Gaming.

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Mostly, so far.  Doing well in the game.  Playing on the most difficult setting.  I have learned to manage the team, and survive.  Just enjoying.

I flipped the kefir.  Didn't have as many/much grains as I would have hoped.  But I washed them anyway.  While I didn't have as much of those as I would wish, I did end up with a lot of kefir.  I have three half gallon jugs full, somehow.  Even keeping the house at around 74, kefir is very slow to expand in grain volume.  Usually that should cause an explosion of grain production.  But, at altitude, as cold as it is outdoors, and that strange affect up here, and here in general, just because it reads 74 doesn't mean it is 74.  It is colder than it seems, by far.  I used to think it might just be my interpretation of things.  But, after realizing kefir grains don't grow fast, when they should be exploding, I realized there is definitely more to it than simple objective observation.  Or... this sure adds to my beliefs.

The burger and roast were thawed.  Sort of surprised, to be honest.  But, then again, that has been thawing for two sleep cycles and wake cycle.  All shorter than typical, but not by all that much.  I am hoping to finish off supper leftovers, then do the roast.  Then, tomorrow, or what passes for tomorrow, fry the burger.  Should do me well for a while.  I'm usually only eating one or two meals a day.  Sometimes kefir is considered a meal.

What else?  Well, I think I'll try to get a shower in.  Perhaps when the roast goes in.  And, then, set up dishes.  Oh, best clean and bleach the pee jugs.  Bleach isn't the best for septic tanks, but if allowed to sit in the bottles overnight, the bleach becomes inert.  And the bottles don't smell bad.  I do my best, within my limits.

I was remembering back, to one of the first billionaires.  He ended up becoming a recluse, living alone, peeing in bottles (but he didn't empty them, his mansion had many of them, full).  I suspect, as with modern billionaires, he was created by the state.  He didn't realize that, initially.  But, when he realized he was being watched, through agents, through friends and family, through business partners, he started to become unhinged.  Didn't have religion to really help him.

The state was trying to figure out a way to... create... wealth.  That was their way.  Not sure if he was attacked, in the end, by the state... for shutting them out?  Or by an enemy nation, to seed chaos?  Someone got to him, pretty much destroyed him.

I also wonder about Bobby Fischer.  Did he drive himself mad, using drugs... for recreation, or to "expand his mind"?  Or was he drugged by the one of the alphabets to boost or hinder his performance?  I'm not sure which, but I am pretty sure one, the other, or both.  Perhaps ignorantly over lapsed, overdosed, or such.

No, I... don't trust the US government anymore.  Am I paranoid as both of them became?  Probably.  But, with faith, it's... not as much of an issue.  Yea, they are, or were, watching.  They still are, digitally.  They are trying to find something.  Looking for answers, or even the right questions, from certain people.  But... truth is?  They realize the answer, and questions.  They are in the bible.

They... don't like those questions, or answers.  They, as I did at once, are looking for the Northwest Passage to heaven, without God, perhaps for here on earth.  They want the aspects which are part of God.  They want wisdom, truth, light, beauty, etc.  But they want it for their own purposes, and to be turned on when they want, and off when they will it.  It... doesn't work that way.  Not even God turns these things on and off.  Which... is a problem for the worldly.

They do read this.  They do see.  They yet refuse.  The time is coming, another fallen Rome or the end times, they can't be sure.  They... are looking for another way.  There... is no other way.  I have searched in ways they can't.  Humans are... limited.  Most can't breach the veil of tears, and certainly not often, or even live on that fine edge, one way and then the other, from day to day.  And even their grand egos are mild compared to... a son of the sons of God.  Their blind ambition is empty compared to that pride.  Which... is why God has left me the task of seeking humility.  It isn't my salvation, it is merely His will for me.

Yes, I don't trust the US government.  They went too far.  They seek what they shouldn't.  WASPs, of the NAZI sort.  They think they can have it both, or use whatever they wish to make wisdom so.  Failing to see how failed they are.  Ruining people on a whim, or hope, to see that hidden way.  They choke on their Christianity.  Mostly faking it.  Yea.  I dreamed deeply of this, and realized some other things on the side, at the time.

It'll... sort itself out before long.  They have failed their people, their faith, themselves, even their families.  Indoctrination, I think, is what it would be called.  By everything and anything but God.  The Jews did it to themselves too, long before.  Some forms of faith, seeming all, appear to be going that same path.  Bleh.

Later.