Rough, better.

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I got some sleep.  Yesterday I tried using a packed sleeping bag as a bit of a... platform.  I was so tired, breathing so poorly, and having so many other problems, that I simply couldn't sort out the world.  It helped, but not even close to optimally.

Tonight i pulled the sleeping bag out and packed it, as a bit of a ramp, and put my pillows on it however they would fill the space better.  And, yes, it helped.  Further, I was able to get to where I could sleep somewhat comfortably.  The only real problem, other than some remaining if more minor breathing problems, was the warmth.

It was 79 up there.  That's... just... too warm.  It was a bit warm even yesterday, but there was nothing I could do about it.  And that wasn't the major problem.  Tonight I was able to get one of the ac units in the window, and get it lit.  But only after baking until I woke.  I won't be able to sleep for a while for it.  But, it should be cooler up there.

It is in the lower mid 70s down here, and 62 outside.  Summer is here.  Heck, it rained, but that only dropped it to 77.  And made it humid as heck.  Bleh.  I can't complain though.  The spring has been cool.  That it is warm, and only slightly so far, at the beginning of July, is... well... good?  If you prefer cool.  If I love the cool, even I was getting crushed under it.  I can't really win, with weather.  Though, that may have been health failiing, and weather covering for it.

I was able to sleep without being fearful of gagging to death.  My nose got clogged, I couldn't wake enough to clear them, but my lungs were working, and not filling, meaning I could still breath through my mouth.  Not preferred, but far better than choking every breath out of whatever blowhole.  Bleh.

For now I just broke some pills up, and take a few a day.  The goal is four to six, initally, halfs of the pills.  And, half a losarten in the evening.  I need to find an already opened bottled of losarten.  The one I found is still sealed, want to keep it that way.  

Oh, and my neck, the sides of it, hurt.  I have felt this when profoundly dehydrated, or when the heart is really acting up.  Pain along the arteries running up and down my neck.  A deep pain.  That has been hurting like that for weeks, off and on if mostly on.  Only varying in intensity.  Dying is a bitch, especially when it takes decades.

I don't think it is dehydration.  I have too much phlegm, and other body fluids.  Probably just the heart pounding blood through too harshly.  Doing it's best to just keep me alive.  I'm amazed the thing still works.  For good or ill, God made me... potent.  For being mostly dead, with organs which are so beyond failure that life doesn't make sense, I... am doing pretty good.  Well, maybe not lately.

I need to cool off, chill, relax, then try to get on back to bed.  Hopefully it is cooler up there, cool enough.  I should be able to run the ac a few hours before and during sleep, then shut it off.  Though, for that function, I'll want to use the other ac.  The one with a timer.  I don't need it cold, these days.  Just... cooler.

Gaming a bit?  Maybe.  Not in great shape for it.  The game is brutal.  My body wants to sleep.  I'm in a tight spot.  Though, I could do runs on levels I can get through, to build up levels and buy gear.  I do remember enough from the original two games to... win when I might not otherwise.  My tricks don't work against bosses, or even all mini-bosses.  Not even all tight areas.  But, I have a few tricks to get through some things.

As well, I've taken the last two bosses with only a few deaths.  I... suspect the game requires a certain number of deaths before it will let you through.  That is just part of the game mechanics.  It just makes it harder and harder until the game is unplayable if you escape death for too long.  It's... the schtick.

Well... on to some gaming.  Unless I think I could sleep already?  Yes, let me try that first.  I went to bed at between 16:30 and 17:00, woke at 22:30.  Heard... something.  Thought maybe Sassy was being funny.  Nope, it's the 3rd.  There were light, local, warmups for the fireworks tomorrow.  

You know?  Those heart pills are beginning to ease the neck pains.  I didn't think they would act that quickly.  And, I wasn't sure that was the problem, with certainty.  It must be.  I'll take some spiring tonight, too, as I go to bed.  I have been using aspirin more recently, for it's heart attack and stroke mitigation properties.  I don't think it will help with the sorts of pains I am getting.  All good.  On back to bed.