in another country, I could afford a wife, and children.  Not here.

I don't see her, as is.  I can't afford to travel.  Nothing would change, that way.  Is it that idea that I won't be in the states?  Even if something happened to her, as is, I couldn't afford to travel to see her.  She knows all these things.  It doesn't matter.  She is quite unhappy that I am even really looking at selling.  

Not much I can do about that.  It is what it is.  If she doesn't want to talk to me, I guess that is the way it will be.  But, for my part?  I want to... see some of the world before I go.  Not be bogged down with possessions I can't tend, or really use.  To have a nice quiet apartment, initially.  Near where I can obtain meat, or even have it cooked for me often.  Someone to clean my place.  A place to begin looking for a woman.

And, if it doesn't work, move on to another place.  Funny thing is, my friend from Iowa City, the then physics grad student, is also against me moving.  But... what is there in America anymore?  Marriage is next to impossible, children in such a situation doubly so, and everything is getting more expensive by the day.

Trump?  The reason I was going to vote for him is gone.  He now wants to bring abortion back.  It should be, as is, left to the states.  The feds need to get out of everything.  Makes me suspect that was an accident, not a plan... for him.  The one thing he actually did, which was long term and successful, he wants to eliminate.  I... have no use for the man.

Just... time to move on.  Let mother, and my brother, have the nation they seem to want and like.  I'll leave them to it.  I'll see other parts of the world.  Not safer, but no more dangerous.  And, I can afford to get dental problems fixed, and a few other things.  I have it that the VA will pay for care over there, and if they don't, I can probably afford general care.  Nothing big, but I wouldn't trust the VA to do quality work on anything big here, either.  So... no real problems there.

Perhaps I could even have a place in both Argentina and Cambodia or the Philippines.  Not all three, though, even if I could afford it.  Too much travel.  But two of them would be good.  Stay away from "Western" nations.  And... put money here and there, in this and that currency or form.  If I'm pretty sure you won't escape the scalping that will be happening in every coin of every realm as things... change.  It's a matter of who gets hit the worst, hardest, first, and such.

The great depression, the first one here?  Was just the US.  This one?  Will be the whole planet.  Just understand that.  And gold?  Hahaha  Hold onto all of it you want, same with silver.  When you realize how much gold and silver and whatever else there is, compared to the world economy?  Plus... you have to keep it to use it.  Good luck with that.  What is coming is... rough.

Anyway.  I did let her know what may be coming up.  Nothing in writing currently.  We'll see if something is presented.  Will have to have it reviewed, most likely.    But, the numbers and figures and designs are, in practice... written generally and agreed to, basically.  Now it's just a matter of writing, signing, and time.

I may see if a fellow, who has shown interest in my vehicle, would be interested in the future.  And at what price.  Interesting, but much will change.  Later.