Awake already.

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Very early, considering bedtime.  Then again, not sure I'll stay up.  I think, from this morning, I understand groundhogs and their propensity to dive back into their hole after an initial look.  Though basing spring on that is a whole other human folly.  You... get what you pay for, I suppose.

I've been doing better, about holding pee until morning.  But last night was the first night of not going at all, until downstairs.  Still, I measured it.  A liter, just about exactly.  I do that so the stool doesn't get dirty as quickly.  Hey, it works.  Just rinse the liter and a bit thing out when you shower, or from time to time.

It is in the low 60s upstairs, 54 outside this morning, and I cam keeping the house at about 72.  This front room is cooler, though too.  I have electric heat for here, but it is so dearly expensive that I don't even think of using it.  I may begin moving the computer into the other room.  For as long as I am here.  If things get going, and I am more sure it will happen, I'll have more motivation to get going on things.

But, I will need to find a place, for a bit, between here and wherever.  Well, and while I get eye surgery.  I would like better vision before I go.  That's the only way.  I have a few more plans, as well.  And, need to get my birth cert, ss card, visa application going after I have those, and begin exploring things here and there.  Plus, shifting how I am spending, on what, and what is being held back.  All while sorting the home out.  Doable, I think.  The adrenalin rush from changing, moving, and all else should help.

If I can clear out well enough, and that they want new carpet in, might be able to get some of the rooms recarpeted before I even move.  But, just the empty rooms.  If I can clear things out well enough, fast enough.  Saves them some work when moving in.  Especially the two bedrooms, downstairs.  So they can choose what they want right away and just move right in.  And, maybe, get the bathroom in order, the second bathroom.  He may have time to help with beforehand?  We'll see.

Of course, that is if they decide to do this.  I just don't know.  If not, I'll begin doing these things anyway.  Begin trying to sell it elsewise, say next spring.  Ugh, but it's a spooky proposition.  Moving out into the wide world again.  But this house, and all it contains, is like a turtle shell.  Safe, secure, but at this point it has become me.  Time to... move on.  If I can.

 I am surprised I haven't been dreaming about it.  Often I will dream about things that disturb me.  And moving out, moving on, disturbs.  Finding a new place to stay, sorting out moving to a new country, quite... a thing.  Quite a group of things.  Strangely, at least currently, I am not all that stressed about it.  Then again, it's not imminent, or even sure.  It isn't even. really, probable yet.  Just another maybe.  As the time to go nears, if it does, then I'll get nervy?  We'll see.

Well, on with the day.  Oh, still having my blog scanned.  With over 31k views this month, and counting?  It wasn't just a consumption.  A mobile safari android out of Singapore, or so it says.  Though quite a few "other" as well.  But "other" is a common visitor, from even before.  About a quarter to half of my "normal" visitor numbers.  Just a crawler.  No one could... look.  Still, interesting.

Can't help an ego in someone who has surrendered it.  More so when I know what it is.  But, it's... interesting.  Just wondering why, I guess.  Good morning, day.