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The grocery store was the only store which was shopped fully. Then again, the other store I shopped actually only had charcoal. It's the only place which consistently carries cowboy charcoal, the real stuff. I don't trust brickettes. Now, I had to pick up the meats first. I couldn't move fast enough, otherwise they would have closed before I was back around. It was still quite frozen when I returned home.
Everything is up. A nice supply. I bought chuck, to cook tonight. The grill has been started, I'll check it soon. The ducks are still terrified. The drake in rough shape may be dying, he can't seem to stay with the others, or doesn't want to? Their water has remained thawed, they are eating a bit more. I'll keep watch do what I can.
I was much more easily worn than I hoped would be the case. I barely got through the grocery store. Putting things up... well, it is done. I'll make a good meal, then hit it... actually I'll have to come down from it all. Food, music, gaming. I don't really have a way to do veggies, but mushrooms on the side is possible. Tin foil has it's place.
Good night.
Monday, December 3, 2018
About to get to it.
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First, readied for a shower. Some clothes put back there. Then a call, seeking hydrated lime (Lyme, lyhme, some such). Wow. I called... many places. Only one offering, and even they didn't have it on hand, but in Wednesday. Only offered in fifty pound bags. All good, the stuff doesn't go bad. I was a bit worried about price. At the big boxes, they were $26 ish plus $15 ish shipping or more. One farm supply offered it for $16, but $45 ish shipping. Really? Here it was $16 and change, with shipping, handling, and taxes? Really? Finally, if there is a reason I have held off.
Now to shower and shave. I have the list of items, most likely from three different stores. Not all to necessarily be shopped today. Not all stores, or items at each store. Pricing, probably only two stores, then dinner, and picking up meats on the return. Should work out. The main goal is to buy all I will be getting this month at the stores I will visiting, so when I pick up the lime, I will only have one store else to hit. Ugh.
I'd best get going. Time, to shop at even two stores, eat somewhere, and pick up meats, has gotten tight. Later.
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First, readied for a shower. Some clothes put back there. Then a call, seeking hydrated lime (Lyme, lyhme, some such). Wow. I called... many places. Only one offering, and even they didn't have it on hand, but in Wednesday. Only offered in fifty pound bags. All good, the stuff doesn't go bad. I was a bit worried about price. At the big boxes, they were $26 ish plus $15 ish shipping or more. One farm supply offered it for $16, but $45 ish shipping. Really? Here it was $16 and change, with shipping, handling, and taxes? Really? Finally, if there is a reason I have held off.
Now to shower and shave. I have the list of items, most likely from three different stores. Not all to necessarily be shopped today. Not all stores, or items at each store. Pricing, probably only two stores, then dinner, and picking up meats on the return. Should work out. The main goal is to buy all I will be getting this month at the stores I will visiting, so when I pick up the lime, I will only have one store else to hit. Ugh.
I'd best get going. Time, to shop at even two stores, eat somewhere, and pick up meats, has gotten tight. Later.
A start.
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First, trash and recycling together and out. In time? I don't know. I knew it needed to go last night, just couldn't get to it. As well, cat litter was changed out. Then a very light bit of shoveling... the front sidewalk. I put out the bit of salt remaining. I really need more, for rare events... delivery or known guest appearances. I do my best. I usually don't need it. Though sometimes the driveway really requires it, and I try to avoid letting it get to the point of need.
I had to come in and warm up. It's 26° F, you'd think it was cold out there! I must just be getting old. Just my hands, but still. After warming, I checked the ducks. They are really off their feed, not eating a sixteen ounce cup of their feed per day. They are down two, but they had been eating three of those a day with seven of them. The severely wounded drake seems to be doing better, but may be permanently lame. I may have to put him down. Unfair as that seems, if he otherwise makes it back to health. But it also has to do with hens to drakes. He has become the odd drake out. I... just don't know.
A warm fatted tea. Then some gaming. A shower, perhaps shave, then work. Food before long, as I pick up meats, perhaps do other shopping. Cabbage, cauliflower, butter, maybe eggs as I never got to storing them. Charcoal, cat litter, salt... all today? Maybe. Ugh. I'll be thawing steaks, chops, and burger hopefully for tomorrow. I'd like to make cauliflower 'mashed potatoes', see if that works. I am hoping steaming them, then using a hand squeeze ricer, will do. I hate machines, to be honest.
I may go to non-stick. Am going, certainly. It's a matter of time by cost. I have tried seasoning stainless and cast iron. It takes so much effort, and still fails. They block up dishes, thus cooking, so aren't worth the effort. It's just too much, and already, for a bachelor, to try to keep up. I'll keep the others, for a while. Some of it still has uses, sauces and some meats, mushrooms. Just not eggs, or anything without a lot of fat/oil.
On to a bit of gaming. The furnace is up, to help encourage activity. BP was back a bit lower to 137/99 pulse 77, blood sugar creeps higher, if fast food will do that but is what I have and is better than nothing, for me, for now. Fixing that. So hungry for better. Have to admit surprise at how deeply and well McDonald's has cleaned up. Their burgers no longer smell of death. Their fries though... if they would bring back tallow/lard mix. They have to know those are truly healthier, and that harming your customer base is not just evil, it is foolish... unless, as with much modern "American" corporate, a hate of America and Americans is their way, harming us is their intention? Really. If I know, they should. At least they taste... crisp, clean. Still...
Later.
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First, trash and recycling together and out. In time? I don't know. I knew it needed to go last night, just couldn't get to it. As well, cat litter was changed out. Then a very light bit of shoveling... the front sidewalk. I put out the bit of salt remaining. I really need more, for rare events... delivery or known guest appearances. I do my best. I usually don't need it. Though sometimes the driveway really requires it, and I try to avoid letting it get to the point of need.
I had to come in and warm up. It's 26° F, you'd think it was cold out there! I must just be getting old. Just my hands, but still. After warming, I checked the ducks. They are really off their feed, not eating a sixteen ounce cup of their feed per day. They are down two, but they had been eating three of those a day with seven of them. The severely wounded drake seems to be doing better, but may be permanently lame. I may have to put him down. Unfair as that seems, if he otherwise makes it back to health. But it also has to do with hens to drakes. He has become the odd drake out. I... just don't know.
A warm fatted tea. Then some gaming. A shower, perhaps shave, then work. Food before long, as I pick up meats, perhaps do other shopping. Cabbage, cauliflower, butter, maybe eggs as I never got to storing them. Charcoal, cat litter, salt... all today? Maybe. Ugh. I'll be thawing steaks, chops, and burger hopefully for tomorrow. I'd like to make cauliflower 'mashed potatoes', see if that works. I am hoping steaming them, then using a hand squeeze ricer, will do. I hate machines, to be honest.
I may go to non-stick. Am going, certainly. It's a matter of time by cost. I have tried seasoning stainless and cast iron. It takes so much effort, and still fails. They block up dishes, thus cooking, so aren't worth the effort. It's just too much, and already, for a bachelor, to try to keep up. I'll keep the others, for a while. Some of it still has uses, sauces and some meats, mushrooms. Just not eggs, or anything without a lot of fat/oil.
On to a bit of gaming. The furnace is up, to help encourage activity. BP was back a bit lower to 137/99 pulse 77, blood sugar creeps higher, if fast food will do that but is what I have and is better than nothing, for me, for now. Fixing that. So hungry for better. Have to admit surprise at how deeply and well McDonald's has cleaned up. Their burgers no longer smell of death. Their fries though... if they would bring back tallow/lard mix. They have to know those are truly healthier, and that harming your customer base is not just evil, it is foolish... unless, as with much modern "American" corporate, a hate of America and Americans is their way, harming us is their intention? Really. If I know, they should. At least they taste... crisp, clean. Still...
Later.
Sunday, December 2, 2018
It was back.
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When I got out this morning I couldn't find the hen, the one which had been alive last night. The drake had limped his way to the water, but it was frozen. Not deeply, but his feeble state didn't allow him to break through. I decided to risk putting him in with the others, which worked out. Fresh water and food for them. It is going to be difficult to keep up on that, in there. It is the way of things.
After, I checked the preferred thermometer outside. The reading suggested just below freezing, but it seemed much colder. In looking I found the other hen. She wasn't warm, but not frozen yet either. The dog had killed her a few hours before I got out. They freeze pretty quickly. The dog had also eaten some of the hen it had killed yesterday. Why it didn't also kill the drake I can't say. While the drake was mobile, it was at a crooked limp speed... couldn't have escaped.
I doubt if he will make it. The others look okay, if that doesn't really mean anything.
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When I got out this morning I couldn't find the hen, the one which had been alive last night. The drake had limped his way to the water, but it was frozen. Not deeply, but his feeble state didn't allow him to break through. I decided to risk putting him in with the others, which worked out. Fresh water and food for them. It is going to be difficult to keep up on that, in there. It is the way of things.
After, I checked the preferred thermometer outside. The reading suggested just below freezing, but it seemed much colder. In looking I found the other hen. She wasn't warm, but not frozen yet either. The dog had killed her a few hours before I got out. They freeze pretty quickly. The dog had also eaten some of the hen it had killed yesterday. Why it didn't also kill the drake I can't say. While the drake was mobile, it was at a crooked limp speed... couldn't have escaped.
I doubt if he will make it. The others look okay, if that doesn't really mean anything.
Bon mot?
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As it turns out, not what I thought. Two words, spoken, as I woke yesterday. I couldn't remember their meaning, near or far. Good word, literally, from French... funny intelligent phrase, after being stolen into American English at least. I had wondered if it meant good death. That would have been bon mort, perhaps... not sure if good death is a philosophy keen in the West, European or American... or yet... again? Then again maybe that is what was said. It wasn't my tongue, and my ear is lousy for French these days. I do wonder.
Why? It seems an odd term to blurt on such a day. It, either way, got me thinking about death. I just thought it would be mine, or more a runin with it. Dunno.
Three meals the last three days. Bad foods, but something. Blood sugar is 226, bp is 153/110, pulse 83 (before morning meds, I'll recheck in an hour). Not great, but I had to have calories and have no other reasonable option. One more day, two actually as the meat will be frozen tomorrow and will take a day to thaw, then I will be back to right food.
And bone broth. I ordered beef bones, and froze the chicken backs etc from the butchering. A short boil clean of the beef bones, baking all bones for an half hour to hour, then overnight in the hot tub. Yeah, it is super to have true good broth (it is stock if you add veggies). After pricing broth... making my own is seriously worth it. Mostly spared for fasting days, though good for bolstering intermittent fasting and adding nearly pure good fats by combining with cream. Plus, a natural way to replace what the waterpill dumps in way of minerals.
I'll check on my feathered friends in a bit. I'll be keeping healthy(er) in the pen, which means water now. I will also be putting water and food near the wounded, should they be alive. I'll check on them all through the day, all the living. I wish there was more I could do. As is I'll be doing good to get food and pay bills.
I did get a letter written, for social security. I think one form has been completed, with a backup copy. It may be too late, but...
More laundry, food, a shower, the ducks and cats, plus trash out today. I'll try. A bit of tea, then hot fatted tea, gaming... to wake... then to my fowl friends, in whatever state they may be. I'd love to bury the ones who die, don't think the ground will yield. Freeze until spring? It's their home.
Later.
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As it turns out, not what I thought. Two words, spoken, as I woke yesterday. I couldn't remember their meaning, near or far. Good word, literally, from French... funny intelligent phrase, after being stolen into American English at least. I had wondered if it meant good death. That would have been bon mort, perhaps... not sure if good death is a philosophy keen in the West, European or American... or yet... again? Then again maybe that is what was said. It wasn't my tongue, and my ear is lousy for French these days. I do wonder.
Why? It seems an odd term to blurt on such a day. It, either way, got me thinking about death. I just thought it would be mine, or more a runin with it. Dunno.
Three meals the last three days. Bad foods, but something. Blood sugar is 226, bp is 153/110, pulse 83 (before morning meds, I'll recheck in an hour). Not great, but I had to have calories and have no other reasonable option. One more day, two actually as the meat will be frozen tomorrow and will take a day to thaw, then I will be back to right food.
And bone broth. I ordered beef bones, and froze the chicken backs etc from the butchering. A short boil clean of the beef bones, baking all bones for an half hour to hour, then overnight in the hot tub. Yeah, it is super to have true good broth (it is stock if you add veggies). After pricing broth... making my own is seriously worth it. Mostly spared for fasting days, though good for bolstering intermittent fasting and adding nearly pure good fats by combining with cream. Plus, a natural way to replace what the waterpill dumps in way of minerals.
I'll check on my feathered friends in a bit. I'll be keeping healthy(er) in the pen, which means water now. I will also be putting water and food near the wounded, should they be alive. I'll check on them all through the day, all the living. I wish there was more I could do. As is I'll be doing good to get food and pay bills.
I did get a letter written, for social security. I think one form has been completed, with a backup copy. It may be too late, but...
More laundry, food, a shower, the ducks and cats, plus trash out today. I'll try. A bit of tea, then hot fatted tea, gaming... to wake... then to my fowl friends, in whatever state they may be. I'd love to bury the ones who die, don't think the ground will yield. Freeze until spring? It's their home.
Later.
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Saturday, December 1, 2018
The ducks have been hit.
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One is dead, one missing, for sure. Several others are listing... favoring one side or another. They were sheltering and I didn't have the heart to poke around and disturb. If I had to guess, a dog. I left the door to their hutch open. I'm not at all convinced any of them will make it. Should have fully enclosed, if between time, money, and illness, I am not sure there was any real opportunity.
If any make it, I will keep them enclosed until an enclosure can be developed. That still isn't absolutely secure, it will just be better. If none make it, I will start over, if with a different breed, in the spring. I feel bad, but this is part of the process. I just dread having to put any birds down, but will if need be. I don't shirk.
I'm going to check on them. They may not be able to go in, which... they will be in grave danger, but moving them might well be just as serious. I didn't hear a thing, though it might have happened while I ran for lunch. The house is sound resistant though too. Poor things. Later.
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As it turns out I lost one hen. Another hen and a drake are too wounded to move. Three hens and one drake took shelter in the hutch. No ducks are missing. Of the four in the hutch, at least one is wounded. While I can put animals down, I can't do medical. Actually I can't do medical on me either. I don't expect the ducks outside to make it. I left food near them. Nothing else I can do. If they are alive in a few days, and haven't, I'll move them in. I'm not sure the ducks inside will make it. Bites are bad things.
So sad for them. Alone, probably dying. At least there are two out there. I wish I could finish the enclosure. I just can't.
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One is dead, one missing, for sure. Several others are listing... favoring one side or another. They were sheltering and I didn't have the heart to poke around and disturb. If I had to guess, a dog. I left the door to their hutch open. I'm not at all convinced any of them will make it. Should have fully enclosed, if between time, money, and illness, I am not sure there was any real opportunity.
If any make it, I will keep them enclosed until an enclosure can be developed. That still isn't absolutely secure, it will just be better. If none make it, I will start over, if with a different breed, in the spring. I feel bad, but this is part of the process. I just dread having to put any birds down, but will if need be. I don't shirk.
I'm going to check on them. They may not be able to go in, which... they will be in grave danger, but moving them might well be just as serious. I didn't hear a thing, though it might have happened while I ran for lunch. The house is sound resistant though too. Poor things. Later.
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As it turns out I lost one hen. Another hen and a drake are too wounded to move. Three hens and one drake took shelter in the hutch. No ducks are missing. Of the four in the hutch, at least one is wounded. While I can put animals down, I can't do medical. Actually I can't do medical on me either. I don't expect the ducks outside to make it. I left food near them. Nothing else I can do. If they are alive in a few days, and haven't, I'll move them in. I'm not sure the ducks inside will make it. Bites are bad things.
So sad for them. Alone, probably dying. At least there are two out there. I wish I could finish the enclosure. I just can't.
Friday, November 30, 2018
The plowing is complete.
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I didn't do it. But I helped getting the chains back on. Neighbor was at it. The chains on one back tire was off completely, the other was terribly twisted, worse than being off. I brought light, and hands. As well, a couple of handwarmer packets and a few dollars for a hot cocoa or broth if he has time. It is cold out there.
He didn't think putting on chains, which required deflating tires, unwinding one, getting them on in the slush and cold, sounded like a reasonable project for 5:00 in the morning. I absolutely concurred. Even helping seemed unlikely. Yet there we were. I didn't tell him, but that is... much of life. If you can't always enjoy it, I would have like to have said, learn to bear it with heart, a smile, and humility. Yes, fake it until you make it, with the goal of not having to fake it.
Today I let him have his sour. It was mild, and not putting him off his labor. I merely acknowledged his mild grief and enjoined in his efforts with a smile of my own. He is a good man with a lot of work, failure, success, and time before him. None of that is even as it is plainly stated. Even nephilem and angel, as monks and nuns, priests, kings, and prophets, we all eventually understand how thin our greatest grace. Even our salvation is a gift. No due do we earn, only bow to accept. If this is also no beggary. Even in that the Christ covered our naked humility, if... we might earn some of that back, if we seek beautiful humility as He showed. Amen.
It was good to help, on such a dark, cold, early day. I need more salt. This slush we are getting is ridiculously nasty. I was only going between 35 and 45 when out yesterday. If I drive slow, nobody should be driving. The only reason anyone was out, save your fool truly, was they were caught out. Although I have been starving a goodly while. They salted, etc, wonderfully. But the weather was extreme. Luckily they know how to do it, ignore enviro earth firsters, and did it. Even so, there is only so much you can do. Yeah, I want salt, and a shovel. I'll go to my new hardware store soon.
A fatted hot tea, see about the drier load, then the duckles out in an hour. Later.
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I didn't do it. But I helped getting the chains back on. Neighbor was at it. The chains on one back tire was off completely, the other was terribly twisted, worse than being off. I brought light, and hands. As well, a couple of handwarmer packets and a few dollars for a hot cocoa or broth if he has time. It is cold out there.
He didn't think putting on chains, which required deflating tires, unwinding one, getting them on in the slush and cold, sounded like a reasonable project for 5:00 in the morning. I absolutely concurred. Even helping seemed unlikely. Yet there we were. I didn't tell him, but that is... much of life. If you can't always enjoy it, I would have like to have said, learn to bear it with heart, a smile, and humility. Yes, fake it until you make it, with the goal of not having to fake it.
Today I let him have his sour. It was mild, and not putting him off his labor. I merely acknowledged his mild grief and enjoined in his efforts with a smile of my own. He is a good man with a lot of work, failure, success, and time before him. None of that is even as it is plainly stated. Even nephilem and angel, as monks and nuns, priests, kings, and prophets, we all eventually understand how thin our greatest grace. Even our salvation is a gift. No due do we earn, only bow to accept. If this is also no beggary. Even in that the Christ covered our naked humility, if... we might earn some of that back, if we seek beautiful humility as He showed. Amen.
It was good to help, on such a dark, cold, early day. I need more salt. This slush we are getting is ridiculously nasty. I was only going between 35 and 45 when out yesterday. If I drive slow, nobody should be driving. The only reason anyone was out, save your fool truly, was they were caught out. Although I have been starving a goodly while. They salted, etc, wonderfully. But the weather was extreme. Luckily they know how to do it, ignore enviro earth firsters, and did it. Even so, there is only so much you can do. Yeah, I want salt, and a shovel. I'll go to my new hardware store soon.
A fatted hot tea, see about the drier load, then the duckles out in an hour. Later.
A bit of a start.
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The hope is for more today. Four loads of laundry, in various stages of undress. ;p A shower and most of a shave. The ducks out, and in, within an half hour of either margin, the first plow job, a meal, a jump-start in the bedroom, and more. A very solid showing on my first day available for work. HUP.
I went to bed right after 18:30, after getting the duckles in. My ducks, I'll name them as I wish... always liked "duckles", quacks with chuckles, just like their ograrian overseer? :) You ought to hear what I call you, humanlings! Or, well, all my names fo full breed humans, and the others. What a gas, chillun.
I woke a bit after 3:00, then wrestled with a severe charliehorse for most of the near hour since. Used to get those until Desert Cat, bless his black heart, clued me in on adding extra minerals, and a b-super complex, to my mix. I didn't believe him. But life is not about belief. Or, that is the start. Then one must find out. He told no lies, and his solution to the water pill simply worked. A good on him for knowing and sharing, a good on me for listening, suspending disbelief for the right tongue, and just doing.
If you crave, need, belief, even if true? Prepare to get stuffed. I make Saint (Doubting) Thomas seem a blind believer. After checking the holes, I'd need a psych eval, which I would perform, and a credit report. Do not think I jest. It took God fifteen years after I knew. If the devil is in the details, he is hidden there. God is even in the devil. Not even his attempts at changing that work. Heck, the best he can do is half truths. Still, I had to be sure. God took the time. Why an ogre though? Not a doubt, a curiosity.
Anyway. The charliehorse wasn't from lack of extra minerals. Probably just from the work yesterday. Well, and driving the plow takes some serious leg clunking. That was awesome, to plow finally. Again today? I'll know soon. Still need a new shovel this year, for side areas. Hopefully the charliehorse will improve or go away soon. From actual acid buildup, from working, the water pill helps get rid of that quickly, usually.
It was good to eat, if not a great meal for my condition(s). I way over-ordered, if I couldn't eat much. I will eat again today, possibly do mild shopping, depending on how everything else goes. I will just relax until duckles go out, then get to things... Though perhaps run the drier a bit, and finish the shave with a wet part? We'll see.
Good morning and day. Later.
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The hope is for more today. Four loads of laundry, in various stages of undress. ;p A shower and most of a shave. The ducks out, and in, within an half hour of either margin, the first plow job, a meal, a jump-start in the bedroom, and more. A very solid showing on my first day available for work. HUP.
I went to bed right after 18:30, after getting the duckles in. My ducks, I'll name them as I wish... always liked "duckles", quacks with chuckles, just like their ograrian overseer? :) You ought to hear what I call you, humanlings! Or, well, all my names fo full breed humans, and the others. What a gas, chillun.
I woke a bit after 3:00, then wrestled with a severe charliehorse for most of the near hour since. Used to get those until Desert Cat, bless his black heart, clued me in on adding extra minerals, and a b-super complex, to my mix. I didn't believe him. But life is not about belief. Or, that is the start. Then one must find out. He told no lies, and his solution to the water pill simply worked. A good on him for knowing and sharing, a good on me for listening, suspending disbelief for the right tongue, and just doing.
If you crave, need, belief, even if true? Prepare to get stuffed. I make Saint (Doubting) Thomas seem a blind believer. After checking the holes, I'd need a psych eval, which I would perform, and a credit report. Do not think I jest. It took God fifteen years after I knew. If the devil is in the details, he is hidden there. God is even in the devil. Not even his attempts at changing that work. Heck, the best he can do is half truths. Still, I had to be sure. God took the time. Why an ogre though? Not a doubt, a curiosity.
Anyway. The charliehorse wasn't from lack of extra minerals. Probably just from the work yesterday. Well, and driving the plow takes some serious leg clunking. That was awesome, to plow finally. Again today? I'll know soon. Still need a new shovel this year, for side areas. Hopefully the charliehorse will improve or go away soon. From actual acid buildup, from working, the water pill helps get rid of that quickly, usually.
It was good to eat, if not a great meal for my condition(s). I way over-ordered, if I couldn't eat much. I will eat again today, possibly do mild shopping, depending on how everything else goes. I will just relax until duckles go out, then get to things... Though perhaps run the drier a bit, and finish the shave with a wet part? We'll see.
Good morning and day. Later.
Thursday, November 29, 2018
Wearing out.
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Three loads through, started anyway. I showered before beginning this last load. I've been going through things in my bedroom. I'll have it in shape soon.
Snowing. Big white fluffy ice curds. The ducks are sheltering, though they were out in it earlier. I ordered meat, some. Skipped chuck and ground pork. The rest, to some smaller or slightly larger portion, is involved. Then again, a full pound of steak is less by mass than fast food.
I am looking forward to meat, anything actually. Other than fatted tea, I've had a can of veggies and one of fruit in the last four or five days? Hungry. I'll order more meat next month. Can't order in bulk, can get ahead, and more each consecutive month. It is wisdom, the wallet is simply too anemic for better preps currently.
Life is about making due, gratefully. I am not sure I succeed, but I do try.
Later. Maybe good night.
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Three loads through, started anyway. I showered before beginning this last load. I've been going through things in my bedroom. I'll have it in shape soon.
Snowing. Big white fluffy ice curds. The ducks are sheltering, though they were out in it earlier. I ordered meat, some. Skipped chuck and ground pork. The rest, to some smaller or slightly larger portion, is involved. Then again, a full pound of steak is less by mass than fast food.
I am looking forward to meat, anything actually. Other than fatted tea, I've had a can of veggies and one of fruit in the last four or five days? Hungry. I'll order more meat next month. Can't order in bulk, can get ahead, and more each consecutive month. It is wisdom, the wallet is simply too anemic for better preps currently.
Life is about making due, gratefully. I am not sure I succeed, but I do try.
Later. Maybe good night.
Snowing.
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It isn't sticking, yet. It is wet. It is cold. It was snowing at least as early as 19:XX. Not sure, exactly, :29, :39, far earlier or later in the hour. I just know the hour. It might have turned to rain, or just snowed from time to time. I expected to get on the rider this morning. Nope. All good. As frightening to head into, even walk in, it is a pretty time of the year. Everything is frosted save drives... vegetation, trees. And there is snow, a dusting. Plus light fog, just enough to pique a pretty or clever curiosity.
The ducks went out a bit ahead of plan, which is actually the goal. The stated time is the far edge, so long as it is light enough. Working with water, for some reason, was exceptionally cold. It is around 32° F. I have worked at 20° often, and as low as 12° or less. Not sure what gives, but I got it done.
A bunch of laundry is back to the laundry room, some of it sorted, a load in each machine plus one through. The toilet body is clean, more later. The electric part of the shave is done, teeth brushed, a shower planned as soon as I catch my breath and a couple of cycles have been washed. I started sorting the bedroom while at it. I could go far. I have gone far.
I'd really like food today and for the next few days. Plus, it's time to order meat. I'll see how far a couple ducks will get me, steak, burger (heavy on the fat), chuck, and them bones... for broth. Have you priced bone broth? OMG! I'll make my own. If the price is right, I'd consider a placket or two of chops and plain ground pork and lamb. I hate having no meat in the freezer, if it will break my wallet. A couple decent meals a week, it's all I ask.
BP was 130/90, pulse 81... blood sugar, was 145 fasting. Nothing fancy, if blood sugar is starting to show my diet correctly again. I really believe someone messes with my consumables. Anyway. Oh, I missed a day and a half of medicine there for a bit. I'm not certain if I missed in parts or whole. I just lost track.
Time broke. I've been back on meds, in any case, again, for the last day and an half, whole. Frustrating to lose your legs from under you, even with focus. Not sure what failed, only that I was staring right at the problem with absolute intent to prevent it and didn't. Nor, somehow, did I realize the failure until it was well finished.
A bit of a break, a shower, wet shave, more laundry, then? Order meat in there, do some paperwork, then food if I have been a good boy. Later.
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It isn't sticking, yet. It is wet. It is cold. It was snowing at least as early as 19:XX. Not sure, exactly, :29, :39, far earlier or later in the hour. I just know the hour. It might have turned to rain, or just snowed from time to time. I expected to get on the rider this morning. Nope. All good. As frightening to head into, even walk in, it is a pretty time of the year. Everything is frosted save drives... vegetation, trees. And there is snow, a dusting. Plus light fog, just enough to pique a pretty or clever curiosity.
The ducks went out a bit ahead of plan, which is actually the goal. The stated time is the far edge, so long as it is light enough. Working with water, for some reason, was exceptionally cold. It is around 32° F. I have worked at 20° often, and as low as 12° or less. Not sure what gives, but I got it done.
A bunch of laundry is back to the laundry room, some of it sorted, a load in each machine plus one through. The toilet body is clean, more later. The electric part of the shave is done, teeth brushed, a shower planned as soon as I catch my breath and a couple of cycles have been washed. I started sorting the bedroom while at it. I could go far. I have gone far.
I'd really like food today and for the next few days. Plus, it's time to order meat. I'll see how far a couple ducks will get me, steak, burger (heavy on the fat), chuck, and them bones... for broth. Have you priced bone broth? OMG! I'll make my own. If the price is right, I'd consider a placket or two of chops and plain ground pork and lamb. I hate having no meat in the freezer, if it will break my wallet. A couple decent meals a week, it's all I ask.
BP was 130/90, pulse 81... blood sugar, was 145 fasting. Nothing fancy, if blood sugar is starting to show my diet correctly again. I really believe someone messes with my consumables. Anyway. Oh, I missed a day and a half of medicine there for a bit. I'm not certain if I missed in parts or whole. I just lost track.
Time broke. I've been back on meds, in any case, again, for the last day and an half, whole. Frustrating to lose your legs from under you, even with focus. Not sure what failed, only that I was staring right at the problem with absolute intent to prevent it and didn't. Nor, somehow, did I realize the failure until it was well finished.
A bit of a break, a shower, wet shave, more laundry, then? Order meat in there, do some paperwork, then food if I have been a good boy. Later.
Wednesday, November 28, 2018
Not so well, if that isn't always the point.
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I am not feeling well, if I might be able to do more. I am about to move laundry through, after a shower and shave, then get food. I watched the ducks, bathing and having to fight for their time. I can't wait to get a larger kiddie pool for them this spring. Perhaps they can all swim at once, at least a few days a week. Still, they all get their turns.
What is wrong? I just... hit a wall. It's not pain, or much. Perhaps It's hunger... more a lack of nutrition than the sense of hunger. Food, gotta have it. I have enough cash for a few runs the next few days. The problem is being able to make the runs. Cleanliness first, but the underlying lack of energy causing all obstacles.
I keep missing medicine, or did. I am back on medicine for a day. I do my best, which doesn't seem to matter. I focus, put the meds where they can't be missed, and, yet... It's as honestly good as I can do. Perhaps I will turn the furnace up a bit more, at least occasionally.
The ducks were let out on time. The cats have been fed. A load of laundry is washed, with one dried in the drier, several loads back ready to start, and perhaps a large group to go to the washroom on my way to the shower. Hmm, yeah. I just have to clear baskets first. I'll get to it. Later.
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I am not feeling well, if I might be able to do more. I am about to move laundry through, after a shower and shave, then get food. I watched the ducks, bathing and having to fight for their time. I can't wait to get a larger kiddie pool for them this spring. Perhaps they can all swim at once, at least a few days a week. Still, they all get their turns.
What is wrong? I just... hit a wall. It's not pain, or much. Perhaps It's hunger... more a lack of nutrition than the sense of hunger. Food, gotta have it. I have enough cash for a few runs the next few days. The problem is being able to make the runs. Cleanliness first, but the underlying lack of energy causing all obstacles.
I keep missing medicine, or did. I am back on medicine for a day. I do my best, which doesn't seem to matter. I focus, put the meds where they can't be missed, and, yet... It's as honestly good as I can do. Perhaps I will turn the furnace up a bit more, at least occasionally.
The ducks were let out on time. The cats have been fed. A load of laundry is washed, with one dried in the drier, several loads back ready to start, and perhaps a large group to go to the washroom on my way to the shower. Hmm, yeah. I just have to clear baskets first. I'll get to it. Later.
Feeling great.
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In some senses it doesn't matter. I can't regulate my sleep and wake cycle at all. I am awake until I crash, then sleep until I don't, or can't. I can't function, eat, cook, clean, or else. If there weren't too many things in the way, every direction I turn, I might be able to do more.
A load is in the laundry at least. I hope to get laundry sorted right down to the last load, and a shower and shave while at it. I need to do paperwork. I... have had it on my mind. The ducks were put up at the correct time. They'll be let out rightly too. A bit late out yesterday. I do my best.
Regular food would be super. I've become picky, as much for diabetes as taste, texture. I'll get something figured out. I just can't do sardines. I used to enjoy canned oysters... no longer. Can't eat crackers anymore, which is part of it. The other part is getting used to quality home cooked, from scratch, food. It's the only way to treat diabetes without awful drugs.
I do feel good. I mean really good. I'll do what I can. Later.
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In some senses it doesn't matter. I can't regulate my sleep and wake cycle at all. I am awake until I crash, then sleep until I don't, or can't. I can't function, eat, cook, clean, or else. If there weren't too many things in the way, every direction I turn, I might be able to do more.
A load is in the laundry at least. I hope to get laundry sorted right down to the last load, and a shower and shave while at it. I need to do paperwork. I... have had it on my mind. The ducks were put up at the correct time. They'll be let out rightly too. A bit late out yesterday. I do my best.
Regular food would be super. I've become picky, as much for diabetes as taste, texture. I'll get something figured out. I just can't do sardines. I used to enjoy canned oysters... no longer. Can't eat crackers anymore, which is part of it. The other part is getting used to quality home cooked, from scratch, food. It's the only way to treat diabetes without awful drugs.
I do feel good. I mean really good. I'll do what I can. Later.
Tuesday, November 27, 2018
Turned it up.
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The furnace. Seventy is fine. Sometimes more than enough. As ill as I have been a little extra heat just seemed better. Seventy four, at least for a bit. Until I get a shower or give up on having one. I put the ducks out. Their water had only a thin layer of ice. Someone put them in last night, save one. I found her when I went out. No complaints, grateful that most had been put up.
I may take a nap, with the ducks out, and having been up since around midnight. If I can.
I called my mom yesterday. She is still pretty rough. As with me, mostly over symptoms, just worn. Her friend has it now. As suspected, they both got the flu shot. It simply doesn't matter. As mentioned, I personally get the flu more frequently when I would get the shot. If I suspect some shots are different. Do the doctors, or medical/government bureaucrats choose who gets what has a more lethal probable outcome? Yeah, I think they want some of us dead. It's in some of what is offered.
I made cheese and mac. Not so good. There is food that is something, and there is less. This was less. The last of boxes I ended up with. Done. I just didn't have anything else. I am hoping to get out today. Something something else would be good. I really am hungry.
Later, one way or another.
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The furnace. Seventy is fine. Sometimes more than enough. As ill as I have been a little extra heat just seemed better. Seventy four, at least for a bit. Until I get a shower or give up on having one. I put the ducks out. Their water had only a thin layer of ice. Someone put them in last night, save one. I found her when I went out. No complaints, grateful that most had been put up.
I may take a nap, with the ducks out, and having been up since around midnight. If I can.
I called my mom yesterday. She is still pretty rough. As with me, mostly over symptoms, just worn. Her friend has it now. As suspected, they both got the flu shot. It simply doesn't matter. As mentioned, I personally get the flu more frequently when I would get the shot. If I suspect some shots are different. Do the doctors, or medical/government bureaucrats choose who gets what has a more lethal probable outcome? Yeah, I think they want some of us dead. It's in some of what is offered.
I made cheese and mac. Not so good. There is food that is something, and there is less. This was less. The last of boxes I ended up with. Done. I just didn't have anything else. I am hoping to get out today. Something something else would be good. I really am hungry.
Later, one way or another.
Monday, November 26, 2018
Feeling well, still rather tired.
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I'll gladly take being a bit worn over any of the rest of it. Food would be good, but my stomach and taste buds will be particularly fussy. I'll have to eat what will stay and get past the filters. The roast was okay, a small one eaten over three days. It was a bit hard though, often sitting on my stomach like a cold hard heavy rock. I need... want... beef, but I need more with it. Potato, gravy, good fresh vegetables, maybe a salad. I'm not seeing that anywhere affordable, so just a fast food stop.
It is around freezing out there. Was about that this morning. But the sun is up, out. It's nice enough I decided to go check on the ducks. They just aren't peopleized. But that is fine. I may check on soy free feed next month. I have a couple of months feed. By the time I need more I want them on the new feed, so as to go right into laying on the right feed. Assuming I can afford it. It probably isn't... the most economical. Perhaps start to stop as is. But that isn't always the absolute point.
A shower before long. I hope. I don't expect to make it to town today. Missed medication all of yesterday, but restarted today. I was a bit more shot yesterday, even today, than I thought. Better, just quite drained. I suppose fatted tea will be something. Perhaps along with almonds, or macadamian nuts. Plenty of fat, some solids too. Eat, shower, shave, nap?
Later.
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I'll gladly take being a bit worn over any of the rest of it. Food would be good, but my stomach and taste buds will be particularly fussy. I'll have to eat what will stay and get past the filters. The roast was okay, a small one eaten over three days. It was a bit hard though, often sitting on my stomach like a cold hard heavy rock. I need... want... beef, but I need more with it. Potato, gravy, good fresh vegetables, maybe a salad. I'm not seeing that anywhere affordable, so just a fast food stop.
It is around freezing out there. Was about that this morning. But the sun is up, out. It's nice enough I decided to go check on the ducks. They just aren't peopleized. But that is fine. I may check on soy free feed next month. I have a couple of months feed. By the time I need more I want them on the new feed, so as to go right into laying on the right feed. Assuming I can afford it. It probably isn't... the most economical. Perhaps start to stop as is. But that isn't always the absolute point.
A shower before long. I hope. I don't expect to make it to town today. Missed medication all of yesterday, but restarted today. I was a bit more shot yesterday, even today, than I thought. Better, just quite drained. I suppose fatted tea will be something. Perhaps along with almonds, or macadamian nuts. Plenty of fat, some solids too. Eat, shower, shave, nap?
Later.
I thought I would be back up earlier.
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The last bunch of sleep cycles were between four and six hours, wake and sleep cycles. I think this one was about twelve hours, for no good reason. The ducks were fine, just waiting to be let in. The girls slept with me until, from what I can tell, a few hours before actually getting out of bed. I woke several times, tried to shake sleep off, couldn't. The ducks are on my mind even if I can't get to them.
I had hoped to wake earlier, so as to get cleaned up and to town for food. It isn't perfect, but it would be something. I just can't cook. I need food, to feed up. Right now, bad calories beats none by a country mile. I have the chuck, but even that is rich. I fear a return to stomach issues.
Still, it is what I have at the moment. Something is probably better than nothing. Potatoes, or rice, would help. I just don't have those on hand. The veggies left just... hmm, canned peas... I'll be getting rid of the green beans of various sorts. They taste wrong. Fishy. But beef and peas might work. Yeah, that is something.
The fever returns, lightly, sometimes when I sleep. Very minor aches and pains to, if randomly awake or asleep. I suspect food would help. Crazy thing is, I haven't lost much, weighing in at 261 (with pj's).
The goal is to shower, then get in sometime. Get in at least for a meal, perhaps for shopping. Ugh. Later.
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The last bunch of sleep cycles were between four and six hours, wake and sleep cycles. I think this one was about twelve hours, for no good reason. The ducks were fine, just waiting to be let in. The girls slept with me until, from what I can tell, a few hours before actually getting out of bed. I woke several times, tried to shake sleep off, couldn't. The ducks are on my mind even if I can't get to them.
I had hoped to wake earlier, so as to get cleaned up and to town for food. It isn't perfect, but it would be something. I just can't cook. I need food, to feed up. Right now, bad calories beats none by a country mile. I have the chuck, but even that is rich. I fear a return to stomach issues.
Still, it is what I have at the moment. Something is probably better than nothing. Potatoes, or rice, would help. I just don't have those on hand. The veggies left just... hmm, canned peas... I'll be getting rid of the green beans of various sorts. They taste wrong. Fishy. But beef and peas might work. Yeah, that is something.
The fever returns, lightly, sometimes when I sleep. Very minor aches and pains to, if randomly awake or asleep. I suspect food would help. Crazy thing is, I haven't lost much, weighing in at 261 (with pj's).
The goal is to shower, then get in sometime. Get in at least for a meal, perhaps for shopping. Ugh. Later.
Sunday, November 25, 2018
Can't complain.
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Still weak, easily tire. The exhaustion goes so deep that a deep breath can tire. Just breathing is wearing. Food, and pushing, over time, will get me back in shape. My organs, bones, and joints are good, fever is gone, my stomach on down is mild. There are very mild issues, for which I will take aspirin... just as an abundance of caution and for being tired of being sore. Couldn't take it as planned, doubted it would be in the system long enough.
I am a bit surprised to be awake already. Down right around 7:00, awake at just prior to noon. Sleep was perfect. I was going in a bit overtired, which was a good thing this time. Sam enjoyed piling in, sleeping right until I woke. Not sure why Sassy didn't, but her name... was earned. I love her for it, if I always worry about the princess. Twerp. ;)
Beef was good, but I am not ready for more. I'd like to try a gravy, using almond or coconut flour and xanthan or guar gum. I'm not sure I am ready to be on my feet for that long, but I can review ideas. Ugh. For as good as it is, comparatively, it is still rough, limited. Either way, I am grateful, for the challenges, reprieve, and whatever comes next.
A nap already? If needed. Good day.
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Still weak, easily tire. The exhaustion goes so deep that a deep breath can tire. Just breathing is wearing. Food, and pushing, over time, will get me back in shape. My organs, bones, and joints are good, fever is gone, my stomach on down is mild. There are very mild issues, for which I will take aspirin... just as an abundance of caution and for being tired of being sore. Couldn't take it as planned, doubted it would be in the system long enough.
I am a bit surprised to be awake already. Down right around 7:00, awake at just prior to noon. Sleep was perfect. I was going in a bit overtired, which was a good thing this time. Sam enjoyed piling in, sleeping right until I woke. Not sure why Sassy didn't, but her name... was earned. I love her for it, if I always worry about the princess. Twerp. ;)
Beef was good, but I am not ready for more. I'd like to try a gravy, using almond or coconut flour and xanthan or guar gum. I'm not sure I am ready to be on my feet for that long, but I can review ideas. Ugh. For as good as it is, comparatively, it is still rough, limited. Either way, I am grateful, for the challenges, reprieve, and whatever comes next.
A nap already? If needed. Good day.
Roast beef, milk, and tea.
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Not much of any of it. Enough to be satisfied. A relative slice, sip, and sup. No shower. Too tired. It'll be all I can do to let the ducks out, break open the water, and open things up to air out their hutch. I may do that a bit early so as to get shuteye. Couldn't get a shower, was holding out on that for a nap, here I am. Late, still awake.
All being well I can let the mousers sleep with me. They prefer it, as do I. I'm almost surprised a new symptom, old, or group of them, haven't manifest. I'd better hurry to get done and go to sleep.
Good night, and day.
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Not much of any of it. Enough to be satisfied. A relative slice, sip, and sup. No shower. Too tired. It'll be all I can do to let the ducks out, break open the water, and open things up to air out their hutch. I may do that a bit early so as to get shuteye. Couldn't get a shower, was holding out on that for a nap, here I am. Late, still awake.
All being well I can let the mousers sleep with me. They prefer it, as do I. I'm almost surprised a new symptom, old, or group of them, haven't manifest. I'd better hurry to get done and go to sleep.
Good night, and day.
So far, so good.
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I went without more to drink, and for several hours. All is calm, so I am having a trial spot of tea. Bp was a little higher. I checked medicine, couldn't rightly remember whether it was taken. I am right on track with taking pills. However, diarrhea has to have at least partially interrupted efficacy. Even so, this reading is magnificent. This is the old best, everything below 140/90, pulse was below 80. Just... not bad. Blood sugar is staying around 160. Whatever, on that score.
It's not quite a time for a green light, but the caution light is mellowing towards that way. Another few hours, if all good, a shower, then maybe sleep, with hopes of a trip to town if all remains clear tomorrow. Otherwise I'll hold out, fast, and dehydrate, until needs be. I am feeling a lot better, at the moment. Tire easily, quickly, but duh.
All good, for now. A bit to drink, gaming, a shower, then more rest. Later or good night.
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I went without more to drink, and for several hours. All is calm, so I am having a trial spot of tea. Bp was a little higher. I checked medicine, couldn't rightly remember whether it was taken. I am right on track with taking pills. However, diarrhea has to have at least partially interrupted efficacy. Even so, this reading is magnificent. This is the old best, everything below 140/90, pulse was below 80. Just... not bad. Blood sugar is staying around 160. Whatever, on that score.
It's not quite a time for a green light, but the caution light is mellowing towards that way. Another few hours, if all good, a shower, then maybe sleep, with hopes of a trip to town if all remains clear tomorrow. Otherwise I'll hold out, fast, and dehydrate, until needs be. I am feeling a lot better, at the moment. Tire easily, quickly, but duh.
All good, for now. A bit to drink, gaming, a shower, then more rest. Later or good night.
Saturday, November 24, 2018
The worst case I have known.
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As to food? I believe nothing is best. Same for fluid. Starvation and deep dehydration is best, I don't care what doctors say. Perhaps, if something could be taken to slow it. But I would have to see results before even drinking. As is, since earlier morning, n.p.o. Further, after the horrors of emptying, I attempted escape through sleep. Two sleep periods, with returned horrors between. I couldn't get the ducks in, or anything else, until I woke this second time.
I rushed to get the ducks in, in case there might be a return. Even when it was just gas, the cramping was debilitating. It was crippling me, so other efforts weren't possible. Three days of that. It seems done, I won't risk it. I have had a few ounces to drink, and will have two to four more, than as much every few hours, until... until I am more sure. Thirsty as a dog, not worth quenching.
I hope to get a shower soon, do laundry, and when 'mo better' for certain, change bedding. Thankfully no accidents, just bacteria or virus leftovers or I would have changed it all and then some. Small steps, I don't wish to disturb still waters with exertion, or rock the boat in any way for any reason. I can't believe how much my body could expel. I had been fasting, and the waterpill had already been keeping me 'dry'. Terrifying. You would also think I'd be bone dehydrated finally, but I am not, just slightly into thirsty. I'll have pickle juice as part of my allowance, if I have some. Uhrm, but I will cancel the water pill until I and drinking regularly again.
Before this ever happens again? I'll be buying several bedpans to compare and liners... If thick trash bags might work, those would have made life a thousand times better. If you don't have, consider buying. For yourself or a family member. It... much easier, even for self-care.
I am honestly surprised this hasn't killed me. Heck, it just ensured I got rest I had been ignoring. Other than a sore bottom, and easy exhaustion from even light duty, I'm still doing well. Hahaha. Go away or I shall taunt you a second tima. Later.
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As to food? I believe nothing is best. Same for fluid. Starvation and deep dehydration is best, I don't care what doctors say. Perhaps, if something could be taken to slow it. But I would have to see results before even drinking. As is, since earlier morning, n.p.o. Further, after the horrors of emptying, I attempted escape through sleep. Two sleep periods, with returned horrors between. I couldn't get the ducks in, or anything else, until I woke this second time.
I rushed to get the ducks in, in case there might be a return. Even when it was just gas, the cramping was debilitating. It was crippling me, so other efforts weren't possible. Three days of that. It seems done, I won't risk it. I have had a few ounces to drink, and will have two to four more, than as much every few hours, until... until I am more sure. Thirsty as a dog, not worth quenching.
I hope to get a shower soon, do laundry, and when 'mo better' for certain, change bedding. Thankfully no accidents, just bacteria or virus leftovers or I would have changed it all and then some. Small steps, I don't wish to disturb still waters with exertion, or rock the boat in any way for any reason. I can't believe how much my body could expel. I had been fasting, and the waterpill had already been keeping me 'dry'. Terrifying. You would also think I'd be bone dehydrated finally, but I am not, just slightly into thirsty. I'll have pickle juice as part of my allowance, if I have some. Uhrm, but I will cancel the water pill until I and drinking regularly again.
Before this ever happens again? I'll be buying several bedpans to compare and liners... If thick trash bags might work, those would have made life a thousand times better. If you don't have, consider buying. For yourself or a family member. It... much easier, even for self-care.
I am honestly surprised this hasn't killed me. Heck, it just ensured I got rest I had been ignoring. Other than a sore bottom, and easy exhaustion from even light duty, I'm still doing well. Hahaha. Go away or I shall taunt you a second tima. Later.
Warm.
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Er, that is. It is supposed to be right under freezing, say 30. But it isn't frozen in spite of it having rained. I don't get it, but I will gladly take it.
The ducks are out, fed, watered. I am glad to have put up the tarp. Around four feet up, it gives them cover in most ways, from most things. The ducks were fussing about going under today... wind was creating crinkly noises. So I chased them under. Can't have them afraid of shelter, or they would seek another. Their water was still thawed this morning. I had to refill though. Not sure that will work in the winter. Too much work.
The little bit done exhausted me to seeing stars. I had to hold off a few times. Not sure if I would pass out if I push a certain line, don't want to find out. Wheezing yet, won't get up until... for a while. Going to bed when next I can move. Cat litter cleaning, then bed. Surprised how exhausted I get, how easily. It'll take a bit to feed back up.
Good night.
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Er, that is. It is supposed to be right under freezing, say 30. But it isn't frozen in spite of it having rained. I don't get it, but I will gladly take it.
The ducks are out, fed, watered. I am glad to have put up the tarp. Around four feet up, it gives them cover in most ways, from most things. The ducks were fussing about going under today... wind was creating crinkly noises. So I chased them under. Can't have them afraid of shelter, or they would seek another. Their water was still thawed this morning. I had to refill though. Not sure that will work in the winter. Too much work.
The little bit done exhausted me to seeing stars. I had to hold off a few times. Not sure if I would pass out if I push a certain line, don't want to find out. Wheezing yet, won't get up until... for a while. Going to bed when next I can move. Cat litter cleaning, then bed. Surprised how exhausted I get, how easily. It'll take a bit to feed back up.
Good night.
Unpossible!?!
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I finally checked bp. It was an amazing, for me, 121/94 with a pulse of 87, without morning meds yet! Can the flu be a good thing? I have been on full dose since and through last Thursday, so a bit more than a week. It doesn't usually work that fast, and from previous experience partial and or inconsistent doses have almost no affect. So it has been this rather short full dosing that has done the job.
Blood sugar was a bit less than 160, after a meal. I tried to have pork with beans and cheese. Pork is just too rich. Mozz and a mix of canned beans, lots of cheese, in hopes of slowing and cleaning. Diarrhea for the last two days, every few hours, in volume. Loose but still solid. My body must have been cannibalizing, or it couldn't have kept that volume outflow? Beans offer fiber, cheese slows it. I hope.
Still tired, but I don't sees stars after very minor exhertion. Still, standing and showering is enough to wear me out. Mostly a concern of not enough food. I would have gone out, but nothing trustworthy open late at night. McDonald's, but... maybe they have improved nights, as days? Wasn't willing to risk it, especially for white male haters, the worst of them white males (sort of) themselves.
I am hoping to get out today. I need food. The pork is going, but I have a beef chuck thawing. Perhaps cabbage and other veggies when I go. Onion, carrot, celery, a mirepoix is good when ill. Better with chicken, but that is possible. And an assortment of root veggies sound good. Hmm, how about tubers and cabbage with beef and the French veggie threesome with chicken?
I'll be pushing to stay awake until time for the ducks to be let out, then fussing with water, so other food must wait. If the good news is that the beans and cheese have given a reprieve from constant need. Later. Good night, actually.
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I finally checked bp. It was an amazing, for me, 121/94 with a pulse of 87, without morning meds yet! Can the flu be a good thing? I have been on full dose since and through last Thursday, so a bit more than a week. It doesn't usually work that fast, and from previous experience partial and or inconsistent doses have almost no affect. So it has been this rather short full dosing that has done the job.
Blood sugar was a bit less than 160, after a meal. I tried to have pork with beans and cheese. Pork is just too rich. Mozz and a mix of canned beans, lots of cheese, in hopes of slowing and cleaning. Diarrhea for the last two days, every few hours, in volume. Loose but still solid. My body must have been cannibalizing, or it couldn't have kept that volume outflow? Beans offer fiber, cheese slows it. I hope.
Still tired, but I don't sees stars after very minor exhertion. Still, standing and showering is enough to wear me out. Mostly a concern of not enough food. I would have gone out, but nothing trustworthy open late at night. McDonald's, but... maybe they have improved nights, as days? Wasn't willing to risk it, especially for white male haters, the worst of them white males (sort of) themselves.
I am hoping to get out today. I need food. The pork is going, but I have a beef chuck thawing. Perhaps cabbage and other veggies when I go. Onion, carrot, celery, a mirepoix is good when ill. Better with chicken, but that is possible. And an assortment of root veggies sound good. Hmm, how about tubers and cabbage with beef and the French veggie threesome with chicken?
I'll be pushing to stay awake until time for the ducks to be let out, then fussing with water, so other food must wait. If the good news is that the beans and cheese have given a reprieve from constant need. Later. Good night, actually.
Friday, November 23, 2018
Still better, mostly.
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I have been awake since 21:00 ~ 22:00 last night. I think? Strung out from too much sleep, if more would be nice. It isn't all just simple choice. Add the final insult to injurious illness, a symptom which makes every... stomach growl and hiccup a potential reason to need to shower. Fear. Hoping that dies down before more troubles.
The goal at this point is to make it to 17:30, 18:00. All give or take. Then let my feathered friends in, plus attempt to pull the water in. I'll have to empty it by at least half, my strength is low. It'll be a test even then. I was surprised, with the cats, to realize I am keeping up on their litter, food too. They'll let something slide for a bit, then not an inch. But they realized, and hard food and water was good, even their litter. Woman, cat, duck a promise? To be kept when able.
Needed the shower, for every reason. Always good. The plants got a time in there as well. Yeah, I speak with my plants. I'd like to say they don't speak back, but they seem to do better with directed attention, conversation. Believe as you will. From duck to cat to ivy, they... love a kind lord... friend. What king has no subjects? And any right king knows he can't rule over men, queens less so... in all understandings of the latter. So... who do kings rule? Much as with socialism, pigs can only rule over even lesser animals.
Hmm, not sure I'll make it.
Oh, I was eating, if fatted milk, every other day. It was enough to keep me regular, plus, until the finish line. Though... that is a form of regular. I had pork, but it was a bit rich. Sauerkraut would have helped. I thought the mustards and horseradish mix would be enough. If it might just be a virus and antibody flush. It's not unusual, if I always forget. Medicine has been regular as well. Now to begin checking bp and pulse. Blood sugar is coming down, a hundred to maybe two down in two days. Later.
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I have been awake since 21:00 ~ 22:00 last night. I think? Strung out from too much sleep, if more would be nice. It isn't all just simple choice. Add the final insult to injurious illness, a symptom which makes every... stomach growl and hiccup a potential reason to need to shower. Fear. Hoping that dies down before more troubles.
The goal at this point is to make it to 17:30, 18:00. All give or take. Then let my feathered friends in, plus attempt to pull the water in. I'll have to empty it by at least half, my strength is low. It'll be a test even then. I was surprised, with the cats, to realize I am keeping up on their litter, food too. They'll let something slide for a bit, then not an inch. But they realized, and hard food and water was good, even their litter. Woman, cat, duck a promise? To be kept when able.
Needed the shower, for every reason. Always good. The plants got a time in there as well. Yeah, I speak with my plants. I'd like to say they don't speak back, but they seem to do better with directed attention, conversation. Believe as you will. From duck to cat to ivy, they... love a kind lord... friend. What king has no subjects? And any right king knows he can't rule over men, queens less so... in all understandings of the latter. So... who do kings rule? Much as with socialism, pigs can only rule over even lesser animals.
Hmm, not sure I'll make it.
Oh, I was eating, if fatted milk, every other day. It was enough to keep me regular, plus, until the finish line. Though... that is a form of regular. I had pork, but it was a bit rich. Sauerkraut would have helped. I thought the mustards and horseradish mix would be enough. If it might just be a virus and antibody flush. It's not unusual, if I always forget. Medicine has been regular as well. Now to begin checking bp and pulse. Blood sugar is coming down, a hundred to maybe two down in two days. Later.
Thursday, November 22, 2018
Much better.
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The good part is that pain and fever are mostly gone. The bad part is what remains is a starved husk without the strength to eat. I'll try tonight. Awake a bit later than preferred, to get the ducks in, but not too late. With the water still relatively fresh, I dumped some, thought about taking it in. Didn't think I could tow that much in my state. Nor could I dump it all, wrestle it in empty, then wrestle the hose out and back after refilling.
Thought to dump more, then tow that in, but realized it wasn't possible, tonight. Perhaps in a couple days. If I can't handle leftovers, perhaps fast food. It's mostly junk, but sometimes a starving body just needs raw calories. The last time I ate I was only able to eat just a bit more than a single chicken drumstick, heated three. Before that? I think I mentioned it, or cooking it, the bacon wrapped drummies and pork roast.
Sleep was very good. After being awake for thirteen to sixteen hours for the first time in nearly as long (?) since I ate (every variable is in some doubt due to the fever), I wasn't sure how waking, sleeping itself, would go, end. No pain, if a little achy from hunger... not true hunger pains, more pains from a body trying to reserve succor from a body with nothing to offer. Stupid thing is, in this starving state, I'm still not in keto and diabetes is high. Bastards.
I'll keep at it. But food, for the next few days, is vital. As well as medicine. Although, it seems, after some issues, when I have medicine, even if it breaks my balls, I do take them. Better to have chipped brass hang-lows for a bit than a bp of 215/180 and a pulse of 140. No future in that. Not that I have a future, I have given my soul over to tending this broken duck of a life. So be it.
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The good part is that pain and fever are mostly gone. The bad part is what remains is a starved husk without the strength to eat. I'll try tonight. Awake a bit later than preferred, to get the ducks in, but not too late. With the water still relatively fresh, I dumped some, thought about taking it in. Didn't think I could tow that much in my state. Nor could I dump it all, wrestle it in empty, then wrestle the hose out and back after refilling.
Thought to dump more, then tow that in, but realized it wasn't possible, tonight. Perhaps in a couple days. If I can't handle leftovers, perhaps fast food. It's mostly junk, but sometimes a starving body just needs raw calories. The last time I ate I was only able to eat just a bit more than a single chicken drumstick, heated three. Before that? I think I mentioned it, or cooking it, the bacon wrapped drummies and pork roast.
Sleep was very good. After being awake for thirteen to sixteen hours for the first time in nearly as long (?) since I ate (every variable is in some doubt due to the fever), I wasn't sure how waking, sleeping itself, would go, end. No pain, if a little achy from hunger... not true hunger pains, more pains from a body trying to reserve succor from a body with nothing to offer. Stupid thing is, in this starving state, I'm still not in keto and diabetes is high. Bastards.
I'll keep at it. But food, for the next few days, is vital. As well as medicine. Although, it seems, after some issues, when I have medicine, even if it breaks my balls, I do take them. Better to have chipped brass hang-lows for a bit than a bp of 215/180 and a pulse of 140. No future in that. Not that I have a future, I have given my soul over to tending this broken duck of a life. So be it.
Thanksgiving?
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No doubts, about the sentiment or holiday, merely... it snuck up on me. It wasn't just illness. I am getting old. My mother called or I wouldn't have known. Ill, recovering, I still hope you all have a time and place to celebrate the real reason for the celebration. Most of you and your families earned it. Those of you who don't celebrate shouldn't be suffered citizenship.
I'm not quite ready for another meal. I have food ready, I'll have something before the day is over technically, but after sleep. I have been awake since last night. The longest wake cycle in days. My mother has been ill for two weeks. Ten to one she got the flu shot. Whether she believes or not, she'll do what others or doctors say. It's... just that way.
Tired, beyond the ability to think. But it has been very good to be awake for a while. For that, and suffering to offer fools, I am grateful. Good day.
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No doubts, about the sentiment or holiday, merely... it snuck up on me. It wasn't just illness. I am getting old. My mother called or I wouldn't have known. Ill, recovering, I still hope you all have a time and place to celebrate the real reason for the celebration. Most of you and your families earned it. Those of you who don't celebrate shouldn't be suffered citizenship.
I'm not quite ready for another meal. I have food ready, I'll have something before the day is over technically, but after sleep. I have been awake since last night. The longest wake cycle in days. My mother has been ill for two weeks. Ten to one she got the flu shot. Whether she believes or not, she'll do what others or doctors say. It's... just that way.
Tired, beyond the ability to think. But it has been very good to be awake for a while. For that, and suffering to offer fools, I am grateful. Good day.
Awake for hours.
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Not much, any, effort put into it. If I need more sleep I'll take it. Aspirin helped, if it does nothing for exhaustion. Though pain is an exhaustion multiplier. A new type of pain, something between heartburn and indigestion. Probably from starting eating again. It's never fun ending an extended fast.
I am beginning efforts to sort sweeteners. There was a lot of crystalization in the bottles, on the caps, and in the droppers. I cleaned that out, though whether appearances are enough I don't yet know. I will say this, the stuff is a lot less sweet than it used to be. If this works, I'll have to refresh and clean the dropper bottle monthly. As well, put the main supply in a double or triple dehydration preventitive system. Perhaps putting dropper bottles in single systems, such as zip-locks or sealing containers.
Being a bit before time to let the ducks out, and suspecting I'll be asleep for twelve hours when I go down, I am hoping to make it the two hours, and get them out. I'll have to break open the water. Every other day with that. The fellow who I received the ducks from heats the water. I didn't want to tell him, so sound as a know-it-all... more than I already do, but I think that makes it freeze faster. Plus, that is something I heard somewhere... unsure. Though since the water here stays thawed all day, but not there, I suspect so. I am almost sure if I emptied it a bit, and dragged it in, it wouldn't freeze. Hmm, worth a shot. I just hate them not having water, thus food. Though perhaps that is good for them?
I also fed the girls an extra time. Sam is happy, Sassy is still giving me some stink-eye. I understand. I still chuckle. I am cool enough again finally to turn the furnace up, while awake. Now, again, I need it. I just need to remember to turn it off before bedtime or it is too hot for me to sleep.
Not laundry, or dishes save for the sweetener droppers. I'm still worn, wear easier, far too quickly. Just doing the droppers about dropped me. Less pain, and that just from getting my g.i. to work again. I'm almost enjoying life again. Although I am glad for the pain. It goes to those in pergatory, some I might know... suspect, some I don't know... the nameless to the world, the forgotten.
Oh, right, gravy. It is a solid means of increasing fats in a meal. Of course, generally based on flour, it is verboten. There are other flours... almond seems preferred, though I would like to research coconut flour. Further, I have doubts about the raw thickening power of almond flour, either kind. So I looked into xanthan gum. An half teaspoon (or full depending who tells the tale) per cup of fluid. Those combined, plus liquid smoke or paprika (latter for color), should work. May look into psyllum husk (?spelling?) as well. Good for gluten free fixings as well.
Later, or good night.
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Not much, any, effort put into it. If I need more sleep I'll take it. Aspirin helped, if it does nothing for exhaustion. Though pain is an exhaustion multiplier. A new type of pain, something between heartburn and indigestion. Probably from starting eating again. It's never fun ending an extended fast.
I am beginning efforts to sort sweeteners. There was a lot of crystalization in the bottles, on the caps, and in the droppers. I cleaned that out, though whether appearances are enough I don't yet know. I will say this, the stuff is a lot less sweet than it used to be. If this works, I'll have to refresh and clean the dropper bottle monthly. As well, put the main supply in a double or triple dehydration preventitive system. Perhaps putting dropper bottles in single systems, such as zip-locks or sealing containers.
Being a bit before time to let the ducks out, and suspecting I'll be asleep for twelve hours when I go down, I am hoping to make it the two hours, and get them out. I'll have to break open the water. Every other day with that. The fellow who I received the ducks from heats the water. I didn't want to tell him, so sound as a know-it-all... more than I already do, but I think that makes it freeze faster. Plus, that is something I heard somewhere... unsure. Though since the water here stays thawed all day, but not there, I suspect so. I am almost sure if I emptied it a bit, and dragged it in, it wouldn't freeze. Hmm, worth a shot. I just hate them not having water, thus food. Though perhaps that is good for them?
I also fed the girls an extra time. Sam is happy, Sassy is still giving me some stink-eye. I understand. I still chuckle. I am cool enough again finally to turn the furnace up, while awake. Now, again, I need it. I just need to remember to turn it off before bedtime or it is too hot for me to sleep.
Not laundry, or dishes save for the sweetener droppers. I'm still worn, wear easier, far too quickly. Just doing the droppers about dropped me. Less pain, and that just from getting my g.i. to work again. I'm almost enjoying life again. Although I am glad for the pain. It goes to those in pergatory, some I might know... suspect, some I don't know... the nameless to the world, the forgotten.
Oh, right, gravy. It is a solid means of increasing fats in a meal. Of course, generally based on flour, it is verboten. There are other flours... almond seems preferred, though I would like to research coconut flour. Further, I have doubts about the raw thickening power of almond flour, either kind. So I looked into xanthan gum. An half teaspoon (or full depending who tells the tale) per cup of fluid. Those combined, plus liquid smoke or paprika (latter for color), should work. May look into psyllum husk (?spelling?) as well. Good for gluten free fixings as well.
Later, or good night.
Much better.
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Still exhausted. No food through three to five days of fever and as I think on things a few days of illness before that, a week? Putting food back in, slowly. Started with milk, now chicken and milk. It'll take a week to strengthen up, but will require consumption and work, a push-pull effort. Food doesn't taste all that good, then again the deeper in keto I get, the more that is true.
Blood sugar is high. I couldn't drink unsweetened tea, sorely needed fluid when I could drink, so used the sucra drops as needed. It's an older container, which may be the problem. If I can prove it to be dehydration, I may create a solution to the problem. I'm in a bit of a problem otherwise. Plain tea is as difficult for me to drink, in the volume needed, as plain water. They both irritate the throat until I actually can't eat or drink.
If the bit of food I could eat gives enough energy, I'd like to get a shower or bath, and maybe start laundry. Probably then back to bed. Then, each time I can wake for longer than moments, the goal is to eat a bite or three and do some work. For now, gaming, to stay awake long enough to let the food do it's job, or at least begin expanding my wake cycle.
It's been a rough one. I expect this every three to five years. Actually I would get this worse, and every other year when I allowed vaccination. Yeah, no. I won't enrich failure. I can't believe so many people do. So many just follow along with the crowd, and poor advice. It makes big pharma a lot of extra money, never kept me well, go figure. I actually wonder if the vaccines are going to increase virulence. As with any government involved operation, you have to wonder how unintended just such a consequence is. Trust? Verify. How can I verify when the companies and government agencies involved hide, and are allowed to hide, the real information?
Later.
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Still exhausted. No food through three to five days of fever and as I think on things a few days of illness before that, a week? Putting food back in, slowly. Started with milk, now chicken and milk. It'll take a week to strengthen up, but will require consumption and work, a push-pull effort. Food doesn't taste all that good, then again the deeper in keto I get, the more that is true.
Blood sugar is high. I couldn't drink unsweetened tea, sorely needed fluid when I could drink, so used the sucra drops as needed. It's an older container, which may be the problem. If I can prove it to be dehydration, I may create a solution to the problem. I'm in a bit of a problem otherwise. Plain tea is as difficult for me to drink, in the volume needed, as plain water. They both irritate the throat until I actually can't eat or drink.
If the bit of food I could eat gives enough energy, I'd like to get a shower or bath, and maybe start laundry. Probably then back to bed. Then, each time I can wake for longer than moments, the goal is to eat a bite or three and do some work. For now, gaming, to stay awake long enough to let the food do it's job, or at least begin expanding my wake cycle.
It's been a rough one. I expect this every three to five years. Actually I would get this worse, and every other year when I allowed vaccination. Yeah, no. I won't enrich failure. I can't believe so many people do. So many just follow along with the crowd, and poor advice. It makes big pharma a lot of extra money, never kept me well, go figure. I actually wonder if the vaccines are going to increase virulence. As with any government involved operation, you have to wonder how unintended just such a consequence is. Trust? Verify. How can I verify when the companies and government agencies involved hide, and are allowed to hide, the real information?
Later.
Wednesday, November 21, 2018
Amazing how difficult simple efforts can be.
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When ill. I did use the small sledge hammer and steel stakes, but that usually isn't difficult. I didn't think aluminum stakes would go into frozen dirt, didn't think the rubber mallet would drive the stakes. Though, to be honest, I suspect both would have been equally exhausting. On the good side, I feel better, with the covering. I used part of the broken cap on top. Wasn't sure the staked bag b would hold, seems to, if not fully covered.
The ducks were happy to go in. Being so tired, this was a gift. The temp is reading around 30° F, give or take. Which made doing the projects much easier. This type of illness makes cooler temperatures much more difficult. At 30°, compared to 12°, it didn't hurt, if it was still exhausting.
You have no idea how difficult editing has been. Fevers are anti-logic. If there are still large errors, be patient.
Back to bed. Food almost sounds good, I just can't do the work. Good night.
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When ill. I did use the small sledge hammer and steel stakes, but that usually isn't difficult. I didn't think aluminum stakes would go into frozen dirt, didn't think the rubber mallet would drive the stakes. Though, to be honest, I suspect both would have been equally exhausting. On the good side, I feel better, with the covering. I used part of the broken cap on top. Wasn't sure the staked bag b would hold, seems to, if not fully covered.
The ducks were happy to go in. Being so tired, this was a gift. The temp is reading around 30° F, give or take. Which made doing the projects much easier. This type of illness makes cooler temperatures much more difficult. At 30°, compared to 12°, it didn't hurt, if it was still exhausting.
You have no idea how difficult editing has been. Fevers are anti-logic. If there are still large errors, be patient.
Back to bed. Food almost sounds good, I just can't do the work. Good night.
Doing what I can.
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Sleeping still. Most of the day. So much pain and weakness. I haven't been drinking either. I finally got to drinking. My throat was parched. I feared the chapping would get stuck and I might choke. Some of it was dried blood. A quart of milk, then I will try that and double tea.
The girls have been patient. While they had dry cat food, it has been several days since canned food. I tried, I was just so hard hit I couldn't feed them. It actually hurt to be awake and out of bed. I had to restock their food, which was actually hard on me, having to stand, even sorting the cans. In my condition it was a lot of work. Oh, I'll grab a new bottle of aspirin.
I realized a water problem. The water connection has not been covered. It froze last time it was left uncovered. That would be a major with the ducks and my illness. I don't know who to call, though I know some folk who might, called them. And, tonight, I'll put a plastic bag over the hole, stake it down, then pray that works until a proper cover is installed.
Back to bed. The girls shouldn't be bothering me. But the organs are terribly troubling. If I can sleep deeply enough though... later.
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Sleeping still. Most of the day. So much pain and weakness. I haven't been drinking either. I finally got to drinking. My throat was parched. I feared the chapping would get stuck and I might choke. Some of it was dried blood. A quart of milk, then I will try that and double tea.
The girls have been patient. While they had dry cat food, it has been several days since canned food. I tried, I was just so hard hit I couldn't feed them. It actually hurt to be awake and out of bed. I had to restock their food, which was actually hard on me, having to stand, even sorting the cans. In my condition it was a lot of work. Oh, I'll grab a new bottle of aspirin.
I realized a water problem. The water connection has not been covered. It froze last time it was left uncovered. That would be a major with the ducks and my illness. I don't know who to call, though I know some folk who might, called them. And, tonight, I'll put a plastic bag over the hole, stake it down, then pray that works until a proper cover is installed.
Back to bed. The girls shouldn't be bothering me. But the organs are terribly troubling. If I can sleep deeply enough though... later.
Almost edging towards better.
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To bed, again, nearly directly, at 0:30. Then awake at 7:30. Just long enough to handle the ducks. A very fast effort in brutal cold, given the fever. Though at 12° F, It has started to count. I used to be able to handle -20° F, now 20° F is closer to the limit. Not always, though the fever makes it much worse. Pain everywhere, doesn't help.
Everything has a tint of feverishness, it is in the eyes, various pains, burning lungs, no way out. Extra sleep isn't helping. I woke two hours after going back to sleep. I still hurt. Actually I am a bit more rested, if all pains are equally troubling. Tea is all I can drink, if not well. I have given up on food for now.
I am taking medicine and feeding the critters. It's rough, a challenge. Oh, and perpetual bloody noses. Every time I finish one I wake to another. I keep groups of Kleenex at the ready, enough to stop and reset an half dozen bloody noses if need be.
I haven't been this sick in a long time. At least no fevered dreams for the moment.
I thought I might wake for a while, but I don't think so. I can't believe how heavily I am falling. I simply can't wake. A prayer would always be welcome. Later.
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To bed, again, nearly directly, at 0:30. Then awake at 7:30. Just long enough to handle the ducks. A very fast effort in brutal cold, given the fever. Though at 12° F, It has started to count. I used to be able to handle -20° F, now 20° F is closer to the limit. Not always, though the fever makes it much worse. Pain everywhere, doesn't help.
Everything has a tint of feverishness, it is in the eyes, various pains, burning lungs, no way out. Extra sleep isn't helping. I woke two hours after going back to sleep. I still hurt. Actually I am a bit more rested, if all pains are equally troubling. Tea is all I can drink, if not well. I have given up on food for now.
I am taking medicine and feeding the critters. It's rough, a challenge. Oh, and perpetual bloody noses. Every time I finish one I wake to another. I keep groups of Kleenex at the ready, enough to stop and reset an half dozen bloody noses if need be.
I haven't been this sick in a long time. At least no fevered dreams for the moment.
I thought I might wake for a while, but I don't think so. I can't believe how heavily I am falling. I simply can't wake. A prayer would always be welcome. Later.
Not bad.
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It was difficult to remain awake. The aspirin did it's job, or the pain subsided, maybe a bit of each. The fever is... relieved, if it sits back behind the skin. The skin still hurts, if more mildly. The burning in the lungs is better. The organs still hurt, just not as brutally. Everything still hurts, only a third to two thirds less so. While that might not sound great, it truly is. There is in the frying pan and in the fire. Neither sounds fun, neither is, but there is worse and much worse. I'm horribly grateful for worse.
Back to bed, while I still feel comparatively better. I am fully tired again, ready to sleep another twelve hours or more, if I need to feed and water the ducks and cats. It might be a quick up then back down. If I go too far sideways I may have to compromise safety for food and water.
Good night.
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It was difficult to remain awake. The aspirin did it's job, or the pain subsided, maybe a bit of each. The fever is... relieved, if it sits back behind the skin. The skin still hurts, if more mildly. The burning in the lungs is better. The organs still hurt, just not as brutally. Everything still hurts, only a third to two thirds less so. While that might not sound great, it truly is. There is in the frying pan and in the fire. Neither sounds fun, neither is, but there is worse and much worse. I'm horribly grateful for worse.
Back to bed, while I still feel comparatively better. I am fully tired again, ready to sleep another twelve hours or more, if I need to feed and water the ducks and cats. It might be a quick up then back down. If I go too far sideways I may have to compromise safety for food and water.
Good night.
Tuesday, November 20, 2018
PAIN!
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The last day, day and an half, has been the harshest in memory. On top of organ problems, achy muscles and joints, my skin has hurt to even touch. Sleep has been the only reprieve, as if I had a choice. My eye sockets were too sore to rub my eyes, still are. Aspirin is being taken, 350 by four, if I may add a pill. Everything, where, hurts in some twisted and terrible way.
Even so, I have been tending the ducks and cats. I will eat if I can. Not quite now... nausea from pain is a bit excessive. I slept most of the day. After several attempts, I was able to push out, if late, just after 21:00. If late, the ducks are roosted. I may mot be able to stay awake, if I hope to... extra sore from laying on sore skin, a side effect from fever, I think. Rarely have I had such a terrible fever.
I have kept up on medicine, if my plans to begin checking bp has not succeeded. Ugh. If I can stay up, and aspirin solves some of the pain, fever, I might get to checking bp. Later.
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The last day, day and an half, has been the harshest in memory. On top of organ problems, achy muscles and joints, my skin has hurt to even touch. Sleep has been the only reprieve, as if I had a choice. My eye sockets were too sore to rub my eyes, still are. Aspirin is being taken, 350 by four, if I may add a pill. Everything, where, hurts in some twisted and terrible way.
Even so, I have been tending the ducks and cats. I will eat if I can. Not quite now... nausea from pain is a bit excessive. I slept most of the day. After several attempts, I was able to push out, if late, just after 21:00. If late, the ducks are roosted. I may mot be able to stay awake, if I hope to... extra sore from laying on sore skin, a side effect from fever, I think. Rarely have I had such a terrible fever.
I have kept up on medicine, if my plans to begin checking bp has not succeeded. Ugh. If I can stay up, and aspirin solves some of the pain, fever, I might get to checking bp. Later.
More like naps.
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Down pretnear 20:00, awake around zero dark, or thirty. I'll take morning meds, check bp and pulse, and perhaps get laundry going. I started bacon wrapped chicken drumsticks and a pork roast, which should keep me in vittles for the week. I would sure like veggies though, cabbage, a few potatoes, cauliflower... Soon.
Dishes and laundry, it is hoped. And paperwork. Food, mostly, first. Not hungry in one way, yet starving under the skin. It's strange lately. What little I have been eating has been perfect. Yet my system is acting as if I was eating fast carbs and drinking soda. I am going to back cream off to every other day, perhaps every third day. If it isn't that, then the sucra drops may have to be eliminated. It is okay, usually. It is either being doped with sugar water or dehydrating into something different?
Yesterday was cold for me, in spite of being well, rightly, fully clothed. Cold later in the day that is. Could not get or stay warm, if I suspect it was health issues. When the heart isn't working well I can become cold even in high summer. So far tonight it seems better. No need to turn the furnace up, I have learned. It doesn't help, only making me miserably warm when I improve. Still more heat than cold sensitive.
Have a good morning, day, or night.
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Down pretnear 20:00, awake around zero dark, or thirty. I'll take morning meds, check bp and pulse, and perhaps get laundry going. I started bacon wrapped chicken drumsticks and a pork roast, which should keep me in vittles for the week. I would sure like veggies though, cabbage, a few potatoes, cauliflower... Soon.
Dishes and laundry, it is hoped. And paperwork. Food, mostly, first. Not hungry in one way, yet starving under the skin. It's strange lately. What little I have been eating has been perfect. Yet my system is acting as if I was eating fast carbs and drinking soda. I am going to back cream off to every other day, perhaps every third day. If it isn't that, then the sucra drops may have to be eliminated. It is okay, usually. It is either being doped with sugar water or dehydrating into something different?
Yesterday was cold for me, in spite of being well, rightly, fully clothed. Cold later in the day that is. Could not get or stay warm, if I suspect it was health issues. When the heart isn't working well I can become cold even in high summer. So far tonight it seems better. No need to turn the furnace up, I have learned. It doesn't help, only making me miserably warm when I improve. Still more heat than cold sensitive.
Have a good morning, day, or night.
Monday, November 19, 2018
Had to wake.
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The ducks need safety when darkness arrives. They know how vulnerable they are, so huddle, stay quiet, in a sort of middle area, where escape in any direction is possible. I prefer to have them in before dark, but my crushing need for sleep doesn't always allow that. So tired still, may return for more sleep.
Tonight they were a bit more goofy. They knew where to go, wanted to go there, and yet seemed to not know how to get in. I just chuckled, which ended startling them in. I laughed as they were going in, to a near revolt. I stifled another bark of a laugh until I pushed them in. Then let go to a cacophony. They were just fussy tonight, and I found great mirth in that.
The benefit of tending the ducks is that I have a reason to pass the cat hard food and water on my way out. Keeping up on their food and water makes for a more civil environment. Cats get rather fussy when low on something. But, they have gained patience. They give me four to six hours after waking before they begin asking for food. On my part, I try to make it so they rarely have to ask. On the very rare day they don't get canned food, they can last two days before cutting loose. They are quickly fed, when they become aggressive, with apologies, and it suffices as long as rare.
Meds are back on normal track, as long as it lasts. Morning meds in the morning, night meds at night. My sleep schedule is still wonky, but more with two sleeps/naps per twenty four hour cycle. Staying up past noon, up by 2:00, so morning meds can be taken early... if remembered. Today is the fifth, after tonight's medicine, of full dose, every dose. I may start bp readings... no reason to check until medicine is in, regular, and full dose.
I did get the trash out. I'd like to bring the barrel back before crashing. No laundry started, or dishes. Ugh. Needed. When I wake? I hope. I'll keep at it. Later, or good night again.
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The ducks need safety when darkness arrives. They know how vulnerable they are, so huddle, stay quiet, in a sort of middle area, where escape in any direction is possible. I prefer to have them in before dark, but my crushing need for sleep doesn't always allow that. So tired still, may return for more sleep.
Tonight they were a bit more goofy. They knew where to go, wanted to go there, and yet seemed to not know how to get in. I just chuckled, which ended startling them in. I laughed as they were going in, to a near revolt. I stifled another bark of a laugh until I pushed them in. Then let go to a cacophony. They were just fussy tonight, and I found great mirth in that.
The benefit of tending the ducks is that I have a reason to pass the cat hard food and water on my way out. Keeping up on their food and water makes for a more civil environment. Cats get rather fussy when low on something. But, they have gained patience. They give me four to six hours after waking before they begin asking for food. On my part, I try to make it so they rarely have to ask. On the very rare day they don't get canned food, they can last two days before cutting loose. They are quickly fed, when they become aggressive, with apologies, and it suffices as long as rare.
Meds are back on normal track, as long as it lasts. Morning meds in the morning, night meds at night. My sleep schedule is still wonky, but more with two sleeps/naps per twenty four hour cycle. Staying up past noon, up by 2:00, so morning meds can be taken early... if remembered. Today is the fifth, after tonight's medicine, of full dose, every dose. I may start bp readings... no reason to check until medicine is in, regular, and full dose.
I did get the trash out. I'd like to bring the barrel back before crashing. No laundry started, or dishes. Ugh. Needed. When I wake? I hope. I'll keep at it. Later, or good night again.
Sunday, November 18, 2018
Almost a nap.
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Up at 2:00 or so, down around 13:00, if probably closer to 14:00. No choice, crashed hard. Back up at 17:30. Wouldn't have been able to push out then if I didn't realize the squad was solemnly staring at the door to what is now home. They just huddle, face the door... about seven feet away... and stare, once the sun goes down. They actually more remind me of penguins than ducks, the way they stand tall and walk upright. I like them as they are in any case.
I'm amazed that I can go out in that cold for ten, fifteen, up to an half hour, in nothing but pj's, and right after crawling out of bed. Perhaps longer, there simply hasn't been any call. It sure makes the 70 setting seem good upon returning. I think helping the ducks will end up offering returns beyond eggs. Daily dailies, exposure to the heat and cold, a few more friends, and some healthy laughter. Since I am never in a hurry, if one splits off, I can enjoy how, between it and I, the squawker finds it's way home. Or, various other issues. Oh, they can be seriously funny.
Their water was okay, but I like refreshing it every other day anyway. Either that or refilling and hoping it won't freeze. I haven't had great luck with the latter. I think it is duck... stuff... sediment... which keeps the water from freezing as quickly, along with volume. Adding water does increase volume, but reduces sediment by volume, removing some in inevitable overflow. OR it has merely usually been colder most nights I tried that.
If I could get a thermometer I trusted to check against a thermometer which could be trued which also showed the lowest temperature in the last twenty four hours, then could check that regularly enough, perhaps I could begin to know better. Can't know in absolutes, anything. But even working knowledge is limited without quantifying sediment... as well as a few other variable treatments, accountings, although with just those, a functional understand may be established.
A bite, then gaming. I am hoping to start with laundry and reset dishes again tonight. Trash will go out tonight. I put it out by 10:00 last week, but it was oddly too late. Not this week, it is so full. I think, as troubling as meds were, are, can be, they are starting to help again. Help more than hurt, I should say. Later.
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Up at 2:00 or so, down around 13:00, if probably closer to 14:00. No choice, crashed hard. Back up at 17:30. Wouldn't have been able to push out then if I didn't realize the squad was solemnly staring at the door to what is now home. They just huddle, face the door... about seven feet away... and stare, once the sun goes down. They actually more remind me of penguins than ducks, the way they stand tall and walk upright. I like them as they are in any case.
I'm amazed that I can go out in that cold for ten, fifteen, up to an half hour, in nothing but pj's, and right after crawling out of bed. Perhaps longer, there simply hasn't been any call. It sure makes the 70 setting seem good upon returning. I think helping the ducks will end up offering returns beyond eggs. Daily dailies, exposure to the heat and cold, a few more friends, and some healthy laughter. Since I am never in a hurry, if one splits off, I can enjoy how, between it and I, the squawker finds it's way home. Or, various other issues. Oh, they can be seriously funny.
Their water was okay, but I like refreshing it every other day anyway. Either that or refilling and hoping it won't freeze. I haven't had great luck with the latter. I think it is duck... stuff... sediment... which keeps the water from freezing as quickly, along with volume. Adding water does increase volume, but reduces sediment by volume, removing some in inevitable overflow. OR it has merely usually been colder most nights I tried that.
If I could get a thermometer I trusted to check against a thermometer which could be trued which also showed the lowest temperature in the last twenty four hours, then could check that regularly enough, perhaps I could begin to know better. Can't know in absolutes, anything. But even working knowledge is limited without quantifying sediment... as well as a few other variable treatments, accountings, although with just those, a functional understand may be established.
A bite, then gaming. I am hoping to start with laundry and reset dishes again tonight. Trash will go out tonight. I put it out by 10:00 last week, but it was oddly too late. Not this week, it is so full. I think, as troubling as meds were, are, can be, they are starting to help again. Help more than hurt, I should say. Later.
A good sleep.
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Too much sleep, but needed. I will try to sleep a bit more. Trying to push for regular days is too much. I am probably sleeping too much, if that still isn't enough for my body. Until medicine and winter are figured out. I haven't been fighting sleep, merely oblivious to the need... until red eyes and a bleary existence in general became impossible for even me to not notice.
Medicine seems to be smoothing. I am just truly starting on a very regular schedule again, with them, but I was hitting half time plus since my last appointment. V.A. doc called, and others. It seems she will be resetting scripts, despite my seeming laziness. Not an exact quote. I'll try to call them Monday, reset some things. I haven't been able to do bp readings, I'll try to start that too. They don't understand how crushing medicine and my health issues are. Telling me to take care is like telling me to just be healthy.
I checked calories for raw cream, and general information. A teaspoon contains 51 calories of which 50 is from fat, 5.51 g fat, 0.42 g carbs, and 0.31 grams protein. The site says that is a 95% by fat ratio, while my calculations suggest a 98% by fat ratio. I am well satisfied with my notion of consuming three quarts of the stuff a week. My one concern is that, being liquid it doesn't work the same as solid food.
The goal is to figure out how much per day, and how to skip a day to three and still use that amount. A quart is four cups, a cup is sixteen tablespoons, so... 3 x 4 x 16 is 192 tablespoons. And 192 x 51 is 9,792 calories, divided by 7 is 1, 399 calories per day, divided by 51 is... 27 tablespoons... divided by 16 is 1.71 cups of yum per day. Some days will be skipped, some of it will go into sauces, so... But, yes, for keto? Perfect. I am not sure MTC oil is still required, though it has keto bonuses... might be held in reserve until I accidentally, or willfully, drop out of keto.
I have dropped out, or last I checked. Diabetes has gone bad again as well. I have been careful to, given my impossible to function, think, remember, focus situation, eat right. Am I grazing? eating bad foods unaware? is my body just failing? too much artificial sweeteners? Can't know, not in this deep hard fog. At least the ducks and girls are well tended.
Later.
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Too much sleep, but needed. I will try to sleep a bit more. Trying to push for regular days is too much. I am probably sleeping too much, if that still isn't enough for my body. Until medicine and winter are figured out. I haven't been fighting sleep, merely oblivious to the need... until red eyes and a bleary existence in general became impossible for even me to not notice.
Medicine seems to be smoothing. I am just truly starting on a very regular schedule again, with them, but I was hitting half time plus since my last appointment. V.A. doc called, and others. It seems she will be resetting scripts, despite my seeming laziness. Not an exact quote. I'll try to call them Monday, reset some things. I haven't been able to do bp readings, I'll try to start that too. They don't understand how crushing medicine and my health issues are. Telling me to take care is like telling me to just be healthy.
I checked calories for raw cream, and general information. A teaspoon contains 51 calories of which 50 is from fat, 5.51 g fat, 0.42 g carbs, and 0.31 grams protein. The site says that is a 95% by fat ratio, while my calculations suggest a 98% by fat ratio. I am well satisfied with my notion of consuming three quarts of the stuff a week. My one concern is that, being liquid it doesn't work the same as solid food.
The goal is to figure out how much per day, and how to skip a day to three and still use that amount. A quart is four cups, a cup is sixteen tablespoons, so... 3 x 4 x 16 is 192 tablespoons. And 192 x 51 is 9,792 calories, divided by 7 is 1, 399 calories per day, divided by 51 is... 27 tablespoons... divided by 16 is 1.71 cups of yum per day. Some days will be skipped, some of it will go into sauces, so... But, yes, for keto? Perfect. I am not sure MTC oil is still required, though it has keto bonuses... might be held in reserve until I accidentally, or willfully, drop out of keto.
I have dropped out, or last I checked. Diabetes has gone bad again as well. I have been careful to, given my impossible to function, think, remember, focus situation, eat right. Am I grazing? eating bad foods unaware? is my body just failing? too much artificial sweeteners? Can't know, not in this deep hard fog. At least the ducks and girls are well tended.
Later.
Saturday, November 17, 2018
Does another morning ever surprise?
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Okay, not quite that bad. Or, bad but I realized hard days like this isn't going to kill me. In a sea of dead days, this is an exceptionally difficult day. Thankfully I just recently had a worse day. I can't remember pain, but I have learned to... qualify the depth to some reasonable level of accuracy. Even so, if it isn't very recent, within days, comparison isn't possible. A few exceptions: the worst was getting used to a bad heart, perhaps exceptionally in that I was told the pain was all in my mind; then there was draino; next was the cracked ribs. Each of the latter two took months. The former... I still suffer. It is what pains me, directly and not, to and on this day.
The ducks get let out, and back in, plus food and water; the cats are fed, watered, and have their litter tended; I get fed, something, several times a day, even if just a hot fatted tea. Exhausted as I am I do what is possible. Gaming, too, as that is all that is possible. Today is tough, but not from pain, directly. It exists, but the real suffering derives from absolute exhaustion. After putting the ducks in I will try to sleep again.
Later.
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Okay, not quite that bad. Or, bad but I realized hard days like this isn't going to kill me. In a sea of dead days, this is an exceptionally difficult day. Thankfully I just recently had a worse day. I can't remember pain, but I have learned to... qualify the depth to some reasonable level of accuracy. Even so, if it isn't very recent, within days, comparison isn't possible. A few exceptions: the worst was getting used to a bad heart, perhaps exceptionally in that I was told the pain was all in my mind; then there was draino; next was the cracked ribs. Each of the latter two took months. The former... I still suffer. It is what pains me, directly and not, to and on this day.
The ducks get let out, and back in, plus food and water; the cats are fed, watered, and have their litter tended; I get fed, something, several times a day, even if just a hot fatted tea. Exhausted as I am I do what is possible. Gaming, too, as that is all that is possible. Today is tough, but not from pain, directly. It exists, but the real suffering derives from absolute exhaustion. After putting the ducks in I will try to sleep again.
Later.
Me, myself, and ducks?
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I think we are really beginning to get along. I tend them at least twice a day, though sometimes more. I am learning what can be done, regarding water. It is easier, so far, to water them outside. If it gets low volume, by a given night, it is easier to dump it after letting them in... or if it will be too cold or I suspect it will. But they seem motivated to keep the water thawed during the day.
As well, we have a jolly time herding. They squawk and fuss, if at this time the way small nieces and nephews while playing tag, or it. I actually think they are beginning to like me. An ugly adopted duck... huge, no bill, but good for food, water, safety and freedom as is best, if with strange quacks. Sometimes I merely talk, other times I attempt to emulate. My quack is awful.
Today has been the closest to a painless day since... In a month? More. Why tell docs, their treatment methods are not acceptable. I lived with bruised or cracked ribs for months without pain pills. Like it or not I will take pain before pills. The exhaustion though... No matter how long, or often, I sleep, I can't wake well, fully. My eyes are staying a hangover shade of red-pink from exhaustion? Perhaps too little oxygen?
Since days and nights are crossed, I am back taking medicine in the oppositional pattern. It works. Then I take the water pills at a time I am awake. Otherwise they are at least partially wasted, and probably disturb my sleep as well. I may attempt a nap shortly. Oh, diabetes has become a problem again. I'll have to work on it. If, as someone noticed, I am nearing a catatonic like state. Not lost of mind, just having my body lost to me.
Later? Good night?
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I think we are really beginning to get along. I tend them at least twice a day, though sometimes more. I am learning what can be done, regarding water. It is easier, so far, to water them outside. If it gets low volume, by a given night, it is easier to dump it after letting them in... or if it will be too cold or I suspect it will. But they seem motivated to keep the water thawed during the day.
As well, we have a jolly time herding. They squawk and fuss, if at this time the way small nieces and nephews while playing tag, or it. I actually think they are beginning to like me. An ugly adopted duck... huge, no bill, but good for food, water, safety and freedom as is best, if with strange quacks. Sometimes I merely talk, other times I attempt to emulate. My quack is awful.
Today has been the closest to a painless day since... In a month? More. Why tell docs, their treatment methods are not acceptable. I lived with bruised or cracked ribs for months without pain pills. Like it or not I will take pain before pills. The exhaustion though... No matter how long, or often, I sleep, I can't wake well, fully. My eyes are staying a hangover shade of red-pink from exhaustion? Perhaps too little oxygen?
Since days and nights are crossed, I am back taking medicine in the oppositional pattern. It works. Then I take the water pills at a time I am awake. Otherwise they are at least partially wasted, and probably disturb my sleep as well. I may attempt a nap shortly. Oh, diabetes has become a problem again. I'll have to work on it. If, as someone noticed, I am nearing a catatonic like state. Not lost of mind, just having my body lost to me.
Later? Good night?
Thursday, November 15, 2018
Attempting to get back to it.
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First things first. Which means medicine. I couldn't find either medi-set, containers for two weeks of medicine, per. I tried to take medicine out of the bottles, but that didn't work at all. I pushed to find at least one of the medi-sets, did, and filled it. I do my best, but especially when off off medicines and in winter or summer I can't guarantee. So I check meds closely when taking them.
I changed vitamins back to the old way, one daily not two, plus adding minerals and a b super mix. These really help deal with the water pill problems, such as leg cramps. It also prevents as serious a drain on potassium. I've experimented with more, less, and other. This is about perfect. Despite my calorie load by size requiring double the vitamins, while taking twice as much, but dropping the extras, I started cramping again. Hmm, I still wonder about the extra plus two dailies... that water pill really takes it out.
I have gone another way with the ducks. Instead of trying to keep water in and out, I just water them outside. After speaking with the gent who sold them, watering them once or twice during the day seems enough. With how my system works, they get watered all day. The tub fills quickly. Plus is the right size that between volume, the duck's thirsts, and bathing, it stays thawed, so far, all day. I feed them inside and out, though. Without water they eat less, but do eat some. I really enjoy my little friends.
Oh, and in spite of all else, effort was made to begin climbing. A simple lower single rope technique was arranged. I didn't think I'd be able to do srt, single ascender. I was correct. There are other methods, including nearly double and triple pulley type riggings. The goal is to get to single systems, just not yet. Descend, sure. Just not up... yet. Part of the problems is medicine, both on and off, and the season... if those probably aren't the majority of the problem all combined. I am too weak and still overweight. Next time, a more complex setup.
Very rough. Lots of pain. I have been hitting the aspirin hard. Not to ease the pain, save that focus and actions can happen. It offers a larger chance at some function, better sleep, and a few other things. Brutally painful, some days. I have a lot to do, slim chances at doing it. I'll keep at it.
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First things first. Which means medicine. I couldn't find either medi-set, containers for two weeks of medicine, per. I tried to take medicine out of the bottles, but that didn't work at all. I pushed to find at least one of the medi-sets, did, and filled it. I do my best, but especially when off off medicines and in winter or summer I can't guarantee. So I check meds closely when taking them.
I changed vitamins back to the old way, one daily not two, plus adding minerals and a b super mix. These really help deal with the water pill problems, such as leg cramps. It also prevents as serious a drain on potassium. I've experimented with more, less, and other. This is about perfect. Despite my calorie load by size requiring double the vitamins, while taking twice as much, but dropping the extras, I started cramping again. Hmm, I still wonder about the extra plus two dailies... that water pill really takes it out.
I have gone another way with the ducks. Instead of trying to keep water in and out, I just water them outside. After speaking with the gent who sold them, watering them once or twice during the day seems enough. With how my system works, they get watered all day. The tub fills quickly. Plus is the right size that between volume, the duck's thirsts, and bathing, it stays thawed, so far, all day. I feed them inside and out, though. Without water they eat less, but do eat some. I really enjoy my little friends.
Oh, and in spite of all else, effort was made to begin climbing. A simple lower single rope technique was arranged. I didn't think I'd be able to do srt, single ascender. I was correct. There are other methods, including nearly double and triple pulley type riggings. The goal is to get to single systems, just not yet. Descend, sure. Just not up... yet. Part of the problems is medicine, both on and off, and the season... if those probably aren't the majority of the problem all combined. I am too weak and still overweight. Next time, a more complex setup.
Very rough. Lots of pain. I have been hitting the aspirin hard. Not to ease the pain, save that focus and actions can happen. It offers a larger chance at some function, better sleep, and a few other things. Brutally painful, some days. I have a lot to do, slim chances at doing it. I'll keep at it.
Tuesday, November 13, 2018
Cold out there.
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The outdoor thermometer I trust read 12~13 ° (F). Which isn't horrible, unless you are wearing thin pj's or working with water, or both. I am and was. It looks like I'll be redoing water morning and evening pretty much from now on. I could only imagine doing it for more or larger animals. If my... when my sleep schedule is off, I'll just have to do it when I can, but twice a day. They require water to eat.
I have started medicine, but it is brutal. Everything hurts, and my sleep patterns are going wild. I was stuck in night mode, but it was regular... ish. Now I am sleeping and staying awake or asleep in six to twelve hour increments. For some reason, it is blocking up the nasal passages too. It all works out eventually.
I actually started this early morning, but crashed so hard I couldn't finish until mid-afternoon. Still tired. May barrel roll back to bed still. Later.
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The outdoor thermometer I trust read 12~13 ° (F). Which isn't horrible, unless you are wearing thin pj's or working with water, or both. I am and was. It looks like I'll be redoing water morning and evening pretty much from now on. I could only imagine doing it for more or larger animals. If my... when my sleep schedule is off, I'll just have to do it when I can, but twice a day. They require water to eat.
I have started medicine, but it is brutal. Everything hurts, and my sleep patterns are going wild. I was stuck in night mode, but it was regular... ish. Now I am sleeping and staying awake or asleep in six to twelve hour increments. For some reason, it is blocking up the nasal passages too. It all works out eventually.
I actually started this early morning, but crashed so hard I couldn't finish until mid-afternoon. Still tired. May barrel roll back to bed still. Later.
Sunday, November 11, 2018
Too hungry.
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I kept trying to eat less. Succeeded, but without results. Blood sugar is staying in the 160's ~ 180's. So, yesterday, I made a placket of chicken drumsticks, and ate them. While tasty, I realized, after gorging twice, that the problem was not enough fat. Pork ribs and bacon was thawed for tonight.
Rather than have them separately, I combined them. Pork ribs aren't the fattest, at least not these. Wrapped in two pieces of bacon, however, and you are getting there. I haven't done this before, so had to make it up. I cooked the rip cuts partially first, then wrapped them in bacon for another equal time, having flipped them halfway in each cooking half.
It added a lot of flavor and the fat I needed. A few smaller pieces and I am absolutely stuffed. Two pieces is all I need, unlike the chicken, of which seven pieces just, mostly, worked. Ugh, way too full. May have to see if bacon wrapped chicken works. Not a bad trick, if working with partially cooked meat is novel and... odd. Worth the price of admission.
Crashing. Ate too much in spite of being a tiny... smaller anyway, amount. Nap time? Later.
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I kept trying to eat less. Succeeded, but without results. Blood sugar is staying in the 160's ~ 180's. So, yesterday, I made a placket of chicken drumsticks, and ate them. While tasty, I realized, after gorging twice, that the problem was not enough fat. Pork ribs and bacon was thawed for tonight.
Rather than have them separately, I combined them. Pork ribs aren't the fattest, at least not these. Wrapped in two pieces of bacon, however, and you are getting there. I haven't done this before, so had to make it up. I cooked the rip cuts partially first, then wrapped them in bacon for another equal time, having flipped them halfway in each cooking half.
It added a lot of flavor and the fat I needed. A few smaller pieces and I am absolutely stuffed. Two pieces is all I need, unlike the chicken, of which seven pieces just, mostly, worked. Ugh, way too full. May have to see if bacon wrapped chicken works. Not a bad trick, if working with partially cooked meat is novel and... odd. Worth the price of admission.
Crashing. Ate too much in spite of being a tiny... smaller anyway, amount. Nap time? Later.
Saturday, November 10, 2018
Stuck.
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I did get out, to buy cat food and litter, mostly. The cats have solidly chosen the cheaper... i should say less expensive... litter, it works just as good as the pricier brand. Even when the litter of choice became rank, my very bad, they still wouldn't use the other. I think it's the strange, strong, and large volume of dust the expensive stuff dumps airward when disturbed. All good.
If I keep up on it, clean mostly daily, freshen with extra before it gets too bad, three bags will last well over a month, going on two. At $5 instead of $9 per bag, I too like the less expensive. I will remove that last pan of it from the trials, even if mostly unused. With it taking space but not being used, it exacerbates the wear on the others. The girls rotate well when given right options.
I also needed t.p. and paper towels. I want to use cloth more, but I am terrible about keeping up on those, as opposed to paper towels. And some jobs are just too nasty for cloth. Throwing cloth is further out of my financials and less resource managing. A big group of t.p. this month, another next, and I am good for a year or more. I usually keep two big packs on hand, but forgot, then finances snuck up on me.
Oh, I also bought a few large tall shirts at walmart, various brands, to see if a large is true. It is! They even had large talls! Anyway, it looks like I am actually, at 260~265 pounds into 38 waste and a large shirt size. I am aiming at 36, maybe 34 waist. I don't think I ever did, or could, fit a medium shirt. But a slimmer waist would look even better. As is, my still 52" chest going down, if over a smaller belly... slight tire... to the 38" waist, is starting to look... better. A large? A "v" chest again? Crazy.
The ducks won't be out today? Hmm, I have to feed them, so perhaps. But they won't get the whole day out. I need to check their water, it is freezing every night now. I guess it is a daily, perhaps to become a twice daily? Ugh. I best get too it, check the cat litter and change that one out. The indoor girls are quite happy to have litter cleaned and dry food back in supply. Life might be picking back up.
Later.
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I did get out, to buy cat food and litter, mostly. The cats have solidly chosen the cheaper... i should say less expensive... litter, it works just as good as the pricier brand. Even when the litter of choice became rank, my very bad, they still wouldn't use the other. I think it's the strange, strong, and large volume of dust the expensive stuff dumps airward when disturbed. All good.
If I keep up on it, clean mostly daily, freshen with extra before it gets too bad, three bags will last well over a month, going on two. At $5 instead of $9 per bag, I too like the less expensive. I will remove that last pan of it from the trials, even if mostly unused. With it taking space but not being used, it exacerbates the wear on the others. The girls rotate well when given right options.
I also needed t.p. and paper towels. I want to use cloth more, but I am terrible about keeping up on those, as opposed to paper towels. And some jobs are just too nasty for cloth. Throwing cloth is further out of my financials and less resource managing. A big group of t.p. this month, another next, and I am good for a year or more. I usually keep two big packs on hand, but forgot, then finances snuck up on me.
Oh, I also bought a few large tall shirts at walmart, various brands, to see if a large is true. It is! They even had large talls! Anyway, it looks like I am actually, at 260~265 pounds into 38 waste and a large shirt size. I am aiming at 36, maybe 34 waist. I don't think I ever did, or could, fit a medium shirt. But a slimmer waist would look even better. As is, my still 52" chest going down, if over a smaller belly... slight tire... to the 38" waist, is starting to look... better. A large? A "v" chest again? Crazy.
The ducks won't be out today? Hmm, I have to feed them, so perhaps. But they won't get the whole day out. I need to check their water, it is freezing every night now. I guess it is a daily, perhaps to become a twice daily? Ugh. I best get too it, check the cat litter and change that one out. The indoor girls are quite happy to have litter cleaned and dry food back in supply. Life might be picking back up.
Later.
Thursday, November 8, 2018
Strange.
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Rumbles from the past. One has been named as significant, the other was passed off as something I never saw it as. I... didn't want to write it as such.
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Rumbles from the past. One has been named as significant, the other was passed off as something I never saw it as. I... didn't want to write it as such.
Is she thinking of me?
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I suppose... I could hope.
She is definitely on my mind. Oh, she knows who.
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I suppose... I could hope.
She is definitely on my mind. Oh, she knows who.
Wednesday, November 7, 2018
Darker.
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Much darker much earlier. I needed to recharge batteries for my hefty flashlight after last night. I don't think I used it much. It's more that it was left in the auto a few nights, when it dipped below freezing. The real problem with all batteries. Though there are other problems. Batteries can only be counted upon for a short bit, after a collapse. Solar rechargeable or not. Still, charged and blazing tonight.
Anyway, it's easier to herd the feathered pals when it is darker. Shining the light in the coop, when they see little else, and they know home. The only trick is to get around behind them, to shine on into the hutch or they become reluctant to enter. Then I need to approach from behind to seal the deal even so.
I had to laugh. While they could see the light, from the source on out, and hear me approach, when I spoke, to calm them, I ended up doing just the opposite. They went from church women in the pews to the same, but later in the bingo parlor. I had to laugh, a bark... then stifle that and just grin so as to avoid a flight back out into the yard. A bit of extra food, plus their water looked good enough... changed yesterday, and tomorrow. I like that their home is getting aired.
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Much darker much earlier. I needed to recharge batteries for my hefty flashlight after last night. I don't think I used it much. It's more that it was left in the auto a few nights, when it dipped below freezing. The real problem with all batteries. Though there are other problems. Batteries can only be counted upon for a short bit, after a collapse. Solar rechargeable or not. Still, charged and blazing tonight.
Anyway, it's easier to herd the feathered pals when it is darker. Shining the light in the coop, when they see little else, and they know home. The only trick is to get around behind them, to shine on into the hutch or they become reluctant to enter. Then I need to approach from behind to seal the deal even so.
I had to laugh. While they could see the light, from the source on out, and hear me approach, when I spoke, to calm them, I ended up doing just the opposite. They went from church women in the pews to the same, but later in the bingo parlor. I had to laugh, a bark... then stifle that and just grin so as to avoid a flight back out into the yard. A bit of extra food, plus their water looked good enough... changed yesterday, and tomorrow. I like that their home is getting aired.
So late, but a good day.
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I went to bed relatively early, again. It didn't matter. Going down at 2:00 but I couldn't wake until 13:00, pretty much on both dots. No pain. All else seems good.
I chased my feathered friends out, broke the thin ice on their outside water, and took their food out for them. They and I are working out just how to do things were hassle and fuss are minimal. Then I open the coop as fully as possible, to let it air out. It's a sunny but cold morning. The ducks probably prefer the cold. It's the summer that will get them, if winter will be the more complicated time for me as to water freezing. I... have an idea or two in that regard. We'll see.
Later.
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I went to bed relatively early, again. It didn't matter. Going down at 2:00 but I couldn't wake until 13:00, pretty much on both dots. No pain. All else seems good.
I chased my feathered friends out, broke the thin ice on their outside water, and took their food out for them. They and I are working out just how to do things were hassle and fuss are minimal. Then I open the coop as fully as possible, to let it air out. It's a sunny but cold morning. The ducks probably prefer the cold. It's the summer that will get them, if winter will be the more complicated time for me as to water freezing. I... have an idea or two in that regard. We'll see.
Later.
Tuesday, November 6, 2018
A new, if dark, day.
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Down shortly after 6:00, at about the last post... despite the obama timestamp. It'll take a while to bring white truth back to America. Depending on whether deep state does a soft coup or if democracy and Trump wins today will dictate the speed... if... not in the way the crass might suspect. Deny even the poor choice of political "choice" and people do it for themselves.
Anyway. Waking at a bit after noon. I did feed the ducks, but didn't, won't, put them out today. Too gray of a day. Though... I may try to push past such. It is good for me to get out, ambulate, more with the herding thing. Plus it is good for the ducks and the coop. Cleaner, clearer. I need a better, smaller, outside waterer... trough. Perhaps extra feeders, just for outside. It might not be much, but a few ducks has proven to be impetus enough to stretch my life just a bit more. I may try to get them out five days a week, as a goal. That gives me a few days off.
Oh, an oddity concerning the ducks... I found the coop open yesterday afternoon, when I woke. Which is fine. I suspect a goodly neighbor has... thoughts for the birds, perhaps me, and does this kindness if they have time. That isn't the odd thing. I found one of the hens out. I suspect a fowl quarrel lead to a window escape... quite probably accidental. She returned to the inner door, begging to be returned to the... not gaggle but it'll do for a temporary plural... gaggle of quacks. I'll need to 'fence' the windows. Should have already.
After fatted tea in a bit, and a meat and egg platter, plus several hours... up to two... I'll do a blood test. Oh, and the Veteran's Administration has told me, through the puppet, that they won't give out blood sugar testing supplies if I am not on insulin. To save money. This despite that with the tester I have learned to eat right rather than cost them over a thousand a month in two shots they were trying to force me to take. A thousand dollars a month, PLUS glucose testing - versus thirty dollars (at least if they didn't make "unfortunate" back door deals for overpriced goods with unscrupulous crony capitalists). Money savings? What?
Get rid of the V.A., president Trump. For the good of vets first, then the nation as a whole. Flush the white collar criminal union, give vets a truly open health policy, free from the worst elements of bureaucratic and crony capitalist malfeasance. We will go were doctors understand they are employees... or unemployed. Burn it.
Later.
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Down shortly after 6:00, at about the last post... despite the obama timestamp. It'll take a while to bring white truth back to America. Depending on whether deep state does a soft coup or if democracy and Trump wins today will dictate the speed... if... not in the way the crass might suspect. Deny even the poor choice of political "choice" and people do it for themselves.
Anyway. Waking at a bit after noon. I did feed the ducks, but didn't, won't, put them out today. Too gray of a day. Though... I may try to push past such. It is good for me to get out, ambulate, more with the herding thing. Plus it is good for the ducks and the coop. Cleaner, clearer. I need a better, smaller, outside waterer... trough. Perhaps extra feeders, just for outside. It might not be much, but a few ducks has proven to be impetus enough to stretch my life just a bit more. I may try to get them out five days a week, as a goal. That gives me a few days off.
Oh, an oddity concerning the ducks... I found the coop open yesterday afternoon, when I woke. Which is fine. I suspect a goodly neighbor has... thoughts for the birds, perhaps me, and does this kindness if they have time. That isn't the odd thing. I found one of the hens out. I suspect a fowl quarrel lead to a window escape... quite probably accidental. She returned to the inner door, begging to be returned to the... not gaggle but it'll do for a temporary plural... gaggle of quacks. I'll need to 'fence' the windows. Should have already.
After fatted tea in a bit, and a meat and egg platter, plus several hours... up to two... I'll do a blood test. Oh, and the Veteran's Administration has told me, through the puppet, that they won't give out blood sugar testing supplies if I am not on insulin. To save money. This despite that with the tester I have learned to eat right rather than cost them over a thousand a month in two shots they were trying to force me to take. A thousand dollars a month, PLUS glucose testing - versus thirty dollars (at least if they didn't make "unfortunate" back door deals for overpriced goods with unscrupulous crony capitalists). Money savings? What?
Get rid of the V.A., president Trump. For the good of vets first, then the nation as a whole. Flush the white collar criminal union, give vets a truly open health policy, free from the worst elements of bureaucratic and crony capitalist malfeasance. We will go were doctors understand they are employees... or unemployed. Burn it.
Later.
Not quite back to it.
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One concern is tended. On my return trip, I stopped for fast food, and caffeine. As bad as "diet" soda is, without tea or my sugar alt, I went with regular soda. Then, Saturday, I tore into the remnants of Halloween candy. I had been hoping to offload it Friday but the opportunity fell through. I finally tested Monday midday, expecting high 180's, perhaps more honestly into the 200's, maybe higher. It was 124. I generously called it pre-meal, but I think it was after-meal... between an hour and two after.
One test could be a fluke. It is... promising. I haven't been fasting, not even intermittent fasting. Not quite enough fat for keto either... probably. I'll test tomorrow, blood sugar and ketones. Hungry. Now. Will have a bite before crashing. Pork coins or a few chicken thighs?
I got the ducks out, then back into their home. They don't go far, and always as a group. It gives their roost time to air. As well, if their food and water containers get too messy, it is easier and quieter to change those with the group removed. They are beginning to leave and return with less prompting. As well, I am learning duck rodeo-fu. Like kung-fu, only with quacks.
Good night, and morning.
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One concern is tended. On my return trip, I stopped for fast food, and caffeine. As bad as "diet" soda is, without tea or my sugar alt, I went with regular soda. Then, Saturday, I tore into the remnants of Halloween candy. I had been hoping to offload it Friday but the opportunity fell through. I finally tested Monday midday, expecting high 180's, perhaps more honestly into the 200's, maybe higher. It was 124. I generously called it pre-meal, but I think it was after-meal... between an hour and two after.
One test could be a fluke. It is... promising. I haven't been fasting, not even intermittent fasting. Not quite enough fat for keto either... probably. I'll test tomorrow, blood sugar and ketones. Hungry. Now. Will have a bite before crashing. Pork coins or a few chicken thighs?
I got the ducks out, then back into their home. They don't go far, and always as a group. It gives their roost time to air. As well, if their food and water containers get too messy, it is easier and quieter to change those with the group removed. They are beginning to leave and return with less prompting. As well, I am learning duck rodeo-fu. Like kung-fu, only with quacks.
Good night, and morning.
Sunday, November 4, 2018
Mostly recovered from the three day stretch.
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I have been awake, plenty, since returning Friday. My sleep cycle is rife with holes... will have to be patched before an attempt at a day schedule can be attempted. My body aches, of muscle and bone, from the shoulders up. Hmm, while I rest I may try to remember neck and shoulder maneuvers every few hours. So tired still I will otherwise blindly, simply, just... sit.
I put on a shirt that used to be too small. It fits loose. I didn't ever think it could fit. The shoulders. I didn't think I would fit a large... not extra large, a man's large. I do need tall size, still, of course. I just wanted to check another brand of large. Crazy. I am only down to the 260's, if I am muscling heavily somehow. Not large bulk, but what I have is nigh onto feral, impossible, raw, strength. Always been a sort of stupid strong. This is heading back to crazy strength, by way of feral? Yes.
I'll keep at it. I also need to rest med-sets and begin testing bp again. Ugh. Can barely think. I'll do it today high or hell water. I have meat thawed, to be grilled. Will have hot tea for fatted tea by the time that rolls around. Ducks are fed and watered. I won't push them out today... raining, gloomy. I doubt if they care, it's more about me not wanting to herd them later. Usually I will, several days a week, just not this day of recovery.
I called my mother. All seems well. It's good to talk. This week I'd like to call my brother. A few times a month. I'd like to become friends again. We have gone through phases. I... think it is time to mature beyond phases. And I enjoyed our last conversation, if that isn't the absolute point. While many may be called brother, if your brother is not among them there is a problem. Hopefully, if it works out, he might start calling when he feels the want or need to talk. Once he... trusts.
Have a great day. Remember the Lord's day. Later.
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I have been awake, plenty, since returning Friday. My sleep cycle is rife with holes... will have to be patched before an attempt at a day schedule can be attempted. My body aches, of muscle and bone, from the shoulders up. Hmm, while I rest I may try to remember neck and shoulder maneuvers every few hours. So tired still I will otherwise blindly, simply, just... sit.
I put on a shirt that used to be too small. It fits loose. I didn't ever think it could fit. The shoulders. I didn't think I would fit a large... not extra large, a man's large. I do need tall size, still, of course. I just wanted to check another brand of large. Crazy. I am only down to the 260's, if I am muscling heavily somehow. Not large bulk, but what I have is nigh onto feral, impossible, raw, strength. Always been a sort of stupid strong. This is heading back to crazy strength, by way of feral? Yes.
I'll keep at it. I also need to rest med-sets and begin testing bp again. Ugh. Can barely think. I'll do it today high or hell water. I have meat thawed, to be grilled. Will have hot tea for fatted tea by the time that rolls around. Ducks are fed and watered. I won't push them out today... raining, gloomy. I doubt if they care, it's more about me not wanting to herd them later. Usually I will, several days a week, just not this day of recovery.
I called my mother. All seems well. It's good to talk. This week I'd like to call my brother. A few times a month. I'd like to become friends again. We have gone through phases. I... think it is time to mature beyond phases. And I enjoyed our last conversation, if that isn't the absolute point. While many may be called brother, if your brother is not among them there is a problem. Hopefully, if it works out, he might start calling when he feels the want or need to talk. Once he... trusts.
Have a great day. Remember the Lord's day. Later.
Friday, November 2, 2018
Three days awake?
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Until yesterday evening, yes. Which made posting impossible. The first night was a fuss from the early, false, drive to the appointment, the second was trying to get days and nights sorted. The third day too. Then it was Halloween. I had to get candy and be up for visitors. With the early appointment, it got too late for me to sleep.
I wasn't sure if I would make it, or back, but I did. Then I stayed awake until early afternoon. I crashed so hard I think I heard thunder with the impact. I think it was a fourteen hour sleep, if I may go back to sleep, or get a nap in a few hours. I am wavering on that, would prefer to be awake for a bit.
Medicine is again available. And they will be supplying a blood sugar tester, if limiting it to twice a day. Didn't want to since I refused their so-called medicine, but I told her food is my medicine. They just don't get it. I, we, don't trust them or their medicine. She keeps trying to convince me, but either won't or can't answer a set of questions that allow faith... her answers prove my disbelief. Going on insulin is only slightly different than going on heroin. Only without it you die. Permanent.
Later.
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Until yesterday evening, yes. Which made posting impossible. The first night was a fuss from the early, false, drive to the appointment, the second was trying to get days and nights sorted. The third day too. Then it was Halloween. I had to get candy and be up for visitors. With the early appointment, it got too late for me to sleep.
I wasn't sure if I would make it, or back, but I did. Then I stayed awake until early afternoon. I crashed so hard I think I heard thunder with the impact. I think it was a fourteen hour sleep, if I may go back to sleep, or get a nap in a few hours. I am wavering on that, would prefer to be awake for a bit.
Medicine is again available. And they will be supplying a blood sugar tester, if limiting it to twice a day. Didn't want to since I refused their so-called medicine, but I told her food is my medicine. They just don't get it. I, we, don't trust them or their medicine. She keeps trying to convince me, but either won't or can't answer a set of questions that allow faith... her answers prove my disbelief. Going on insulin is only slightly different than going on heroin. Only without it you die. Permanent.
Later.
Monday, October 29, 2018
Wrong day.
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I thought I had an appointment today. I stayed up, since I couldn't both sleep and make it to the appointment. Oh well. The only bad thing is the cost of gas.
I was testing blood sugar through the night. It stayed around 130, checking every four hours. I expected the fasting waking blood sugar to jump, perhaps up to 140 or more likely 160. Nope, it was a 124 reading. Fantastic. I'll never quite figure this out. Perhaps now that I am probably in ketosis, consuming body fat (?just not sure how well into keto, or if that really works as advertised?), maybe my body acts very differently to... many, all?, foods?
I let the ducks out before going to bed. I gave the girls, cats, a treat during the night, but need to feed them soon. I also got trash and recycling out. Was today recycling? Will know shortly. Oh, and stopped at the post. I didn't waste the opportunity of being up and out. Of course, shaved and showered first. Okies.
Later.
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I thought I had an appointment today. I stayed up, since I couldn't both sleep and make it to the appointment. Oh well. The only bad thing is the cost of gas.
I was testing blood sugar through the night. It stayed around 130, checking every four hours. I expected the fasting waking blood sugar to jump, perhaps up to 140 or more likely 160. Nope, it was a 124 reading. Fantastic. I'll never quite figure this out. Perhaps now that I am probably in ketosis, consuming body fat (?just not sure how well into keto, or if that really works as advertised?), maybe my body acts very differently to... many, all?, foods?
I let the ducks out before going to bed. I gave the girls, cats, a treat during the night, but need to feed them soon. I also got trash and recycling out. Was today recycling? Will know shortly. Oh, and stopped at the post. I didn't waste the opportunity of being up and out. Of course, shaved and showered first. Okies.
Later.
Not much.
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I keep starting without finishing things. I just get lost. I'll get a shower shortly.
Blood sugar has been doing much better. While it was 166 last night at bedtime, it was strangely lower fasting, at 159. Unusual, unless this is the start of the breaking point were that becomes the norm. I kept eating yesterday, which is why it was so high. Anyway, the two other readings today were 130 then 133 later. My seven day average is 147 for the week, down from 152 for the two week and 161 for the month. I have finally recovered from visiting my mother.
The rough measure of ketones available to me suggests it is right at 80. All good. Perhaps to much protein today, but not a major complaint.
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I keep starting without finishing things. I just get lost. I'll get a shower shortly.
Blood sugar has been doing much better. While it was 166 last night at bedtime, it was strangely lower fasting, at 159. Unusual, unless this is the start of the breaking point were that becomes the norm. I kept eating yesterday, which is why it was so high. Anyway, the two other readings today were 130 then 133 later. My seven day average is 147 for the week, down from 152 for the two week and 161 for the month. I have finally recovered from visiting my mother.
The rough measure of ketones available to me suggests it is right at 80. All good. Perhaps to much protein today, but not a major complaint.
Sunday, October 28, 2018
Forgot to mention...
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While cleaning in the front room, the grip exercisers were found. From one fifty to three fifty in fifty pound increments. The Boss... I had said I got up to doing three fifty... he questioned how long ago. I had to think. Two, maybe three years ago? Since I did any working? Yes.
Anyway, that made me nervous to test. I started with the three hundred gripper. I was able to kick out five without thinking, then several more, right and similar left. I could do about three or four half pulls on the three fifty. All without real strain, wasn't up to pushing... I'm old, ill, ya know. Yeah, I am satisfied. When I got to doing three fifty regularly I became able to hurt my hands just by gripping things full force.
Not bad for an old, mostly dead, guy. *grins* Dang kids question everything. They say, for an adult man, greater than 144 pounds is excellent. For my age group alone though? I guess that counts. Serious mojo.
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While cleaning in the front room, the grip exercisers were found. From one fifty to three fifty in fifty pound increments. The Boss... I had said I got up to doing three fifty... he questioned how long ago. I had to think. Two, maybe three years ago? Since I did any working? Yes.
Anyway, that made me nervous to test. I started with the three hundred gripper. I was able to kick out five without thinking, then several more, right and similar left. I could do about three or four half pulls on the three fifty. All without real strain, wasn't up to pushing... I'm old, ill, ya know. Yeah, I am satisfied. When I got to doing three fifty regularly I became able to hurt my hands just by gripping things full force.
Not bad for an old, mostly dead, guy. *grins* Dang kids question everything. They say, for an adult man, greater than 144 pounds is excellent. For my age group alone though? I guess that counts. Serious mojo.
Saturday, October 27, 2018
Not these escargot.
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I tried this type before, but didn't rinse. I ended with, it seemed, as much sand as meat. I was unsure whether to try this kind again. I had some so I did. This time I rinsed the snails extremely well, several times. Then fried shortly in butter and onions, adding sour cream to cool quickly plus add fat. Far from cold, but no longer cooking, I ate.
No. Too... gamey. If you have ever eaten good and bad... gamey... frog legs you understand. Gamey, for swamp critters, means swampy tasting. The mire, decay, vegetal nature is what one is left with. The texture was so-so. I have other types I will try. I have eaten wonderful escargot. I am positive it couldn't have been fresh. I truly desire the experience, so will keep trying.
The sauce was delectable. I might like fresh garlic rather than powdered. I might add lemon. Or not. Nice options if available. Oh, just a rare holiday treat, so price... to a degree... isn't a major issue. A bit disappointed. I'll try again with one of the better brands.
Blood sugar, after eggs and chops, and a fatted tea dropped to 130. It surprised me. I took the read at what is usually the high after meal read, two hours after. With nothing else save corn, because of the escargot debacle of '18, I am having another fatted tea, this time with MTC oil. I need to remember that from now on. Even twice a day, with or without the full ketonic load. It really adds solid good extra fat. Which really is working. I'll take another read at 18:00 and 22-23:00 if still awake.
Later.
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Forgot to post. The last blood sugar was 129, after more. I tried two other cans of escargot. What seemed best was one in which the snails were not precooked. It still wasn't fantastic, only tolerable. Perhaps more exacting effort or different or slightly different recipe. Just baked in butter, perhaps garlic, with fresh lemon might work best. Everybody needs an occasional luxury... and challenge in obtaining it? I think so.
The problem is that I am still hungry. Perhaps a glass of milk and sardines. Not perfect, or terribly filling, but... doable and keto right.
Good night. Probably.
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I tried this type before, but didn't rinse. I ended with, it seemed, as much sand as meat. I was unsure whether to try this kind again. I had some so I did. This time I rinsed the snails extremely well, several times. Then fried shortly in butter and onions, adding sour cream to cool quickly plus add fat. Far from cold, but no longer cooking, I ate.
No. Too... gamey. If you have ever eaten good and bad... gamey... frog legs you understand. Gamey, for swamp critters, means swampy tasting. The mire, decay, vegetal nature is what one is left with. The texture was so-so. I have other types I will try. I have eaten wonderful escargot. I am positive it couldn't have been fresh. I truly desire the experience, so will keep trying.
The sauce was delectable. I might like fresh garlic rather than powdered. I might add lemon. Or not. Nice options if available. Oh, just a rare holiday treat, so price... to a degree... isn't a major issue. A bit disappointed. I'll try again with one of the better brands.
Blood sugar, after eggs and chops, and a fatted tea dropped to 130. It surprised me. I took the read at what is usually the high after meal read, two hours after. With nothing else save corn, because of the escargot debacle of '18, I am having another fatted tea, this time with MTC oil. I need to remember that from now on. Even twice a day, with or without the full ketonic load. It really adds solid good extra fat. Which really is working. I'll take another read at 18:00 and 22-23:00 if still awake.
Later.
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Forgot to post. The last blood sugar was 129, after more. I tried two other cans of escargot. What seemed best was one in which the snails were not precooked. It still wasn't fantastic, only tolerable. Perhaps more exacting effort or different or slightly different recipe. Just baked in butter, perhaps garlic, with fresh lemon might work best. Everybody needs an occasional luxury... and challenge in obtaining it? I think so.
The problem is that I am still hungry. Perhaps a glass of milk and sardines. Not perfect, or terribly filling, but... doable and keto right.
Good night. Probably.
A good morning.
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Or. Not a bad one. I'm a bit worn and slightly down... more on the physical side of things. Though the spirit and mind offer nothing to help dig out. Still, I'm not truly in the dumps, just... worn, as suggested. I'll check the chops in a bit. If thawed, I'll have a few with eggs and fatted tea with said. A fatted tea gets my fat count way up, quickly and easily.
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Or. Not a bad one. I'm a bit worn and slightly down... more on the physical side of things. Though the spirit and mind offer nothing to help dig out. Still, I'm not truly in the dumps, just... worn, as suggested. I'll check the chops in a bit. If thawed, I'll have a few with eggs and fatted tea with said. A fatted tea gets my fat count way up, quickly and easily.
Friday, October 26, 2018
A few stopped by.
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I'm never sure. According to blogger, my range the last four to five years has been from a low of just under a thousand to a high of 11,650 or so in a month. Average is two to three thousand. So far this month I hit about 3560. Never sure about those numbers, if goog is just as likely to undercount as over. Especially for those of us who bucked the rez.
Or, more, depending on if the sjw's get their hands on counter algo's. They keep lists of bad thinkers, probably share data between federal bureaucracies such as the V.A. and social security through union "workers" (who are paid tax dimes to spy on malcontents) which share data with drivers license to auto registration and probably on to big tech. So, hard to know how much, or when, someone in there is corrupting data or for what purpose. Anyway...
Blood sugar was high this morning, at 162. After a meal it dropped, but not much. Dropping to 152, for what it was worth. I did get hungry and so ate later last night. All good for keto stuff. Ugh. Frustrating. Often I have little trouble keeping blood sugar down, until right before doctor appointments. Keto is back to between 40 and 80. While I keep slipping on intermittent fasting (The last few days) I am certainly eating a very low calorie and higher fat diet. Bleh.
Later.
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I'm never sure. According to blogger, my range the last four to five years has been from a low of just under a thousand to a high of 11,650 or so in a month. Average is two to three thousand. So far this month I hit about 3560. Never sure about those numbers, if goog is just as likely to undercount as over. Especially for those of us who bucked the rez.
Or, more, depending on if the sjw's get their hands on counter algo's. They keep lists of bad thinkers, probably share data between federal bureaucracies such as the V.A. and social security through union "workers" (who are paid tax dimes to spy on malcontents) which share data with drivers license to auto registration and probably on to big tech. So, hard to know how much, or when, someone in there is corrupting data or for what purpose. Anyway...
Blood sugar was high this morning, at 162. After a meal it dropped, but not much. Dropping to 152, for what it was worth. I did get hungry and so ate later last night. All good for keto stuff. Ugh. Frustrating. Often I have little trouble keeping blood sugar down, until right before doctor appointments. Keto is back to between 40 and 80. While I keep slipping on intermittent fasting (The last few days) I am certainly eating a very low calorie and higher fat diet. Bleh.
Later.
Thursday, October 25, 2018
Cancelled.
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I had an appointment today. Couldn't make it. Just in bad shape. Blood sugar was good, 130 fasting if I hadn't written, 141 later. Not sure about after dinner. I'm planning on a fatted tea before sleep.
I did make a shorter trip. Just to drop off paperwork to my doctor. I am getting a copy, in case this bureaucracy also 'doesn't receive' the paperwork. I also took the vehicle in for a cleaning. Still a bit rough, but not the cleaner's fault. It's just been to long.
It's a rough day. Cool and dark. I'll go on to bed shortly. Tired. Ill a bit. I did get a shower and shave, and in all ways was ready to go. I just... couldn't. I did call, cancel, and reset. There is that.
It's as good as a bad day gets. Good night.
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A pleasant surprise update as I head to bed. Didn't want to check blood sugar. I bought a couple of Hardee's roast beef sandwiches, a medium and large. No soda, just tea, with the one that lasted the trip home. Still... bread. Anyway, I tested. My blood sugar was 116 four hours after the meal, or so? All good. Good night.
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I had an appointment today. Couldn't make it. Just in bad shape. Blood sugar was good, 130 fasting if I hadn't written, 141 later. Not sure about after dinner. I'm planning on a fatted tea before sleep.
I did make a shorter trip. Just to drop off paperwork to my doctor. I am getting a copy, in case this bureaucracy also 'doesn't receive' the paperwork. I also took the vehicle in for a cleaning. Still a bit rough, but not the cleaner's fault. It's just been to long.
It's a rough day. Cool and dark. I'll go on to bed shortly. Tired. Ill a bit. I did get a shower and shave, and in all ways was ready to go. I just... couldn't. I did call, cancel, and reset. There is that.
It's as good as a bad day gets. Good night.
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A pleasant surprise update as I head to bed. Didn't want to check blood sugar. I bought a couple of Hardee's roast beef sandwiches, a medium and large. No soda, just tea, with the one that lasted the trip home. Still... bread. Anyway, I tested. My blood sugar was 116 four hours after the meal, or so? All good. Good night.
Uhmm, love the vibes.
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They come pouring in sometimes. Some from past loves, some from guys who get it... or want to. Vicarious might be what is left? Some from dames with... things of their own in mind. Sometimes, usually, it's a small joy, sometimes grand, though it can be a terror. Today it is a small joy, or more. Too early to quite get the sense... other than that it is good or better.
Oh, fasting blood sugar was 130. I haven't done anything different. Yesterday it went 150 fasting, 180 after a fatted tea lunch, then 130 for bedtime. Nothing but plain tea and that fatted tea... wait, I did have a can of corn and three drummies. Hmm... same as the last few days. I don't get it, but I'll take today's result.
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They come pouring in sometimes. Some from past loves, some from guys who get it... or want to. Vicarious might be what is left? Some from dames with... things of their own in mind. Sometimes, usually, it's a small joy, sometimes grand, though it can be a terror. Today it is a small joy, or more. Too early to quite get the sense... other than that it is good or better.
Oh, fasting blood sugar was 130. I haven't done anything different. Yesterday it went 150 fasting, 180 after a fatted tea lunch, then 130 for bedtime. Nothing but plain tea and that fatted tea... wait, I did have a can of corn and three drummies. Hmm... same as the last few days. I don't get it, but I'll take today's result.
Wednesday, October 24, 2018
Not good.
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I don't hurt all the time. Four or five hours a day it gets rough. Thankfully aspirin handles it when I need relief. Too tired to do much, not tired enough to sleep. The ducks and cats are tended. I even mostly take care of self. Mostly. I need to do some things, but am having difficulty getting going.
Blood sugar was weird yesterday. It started at 180 fasting, then dropped to 156 after my fatted tea, 165 after my one food meal, 152 without anything for hours. Oddly it is starting out at 150 fasting this morning. It's still lame for as little as I have been eating. We'll see.
I sometimes wonder if sugar is being added to things. It only takes a little, wouldn't be noticed in some things. Though, perhaps some foods develop sugars? Oh, ketones dropped to nil too. All I ate yesterday was two fatted teas and three pieces of slightly overdone chicken drummies and about four ounces of pork roast. Hmm, I drank a lot less, the last two days. I wonder if that is, or part of, the problem?
I turned the furnace to 72, just because, yesterday. I couldn't tell the difference. I will definitely keep it at 68. I used to turn it up before a shower. I have decided that isn't helpful either. I would go down to 66, but that doesn't give me much margin if the heat goes out. Yeah.
This is my 9009th post. Apparently someone IS counting.
Well, tea time. First some cold, then hot fatted. Later.
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I don't hurt all the time. Four or five hours a day it gets rough. Thankfully aspirin handles it when I need relief. Too tired to do much, not tired enough to sleep. The ducks and cats are tended. I even mostly take care of self. Mostly. I need to do some things, but am having difficulty getting going.
Blood sugar was weird yesterday. It started at 180 fasting, then dropped to 156 after my fatted tea, 165 after my one food meal, 152 without anything for hours. Oddly it is starting out at 150 fasting this morning. It's still lame for as little as I have been eating. We'll see.
I sometimes wonder if sugar is being added to things. It only takes a little, wouldn't be noticed in some things. Though, perhaps some foods develop sugars? Oh, ketones dropped to nil too. All I ate yesterday was two fatted teas and three pieces of slightly overdone chicken drummies and about four ounces of pork roast. Hmm, I drank a lot less, the last two days. I wonder if that is, or part of, the problem?
I turned the furnace to 72, just because, yesterday. I couldn't tell the difference. I will definitely keep it at 68. I used to turn it up before a shower. I have decided that isn't helpful either. I would go down to 66, but that doesn't give me much margin if the heat goes out. Yeah.
This is my 9009th post. Apparently someone IS counting.
Well, tea time. First some cold, then hot fatted. Later.
Tuesday, October 23, 2018
Oh, forgot to post.
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Up around 9:00. It is nearing noon. The ducks were checked. I opened their hutch, left it open for half an hour. They didn't go outside. Being wet, sprinkling or more, I didn't wish to put them out and chase them back in. Still, they had the opportunity. I'll be a bit more pushy on the next sunny day. I want to do work in there.
Fasting blood sugar was 180. Not fantastic but better then into the 200's. Ketones are not just measurable again, but are between 40 and 80. A fast return if I had been so much better. It looks like impetus, keto momentum, ore something along those lines, if you get right back to it, might work to allow a faster return to ketosis. Amazing. It also means diabetes should be back under solid control shortly... the two seem to be kissing cousins, and least in my biosystems.
Hot tea for a fatted tea ketonic is on the way. That usually lowers my blood sugar, with or without keto goop. If so, I'll eat a small chunk of pork roast, with another fatted tea... the second without any keto goops. Actually, a fatted tea minus goop, just tea and heavy raw cream, lowers my blood sugar the most and quickest. Weird, if cool. The blood test doesn't have a method or reason to lie. And the data is contrary to my preferred theory, so it actually is a data confession, not a boast.
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Up around 9:00. It is nearing noon. The ducks were checked. I opened their hutch, left it open for half an hour. They didn't go outside. Being wet, sprinkling or more, I didn't wish to put them out and chase them back in. Still, they had the opportunity. I'll be a bit more pushy on the next sunny day. I want to do work in there.
Fasting blood sugar was 180. Not fantastic but better then into the 200's. Ketones are not just measurable again, but are between 40 and 80. A fast return if I had been so much better. It looks like impetus, keto momentum, ore something along those lines, if you get right back to it, might work to allow a faster return to ketosis. Amazing. It also means diabetes should be back under solid control shortly... the two seem to be kissing cousins, and least in my biosystems.
Hot tea for a fatted tea ketonic is on the way. That usually lowers my blood sugar, with or without keto goop. If so, I'll eat a small chunk of pork roast, with another fatted tea... the second without any keto goops. Actually, a fatted tea minus goop, just tea and heavy raw cream, lowers my blood sugar the most and quickest. Weird, if cool. The blood test doesn't have a method or reason to lie. And the data is contrary to my preferred theory, so it actually is a data confession, not a boast.
Monday, October 22, 2018
I was becoming worried.
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My blood sugar not only spiked, it was stat at or above 200 for a bit more than 24 hours. It finally went down to 171, after a farred tea. Three hours since, it just hit 123. Crazy that it took so long, then dropped so far so fast. I'm a bit worried still. It has popped back up for no good reason.
I did set the pond up, hopefully better. But it was near their bedtime, and started raining. Sprinkling, if with a chance of heavier, longer, rain. I didn't wish to herd in the rain. Tomorrow. As well as cleaning, adding wood chips and leaves, plus adding friction, via bath grip tape, to the ramp... in an attempt to get them to nest on the platform.
I am going light on food. Two fatted teas, with ketone crystals and various other of the mixes, plus four small chicken pieces, mostly drummies. I'll go light on food until diabetes is back well into the good numbers. Perhaps ketones too. I can, might as well. I am amazed the fatted tea isn't a problem, for either reading. My weight is holding steady at 263. No more loss, if as mentioned, that isn't actually the or even a point to the process. I am losing size againg. PJ's are falling off. Time for new, before I lose them. It seems as if I just got these. But, okay.
I am burning up, and it is 68° F. I was thinking it was the higher blood sugar... until the 123 reading. Bah! It could be holdover from... nope, it's been this way all week. It... winter is coming.
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My blood sugar not only spiked, it was stat at or above 200 for a bit more than 24 hours. It finally went down to 171, after a farred tea. Three hours since, it just hit 123. Crazy that it took so long, then dropped so far so fast. I'm a bit worried still. It has popped back up for no good reason.
I did set the pond up, hopefully better. But it was near their bedtime, and started raining. Sprinkling, if with a chance of heavier, longer, rain. I didn't wish to herd in the rain. Tomorrow. As well as cleaning, adding wood chips and leaves, plus adding friction, via bath grip tape, to the ramp... in an attempt to get them to nest on the platform.
I am going light on food. Two fatted teas, with ketone crystals and various other of the mixes, plus four small chicken pieces, mostly drummies. I'll go light on food until diabetes is back well into the good numbers. Perhaps ketones too. I can, might as well. I am amazed the fatted tea isn't a problem, for either reading. My weight is holding steady at 263. No more loss, if as mentioned, that isn't actually the or even a point to the process. I am losing size againg. PJ's are falling off. Time for new, before I lose them. It seems as if I just got these. But, okay.
I am burning up, and it is 68° F. I was thinking it was the higher blood sugar... until the 123 reading. Bah! It could be holdover from... nope, it's been this way all week. It... winter is coming.
An extra duck hen arrived.
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They had six drakes but only one hen. I had hoped for more hens, so asked about her. I'll have to offer them some beef next time I do a larger buy, or pork. Meat in, meat out. I then let them out, built up logs around a small tub, and let them out. They didn't go far. They also wouldn't get in the pool. I'll see about building around the tub more, with rocks. Though, maybe, they just don't have that in their specific breed nature.
Chasing them back in was more entertaining than frustrating. I have improved my odds. I yet need too feed them. May let them out again, feeding them near the water. No worries about them drowning. But first I'll build up a better approach to the tub. They were enjoying the overflow. Still, I am hoping they go swimming. Perhaps they won't, since only two or three can be in at a time? All together or none? I should get a kiddie pool. I thought this would do.
Blood sugar jacked and I dropped out of ketosis. I think the potato salad did some of it, but it was jam and bread. Oh well. Might as well finish off the potato salad, if I will add horseradish and sour cream to the last of it, as per advice. Chicken, cold for a change, to accompany for a late lunch before playing landscaper.
Later.
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They had six drakes but only one hen. I had hoped for more hens, so asked about her. I'll have to offer them some beef next time I do a larger buy, or pork. Meat in, meat out. I then let them out, built up logs around a small tub, and let them out. They didn't go far. They also wouldn't get in the pool. I'll see about building around the tub more, with rocks. Though, maybe, they just don't have that in their specific breed nature.
Chasing them back in was more entertaining than frustrating. I have improved my odds. I yet need too feed them. May let them out again, feeding them near the water. No worries about them drowning. But first I'll build up a better approach to the tub. They were enjoying the overflow. Still, I am hoping they go swimming. Perhaps they won't, since only two or three can be in at a time? All together or none? I should get a kiddie pool. I thought this would do.
Blood sugar jacked and I dropped out of ketosis. I think the potato salad did some of it, but it was jam and bread. Oh well. Might as well finish off the potato salad, if I will add horseradish and sour cream to the last of it, as per advice. Chicken, cold for a change, to accompany for a late lunch before playing landscaper.
Later.
Sunday, October 21, 2018
Cleaning fowl.
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We ended up only cleaning five. Eleven were planned, but a skunk got in and killed the rest, and some ducks. It isn't hard work, in a physical sense. Killing gets to one a bit. I can do it though. Hoping for more practice. They are done for the year. They said winter butchering is an art of misery. Next spring will be the next chance. I won't start a spring batch, preferring a fall butchering time. Spring is too fickle, weatherwise.
I was impressed with these chickens. Larger and far better looking than anything I have seen at the store. Removing feathers wasn't as bad as I has anticipated. Removing the entrails was the trickiest, if more fore a need for delicacy while having such large hands. Feather removal was more tedious than difficult.
All good. I was sore and tired of body going into yesterday, so I am very rough today. I wanted to learn, and help, no complaints. I'll just have to move a little slower, take it a bit easier, this next week, maybe two. Back, ribs, neck, legs, and more. A serious headache brewing, and organ s screaming for no good reason. I'll make it through.
Later.
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We ended up only cleaning five. Eleven were planned, but a skunk got in and killed the rest, and some ducks. It isn't hard work, in a physical sense. Killing gets to one a bit. I can do it though. Hoping for more practice. They are done for the year. They said winter butchering is an art of misery. Next spring will be the next chance. I won't start a spring batch, preferring a fall butchering time. Spring is too fickle, weatherwise.
I was impressed with these chickens. Larger and far better looking than anything I have seen at the store. Removing feathers wasn't as bad as I has anticipated. Removing the entrails was the trickiest, if more fore a need for delicacy while having such large hands. Feather removal was more tedious than difficult.
All good. I was sore and tired of body going into yesterday, so I am very rough today. I wanted to learn, and help, no complaints. I'll just have to move a little slower, take it a bit easier, this next week, maybe two. Back, ribs, neck, legs, and more. A serious headache brewing, and organ s screaming for no good reason. I'll make it through.
Later.
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