Still burning up.

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As I wrote, it really isn't a fever.  It's more like that feeling you get when you have worked out, perhaps in the cold, a bit too long.  Splotches of overheated skin, that runs a bit deeper than the top layers.  I don't have nausea, or muscle tightness, or other issues that would go with the flu or a cold.  I have the furnace turned down as low as I dare.  Frozen pipes just don't sound fun this time of year.

I haven't been able to get to much.  I think that my plans washed away with the rain and threat of a freeze, I just lost the wind from my sails.  I may just go take a nap.  Or not.  My body is tired, but with things left to do my mind has a difficult time settling.  Even when I choose not to take unnecessary risks, I really would rather be out.  I can't lead my life according to feelings.  It's a business, sort of, really.  And, yet, a business is based not just on risk taking, but more on risk assessment.  I do not wish to be stuck in town, or worse in a ditch, for something that has a bit more time.  I have had to learn to be patient, I have never learned to like it.  All good though.  If you liked everything, where would the fun be in that!?!

On the other side, I really need to find a way to back down.  But I can't quite do that until I get these jobs done.  I am wearing thin, but can't relax until it is finished.  So...  Still, risk assessment.  I may take a nap.  If I can.  I can get to the other stuff when I have regained my footing.  The heart does feel tired but it has been much more tired before.  I still think there was a time or dozen where I died for short periods, just because of the lack of treatment.  Odd that I didn't stay dead.  Sometimes I seemed to have fought it, others times not so much.  I just think it did happen.  Now, with some treatment, and knowledge, I don't get that close anymore.  Probably until the final time, unless I get hit by a meteor or bus or something.  But I do know that sort of sensation.  It's just much milder these days, and I have been able to work through it fairly well.

Later.