Strange dreams.

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She asked me to let her go.  I told her that I have no claim or promise from her.  It seems, to her mind, I do.  I told her I could not relinquish my want of her, or love for her as it stands, because it is real.  Wise?  What love IS wise?  There is a wisdom in love, a right love, but it mostly isn't ours to own or claim.  As a woman who is beautiful, if she lords it over others, she loses some of the content of that.  As with a man who is strong who boasts it may reduce himself to that.  The wisdom of love is something of the divine.  It can be enjoyed, or endured, just not claimed.  No, there was nothing I could do for her.  And, should I believe she might be willing, or interested, I would pursue.  I just don't see that.

Then I was at church.  Some of the women were not happy to see me.  Feminism had corrupted much.  Whispers behind my back, one of them snidely asked how vegetarianism was going for me.  It was an anti-virtue signaling marker rather than anything to do with a diet I obviously do not entertain, let alone support for others.  Then I saw some woman, partially dressed in vestments, and I through sheer presence frowned on the event and disapproved.  The corruption of Vatican II will fall or the church will dissipate.  It's not so much a choice of the church as a matter of reality.  Women cannot be priests.  Abortion is always evil.  Some things just are the way they are.  I am hated by the feminists in the church, and because of their influence, I do not go often.  I still need to begin attending some things, but not in places where feminism has been allowed to fester, or even is allowed serious say.  Don't even point fingers.

To be honest I am not sure if anything has changed.  If a great calamity still occurs, perhaps the reins are in better hands.  Time will tell.  You cannot create a fraudulent economy, then keep it going so far beyond functional truth and for so long without a major failure.  It isn't just the US, the whole world has colluded in order to keep the rich rich and the poor in place, even creating more poor so as to balance that against the extremely wealthy.  It not only won't, it can't work.  Though, as with all hard things, the sooner the better.  But those who will lose, and that is the ones in charge to now, do not wish to lose.  Then again, nobody wants to lose, even if all they get is redistribution and low-rent quota positions.  Oh, have no worries, I will lose more than most.  Just, possibly, everything.  Still, I know it has to happen.

Hmm?  Some pain pills, maybe some gaming if I can't get back to sleep right away, then sleep when it can be had again.  I have truly ripped muscle, stressed bone, and am now paying the price.  I haven't done this good in decades.  But I do need to rest.  Later.