Brutal.

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Okay.  Well, this is as bad as it has gotten.  My heart, while I sleep, try to sleep, is struggling greatly.  Lungs are backfilling.  Waterpills just... aren't getting it.  Besides, the compression socks and hose keep that pretty much at bay, save in the torso.  Nothing will probably help that?  Hmm, might... consider a few... options.  Though not sure compressing the torso would work, as I am already struggling to breath.

I do have medication left over.  Old.  But it might work.  Though, as I remember, half of the doses, of the main two drugs, plus back then the waterpills and potent potassium pills, was enough to relieve symptoms.  I can go without the waterpills, for now.  And, thus, I can skip the potassium.  I have some of each on hand, just in case.

So, for now, I will try carvedilol and losartin, at half doses.  I will, then too, only use them until symptoms relent, then run just a bit longer, then back off.  Quit them, until/unless symptoms return.  That should mean these pills will last... a few more years.  It is what it is.  If I had a wife, we could go to real medical.  But, as is, I would be required to go to the V.A.  Which, I can't, because of the mask mandate.

They wanted me to join in some sort of social hour, so they could officially ignore what I, and many others, have told them for the last few years.  Can't, won't, wear the mask.  They pestered me for weeks... in texts, calls, snail mail notices.  I ignored them and hung up or otherwise dumped all communications.  I told them, not interested in chewing the fat about it.  I simply hope congress begins cutting their funds.  If they aren't serving us, for whatever reason?  If many of us refuse to go?  Cut their funds so as to only service those they help, for what that is worth at this point.  Can't be trusted before, less so now.  Shut down half the hospitals, disemploy the useless, starting with the quota hires.  I think the SC is about to get to hiring quotas.  That'll would be a very nice fix.  Especially for federal and state workers.

So, half doses.  Won't help with bp much, or pulse.  But may help with the sysmptoms, lung flooding.  We'll see.  May have to titrate up a bit, if not.  For a while.  Do what you can, as you may.  Life isn't easy.  And, if I die?  Or... when I die really?  Hadn't to happen.  And, as many say, couldn't happen to a nicer guy.  I... don't think they are serious.  What a gaff, I still enjoy.