Awake, for what it is worth.

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Not sure when I went to bed.  Sometime between 06:00 and 07:00, 08:00?  I just... maybe as early as 04:00?  I have no idea.  I keep trying to push through, to stay up, so as to get things done.  But neither do I get things done, stay up very long, or... much.  Sleep is totally off.  Not so much days, but any sort of schedule at all.  I push, and shove, and try, and it just doesn't matter.

The goal, if possible, is to get a shower, breakfast, and hopefully open the way a bit better... to get the recliners out.  And, later, to get boxes out.  Boxes, full and broken down.  Trash too.  For now, it will all go as I simply clear areas.  I will try to do it in an organized manner, keeping what has value, function, use.  Tossing what is not necessary, useful, or wanted.  If it has function, value, use, but I don't want it, I may try to keep it just long enough to turn it in for charity.   But not old, used up, junk.  Not even clothes.  There is such a glut of used clothes, and my size fits so few anyway.

I do need to get a shower, and do chores, plus feed and water the girls.  Well, and hit their litter.  So much to do, in so little time.  There is no way I can get it all done.

Oh, I am re-redoing kefir.  I have reordered kefir grains.  And, will be buying storebought milk shortly.  Using lightly pasteurized milk, in smaller pint or quart sized jars, so as to definitely grow grains.  As is, the grains are competing with the natural stuff in the raw milk, and not really winning.  Until I get enough, and large enough, grains, I need to go with the lightly pasteurized, hopefully non-homogenized, whole milk.  Though I have heard slightly pasteurized goat milk would work too.  Bet that would be much more expensive though.  The nice thing about goat milk is that it is naturally homogenized.  I'll... look.  On the good side, I won't need the raw milk for a couple of weeks.

Blood sugar is very high again.  I just... I must have been forgetting insulin?  Eating too much?  Eating at weird times, for my body and what it had gotten used to?  I don't know, but it is 258 fasting?  Very strange.  I am sure I have been eating less than 1k calories.  But, I have been eating that all through the day, mostly in fatted protein coffees.  Very odd.  I'll... just... get back to things as possible.  Do my best.  But when your days are flipping like a bird with a broken wing, from on high, managing things is... difficult.  At least, mostly, so far, I am maintaining pill medicines, if in a very haphazard, odd, hit and miss sort of way.  I'll... keep at it.  I honestly do my best.

Anyway... on to life.  Good... morning, afternoon, and day.