Sorting life.

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I have a new game.  It's... not my favorite, but is something different.  Then again, I haven't been playing games for... many months.  After getting all the trophies for the trilogy I had been playing, a got a bit into Cyberpunk, but just wasn't... able to keep going.  I wasn't feeling it.

I have just been drifting on the web, for... three months?  Couldn't get back to gaming.  I found a survivor game that seemed okay.  It's... mushy.  But, I haven't gotten into the actual game yet.  There is a skippable tutorial, then a mid-length setup, which is like the tutorial, only potentially lethal (probably).  And, what you find will carry into the rest of the game (I think).  I haven't made it through, though close.

What I have come to realize is, when you get to the end, resting is lethal.  I thought it might be wise to rest up, before pushing through.  That doesn't work.  As well, I am trying to collect some of the things which help with the game.  Collecting too many things, it seems.

Then again, just figuring things out to that point has cost me many 'toon lives.  Though I have only had the game since yesterday, and played only, perhaps, a few hours.  I have been looking for hints and tips.  Most aren't very good.  They assume you know things... that... you don't really know.  They don't really help.  By the time you get to most people's tips, you already know how to do that.  What you don't know, and need to know, they don't spot you.

While tinkering, I roasted walnuts and pecans.  That makes them tastier.  I tried a store brand, instead of my preferred.  Sometimes that works, sometimes not.  This time it really didn't work well.  They will do.  I just won't buy that store brand of any kind of nuts again.  Last time I tried some from the health store.  Worse still.  Just... go medium.

I wasn't trying to be clever.  It's just I was at the health food store the last time, and this time I was at my regular store, but they didn't have my preferred brand.  So, that is how it works sometimes.  Try, try, again.

Just a bit more gaming, then on to bed.

Oh, lots of discussions about the problems of late.  As mentioned, I... don't need to be advised to believe other than what I know.  I... am no longer upset about it.  I more feel sorry for them.  That level of hatred must be difficult to live with.  As I told one of the fellows tonight, though too, I don't know him, so I don't know why he hates me so.  Until I know, I can't really say.  Maybe he has a reason that is good enough, sound.  The thing is, if this can't be fixed there is no way I could be in the group.  I'll find out soon enough.  As of now, however, the thing is done.  Something would have to change for me to remain in the group.

I do believe one of the fellows I spoke with tonight was pretty... honest.  One of them I am not so certain about.  But, about what he might not be being completely honest about, that I can't quite say.  Something... strange, with some of his responses.  Not what was said, expressions and such.  Well, and the response to a question.  I think they are both trying to play moderators, though.  So, not... disingenuous.  Just not... completely... candid.  One seems to know, or suspect, more than he is letting on?  Or... some such.  All good.  Time will tell.

And... that waist keeps getting smaller, while the belly remains the same.  Keeping pants up is becoming a bit of a trick.  I'd rather have the weight loss, or even just stay at this weight, even so.  Humbling, but isn't much of life?  The only grace some fools can know.  Or, a good place to start, in any case.

On to a bit more gaming.  Had to stop, got a bit hot.  No cussing, if I remember correctly.  Just... a... little hot under the collar.  Getting better at dealing with failure.  Mostly.