Later than anticipated.

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Still awake at noon thirty and change.  I can't shovel more.  Tired.  Did get a quarter of it scooped?  Snowing again, moved up to 32 according to my outdoor thermometers.  It doesn't feel that warm though.  Strange.  When snowing, and that warm, it usually feels really nice.  Oh well.

Called my mother.  She answered.  Sounded good.  They are supposed to get eight inches of snow tonight?  Iowa snow isn't the fluff we got today.  Then again, some of the snow we got this year was rather wet, just not this time.  Not much else happening.  I think... she has gotten used to the nursing home.  Not... perfectly.  No one likes to give up their old life.

Harried as it is, risky.  There is something about 'life in the wild', that is... well... it means we are still... fighting, hoping?  We don't see age sneak up on us.  I saw it, but have uselessly fought it for decades.  They planned on me just dying, without care.  I just... didn't.  She has care, should last a bit longer.  Hard to give it up.  Though, I suspect, if you don't fit in the nursing home environment?  They... you don't last.  They will just take you down.  As with one of my uncles.

So tired.  Still hungry, but water will do.  About to go on up and take a nap.  Not sure I can... my plans can work.  Lost, tired, confused, can't eat, can't even cook.  Food just doesn't smell good.  There is kefir, which does help.  That, or yogurt, something soft on the stomach.  Hmm... may try something eggy, that doesn't taste too eggy?  Soufflé, custard, casserole?  Something.  Maybe just fried.  Even fried eggs are usually gentle enough.

Oh, I think I'm going to leave coconut oil.  I'll keep some on hand, as it lasts well.  I need to get ghee made, and stored.  That is better, and is animal.  But, I need to get the best lard, and tallow I can get my hands on.  I'd prefer a larger order, of small packages.  If I could find it.  Much better to cook with, and smells better.  Good lard doesn't have a smell.  Coconut oil isn't horrible, it just... I don't think it's right.  Reminds me of crisco.

Anyway... on to... just a bit of browsing, then a nap.  Have a wonderful day.