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In spite of an email and phone call I still almost missed the meeting tonight.  Operative word?  Almost.  Actually I was the first one there.  I have a job I can handle tomorrow, too.  And, I am possibly going to move to another position, having utterly failed in my previous position.  Never mind, just...  I have to get something going.  This doing nothing is for the birds.  I won't say my failures are completely operator error.  And they will happen no matter what I do, sometimes, perhaps often.  But I have to do something more, to dig out, get unstuck, push, shove.  I have things to do.

While I am in town tomorrow, doing my task, I have other things I can fit in.  But, when I can pull myself out of bed and after spending a bit of time waking up, I plan to get to some digging.  I plan to dig out my outside water faucet, down to the elbow connecting it to the main waterline.  If it is really harsh, I'll do what I can, though perhaps pick up a pick while in town.  I messed around out there before, and I do believe there is either mesh around the area or the soil is harsh.  We will see.

Then, tomorrow night, I will finish clearing my bedroom come hell or high water.  I have to... do something.  I can't let this body beat me.  It has been.  The cold doesn't help?  Then shower, turn up the heat, make some hot coffee or hot cocoa.  Is the body too tired?  Then let it sleep a little longer, or get up to work out some kinks if you can't go right back to sleep, sleep when you can, until you can work.  I won't tell you this is going to be easy.  It will hurt at times.  It may even lay me up, as history shows.  I just... can't...  I've got to get going!  Argh!  Ugh!  Okay, I won't say what was coming next.  I won't live like this a moment longer, for now.

I've got a lot of things I need to get on.  No, I will never be Superman, I won't even be Batman if I might feel like him after one of his more harrowing fights with almost one too many bad guys after a week or two of work.  I won't even be Jim the barber down the street.  What I am, however, is what I got and it ain't going to get better.  Best use it before it gets ripe!  Hmm, well, before it gets ripeR.  Ha!

I'm going to try to hit it early.  I want to be working before 11:00 (10:00-10:30 at the latest, but 9:00 would be fineR) and to town by 14:00.  I've got a life to try and piece together.  No one needs me, but perhaps some people could use me?  And I need to try to stop being a burden.  Put those two 'lenses' together and I might get do more than visualize.  Oh, I see.  Yeah... I do.  My reward?  Swimming next Monday and a hike over the weekend.  Yes, those are rewards.

Good night.