Someone toying with ideas?

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Mocking, testing, comparing, offering?  I can't be certain.  Or... just randoms.  Not even musical, mostly, this time.  Oh, something in the background I thought was interesting.  Something I... knew long before I knew of this movie.

This one?  Yes.  But... which one?  I think I have played both parts.  Catching, teaching others.  Rightly and wrongly.  Being caught, by God, in my fall, and pulled out for... thoughtful banter and contemplation.  Oh, trust me, if not directly, God has certainly... paused things, while I was dying, or while I was planning to die.  We... have talked.  If I didn't always understand it in that way.  Much as, when young, I didn't realize how slowly I really could, did, move.  Strange, the mind, our understanding of reality... rightly and incorrectly.

This next?  Never a tech jockey.  Or, not like this.  More a... metaphysical sort of... adventurer, explorer, or... such.  Sometimes I could send people on trips.  Ask and you shall receive.  People have said I have gotten them high just with my stories, ideas, involvement with them.  A trip.  I have been called that many times.

Listen to the music, in the background.  I was often that loner.  I was always looking.  Failing to find.  Finding... darkness, at times, instead of light.  I had to suffer a lot, die and die again, and again, to eventually be able to become... tranquil?  I think so.  To become tranquil enough to hear.  

He knew I was looking for Him.  Then, when I gave that up, I was looking for what would be Him, if He didn't exist.  Truth, beauty, knowledge, wisdom, and such.  I found what of it is findable here, and was consuming it, when I finally recognized that it wasn't... aspects.  It was indeed a Being.  And, strangely, as noted, a Being which desired to be consumed.  Through the Eucharist, through reading, through faith, hope, charity.  Consumed, made manifest, and such.

So, yes.  And, that was me before that movie ever existed, or was a thought.  Similar, yet different.  Odd, remembering looking.  All the white rabbits.  All of the conversations.  All of the baby steps.  All to understand things I don't know how not to understand now.  Strange how much it took to... see.  Even the simple.  If the profound still... is well beyond my paygrade... thus faith.

But these sort of made me think.  On back to some gaming, as I think more.

Still, can't tell if the AI is spitting out a theory, if someone recognizes things that match and leave it at my doorstep, or if random odds brought these to my attention.  Easy enough, for me, to see the pattern, though.  And pull them out... play with them... present them and what they cause me to consider.  Later.