Doing my best.

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Tried beans and beef.  Couldn't eat it.  A few bites, nothing more.  Hungry, though.  So I had half the remaining beef and last half of an onion.  I did have kefir earlier, mixed with berries as a smoothie.  Other than that, water and a fatted coffee.  Haven't had but one or two coffees in the last week or so.  It was difficult, with the nausea.  Coffee didn't cause it, but exacerbated it.  Even so,  I am drinking it slowly.

I keep thinking about a shower.  Not sure I can get to it.  Hopefully.  And, need to stay awake into the day, to see about getting a private confession.  I have run out of other options.  It may not be possible.  But, I really want to go to my friend's funeral.  I may not be able to dress up too spiffy for the confession, but hopefully suitably tasteful?  Or... at... least clean and decent.  I'll make at least one call today.

As well, I hope to have the rest of the beef.  I haven't thawed the liver, as I can't quite get to the freezer.  It's not too bad, or rough, I just... haven't been up to it so for.  When I pull the bone broth, I'll pull the liver.  I think I have enough good onions to add with it.  Looking forward to it.

Hmm, might have the rest of the beef now.  And, maybe, get to frying the burger before long.  Should still be rather good.  If I get out in the next few days, I'll look around for lettuce, or romaine hearts failing that.  Perhaps a few more roasts.  Running out.  Also looked up cheaper fatty cuts of beef.  Look, beef, other than burger, will run at least $6 to $7 a pound now, or more.  Even burger can run as high as $6 a pound, depending on the week.  There... aren't... cheap cuts of beef anymore.  I only allow $7ish a few times every few months.  Beyond that, I spend less or go without.

Oh, strange.  But traffic has been much... milder than usual.  There is morning traffic.  And evening traffic.  Some lunch traffic, if even that is more limited.  Something has changed.  People have figured out how to stay off the roads.  Even with gas having come down, for how long will it stay down?  No, we will tuck in and learn to drive much more rarely.  They cut their own throat.

Creating little bubbles, trying to steal from the peasants.  But us "peasants" have some choices, and will make them.  I am definitely going without.  I can't afford every little attempted theft, so I just shut my door and stay at home.  Beef, veggies, gas, pretty much everything is toxically expensive.  I'm eating a lot less, buying a lot less food.

I've been thinking about it.  To be honest, going keto would be more expensive, per ounce.  But I seem to eat less.  No veggies, no condiments, no this, or that, or else.  And, after the first week of eating well, my appetite is falling.  Still, would like to talk to my butcher.  See if he won't leave more fat on the roasts, rare steaks, and other meats.  No problem with pork, save I can't handle it anymore.  Something has changed with that.  Ugh.  And can't bother with chicken, for a while.  When they stop selling old stuff... maybe buy again?  Maybe not.  They do cut their own throats.  I think they need to sue the FDA over fake testing.  Bankrupt that agency, and the rest of the alphabets.  Must be making more on insurance, and letting their hires go home?  Something.

Oh, dreamed of California getting into serious trouble.  After the deluge, an earthquake, a big one.  To the south.  Then a tidal wave, huge one?  Then fires this summer.  No, not wishful thinking.  Though who knows if it will happen.  Doubt it, but you never know.  I won't go there, but then I wouldn't go there.  So, that's... not from the prediction, it's from other certainties.  I forgot to write about it when I woke.  Surprised it stayed... something else... reminded me of it.  California dreaming...

Well... back to gaming?  I did have the last of the beef, and some beats with butter.  Nice.  Need to digest it.  Then a shower, and a call before too long after that.  If today is the day, I'll have to push through.  If not, I'll go on to bed, and sleep a few times before tomorrow.  I'll keep at it.  Good morning, day, and eventually goodnight.