Far from perfect.

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Working with this flesh is like trying to work with a really old computer.  Even if everything works as was designed, which it may likely not, the clock-speed, memory, bandwidth, from a '90's desktop?  Just doesn't cut it.  If it is all you have, you... learn to use it as it is able to be used.  You don't try to use it as modern machines are used.  Within the limits.  So... perfection isn't possible.

Then again, perfection was never possible.  There is that.  Even a new machine is flawed.  If nothing else than because of the user, methods, logic problems, bugs, even "features".  Perfection is not for this form, in this time.  We were given the bible, Christ, hope, faith, and charity, after deciding we knew better.  Choose wisely, just don't expect perfection.

At 14:15, I made it further along today.  It is nearing bedtime though.  I could probably push things along further, but I don't think I will.  No second meal, but the first was enough.  No extra coffee, but one was good.  No shower, no dishes, but am feeling better.  Just not feeling great.  Ribs are a bit off.  But the heart is... working.  Rightly, or so it feels.  Lungs seem good, or good enough.  Not like I have a stone filling half the space.  Just... wasn't able to get on to dishes, a shower, or else.

But, remember, I did do some work before coming down.  Tending several baskets of close, emptying two of them.  Then grabbing close to be laundered, bringing those down, and putting them back in the wash room.  Tomorrow I am hoping to fill the baskets with clean clothes to be taken up and sorted.  Or... as soon as possible.

For whatever reason, my phone is not calling through.  I don't allow it to use wi-fi.  I can't trust tech companies working together to further erode my privacy and etc.  No.  Ah, but upon checking, it looks like it's back to functioning.  Further, I was able to use it for what I needed.  I am not sure if amazon is way behind or way ahead on billing?  Bleh.  So, I used it to check and still just... don't know.

Because it seems on zero, I decided to order the last few tools for the month.  Will find out.  Doesn't really matter, I already planned to order, and have plans on handling the costs involved.  So, it's... not a problem.  

Oh, but sleep should be good.  Especially with the bed made.  The electric blanket?  I don't think so.  But... you never know.  Perhaps on a very low setting, for a short time.  When it is above 60, things are usually pretty good.  And I'll bet it is between 61 and 64 up there.  Rainy, wet, foggy, odd, outside.  

Just checked, for the nosey and curious.  It is 38 out there.  Gorgeous.  Partly, mostly, cloudy.  But can see the mountains, rapped in storm crow grey clouds whipped by winds.  As picture perfect of a stormy valley day as one could imagine.

Well, it's bedtime... or soon.  I always drag my feet, take one more look around the web, then finally relinquish the search for...  Not for God, He found me.  For... patterns... things I am, or believe I am, supposed to see.  I like looking for... what it is I am supposed to see.  Goodnight.