Very good.

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A bit of business, first thing, actually.  I needed to see if my utilities were due.  I would have had to figured out a way to pay them, if so.  I have cash, but that is for another debt coming due.  Worried about overdue charges, and transfer fees, and else.  But, it looks like everything has been paid, nothing is due until next month.  So, I can put some money in the account, then pay off the other debt.

This has been a... complicated month.  I... pushed my finances.  But felt I needed to do so.  And, to my thinking, I did.  Still, trying to run this loop through that strap, put this dollar here, and that one there, and make it all work somehow has been a real trick.  Even so, I did it.  Mostly.

As things stand, I can get enough in my account to pay the bill, and have fifty in there, so as to not get a charge for too low of a balance, unless that happens no matter what?  Ugh.

The things I have gotten done these last two months, financially, are impressive.  If... it... drained my money to near the bone, and then some.  But... mostly done.  I am holding off on the window.  Saving for that.  If I will tear out the old window, and put in a frame this coming month.  Just plywood and 2x4s, oh and insulation.  That will hold the ac, for the downstairs.  Ugh.

However, between being so tired, and enervated by fear, I have been frozen regarding acting on these things.  Finally, yesterday, I checked on the first of the several problems.  Could only handle just so much stress at a time.  So, waited until today to finish these things.  All good, I do believe.  Even city utilities, if I read right, has a positive balance, if just a few dollars.  Still, I'll... take whatever positive news I can get.

Now I just need to get in, put money in the account, make sure it is in, then pay a final bill.  The stress of it has been killing me for about a week.  I have been... doing... little, singular, things as I have been able.  One at a time, per day or every other day.  But... so good to have it done, and it all checking out.  Now to begin taking things back in hand, regaining control, and getting other things arranged.

Almost everything is set up for this coming month, and the next three.  I should be able to order a window in August or September, probably cash, and have my debts back under control.  Ugh.  Sometimes the world just... requires a lot of work.

As for the ac?  Two of them really?  They will just be used to bring things to some level of comfort.  A few hours, during the hottest part of the day.  And, perhaps, a bit as I sleep.  I won't blow it all on cooling.  But I won't be a fish in a hot muddy pond, gasping for air again, either.  That just sucks.

On with my day.  It still hurts.  Just, finally relaxing from the costs, and payments, and restlessness.  It hurts almost as much when easing up as when clamping down due to being, or fearing being, over my head in debts, costs, and such.  And... it's... pretty good.  I think.  Tight, but good.  Ah, and it is 57 out there.  But cooling.  It has stopped raining, for the moment.  Probably done, but you can never be absolutely certain here lately.