So very tired.

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The dark?  The cool, and wet?  It's 33 out there, and seems to have been raining.  I didn't hear it, but I've been watching vids, looking for a new game.  Or series.  May have found a few.  Woke, but mostly not... importantly to game play.

I've takne my second antibiotic.  But haven't eaten yet, or had coffee.  Working on that, should have that shortly.  The food, the last of the custard, is plate and eat ready.  The coffee will take just a bit of tinkering to finish prep.  All good.  And, late, either another steak, or burger soup, or both... if I will only eat one.  The steak, of course, for me.  This time.  Burger soup isn't bad, if I can eat that is.  Though, it's the same with steak.  If I am too nauseous, it's a no-go scenario.

Oh, I best call the VA and see if I can get local appointments.  It doesn't seem safe.  I just don't trust going back.  If I had people, who had some skills, to go back with?  No.  If I have to worry about my security, I just generally won't go.  No reason to risk something for very little gain, to see people who mostly hate me.  So, yeah.  I think I'll either skip, or find local.  Especially since they have stopped paying for travel, for the most part, on top of it.  Even for 100%'ers.  Or is it just me?  Or some of those like me.

Ribs are sore.  Is it from the changing shape of my body as I lose weight?  I have been being awake longer, lately.  Though sleeping too long can hurt the ribs too.  Perhaps some mix of such things.  While I am awake longer, I'm still sleeping more than awake.  And cumulative effect has it's costs.

Most else of life is better.  The antibiotics?  Needed?  I don't know.  Sometimes it seems like they are doing some good, sometimes it feels like there is nothing happening.  Still, I... I just think taking them is for the better.  Hopefully to at least stave off infection until I can get in.  Had hoped to get to my primary care, but... they started bringing in blacks, for the front desk.  One was avoidable.  Two, could be worked around.  Last time I visited, they were all black.  Had hoped to leave a message, decided against it.  Ebonics, wall to wall.  Save for the lone Jamaican?  No.  I'll... skip, or find local.  It's about a third to half black there, now.  No.

Coffee should be ready.  And maybe the game I am checking out has downloaded.  But, coffee, breakfast, and a bit of hints and tips vids, for the new game while I eat.  Later.