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Not today, but soon?  Insurance, should be tended.  An offer on the house.  Ideas, things, goings, doings.  Nothing too absolutely fast.  Nothing too slow.  This, that, the other thing.

Exhausted.  But having a second fatted coffee.  No food.  I just... don't want to eat.  Can't eat?  Something.  Maybe tomorrow.  Maybe not.

Still, with ways, possibly, out?  I'm less stressed.  The leg wound still hurts.  In part debriding, in part the honey.  But... I... have learned to like that pain.  Not like a masochist, I just will never swing that way.  Just that, I... think the pain is helping?  Maybe.

I even looked around for a place to rent.  There are places in the $600 range.  Not all that good, but good enough for a short spell.  Short term?  I didn't see that much.  And a place allowing for a cat was also on the slimmer side.  But it was out there.

Would want to put up somewhere close.  To get my eyes done, to get the visa and other official bona fides set up here, before I go... in triplicates if possible.  The goal will be a visit to the Philippines.  Possibly on to a few other countries, just to look around.  Looking for a potential wife, but not really looking for just sex or settling.  Not expecting to find one, to be honest.  Then, on to Argentina, perhaps a few other countries in that area.  

Not so much looking for a wife in those places.  If I get there, in time, without a wife type, it will be just to find a nice little spot to settle in and eventually die.  Figuring out how to maintain some balance, eat well enough, live mildly more comfortable, and not even worry about medical.  Just... live to my time.  I can do without a problem woman, if I can find one... who will do.

I've lived willfully celibate for two decades now.  And, you know what?  It's quiet.  And women really aren't nice.  Bullies with vaginas.  I'll win that, but I don't want to have to win that.  And, I can, if required would, and certainly have, walked.  Nothing personal, I'm just not interested in fighting for everything, or anything really.  If I really would like to be the party to raising a kid, or small clan.  Lying, cheating, ornery little creatures, but... others took a kind, and solid hand to paddle, guide, teach, and love me.  I'd... like to return the favor.

Anyway... thoughts and ideas flood.  Possibility?  Probability?  Mostly unlikely.  Start to stop.  Had hoped to find a woman here.  The only ones of interest were married, but I just won't go that way anymore.  No others either showed interest, or were of interest.  So it goes.

I'm trying to stay up a bit later.  Enjoy the afternoon, even if it hurts.  Still, down to get good sleep.  It's up to 93 out there.  But that is okay too.  Later.  No, goodnight... if that won't be for a bit.  Blessings and safe journeys.  Rest well when you may.  I'll add you to my prayers.