Why bother?

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I have to push, so hard, just to wake up.  And then, when awake, I'm still not really awake.  I make plans, push to get to them.  No matter how hard I push, I usually don't get my list.  Sometimes I get an item or two.  Mostly, I don't even get that.  So rude, brutal, to be so crippled.  To try with such willpower, thought, continuous, pushing, pulling, yanking, tossing, moving, all for naught.

A week and two days, on medication.  Four or five days of extra water pills, and a few days of extra water pills in the evening.  Fluid is going.  It is time to cut the water pill though.  At least the morning pills... from five to three.  I will continue with the night pills.  

One of the good things is, I am peeing less at night.  I had worried I would never sleep, needing to go all night.  As it turns out, I only become a bit needful in the last two to five hours.  The rest of the night I sleep quite well.  Taking night pills doesn't matter all that much, other than reducing how much I end up going, as it pushes some out in the last four the five hours I am awake.

Have the medicines helped, or hurt, in any other way?  Not that I can tell.  Other than some achiness, as cavities drain and adjust, I'm not seeing any other real applications.  Legs are starting to cramp, if that is part of the water loss.  I may kick minerals up a bit... electrolytes.  As well, I may begin adding electrolytes to some of what I drink.  I need the water out, still.  And, yet, I don't want to zap all my minerals.  I have done this before.  Yes, I am taking extra potassium.  Extra extra, though not too much extra, it is hoped.

Well, on to a few things.  Hopefully.  Still so frustrated, and tired.  My hands are pins and needles, must have slept on them incorrectly that last bit.  Bleh.  Later.