Finally got to breakfast.

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Still cold out there.  Just at 30 F, when I went out to get the grill going.  Corned beef hash, first, ending with a few slices of cheddar.  Then four eggs.  A good breakfast, with tobasco and cholula sauce.  Those two didn't add any appreciable heat.  It's been a while since I have eaten carolina reaper, so I thought it would do something.  Nope.  Didn't even propose the blush of warmth.  Next time I'll just add my real hot stuff.

Why haven't I eaten recently?  Because, for the most part, I haven't eaten.  You can't really add something to nothing.  The little I have eaten, burger patties, don't really take to it.  Though?  I may try some, sometime soon.

So very tired.  Not sure what the real problem is.  I am sleeping fairly well.  Sleeping a reasonable amount of time.  Not staying up too long.  Keeping the place warm enough, including my bed and bedroom.  It's cool, up there, but not frigid.  I am taking medicine.  I have eaten, the last two days.

So, why the extreme exhaustion?  Why is the heart acting up again?  Why the pain?  I thought I had escaped most of the troubles, and was heading toward a bit more activity.  But, it's turning into an ugly day.  On the good side, I am just hitting troubles now.  Most of the morning was pretty good.  I'll... see.

Oh... I... am hoping to be in shape for some sort of Thanksgiving meal?  And... I've been thinking about what to eat.  A whole turkey, even a small one, is just too much.  And I never eat the breast?  Not true.  When I have a helper, my last woman was a decent helper when she wanted to be, by the way... I can do very good cooking.

She sourced good turkey.  I cooked a spread that made even a woman cry.  Man joke.  Never mind.  But, I... from pie to buttered or olive oiled veggies, two types of pies, fresh whipped cream...  I did well.  If she would shop for ingredients.  And, maybe, either help choose the menu, perhaps do one or two of the sides?  We... ate like royalty.

So, running into this woman again, and really liking the cut of her menu jib?  I'm thinking of taking some of it.  I can't do three squashes.  Way too much.  But one?  And the turkey quarters?  If I can find fresh.  The last few times I have tried this with frozen, from either of my usual stores, the turkey quarters or drumsticks have been terribly old.  Gross.  I could eat them.

But, maybe somewhere there might be fresh.  I hate buying "organic" anything.  But if it guarantees freshness, it might be worth it.  Or, maybe, there is a source of certain fresh that isn't organic.  I'll... look, ask, around.  Oh, and wings too?

Now, some, most, of the things I will attempt to make keto.  The one exception might be doing stock and making stuffing.  Not that much, but I... could use one wing, or two and use some for food, as she does?  But, yes.  I... could give it a go.  But, I... want stuffing.  Real, regular, stuffing.  Especially with fresh gravy and stock.  Oh... heavenly.

As for desert?  No desert.  If I went with desert, it would be pumpkin pie, with homemade whipped cream.  However, cranberry sauce?  I... don't do canned anymore.  But fresh?  Keto?  Aye, I might be up for that.  Just... thinking, hoping.  Not sure I can get to it.  Not sure I can do it on time.  But... sometimes... this fall/winter?  I... might be able to make a tidy little meal.

When you are mostly dead?  When it hurts all the time?  When you are sliding into death, or sitting just over the fence?  If God has invited you to partake, and you have found a way to do so... when it is possible?  Every day is thanksgiving, right through the hurt.  Even if, sometimes, one only lives for His will?  Thanksgiving, every day.  Amen.

Anyway... It's nearing 11:00.  Still trying to make it to 13:00 to 15:00.  We'll see.  Later, or goodnight.