A rather nice day.

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Tired.  Achy when I woke.  Still, chores were done reasonably well.  And I keep checking.  The rabbits water is still flowing, and they are eating well.  The little gents are still a bit miffed at papa, but seem to be slowly getting over it.  And the ducks have been pleased to have the driveway opened.  They like hiking around the place, and snow makes that less fun.

I have shoveled twice, and now plowed the driveway and frontage areas twice.  Once with a little help, the last time all on my own.  As well, I took care of a bit of business... for now.  Have to figure out how to stay up on that.  Quite cruel to jack fuel like that.  A one time miss ends in four hundred in arears?  Then with a two day cutoff notice?  They have a phone number, probably my email, but those are too much?  Really?  Still, I have it fixed, for the moment.

As well, groceries have been ordered, again.  I am hoping that works this time.  Just enough for a few weeks.  The only thing I need through the month is fresh veggies from time to time, and dairy.  Dairy is paid on the first, for the month ahead.  Oh, and I found a steak from... a... while ago.  I thawed it, with some hopes.  Grilled it.  It was quite good.  Probably the last ribeye I'll have for... most likely from here on out.  Oh well.

Oh, I am also turning the furnace down.  I'll start at 68~70.  See where the bill goes.  I may have to push the 66 line, and hope electricity doesn't go out.  I would like to have alternatives, but those are all probably more expensive.  Even the propane heater... which I'd have to be careful with as well... would cost a big chunk.  And kerosene heaters would be twice that.  But those would be good if all heat gets lost for a bit.  I can probably handle it, mostly, but the girls can't.  Cats just really don't do well below 50.  I'll have to figure something out.

Ah, but, in the end, the sun was shining at the end of the day.  Just... a bit from the west.  It was a pleasant thing.  Like a gift, or some hope, in these very dark and growing darker times.  Later.

It could be worse.

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I could be using just a shovel.  I must admit, the little I shoveled earlier got to me.  Aging, ill, but slightly able, sometimes, for short runs.  It looks like as much is back down as what had been removed?  Thereabouts.  I need to get out again, and shovel that little spit of are so as to get the plow out and working.  It's all good.

I thought I had a grocery pickup today.  I am certain the order went through.  But, checking today, it looks like it didn't go through.  Which ends up being fine, for me.  I... am running out of fumes.  I didn't want to go.  I am tired.  The order was still in the 'basket'.  I am sure it went through, and that I received a code.  They were extremely busy, when I ordered.  I ordered on Monday or Tuesday, and Friday was the earliest pickup.  So, perhaps, their machines or capacity was overloaded?  All good, as long as this goes through.  Tomorrow, if it went through.

I have enough kefir.  And, tomorrow is milk day... with two on the way.  I have two in the fridge... well kefir'ed.  And three out kefir'ing.  Half gallon jars.  I have started eating some, since I have plenty and milk is arriving.  The stuff gets slightly addictive... if you can get past the strange nature.  I would call it milk umami.

Oh... the energy company's suggestion was that I get their app.  Apps are so insecure.  But... that, to modern... even old... companies, is a feature.  They have always been nosy, they want to get into your business, know what you are doing, and as a front be two steps ahead of you... not in the good way.  It's about the bottom dollar, they say.  But that isn't... the whole of it.  Power is as good as money.  I'll look it over.  In the short term, may not have a choice.  Though, if I am late, not sure there is much I could do about it.  Ugh.

Not quite ready to get out and plow, but will be shortly.  It is slightly above melting... a good time to do it.  If it drops below that, things could get nasty.  You just don't want frozen snow on your driveway.  It does feel colder, with all the moisture in the air from thawing a bit.  But... that's what gloves are for.  I'll get to it shortly.  I'd love a nap, but it's a bit late.  Past 11:00, or noon even, it's pushing it.  The probability of ruining sleep is very strong.  I've kept days for... a while now.  Slowly losing it, but still... a miracle I'd like to maintain just a bit longer.

Later.

That snow is coming down in heaps.

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I did get a section of the drive shoveled, up near the garage.  I had to rest, I did it after feeding and watering the rabbits.  An hour after, I was ready to use the plow.  I had to shovel again!  It was as deep as it had been!  Well, fine.  I did that, got the lawn tractor going, and made a pass then did one side of the frontage, when low and behold, the neighbor showed!

It was fun.  To be able to be out, to visit just a bit.  And the thing is good.  Plus, I opened a path to the front door.  So, all very good.

On the bad side, the gas company sent a runner, who put a notice on my front door.  Gas is overdue, with a two working day shutoff notice!  I called immediately.  Very difficult.  The tech/accounting is done by real people, payment by an automated system.  Apparently, missing one payment (not having enough in the account), will cause the auto pay to lapse.  And they don't call or email, just send a (one more in a pile of others) letter.  I might well miss such.

Well, deep in back pay.  But... they are going to put me on a payment plan.  Still, one miss, and they rescind the payment plan and everything is due immediately, or they shut off heat.  I am going to have to be very careful.  Oh, and my bill went from ~$30 to ~$150.  So... yea.  Anyway... Then I called their number, and was having trouble with their billing, on top of that, my phone was having a lot of trouble, trying to tell me this was a potential spam call!  Ugh...  I think... think I say... it is worked out.  I just have to make sure I have enough in the account to pay the bill.

I called to let them know they are showing as spam on my phone, and the guy was not only dismissive, he didn't care.  If I were a major company, and spam warning were making phone calls difficult, I'd really want to know that.  Maybe they just don't care anymore?  Or, maybe, the workers just don't care?  I... did what I could.

Life sure gets rough when it gets rough.  Later.

Later than planned.

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Earlier than actually believed... hoped?  I went to bed reasonably early. 21:00? 22:00?  Somewhere in there.  I set the alarm for 05:00 and 07:00, with some slim hope in planning that I might be up by then.  I... worried that I would turn off the alarm, or even not hear it.  I am that tired.  I felt better, doing little yesterday, but was so tired.

I turned the 05:00 alarm off immediately.  That was going with the plan.  I worked with the 07:00 alarm, running through three snoozes, to 07:30.  I... knew, at that point, that I wouldn't wake.  I almost... no... I did shut it off.  But then I reconsidered, rolled over, grabbed the alarm, and reset the alarm for 08:30.  Even that was just a hail mary.  I hit the snooze three more times, yet waking at 09:00 was better than other options.

I gave the girls treats right first thing, then went downstairs.  I left my pj's downstairs, after being out yesterday?  Or... had I... put them to launder?  Yes, the latter I think, dressing in real clothes to go out.  So I had to find clean pj's for at least this morning, around the cave.  Oh, and just remembered to turn the furnace up.  While the waterers are ready, they aren't warm.  And, yes, that really helps them stay thawed nearly all day when it is 28~32 or warmer.  Below that it's a crapshoot... depends on how often they drink, whether wind or breezes are involved (and whether those are warmer or cooler), what humidity is up to, and some other things.

It is snowing.  I didn't dream it was snowing, I dreamed, right before waking, that I knew it had snowed all night.  Looking out, at least from upstairs, while it is snowing very heavily, it looks more like it just started snowing.  There isn't much on the Cruz window.  Just looking at the driveway doesn't show much, but the window of a vehicle... which was clear since the last snow, makes depth guestimates much simpler... assuming my rheumy eyes saw well.  I'll... check in a bit.  Certainly when I do chores.  Hmm... I may do the ducks right now, and get to the rabbits when their water is warm...

Ah.  I had been correct, but things change.  It had been between a bit less and a bit more than an inch (of fluffy snow, not packed, wet).  Now it is closing on two inches.  It is snowing fast.  Small flakes but many and fast.  Makes for a wonderful show, if you aren't lined up against the snow somehow anyway.  Not enough to really even shovel yet.  Still, in a bit, I will grab the shovel and at least open up in front of the driveway so as to more easily facilitate plowing later.  Oh, and it is 28 F out there, but... on the colder side of that.  Still, a wonderful winter day.

Ducks are out and fed.  Rabbits aren't happy that I'm not getting them, but warm water helps sooth... issues.  :p  I do love my critters, and will do what is better for them over just what they want.  Oh... all the bucks are glaring at me, the minis who escaped and are back.  They enjoyed their freedom and think I was not very nice to put them back.  I get it, safety isn't everything.  But it's not just safety.  Oh, now I best get plans to cull underway.  Two bucks, and maybe two does.  Even at worst, that would leave 36 fryers.  Though I may hold onto the does until these others prove out?  Learning curves while nearly comatose and unsure otherwise are massive.

Oh, another thing for keto people.  Hazel nuts are actually better than macadamia nuts.  They aren't as tasty, by far.  But beside being slightly better on the macros, they are much much cheaper.  I can't afford steak or macadamia, even occasionally, anymore.  I'm doing good to afford a roast, and even that I need to dice down to stew meat.  Why not buy stew meat?  Costs the same, but I have no idea what meat they are using.  Round and/or bottom roast is so flavorless, and some others... plus, as mentioned, there is no price difference.  I can... cut my own, from a better roast, thank you.  As with hazel nuts, I can handle the dryer, less flavor, to have something as a snack or middle food... convenience food even.

Later.

A bit more.

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Bedtime though.  Late, but earlier than the last few days.  I didn't work up so much that I had to come down.  The stress was in the morning.  I have had time to come down from that.

Some of the dishes were put back to a soak.  Just couldn't finish that.  The waterers and food are set for the rabbits.  The ducks were put up.  Well, and of course... mostly... the waterers were brought in.  As well, the girls got fresh water.  They get what doesn't go into the rabbits waterers.  Though, sometimes, they just get a fresh batch, as they will in the morning.

I also got the freezer cleared off, if not cleaned.  And a small bag of rather... bad trash out.  I didn't realize there was something in there... there was.  Ugh.  I have also been turning the kefir.  It isn't ready to consume quite yet.  It probably won't be for a few more days.  Even then, I'll be splitting the majority into fresh jugs, which will need to incubate... cure?  whatever kefir grains do.  I will also pour off portions for drinking.

I will be trying to take it easy with consumption until I have a gallon and an half ready, and maybe gallon percolating.  Even then, I will go a bit slow.  Until I understand where I am with that, how fast it goes and such.  I'd like eight to sixteen ounces of that stuff a day, until I get bored or such... then put some into hibernation?  It is odd how tastes change, hungers come and go, and such.  For now, I could probably drink three to four gallons of the stuff a week.  And, with frozen fruit, perhaps with fresh vegetables (such as cucumbers, tomatoes even if they are really good, or else... perhaps even fresh fruit when it looks good and is in) the options become vast.  As with soups and stews.

Meats for that are out.  As well, a few containers of beef stock.  I'll do another beef stew soon.  Kale... I am really enjoying kale in this stuff.  Just chop it fine.  Not quite parsley fine, I like more bite.  But not as big as, say, lettuce.  Well, I like bigger bites of lettuce, that might just be me.  I would have liked to have eaten something more substantial today.  I just didn't have it in me to get out, or to cook.  Nothing thawed, it would have required inventiveness and some energy.  I just didn't have it.

Not bad.  Not great.  But... after yesterday, and this morning... better than expected.  Good night.

So very tired.

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I really want to go back to bed.  But I have things to do during the next weeks.  I need to keep the day.  Even if I can't do anything in a particular day, it must be kept as a placeholder.  Today, for the most part, is going to be a placeholder.  it is 16:51.  I have held out well.  Just two to three more hours, pulling the waterers if it seems to be cooling, and putting the ducks in.

Another shower tomorrow morning.  I feel so cold today, in spite of it being above freezing.  With a shower right off, I would normally be warm, warmer, even hot.  Little food today though, that might be part of it?  Whatever.  As mentioned, not much done today.  Tomorrow I am hoping to make a few calls, pick up feed, and... perhaps begin sorting out the rabbits, and getting them to breed.  It's time.  One batch of rabbits, from each doe, even if there were few... say six?... would provide a fairly hefty bounty.

I have checked with several neighbors.  They... aren't sure.  There is another neighbor who seemed interested.  There is no way you will sell these for their cost, mind you.  I am not actually looking to sell... just offer them.  I don't think these would ever pay for themselves.  But what they do is provide the potential for food if all else goes away, even for a short bit... if defending that food source is a whole other issue.  Ask even beef ranchers of their fears should a major calamity occur.  Yours, if you can keep them.

Still, it's the idea.  Same with ducks.  If they would figure out how to go broody, in any case.  And if I can sort out how to get them a place to safely brood and raise chicks.  They are cannibals.  And brutal to their young.  It's just the way it is.  If it works out, in any case, I should have twenty to thirty young in a month... plus or minus a handful... which would take a month to ween and a month or two to feed up.  Some portion will be smaller, most will be larger... say five to probably nearing ten pound dressing weights (bone in).  All... give or take.  A few batches of those a year would seem me very comfortable.  And with enough to offer out.  As to ducks?  Squat, so far.  I need to build a few brooding cages.  I just... don't know what I am doing that way.

Later.

Strange call.

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Someone from India, or with an Indian accent, just called.  Something about a problem on my computer.  They wanted me to check some things, which I did.  Suggested they had sent notifications, about security issues on my computer.  But that I hadn't followed through.  Well... it looked like there was a problem.  A lot of things are shut down on my computer.

Then he wanted me to go to a website.  I wouldn't do it.  I'm not sure what is going on, or not, with my computer.  But I have no idea who this guy was, or anything about him or who he employs him.  Absolutely not going to some random place, just because he has my number and knows things about my machine.  Microsoft wouldn't have anything to do with anyone's machine.  Nor would they hire tech to deal with personal security.  Wow.  Brazen.  Watch yourself out there.

I have to laugh, even thinking that ms would employs techs for our security, or that they think we would fall for it.  Mostly likely, he is involved with the breakin.  He just wanted to complete it, or transfer more data, or such.  Be very careful out there.  I may simply have to abandon my computer, until I can get a secure os installed.

Later.

So many worries.

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I started to fear, last night, that the timing of the event was off.  The case was actually in the MidWest.  Central time.  What... time... was it supposed to be, what time was the event... local?  I could barely get going to be available for the event, so had no time... or means that I could think to check... to tell.  So, I just did what I could and was where I need to be in time to do what I thought I was to do, as planned up to point.  You have no idea what it is to be totally lost in this world at times.  I do, I do.

The time, presented, was correct... to local.  A small glitch connecting using the software, but a simple quit and restart reset the glitch.  The event went quickly and an extension was granted.  Now, to contact SSA, local, have them send the rejection letter(s), and get them forwarded to a lawyer or three.  Of the backpay, should that come through, they can only receive 25% or $6k, whichever is least.  I didn't know that part, which sort of frightened me from obtaining a lawyer.

It was short.  Easy.  Now done.  I then returned to do chores and begin actually waking.  Chores are done.  Now to begin dishes, in a bit.  Well, and later, get feed.  Four more bags of rabbit feed and four bags of bird feed.  Next month, four more bags of bird feed.  I want to have two or three months on hand, of anything, more if I thought it would hold... then just keep that topped each month, and rotate.  Same with cat food and litter.  Hell is upon us.

On to... waking, more.  Have a great day.

Down late, again.

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Had to be up earlier though.  A call, probably to postpone the hearing in an attempt to obtain council.  Still, it's required.  Most of this week, getting up this early happened naturally.  But my days are shifting.  Not quickly.  And, maybe this is just a blip.  But, to be sure, I set an alarm for five... to give me a warning.  Then set the second alarm for seven.  Being as that is pretty close to my local min-max natural... it worked.  Still, I need a shower, to brush my teeth, and to unload the... well...

I could take the car.  No... most of the gas has been stolen from it.  Actually, about half the gas in the suv has been stolen too.  It's sitting at half a tank with a hundred miles on it.  They are back to stealing my gasoline, and things in my house.  Whatever they want, I guess?  When you are alone, you can't be awake all of the time.  And I sleep pretty deeply.  Too deeply, if with little choice.

I did clear the way for a shower.  Dishes which were soaking.  I had hoped to do that last night, but there was no more 'go' in me once I settled.  I spent all my energy, and then some.  A great day.  Did so little, but for me a lot.  Actually handling the piano was less than anything... even shopping for waterers wore me out a lot more.  Strange that.  If... it is even true, mind you.  The problem is, when I do that much, it takes a long time to come down.  Sleep requires a lower gear, and that just takes time... last night it took six hours or more.

All good.  Today?  The conference call, of course.  Then picking up feed.  Oh, chores before that, but after the shower?  Time is getting tight.  I best get going if I am to be there in a timely fashion.  Hmm, chores first, actually.  The waterers are being warmed, with the house.  Food is ready, for the rabbits.  It's just a matter of putting it out and setting things up.  Should be quick work.  Then a shower.  Perhaps a trim first?  Beard, anyway.  Yea.  We'll see.  Later.

So slow, intially.

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Very successful in the end.  A contest, doubled upon.  Waterers and a few other items purchased.  Shopping for this and that.  Milk, in plenty, kefir set to go immediately after officially having returned.  Rabbits caught and reset well enough for the day?  Hopefully.  Many things, actually.  And I was ready.  Oh, I even reset dishes this morning.  I am hoping to clear the counter, do some, and reset the last of them.  I want another shower tomorrow morning.

Oh, the bet?  A speed eating test.  I'm getting... a bit old for those.  Still, it had to happen.  I can't eat as much, clearly.  So a portion of a portion.  First, two thirds of a double-double decker for me.  A whole triple double-decker for him.  He... didn't think I would... or even was able... to shut up and eat.  But this was serious business!  I cleared that one easily... or... more easily.

Next?  The rest of my burger against all his fries.  Man, I really wasn't sure.  Already on shaky ground.  But, hey.  The puppy-dog eyes this guy has?  I had to roast him!  And I did.  He was... so close to beating me.  I had to stuff and swallow... and pray.  It turned out God wanted me to win and not die!  It's good to get out with the young ones from time to time.  I can't keep up, but with a reasonable handycap and a bit of luck, yea, even an oldster can doomster an youngster!  WooHoo!

They had waterers in.  I got enough to have four, or nearly four, sets of waterers.  I had two already, so...  I will, probably, get a few more sets.  Having them set up, for days, then just having to clean and fill every few days, makes it easier.  Less stop and go, hurry and wait, etc.  Too many and it would be a problem of falling behind.  As well, this allow for heating in the winter, and refrigerating in the summer.  Yea, it helps them, and they... deserve good treatment and respect.

Oh, and chasing the rabbits?  The youngster did most of the chasing.  That lad is a hunter at heart.  He caught, in the end, two of them, I caught two.  He did most of the leg work, but in the end it comes down to just picking the dang thing up without losing skin, blood, or ones head.  Gnarly teeth, and wicked claws, can jump clean to... said Tim.  And, he... wasn't making all of it up.  A rabbit can actually be dangerous.  I could easily see one opening up an artery.  Or three.  Still, all fun.  The final contest of the day.  Unlike the meal, I give him the accolades, and a win in this circle.  I just let them run and sometimes trap them, then... picked them up.  He did have fun.

Up late, moving slow.

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No great difficulties.  Going down so late, 23:30 or so, I expected a late rise.  Up so late as I was trying to do a few last things, including a shower and then letting hair air dry before bed... mostly.  Up at about 07:00, and small change.  It is almost 10:00 already, and... I am dressed!  Not just wearing pj's/bed clothes.  Hmm, it is about time to feed and water critters.

After that, I will put dishes back to soak, and perhaps clean off the freezer top, pull meat for the week, and then take a break.  A few more things this afternoon and evening, and to bed earlier.  I don't want to lose my days.  I have... things to do.  Oddly, not so very tired.  Even so, it is difficult to get started.  Hmm... the furnace is still turned down.  That doesn't help.  I'll fix that as I get to chores.

No pain?  I know as I began waking, I woke up in rather serious pain.  Neck, shoulders, headache(s)... at least one, and other problems.  As I've been drifting about the net, lost in some fog, not even quite sure what I did, the pain... seems to have gotten lost in the fog, mostly.  There is a bit, but it was acute initially.  It is a gentle, rather easy, pain now.  I would currently classify this as one of my best days!  Not that it, always, matters.  I am used to... whatever happens.  Smile right through most of it... until it stacks day after day, then I... begin thinking about painkillers.  Just a break from it, from time to time.

One of my attempts at fixing a problem did work.  The plastic lids, which were advertised as air and water tight?  Proved out.  At least in the short run.  Who knows how long they will remain so.  Still, for now, I am happy with the product, so will be ordering more.  I won't use them with kefir, which needs to breath and creates an net positive pressure so invasion isn't as much of a risk.  Plus, if you have the jar too full, and make it air tight, it can break the jar.  It's good to have something that actually works.  Rare anymore.

I best get going.  The girls are fussing.  And the outdoor critters deserve feed and water.  Later. 

Yea?

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A bit.  Not everything.  Though... perhaps more than planned, if not all that had been planned as well.  Plans... change.  The ducks are in, leaving waterers out for the hoppers, their food and water is ready for the morning though.  Well, and, now, all of the buck mini rabbits are out.  Sticking around, so far.  I need to wrangle them before they get eaten or just wander off.

I didn't get the counters, but I did clear the bathroom and tub enough to shower.  I thought about doing it in the morning.  And I may.  But I want to do it tonight as well.

Tomorrow?  Feed, for the ducks and rabbits.  Real feed.  A lunch... somewhere.  Checking on more waterers.  Well, and my balance.  Anything else?  Probably.  Oh, definitely more milk, for kefir.  A gallon doesn't go far.  I am thinking two a week won't be enough, but I really need to get to that point first, then decide.  Truth is, I may drink more, in the beginning, then back off.  It's often how it goes.  Or... maybe not.  It might replace half of my tea?  Which I am now back up to three to four gallons a day.  Ugh.

I did send information to the folks helping me.  SSA wants to use a system for video-conferencing over the phone.  I'm not sure how to install or use it.  I sent the details on, and... have tried to read through it.  Right now, I just can't get going on such things.  Too tired.  I'm not stupid... or even lazy.  I am simply bushed beyond my ability to think.  Losing bits every day, it seems.  Hopefully that could be set up tomorrow.

Oh, and I have been looking at traps, for the rabbits.  I suspect a few very strong springs, and the cages as are, plus a little creativity, could end up with the rabbits back in cages.  It must not be too bad for them, or they would be gone.  Ugh.  Of course, now it will be easier to get the mini does somewhere else, so as to fix this cage.

It's about time for that shower, then on to bed.  A few prayers.  Lightly, as I really am dying of thirst for both liquid and sleep.  Good night.  Blessings.  And may God be with you.

I sent in

Not bad.

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Certainly not all of it.  More than I thought I could do before crashing.

The trash cans were emptied.  That was precarious.  But, done, with no spills.  Splashes?  Of course.  As well, I found cast which was rusty... other than what I have already fixed.  So... I started in.  These didn't have recent rust.  They have rust from years.  And, actually, from being outdoors.  So... it's taking a bit more.  But it is working.  Amazing.  I just hit those again, actually need to hit them with vinegar now, then take a longer break.

A few other, if very minor, things were done.  The waterers are warming... another hour, I suppose.  But... it will get done.  The next actual task, when I can get to it, is to clear the freezer top to use it for drying dishes.  Not much there, but enough that it'll be after a break.  I will rummage for meat to bring out as well.  Then have it ready for dishes later.  A shower.  I am not going to shave or trim.  I have no way adding that to my already extensive list.

There are other things I need to do, have to do, but I have so little time.  Too many things!  I'll... do what I can.  I am doing better than I thought I would be.  More painkillers, though, I think.  I'm running into trouble.  Yes, a rest, if not a nap... not enough time to get one in before it would be too late.  Too much to do.  I really would love a nap though.  Oh well.  Later.

Very rough morning.

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Aches, headaches, things to do, a few things done.  Ugh.  I had to haul bags of feed out, then fill the outside container.  The waterers, from last night, as still partially filled and flowing.  Still, I need to get the other waterers refilled and out.  I usually do that at night, but with all else going on it got lost in the shuffle.  Getting some of the things done in the bathroom would help.

The trash barrels are in the way.  I suppose I could empty them in the toilet, slowly.  Plus, dishes are in the tub, blocking other things.  Then the waterers need to be managed, which is usually in that general area as well.  They generic tylenol helped, but I'm still in rough shape.  I am really thinking of taking a nap, to try to push through when I wake.  Thing is, I want at least some of the counters done, and the waterers filled, warmed, and put out with food.  The ducks have been fed and watered, but the rabbits lament their lot.  I'll... do those things before a nap.

Then, a nap, dishes and to air drying.  Perhaps, after draining the trash cans, those will get hit a bit better, and again, before a shower.  Ugh.  I'll...  I... have other things too.  Later.

A difficult morning.

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To bed a bit late, as probably mentioned.  Was it 22:00?  I think so, and small change.  Trying to push through, then trying to back away from the push, too tired to make sense of things, so going to bed on time becomes a problem.  Still, a few hours off isn't too bad.  I am hoping to correct that tonight.  And, I was up by about 06:00, so... it's... okay.  The thing is, sleep could extend to ten to fourteen hours in a moment.  And I need days.  So I need to go to bed earlier... for that margin of error.

I am waking in great pain.  I didn't take tylenol last night.  Between the fog of war and procrastination it just didn't happen.  Oddly, I slept right through it.  Didn't notice the pain until I was waking.  That, actually, kept me in bed and hour or two extra, as I was trying to sleep it off.  Sometimes, rarely, that works.  If nothing else, extra sleep allows me to face the terrible breath of such ferocious pain.  And it was ferocious this morning.

The neck, stiff as a board.  A couple of headaches stemming from that, one bringing nausea and minor migraine symptoms, if I don't think it is a migraine, just an intense ache from a sore neck.  All of which are from yesterday, not from sleeping poorly or wrongly.  I am trying to do too many things, and types of things, all at once, and it is coming with a price.  Even so, I seem to be sprinting in quicksand... getting nowhere.  Or... nowhere fast.

I need to do the dishes quickly, but I have to open up a place for the finished ones!  Ugh.  Then a shower, and a few more phone calls.  Chores, of course, in a while.  I also need to place a grocery store order, and plan to pick up real bird feed.  I may add a few more rabbit feed bags in there.  I would also like to check for more waterers.  I am leaving the waterers out, more often, lately.  They are frozen in the morning, but it does look like they are drinking the water down, so only a cup or so remains.  I would truly rather they have water available 24/7.  It just isn't possible.

Well, and I need to figure out the rabbits.  Someone thinks a rabbit trap, non-wounding, might help me with my problem.  I think they might be right.  Well, this particular one might be wounding, so I'm not sure I will use it.  But... I am sure there is another out there which would work.  Thing is, if I set them up, I will have to check fairly often, so some predator doesn't dispatch the trapped critters.  It's a risk, but I don't have another method.  As well, I need to get the breeding process started.  It's time.  Plus, getting them, mostly, into their own little places will help with a number of problems.  Later.

Late, but within reason.

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Stress... trying to be up on time.  Calling and resetting, or trying to reset things.  This, that, and the other thing.  Running through quicksand.  Hiding from shadows.  Pushing to get through.  Trying to tend animals and domestics.  Too much too do, little capacity, tired, sore, hungry, and thirsty.  Too much, but... I must try.  And, so, I do.

Bedtime.  I need to attempt sleep.  Dishes and more, tomorrow.  I'll do what I can.  For now, sleep.

Tylenol.  The last time I had aspirin, at night, I got a bloody nose.  Caught it before I bled on the bedding.  I don't want to have to catch it.  And, tylenol does work, it was ibuprofen which wasn't working.  Depends on the pains.  I think aspirin and tylenol treat similar ailments.  Mostly... from what I have seen.  Ibuprofen treats what those don't work on.

Good night.  I did get some of it done.  From trash collect and out, to chores, to... this and that... plus calls... important ones.  More to do tomorrow.  This all is far from over.  Good night.

Oh, ugh!

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Not everything.  Trash was late, but it did go out, possibly... probably... in time.  Recycling not so much.  And, dishes were given a final shot and set to rinse.  Plus, a few trash cans were set to soak.  A few of them were absolutely nasty!   Ugh!  The rest probably could use a cleaning, but aren't stinky.  Brutal.  But, a start.  I... hope for more today.  Oh, let the ducks out, but haven't fed and watered the rabbits yet, too cold.

Then, I called about a lawyer.  The center didn't have one in Utah.  Arizona?  Okay.  I asked for one in Colorado.  She said she needed a zip code?  Then how did she get one in Arizona?  Whatevs.  Anyway, I called his office.  I didn't speak to him, his receptionist.  Not going to happen... without changing the court date.  I get that.  But... further... they need the rejection letter, which I don't think I have.

They won't deal with the case, so won't do any calling on my behalf, until they decide to take the case or not.  So... I have to attempt to change the date of the case, then contact SSA and get the rejection letter(s) resent, then fax those on.  Ugh!  So... I called the office of SSA dealing with this, and requested an extension.  They will call back when the judge decides.  Ugh.

Now, to wait.  Ugh!  And, possibly, try to contact the local SSA to see about getting the letters... either way most likely.  Such a difficult thing to work with.  Ugh!!!  Still... I... finally am getting to it, if after many rejections on many fronts with two hands tied behind my back, while dying and drowning in confusion and pain.  It's... something.  Later.

A more regular day and night.

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I was actually up a bit later than has become the usual, but not excessively so.  To bed at 20:00.  I am not sure why I was up later.  The beginnings of a potential episode of insomnia?  Or... was there something I was hoping to do, or did do, which kept me a bit later?  I... just... can't remember.  Still, that was early enough.  Waking, and only once this morning, at about 04:30, I woke, and got up rather easily.

Minor aches and pains, but minor enough that I count this as a pain-free day.  There is a lot of pain in the background, but I... that is almost every day.  My body has learned to buffer a lot of pain.  I appreciate it's efforts, and acknowledge those efforts.  I can't tell what sort of slurry my body produces, but it is rather potent.  Whenever I get a glimpse of what is beyond, the pain that is blanketed, my eyes become as a horse in a barn smelling fire.  Why do you think someone would attempt suicide so many times?  Pain.  It took decades to find some balance... well, that an a seeming inability to die or kill myself, then a negotiation with God.  Meh... then some... toughening and conscious pain allocation and defenses.  Yes, you can.  We can't, you might be able to do it.  Certainly, no one can do it for you or even with you.

So very odd.

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I crashed early, and very very hard.  Taking the water pills late, I assumed I would be waking every hour or two.  To the best of my recall, I only woke three, maybe  four times.  I should have been awake eight times, maybe more.  One of those wakes doesn't even count, as it was my normal pre-waking wake up.  I usually wake an half hour to two hours before I actually wake, and begin extricating myself from that world.

Further, I woke so very late.  My pre-wake was about 05:30.  I went to bed at just a small bit of change after 19:00.  I suppose that isn't a terribly long sleep.  It's, just, lately I have been doing seven to eight hour sleeps... it had  become pleasantly regular.  Ugh.  I try my damnedest to sleep and wake as regularly as possible.  It just isn't in my hands, I guess.

A bit achy this morning.  Not exactly sure why.  I have been doing more... not much but a lot more... comparatively.  And, yes, I suppose that can get to me.  Bending to do dishes.  The acrobatics, sometimes, of laundry.  And just the stretching of chores, or slipping.  Slipping, even if you don't fall, can pull muscles.  Things happen which I forget before I am finished with, such as slipping.  I don't even remember, even the next day when I realize my back is out.  Still, more minor aches and pains.  No need or want of painkillers.  I haven't hurt in a while, not seriously.  Or... more... not consciously.  A lot going on in the background.  A lot of pain, always... always pain.  It's all I've got, as I've mentioned.  Plus, there are many in purgatory who could use it.  I don't understand all of Christ, but this?  This I get... to the degree possible.

Dishes should be quick.  but there are a lot more in the wings than I had thought.  I best get going.  The load in, and one more load today, plus maybe a last load set up for tomorrow?  Laundry... I would like to get most of it upstairs and begin sorting.  Trash and recycling, probably a first thing... so as I am doing else, if anything else pops, it can go out too.  And counters... second... so dishes can go forward.

I did thaw some meat.  Bratwursts last night.  A beef roast, for stew.  Hmm, I need veggies, which I can't get until Monday at the earliest.  Mushrooms, cabbage, the stew mix... carrots, onions, and celery... rutabaga, potato, turnips, and other root veggies.  I'd like to make a day pot of just root veggies.  Higher in carbs, but can be offset with extra fats... cheese, whipping cream, sour cream, butter... just a dab of each for a full bodied filling warming energy rich thing.  Oh yeah.  Still, I probably should pull other meat out.  Some ground turkey, pork, and beef, for more crumble.  That stuff is awesome.  Warmed, topped on greens of many types, spiced, and with fat so no need for official dressings.  Yum.

I... best get to things.  Then again, I have to wait for dawn for chores, and don't want to burn much energy until then.  I'll be curious to see if the rabbits emptied their waterers, or if they just froze.  Ugh... forgot to put the ducks in!  That... always worries me.  It is a dangerous world out there.  And a cold one.  And I do care for my peculiar feathered and furry friends.  Not quite like children, but of concern and personal interest.  Friends of a sort, family of another sort.  They aren't just dead things.  There is even a love involved.  A right one, albeit.  One God tried to imbue upon us, so we don't become thick-necked bastards.  I'm already running pretty close to that line as is.  Still, I... try.

Good morning and day.  Blessings and may you find the yoke of efforts a joy, grace, gift.  Amen.

A long shorter day.

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I am about to crash well before I went to bed the last few days.  Dropping like a rock, too, not just going to bed in a timely fashion.  Crashing.  Okay.  No worries.  Just... noting.

I am leaving the waterers out with the rabbits.  It has been well above freezing all day.  So I will just let them drink all night.  I have enough extra, if smaller, waterers so that I can refresh tomorrow.  And they are ready to go.  I will simply exchange waterers, and reset the ones I am pulling as soon as they are thawed.

A few minor things more today.  I can't... remember what.  Just... some things.  The cast iron skillet is so well done it has a minor mirror effect!  A shadow mirror, but it's... in there.

Dishes, a shower, and trash tomorrow... aside from chores.  So very tired though.  Good night.

Oh, a quick starting tip.

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In my efforts, I found my cast iron pan had gotten rusty.  I had let it soak, but emptied it.  Mostly.  Rust was only in the inside of the pan, and mostly just on one side.  Anyway, I went looking for methods.  Youtube can be very dubious.  Still, it is easy.  And, I found a piece of advice.  It looked too good to be true.  And, you know what they say, if it's too good to be true, it probably isn't true.

Still, it would be easy to check.  Fast and easy.  And I have all the products needed on hand.  All?  How about both.  Paper towels aren't required, but, okay, three things.  Baking soda, paper towels, and vinegar.  Well, a very little elbow grease.  The deal was to make a minor slurry of baking soda and water.  Then, scrub the heck out of the rusty areas.  Well, not much was really needed.  But, yea.  Then, rinse with the vinegar.  Let it fizz and work, rubbing while doing that as well.

Dry throat cure.

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Well, until it becomes dry again.

Kefir.  With trying to balance the water pills and liquid intake, again, as a start, my throat has been dry as dirt in the morning.  Kefir, that probiotic milk product I make at home on my counter?  Cuts right through it.  Two cups is better.  I have asked to change from two quarts of heavy raw cream and a gallon of whole raw milk to the obverse, so as to make more kefir.  Almost all of the milk will become kefir.  And, yea, I can drink two gallons of the stuff a week fairly easily.  Though I would like to try making cream cheese as well, once or twice a month... or at least out of curiosity.

Kefir is slightly acidic.  Think lemons or limes, only milk based.  It cleans the throat, even if it has coated with dust or just a handful of dry.  I added about two teaspoons of blueberries to one, nothing to the other, it works either way.  Now, I didn't add sweetener.  I just went plain.  Sometimes I can do that, sometimes not so much.  Mood?  Or variances in the berries?  it makes for a wonderful breakfast... if you have the brass to tackle that bareboned, in your face, tart.  I do, sometimes, did this morning.

It's about time to try to push through.  Dishes have been being hit, laundry is mostly done, trash and recycling have to go out... and I think this week is recycling week... it's every other week.  As well, perhaps some efforts out with the rabbit cages.  The birds are good, for now.  If, in time, I would like to get to the other outhouses.  I may, actually, move some of the rabbits out there.  I can still create a split-screen, which would allow enough room for two does with kits, per container.  I... think.  Which means I have four cages out there, for breeding boxes.  And, I should move a line of smaller cages out there, for the bucks.  They don't need much room, but vastly want their own spaces.  So... yeah...  Though I need more waterers.  I shopped them last month, near the first, but they didn't have anything on hand.  Bleh.  Maybe this month.

The girls have been treated, rabbit food and water are ready... just waiting on dawn and a bit more.  Then, perhaps, after a rest from that, I will hit the dishes, get in a trim, and then shower before resetting the dishes.  I think they will just need a rinse, if too I need to clean counters so they have a place to finish drying after a bit of initial hand drying.  Ugh.  Then, later in the day, trash.

Morning?

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Well, actually, yes and... yes.  I went to bed a bit after 22:00, needing to be awake for a visit, then a late... snack.  Someone is going to use my router, and various bits, for the first time.  Teh cherry, she will be broken.  I don't get to watch, but I may end up seeing the end product.  All good.  Something about a borken cutting board, some sort of creative channel development using the tool, then an epoxy type river as a fix.  I love it when creativity is combined with the mechanical.  Really, that is working or living art... my preferred art.

I woke just around five, probably just a bit before, if I got up rather quickly this morning.  Sassy was up twice last night, that I know.  Perhaps she was up more.  Or not.  I don't think I slept any harder than usual.  And, usually, I notice.  Especially with the new automatic on/off nightlights.  Oddly, I think those are what keep Sam away?  She is such a strange girl.

First thing, I reset the waterers, and have them near a furnace output to warm.  I'm telling you, the bunnies absolutely love their warm water.  They all but thank me for that.  As they will enjoy cool water in the summer.  Plus ice bottles.  One in the morning, one in the afternoon.  With a pool, or maybe two, the ducks will do well and remain cool as needed.  It's myself, actually, which as me worried.  With the shade over the house gone, this is going to be an oven... two or even three ac's or not.  I may have to get another ac, for the kitchen, a big one, and fans.  It's... gonna cost both upfront and in electricity.  I have no choice.

Oh, because a visitor was arriving, I... pushed through, got the dishes all one shot, so I could take a shower.  I'll reset them today.  Trash and recycling are still top of the list.  The counters and meat thawed, then finishing dishes so I can get another shower tomorrow.  Two shower in three days, perhaps three in five if I can get one tomorrow.  Loverly.  A call about a lawyer today.  Dubious, but it's what I have.  So tired, sore, but... want to work.

Oh, next time I have a visitor, may figure out a way to put up a hammock, outdoors, and a tarp over it.  So as to practice winter camping.  Practice close enough to home so that if I bungle, I can go in.  I think it can be done warmly, and yet lightly enough packed, or easily enough packed, so as to be functional for a day or two out?  It's a working theory, it will have to be tested.  Remember, it was that dream that brought me out here.  I... may be running late, running out of time, perhaps dying too fast now.  But, until I am dead, I will continue to plot that.  And, if I ever start, and can do it reasonably?  I will never stop... until I die.  Heck, it may be a part of how I... let everything go and just move on.  I may have no choice.  Later.

The last of the stew.

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It was truly excellent.  I had to cut the last pieces of beef.  That really tastes much better.  I like the idea of larger pieces of beef, but it doesn't work with soup.  A neighbor is planning on doing pulled pork, I believe with a chuck roast... bigger... big family.  That might be the way to go.  I am sure if I can get a pork butt to pulling doneness, I can do a beef chuck roast... even a small one.  Oh... I think he said the meat was supposed to be cooked to 201... or 221?  I'll look, but it's an internal temperature thing.

I hated watching the last of it go.  It was as good of a beef stew as I have ever made.  It was nearly as good as I have ever had.  A bit more work on thickening.  But flavor, vegetable to meat portions, and sizes (once I cut the meat down), background and main spices, all good.  I did have to add salt, but that is how I prefer it.  Oh, and adding various veggies and fats on any given serving or day was a super thing.  I will always cook the meat and gravy, along with mirepoix, then just having mushrooms, veggies, and fats to add per pot is the absolute best way to go.  Oh, and not heating the whole pot, just enough to eat, so the food isn't cooked absolutely to death.

It's strange out there.  The thermometer reads, or read, a bit lower than freezing... 30 F.  But it was melting out there.  A strange way of things.  Too slick to chase the rabbit.  But it is going into the cage to feed.  I may figure out a tripwire.  I won't hinge it on entrance, by on feeding.  So the rabbit will be fully and further into the cage.  I have an idea about how to close off the hole in the main cage, so I can transfer rabbits without escapes as well.  Not today, but... soon?  Ugh.

It's a good day.  I do have aches and pains.  Relatively mild ones.  It is mostly that I am tired, worn, exhausted.  I'd like to hit dishes, and maybe put some laundry together and take it upstairs... and do a bit of cleaning, getting trash and recycling out... to clear counters, prep for dishes, and get more meat thawing.  Pork, a roast again I think, to be cooked to pulled pork portions... some for soup, some for this, some for that.  I may need a nap before long though too.

Later.

A very good sleep.

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Warm, almost too warm.  Had to open up the blankets, kick my feet out, both, and more once in a while.  Mostly as I started the waking trajectory.  Sassy sleeps with me, pretty much, every night.  I wake through the night and itch her back, shoulders, and else for just a bit, then go on back to sleep.  Sam doesn't visit anymore.  Not sure... what that is all about.  Then again, Sam has me to herself, mostly, downstairs.  Do cats make deals?  Sure seem to have.

Some aches.  I have been slightly more active.  But very mild aches.  I may take anacin, as I have only had one actual dose, for all my chatter on the topic, in the last week, perhaps two weeks.  When I say "I'm gonna", "I will", "I should", even sometimes "I have"?  Well, it's not always so much how it ends up.  Or was.  Still, I don't mind once or twice a week.

I made a small pot of soup last night.  Turned out fantastic.  I don't know how that is possible, but I'll take it.  Some things get better with time, this was one of those things.  I have just enough for one last batch of soup today, and I am going to enjoy it.  Laundry, the last load, is getting a warming fluff first thing.  I'll hit the dishes, pull them so as to shower... trim my whiskers first, then reset the dishes after I finish.  Trash and recycling are the major domestics for today.

If I can get out, today or tomorrow, perhaps a very small little bit of shopping.  More veggies for more stews.  I think a pork stew would be good.  And, so, pork hocks, chicken feet, honeycomb tripe, and maybe various meat bones too?  Oh, and I really need to begin making more bone stock.  This time I'd like to make chicken and beef.  I really don't want to make pork broth.  I'll tell you, if you want a cup of good, a cup of that... chicken, beef, even pork, you will get what you desire.  

And, as for soups and stews, you honestly can't beat this stuff.  Does it heal gut leak?  Shut up with that metro soy shit.  It just returns things your body burns through and very little of the modern diet replaces.  And there is a taste, once you get trained to?  Your body knows what is good for it, when you quit sugar and else.  It knows this stuff is golden.  Curative?  You were born dying, get used to it.  It's a one-way street.  But you... don't have to cooperate with it.  Neither full on hedonisms, nor pure austerity, will save you.  This isn't a mix, and it won't save you either.  It will just allow you to live a little more... of a reasoned little life.

Yes, I opened it back up.  Why?  Because.  I said so?  I did so.  Oh well.  Though I don't if any will return, so...  no problem.  Later.

Bits. Pieces.

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The waterers are still flowing.  And they are drinking.  Last I checked, it was about 20 F out there, a bit cooler today.  It's been a few hours though... three?  While out there, I thought to try to get the rabbits which are out.  No dice.  Too slick.  Recent snow, meltyish weather, etc.  So?  So I put food in an open cage, adding a waterer.  There is some hope that the comforts of home will snare one or both.  Though, to be honest, I am only seeing one rabbit.  At least it is the one I want.

I watered the ducks, a bit, after filling the five gallon bucket.  I use that to water the cats, and refill the waterers later, so usually get two of those.  As mentioned, house water is softened, so not the best for drinking.  I have reverse osmosis for myself, but the flow is too low for the girls and myself.  I feel better about having them drink fresh water, unsoftened.

Oh, both girls got my flu/cold/china flu.  Both of them were sneezing.  Both of them got over it a few days after I did.  Though Sassy has started sneezing again, if much more lightly.  Part of the reason I believe it was china flu, not just the flu.  I have never passed illness to the girls before.  Or any other pet I can remember.  WMD indeed.

Dishes are still sitting, but they many of them are soaking.  I haven't messed with laundry, or anything else.  I am hoping to do more.  It is a good day.  Rested, if a bit slow and tired... just not the worst.  No real aches or pains.  I am hoping to get a second wind, and really dig in a bit this afternoon.  I'd love to get the counters cleared... as much for dishes later, cooking, and getting meat out of the freezer, as well as tending laundry, and maybe some work upstairs in my sleeping area.  A slow policing, cleaning, etc.  The vacuum needs to go up, a clean mattress needs to be brought out, and eventually the carpet cleaner needs to go up... steam vac type.  Ugh.

I think with the old mattress... it is still good, just needs airing out... I'll figure out some place to let it air out, then put it to doing so, then put it back in the bag the new one came from.  And, then, just cycle them until I really do need a new mattress.  I am also looking at alternatives for the base mattress I am using.  Yep, two levels.  In part because I weigh so much.  What a hundred pound man can sleep comfortably upon, I need three times as much padding.  I'm not that much taller or generally bigger... body footprint size.  But that body footprint is much denser.  I am thinking of an air mattress... used for camping, but thicker, with a better r value (in part as prep for actual winter camping?).  Theories.  Though, if I lose my home, it wouldn't be bad to have some thing else to... help with life.

Anyway... enough for now.  Oh, I have seen a few vids, on how to make even cream cheese?  It seems simple, but is it?  As well, keto and other notions on food which cause me to consider, or reconsider, some things.  I'll share them before long.  Good day.

A bit, and more yet.

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Cleaning the sinks out, in the kitchen, was a task that was done because it was... a nexus task.  Things next to it, in it, on it, and around it, couldn't be done until it was done.  Yea, it was bad.  It looks good, but, if I can keep going and clean around it more fully, it will get a scalding cleaning.  Still, it is done, and it is better.  Trash is the next primary task, if dishes and laundry have been set in play.  Laundry may be done?  I'll check.  But dishes?  If I can push through what is soaking, and hit the last, probably, ten pieces yet to be soaked?  I could get that done, probably, by tomorrow.

With the trash will go recycling.  Which will open up for counter cleaning.  Then I can do counters and the stove top.  I really need to hit the oven sometime.  Yea, it's bad.  Bit by bit, I am moving a bit faster.

The rabbits and ducks were tended a bit late, but not too terribly late.  And, this time, I will be checking their water every few hours.  I am quite worried about them not drinking.  Though, sometimes... they just don't drink, or eat, much.  Why?  Got me.  I've seen it just in my short custodial efforts.  It does cause concern.  As well, I am hoping to figure out the rabbits which are out.  Their food keeps disappearing, so I am hopeful they are still around.  I rarely lay eyes on them, but then again, I don't mess with the tarp under which they would mostly likely be hiding.  I don't want to disturb them until I can go for them.

Today, it is hoped, I will block the escape path, then capture one or both.  Putting two bucks in the remaining cages, or figuring something else out.  Perhaps putting them all out in the other outbuilding and doing any repairs required.  I am hoping it will be minor repairs.  I have extra caging from which to gather materials.  Tin snips will do for the taking, and bailing wire for connecting... if I do have a few other materials as well.

I can't seem to stay away from the kefir.  Perhaps six to eight ounces, every other day, but that still takes it down pretty fast.  Especially if I have two on a particular day.  I have tried it with the frozen berries plain, and with a touch of liquid keto sweetener.  I must admit, with berries?  I prefer just a wee of sweetener.  If plain, I like it just plain.  That tease of sweetness, with the berries, then failure... is too much.  Though, sometimes, I will do it that way too.

As well, I had malt o'meal today.  With just, say, four strawberries?  That offered all the flavor necessary.  I usually sweeten that with the granular sugar replacement and a few drops of the liquid I use.  Oh, that truly is tops.  I keep meaning to add butter, salt, pepper, and other savory items... even peperoni, perhaps diced or sliced or else.  Sausage, burger, or pulled pork or chicken?  It takes me a year or two to go through a box, so I just don't worry.  It is a very filling, warming, breakfast.

Well, I best get going.  Looks like I might have daytime back.  Who knows.  It's a bit tough, but not even close to brutal.  Good morning, afternoon for some of you, day, and maybe even night for a few of you... literally or virtually.  Later.

Up and at it.

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I can't be sure when I went to bed.  It was pretty much immediately after the last post, which is showing a 19:00 posting time.  I don't know if that is correct.  They move everything, depending on which servers they are using for me to post.  If it's an Australian, or some other, then the time stamp is a little to a lot off?  I know I can't always see videos because my connection is through a foreign nation, one which the US doesn't allow videos to be seen through on copy rights grounds.  The internet is screwed, to be honest.

Pee bottles drained.  I could only get two of the three from yesterday, down and cleaned.  So tired.  Today I got the one from last night and the one from yesterday down and scrubbed.  Oh yes, I keep those clean enough to literally eat out of... if I'd do more testing before actually even thinking of that.  Still, the notion stands... if only, hopefully, ever, in theory.

It was 03:00 as I started writing.  Probably wasn't up a whole lot before that.  I gave the girls treats this morning.  From the stash.  I have a small container of treats for later, as well, kept on my person.  Think about having to hide animal treats!  I could see, maybe, the girls getting into the treats, somehow.  Perhaps there is enough air, that they can stop the bag and that might open the seal.  But resealing it?  Even if they could, they would have zero interest in doing such a thing.  As they say, at that point... the cat would be out of the bag.  No, this is human intervention... and not mine... assuming I am human... which I don't.  But I DO have apposable thumbs!  Makes it at least in the comparative ballpark.

I am hoping to get the runaway(s) today.  And change their cage(s).  I need to find something to make it so the remaining rabbits won't bolt that hole, too.  I may put them out in the shed, so I can flip and fix this cage.  And check the other cages in the line unit.  I think I can, I think I can.  As well, phone calls, more dishes, the stove top and trash, and checking the last of the laundry.  Not sure I have enough wool items for a final load, or if that will have to wait.  Ugh...

Oh, and soup again today.  Actually, stew.  I will add thickener.  And?  Right, I will be using a thick steel pot, not the cast dutch oven.  The cast is good for the initial making, so as to have it all in one big pot.  But it doesn't do well for heating back up the stuff.  Steel pots are perfect.  I am curious about aluminum, but also dubious.  Aluminum is poisonous.  I just... I'm not sure.  Their are cultures which swear by them.  But if you look at those cultures, both their methods and means are highly dubious.  When all your people are tiny, and slightly retarded?  I... don't think emulation is... the best idea.

As to soups and stews?  We have been there before, and it looks like we are going back.  I can't afford, often, whole cuts of meat.  I can only imagine families in which one or both parents... assuming there are two... are out of work.  I have no idea how well people were getting by even before that.  The world had already gone downhill by a lot.  Even for me.  Before they stole ssd, for the illegals, the difference between interest earned and real inflation on food, gas, and else, made life smaller and smaller.  Middle class is what I was.  And that left almost no breathing room.  Now?  Now I just keep in toilet paper, food, and animal supplies.  There isn't... much left over.

Yea, I don't know how people are doing it.  Even one family of several I know, with two parents, jobs around and among some of the older children, it's... tight.  People are just holding on, and living.  Hoping nothing else crashes.  But... it has to crash.  An economy can't run on nothing.  It won't run on nothing.  Everything you are seeing with the economy is based on a future that doesn't look likely.  We'll see, but it... could get ugly, fast.  Will, probably.

I didn't think I was going to make it.

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Shortly after posting, I began to wonder.  As a fish on a bank, I was gasping.  Not for air, for consciousness.  The meal might have done it, but I think I was crashing before the meal.  Many nods later, I am still awake.  I took care of chores, shut that all down.  Oh, but I need to feed the girls.  And take their treats upstairs with me.  Someone is definitely getting into my home.  One of the things they do is give the girls many treats.

I have noticed that for some time.  I assume whoever is entering, is a bit dimwitted.  They don't realize cat treats should be just that, a few bits perhaps twice a day.  It is like candy bars to us.  And they have no means of remembering how much they hand out.  The bag was half full last time I treated the girls a few days ago.  Sleep has been off, so I miss some things (and don't mind, for this).  Today, when I went to get some out, it was less than a fifth remaining.

I only specifically noticed, because I was becoming suspicious that was happening, so started watching it more carefully.  Of course, right as soon as I stopped watching, it would happen again... until this time.  This time I was paying very close attention when the loss occurred.  I don't know what all they are doing.  Just... looking for things to steal?  Goofing with my playstation or computer?  I just can't be sure.  But there is someone breaking and entering while I sleep.  I will hide the treats well, from now on.  If that fails, I will stop having treats.  They are rather expensive, especially with someone using a bag a week, or more... a bag which should last a month.

Time for bed.  I did put the last load in the dryer, set up some dishes, reset Sam's hideyway, plus had food and a shower.  Another shower tomorrow, if I can work my way through... and a phone call.  Plus, perhaps, some practice with new software required soon... for business.  So very tired.  I will sleep well.  Hopefully not waking early from sleeping so hard?  Or from the shifting schedule?  Ugh.  Good evening and night.

Ah, finally.

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Not a lot.  But a second load of laundry in, after a shower.  Oh, and a spot of dishes going.  I cooked spaghetti and meat sauce earlier, and it will be my meal for the day.  Absolutely not keto.  Absolutely necessary once in a while.  Tomorrow stew, the day after taco salad, then I have to begin fresh with something else.  I'm thinking pulled pork, again, some of which will be used for stew, some for other things.

Which means I best get another pot or two of beef stock thawing.  And... I should begin planning my next stock production.  Though, this time, I'd like to make both beef and chicken.  Not together, mind you.  Though I will be adding pork hocks, potentially to both.  Those really add the gelatin and a few other things.  As well as chicken feet, if I can find them reasonably, if just for the chicken stock.  I might even add tripe, at least to the beef.  If with intentions of eating that, after it is cooked well enough for my liking.

I looked for alternatives to hominy.  Chickpeas, I was told.  Well, okay, that might make a perfectly fine replacement... in a non-keto diet.  But it has more carbs per cup than the hominy, which is pretty heady that way as is.  So... I'll keep looking.  But everything else can go in, for menudo.  A hot fat-meat based soup, with pork hocks, usually menudo, and some other stuff, often topped with a bit of onion and cheese, and can be made mild to stratospherically hot.  I like it medium, if my medium might make you pass out.  I just used scotch bonnet in my spaghetti sauce and can barely taste it, with chipotle as a backer.

It looks like I'll be waiting until the evening, after final chores, to go on to bed.  No nap.  I should go check the waterers.  It reads about 20 F out there, so below freezing but not terribly.  Still, I want them to drink.  Especially after the disastrous day for drinking yesterday.  A good number of good days before that, but...  One really bad day, and hard weather?  I don't want them dying.  I don't even want them stressed.  It's just, there are limits to what I can do.

Later.

Doing fairly well.

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I can't remember when I woke.  Sleep was good.  Waking was good.  A few aches and pains.  I did take aspirin... anacin... today.  Then again, all those recent times I suggested I would take it?  Never happened.  Couldn't find them.  Found them!  Actually, tylenol (generic) works okay, often.  But, with heart issues, I won't use it as my primary.  It seems to work on what anacin works on... same sorts of pains.  Ibuprofen works on different pains and aches.  I haven't actually quite identified which is which yet.  In time, maybe.

The rabbits were fed and watered, ducks released.  I looked over the cage, with the missing bunnies.  It... has a hole in it too.  *sigh*.  Underneath.  The other two males are quite happy to stay inside.  I'll have to find a cage that isn't a problem, until I can fix that one.  Ugh.  Though, how to get the remaining rabbits out without them bolting down out the hole in the floor?  I'm sure I could use something to block that?  I'll... look around and look it over.

Laundry started.  A shower shortly.  Maybe a nap first or after?

So strange, having only one visitor... I think?  Six views today, three yesterday.  Pretty much what I thought was real.  Maybe a bit high.  Though... there... were other readers.  I just never could tell how many real readers.  Some indication people from as far as Salt Lake City read here, medical too, and some locals.  But the real numbers always eluded me.  Some, many, were hidden... not showing up, yet knowing things only written here.  I just... It was strange.  This is definitely quieter of mind.  I think some still have... access... somehow.  But it's not the same.

The water pills are acting strangely.  They won't work, won't work, won't work, then last night I dropped seven liters while trying to sleep, two liters right before, and several shortly after.  My ankles were swelling, now look slim... normal.  I might have to take two, I have been trying just one, but that... isn't working.  Thirsty as a devil, for sure.  Which means I will drink too much, then need to take more water pill... I'll... try two.  For now.

Sleep cycles are slipping.

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I can't remember when I went to bed, or woke, for the last few days.  Only, I know any semblance of pattern is lost.  Down three hours, up five or fifteen, then down sixteen, up eight.  No control, at the moment.  I have a few goals that I am, roughly, keeping... so far.  I am doing chores early, between eight and ten, say... and I am getting the ducks in and pulling waterers between 18:30 and 21:30... depending on when I am awake, and then when I am able.  It's... something.

As well, I am eating a bit better.  Stew, or taco salad, or a bowl of fruit or porridge.  I'll bet a bit of frozen fruit would go good in that.  It's not keto, but with a bit of whole whipping cream, or butter salt and pepper, and small enough portions *cough*, it will do once a week.  So warming and filling.  I need more lettuce.  And a few other things.  Not sure I have the money to shop, so... I'll make a list.  Crumble and soup makings carries me easily through a week.

I have decided I much prefer chicken stew to whole pieces of chicken.  I prefer whole beef, but that gets eaten too fast.  I'm a poor boy now.  I can't afford a third of even a small roast as a meal these days.  But, cut into small pieces, a roast which will last nearly five or six meals?  I can do that.  Still a small roast.  It's not down to nickels and dimes, it's down to pennies.

Oh, and I much prefer stew to soup.  From now on, I will add the thickener.  Now, I know how to use guar gum, very effectively.  I would next like to learn to use psyllum husk... ground and whole... mostly to see which one I think is best, and in which of the various things I wish thickened.  Something about clarity, but that isn't an issue for me.  I just want the easiest to produce, most consistent, the most unblemished, thickening agent possible.  I don't care if it's a bit cloudy.  I want no additional flavor, the best consistency... not jelly but not water... right in the middle?  Something like that.  Then, if all else equals, go by price and availability.

The local health food store has gone mask only, so I won't shop there.  Too bad, they had my favorites in several spices and vitamins.  If they merely discouraged without masks, that would be one thing.  But, no.  So be it.  I generally like to shop, mostly, online.  But sometimes I have to see what I am getting, and I won't do masks.  That's just the way of it.  Though, I think even that may be over.  We will see, but, yeah.

Another dream, but yesterday, not tonight.  I simply wasn't sure I wanted to share.  This time it was an older woman, who got away.  Oh, she has had a crush on me almost as long as I have had a crush on her.  I was a little boy the first time I met her, she fully grown, middle aged.  We... liked each other then.  I liked her more.  As I matured, she has... come to like me at least as much as I have ever... liked her.  Took her breath a time or two.  And more.  I am good at spotting... opportunities.

Nothing has come of it.  But I will always... she will always come to mind, from time to time.  Some women just get to me.  Even if we never... we sure thought about it.  We will until we die.  I love both loving her, and not having done anything about it.  It makes her a special kind of friend.  Unrequited?  I would say... even more... mutual unrequited and even a bit beyond.  Our minds have touched.  Souls?

Well, it's 02:48... after setting up the waterers, emptying the pee jars... two out of three.  I have been taking the water pill... oddly because of sleep.  It hasn't been working.  I added compression socks a few days ago.  Nothing.  Finally, tonight, seven liters while mostly sleeping, and probably another two before bed.  It all just dropped.  Now I am thirsty as a devil.  See, this is what happens, and why I end up needing three.  It all drops, I get so thirsty I drink three gallons, then the pills won't work on that, and on it goes until I achieve some balance.  Three water pills and about two to three gallons of fluids a day is usually about where it settles out.  Very tricky.

I best turn the furnace up. so the water is warm.  I slept all during the day "yesterday", only waking to put the ducks in and pull the waterers... which were frozen solid.  Little had been supped.  They had not been warmed, and I think it got a bit cooler out there.  So... this time I want to make sure the water is warm.  The little runaway rabbit is still out there.  I leave food for him, and... he knows.  I will try to catch him today.  Good morning, day, night... whatever.

A start, mostly.

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The chores have been done.  Nothing else.  I still have a rabbit to catch, not sure it is possible.  This one is tricky, fast, and there is a bit too much snow to run at any speed, for various reasons.  I can't remember if he got out last time too, or not.  Either way, this one is the most wily of the ones I have hunted.  I really need to get them separated, get the does breed, and sort a few other things out.  They are getting to old to be together.  Four culls, for the freezer or stew pot would be good.  Is that enough?  Oh, yes, if I get that other cage network arranged and in.

I am going to have to figure out how to get going.  It's a dark day, so far.  But it's a pleasant one?  By looks, for some odd reason, to me, it is.  It seems colder though, in spite of being in the mid 20's.  No, that is usually quite nice, as I see things, in the winter.  Not warm enough to melt things, which makes it wet and somehow colder... not in the teens or less, which really has started to seem cold more often as I age.  Perhaps it is just me.  I have had two dishes of soup, that should have helped with that.  Oh well.

The hamburger in the stew wasn't a bad choice.  It's not as good as beef chunks, but it will do.  I think I'll have a taco salad shortly, as a final meal.  I have enjoyed the apple sauce with frozen fruit, and kefir with fruit.  All out of the apple sauce.  I hadn't had it in a while, so it went particularly fast.  I am turning kefir as I speak.  The first half gallon had set well enough, so I strained it into a fresh half gallon jar.  Then reset that one, if adding milk to both.

I was wrong about the kefir.  It doesn't take away, it adds to the volume.  I should have known that.  It is reductive, excluding itself.  But itself, kefir grains become rather large.  I am leaving both out for a few more days.  I may just skip a week of consumption, so that I always have extra extra, not just living on the lean.  Once started, a gallon of kefir a week isn't out of reach.  I had thought about getting an extra gallon of milk for this process, but that... can really begin pushing my ability to juggle.  And I lose track.  Once you get a taste for kefir, or yogurt, especially plain?  You almost can't get enough.  The trick is affording it or juggling production.

Yea, I'll stay up a while longer.  I am hoping to go after the rabbit escapee, and to call about a lawyer.  Ugh, but time flies.  Oh, and perhaps pass an email along to another, who will be helping.  Not a lot else I can do.  Though, I really would like to try to grab the day.  If so, perhaps do work in it... start the laundry, shower, trim.  I can't do trash, today, but I will get it out this week... perhaps tomorrow.  I'll do what I can do.

No reason to write "later" anymore.  Though I am not sure there ever was a reason.  Still, it's habit.  Later. 

Still rather tired.

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Exhausted, just not quite spent?  Yea.  Like the aches and pains, it is a more minor thing.  Still, it has been handicapping me.  I am still hoping to get trash out then to the curb, recycling at least wrangled to a bag and that out, a load of laundry going, and a trim and shower.  I have had soup.  Tried the meat crumble in it.  So-so.  Nothing fancy but it does add a little meatiness to it, so not completely useless.

It is quiet, here.  I think there may have been more readers than I thought.  Still, so many... weren't... right for here.  Some were dangerous.  Not to my flesh, to other things.  People who would harm, if they could.  And, sometimes, they did.  I don't need your belief.  I know these things.  Some things are gone or damaged for good.  Had to cut the ties.  Plus, I think music was being banned because of my usage.  I do.  If that continues?  More changes.

Yes, quiet.  I really did have more viewers than I thought.

Oh, and now I can write about things I was becoming... hesitant to write about.  The game I am playing offered a few variations regarding some things I will discuss, here, when I can be awake and able enough to do.  So very tired, this whole fall to winter.  It's been a tough year.  I keep trying to dig out, but there is no shovel which works, and so little energy to use if should I find it.  Even gaming isn't doing much.

On the good side, I do, generally, run mostly whole days, most of the time.  Sleep can become excessive or diminutive, as can waking periods.  But, for the greatest part, I have a day and a night and they roughly run days or nights, if with fairly frequent flips.  Days turn into virtual nights, as I sleep them.  Then, slowly or sometimes very fast, nights become literal nights again... I sleep when it is dark.  

Having so dark of days doesn't help.  Did have some son today.  Wish I could have stayed up, and gone out in it for a bit.  I don't think, at the current angle, the sun helps all that much.  But it is very good for morale.  And, who knows, perhaps there is just a bit of something in it.  I wonder if Texas is far enough down, to get some sun benefit?  Iowa?  The only three states I have people in are here and those, and I know Iowa gets less even when it shines, due to wind?  Something.

I would love to push on to work, so that I can get a nap before sunup.  I've been doing well, lately, of somehow getting the critters fed between eight and ten in the early.  And I love doing that, for they drink healthily, if it cuts their food consumption?  It... could make sense, if common sense isn't always right.  Then again, science seems to be more fraud and wrong than correct by far.  I think I'd take common sense over the cult of academic lies and fame on almost any given day.

Later.

Awake, finally.

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I didn't set the alarm, or alarms.  I knew it wouldn't matter.  I actually did wake, about the time I would have set the alarm.  Had to pee.  Couldn't do much beyond that.  Realized how frustrating that was.  Didn't matter, went back to sleep.  Though I did finally wake just now at about 21:30.  The reason I wanted to wake was definitely to put the ducks up and secondarily to bring the rabbit waterers in.  Done and done, first thing.  I even left more food out for the rabbit out of his cage.

I feel like rot.  But mild rot.  A third of things which can hurt or ache do so, but in very mild forms.  Why should my right arm bicep hurt?  I have soup going.  Just leftover from what was made earlier.  A fresh pot of tea has been set.  A shower is anticipated.  I don't know how much I can do, but will try to do a bit more today.

I have decided to try to hit my sleeping area.  Picking things up, changing the smaller mattress, doing bedding, vacuuming, and maybe some spot cleaning from having cats.  Bleh.  The goal is to get my bedroom back into play as a clean, comfortable of body and mind, and safe place.  But, just... over the week.  Nothing fancy, no very hard work, just... bits and pieces, here and there, until it... seems enough.

I dreamed a couple of odd little ditties.  The last was of a creature, like a ferret, popping it's head up at the foot of my bed.  It did so a few times.  I had no fear, or... just thought it was cute.  Even after realizing I have no such creature as a pet.  A wild ferret?  Weasel?  I just thought it was cute.  Then realized, beyond being pitch dark, even if there was light I couldn't have seen any such thing as I hadn't lifted my head.  Well, and I wear a cap, when sleeping during the day, I can pull over my eyes.  It was still pulled over my eyes.  I still didn't care, I kept "looking", hoping to see it again.  *grins*  Hey, get a dream... even a little one,... which you enjoy, go with it.

The first dream, actually, was of a girl I knew.  I was, probably 18?  She was 12 to maybe 14.  It was before I went into the Navy.  A dream, but of a real event, and absolutely how it happened to within my memory.  Anyway, we were alone, talking.  She was telling me about having been molested.  I asked her some questions about it.  Then she said she didn't want to have sex with me.

I realized, right then, that what she meant was... she was offering me sex with her.  Oh, yes, I tell you, I knew.  I was quite tempted.  She was a pretty little thing.  But, I knew, everything about what was happening was... could, would... go sideways in a dozen ways.  Back then, there, it wasn't so much a problem... as long as you... took care of the mess.  But a mess it would be.

It was a very difficult thing to get out from under.  My want, her want, the ease.  It was an open door.  I... can't remember exactly how I figured the way out, but I did.  Not a thing of pride, but something I am grateful to have... avoided.  Oh, I liked the girl.  If that was some of my reservation.  Though, sometimes, one way or another, damned if you do, damned if you don't.  If some damnations are worldly, and even then I knew some damnations were better than others.

I ought to ask my mother whatever happened to the girl.  She might not know offhand, but she could find out with a few calls and some time.  I ought to tell her the story.  She... likes stories... with better endings, morals, and such... especially if real.  Not sure it's her thing, in real life, but for a story... especially a true one... it returns some of her shattered hope?  Maybe.  Somehow.

Oh, going to add a bit of the meat crumble to the soup.  It's a bit lean on meat.  I thought I added enough, though I probably was a bit shy when pulling from the main container?  Yea, I think so.  Still, I'd like to see if crumble will add to the soup, or just be to insubstantial.  I like playing with soups and stews.  Might well make it to gravies more and soon as well.

Yep.  Two visitors since I shut down the blog.  All good.  I am surprised there are two!  Later.

Extremely tired.

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Even so, I would like to try to make it to early evening.  To put the ducks in, pull the waterers, and else.  But I don't think I will make it.  I tried gaming, but I'm falling asleep at the wheel... sometimes virtually literally.  Computing... websurfing... just doesn't offer the imput/output required to keep me afloat.  All good.  On to bed.  I will set the alarm for late afternoon, early evening.

No, I haven't caught the second rabbit.  Oh... best put out some food for him, just in case.  I didn't have enough energy by the time it was light, and that just doesn't improve.  Tomorrow?  I can hope.  I fear for the little guy, and hope for him.  Not much else I can do but offer him feed... for now.  He did find the food I put out for him last night.  I think he was watching me from brush, or under his cage... or thereabouts.  I will put out a goodly bit.  In part, it gives him a reason to stay.

Not much else done.  But food has been good.  Soup really is good, even thin.  Though I may add thickener for the next portion.  Homecooked stew and soup is so very warming, and versatile.  If you get bored of it, add other things.  Cabbage, kale, chinese cabbage, mushrooms of many sorts, carrots, possibly apples?  There are so many things you can add.  If it isn't truly keto?  Add less.  Like, when I add potatoes, I only eat a few bite sized pieces per day.  Carrots the same.  More liquid, a bit more or less meat.  Oh, with mushrooms?  Just add them uncooked.  In the fifteen to twenty minutes it takes to heat, then the ten to fifteen to cool to proper eating temps (for me), the mushrooms are perfectly cooked as they are being ladled.  Even a potato, if cut small enough, will cook fully in that time.  Cabbage takes longer.  I'd guess turnips, rutabagas, and other root veggies will most get done in short order, if you might want to dice into bite-sized pieces.  

Oh, yes, food.  It's been so good to finally be eating regularly, well, and variably again.  And, I think for hot weather?  Make it as I have, but puree the veggies.  Not the meat.  Something tastes wrong with pureed meat.  Puree the veggies, add the meat back, cool, and perhaps add a bit of sour cream, whipping cream, even milk if you can handle the carbs.  Will have to spice it a bit stronger.  Just a working theory for now, though, in time, I may try that even this winter yet.

Good night?  Something.  Later or much later.

Oh, right... private.

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I shut it down today.  Private doesn't mean much, but it means some things.

It's just about time for chores.  I woke at an odd time, and remain awake.  I had taco salad earlier, and soup just now.  This time, without thickening, it is more like a beef soup than stew.  Even adding heavy cream doesn't push it over that line.  Kale, broccoli, celery (it was in the pack of various veggies... I hadn't noticed until digging in for the other veggies), and?  I think that was it.  I cut the fleurets down into smaller bite sized pieces.  I'd like to obtain mushrooms, while getting romaine lettuce soon.  And, perhaps, checking the keto tortillas or pseudo corn shells.

I am about to do some laundry, though I think I should do chores first.  Then a trim and a shower.  I may go on, try to take a nap, after all that.  Trash and dishes, maybe recycling?  I am nearing finishing dishes, if the kitchen is a mess.  Everywhere is a mess, actually.  Ugh.  I will keep trying.  Having food on again is quite nice.  Even just soup is good enough to warm the body quite well.  Oh, and for meat in too big of chunks?  Culinary scissors do wonders.  I wasn't sure that would work out well.  It... does.  I may even use scissors to finish that last bit of reduction with meat.  Knives just don't seem optimal for smaller bits, and I don't want to cook the beef down so much that it can be shredded.  That's too small, and too done.

I do wonder if anyone can even see this site now?  Will find out before long.  Later.

Ugh.

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Went to bed around... who knows!  Perhaps 18:30?  I had stayed up all day, and into my night.  I have been going to bed a few hours after dawn, to get fresh water out and let the ducks out.  So... I went to bed around ten hours after what has become bedtime.  I woke around midnight, but tried to stay and plug a few more hours into the sleep world.  No could do.  I couldn't even nod back, a little bit.  I suppose my body is splitting the difference, with my old schedule?

I had forgotten to put the burger up.  But, it should be fine after just a few hours.  I had just finished cooking it, and would have needed to let it cool.  I had a wonderful couple of servings of it, with romaine lettuce, and nothing else.  It was actually quite good.  I had a side dish of unsweetened apple sauce with a few raspberries... frozen initially.  Just a sprinkle.  Keto, mostly.  The berries are pushing it, maybe the applesauce as well, but being unsweetened, I don't worry so much.  Quite a good little meal.

Milk and cream arrived, so I need to reset the kefir.  I really have enjoyed that.  If I can get back on point with kefir, I may need to get another gallon of milk.  These critters eat the lactose... cow milk sugar... replacing it with a whole host of gooder little bugs... good for the gut, but tasty and dietetically sound.  Good plain, good with a few fruits, perhaps excellent with... say... fresh tomatoes and other fruits and veggies?  Just add enough for taste... a whole fresh tomato, diced, then added in small portions... with say a portion of a cucumber... could last a whole week... just one of each.

Kidneys are feeling rough.  And, last night, my legs had swollen so terribly I decided to hit reset.  I used a few of the last waterpills, holdovers in the medsets I scrounged a bit ago for backup.  I took three.  It wasn't working, until a few hours after going to bed everything dropped.  I would guess I unloaded nearly two liters in one go.  My feet and ankles are looking much better, if still not perfect.  Oh, and I cramped, in both legs, quite terribly as I voided.  There was no way to wrestle with two at once, so I forced myself to stand on them... which forced a normal... non-spasmed... alignment, which took care of the charlie horses.  Either that or I was going to fall.

I will take a few pain pills, since all I have done is talk about taking them all week.  :p  I haven't had aspirin or else for, probably, ten days?  But I talk a good game.  Procrastination, forgetfulness... and a few other vices... can be played into virtues, if done correctly?  Or... not done at all?  I dunno.  I just know, taking too much of anything is... unwise.  But, tonight, I think I will take a few.

Dishes were mostly done, and hand dried... just being allowed to airdry a bit before being put up.  The stew was put away.  The crumble will be, save a bit to heat back up for another salad.  The lettuce is going fast.  I need to replace it.  As well, try several sorts of "keto" tortillas.  I'll have to test, see if they work... will know.  If they spike insulin, they aren't keto.  Though, even if it is good keto, extreme moderation is required.

Neither fully awake, nor fully asleep.  Not sure what is going on.  Trying to get my feet moving, if more figuratively.  A bit of gaming, while I try to remember my name?  Yeah.  Later.