Brutal day.

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I was awake until... later in the morning.  Ten, noon, something.  I think?  Was so very tired though.  I was staying up in the hopes of getting to town to do shopping.  That... probably won't happen for days, maybe a week.  Why?  Because I am absolutely burned out.  Like a mouse, after a cat has played with me right up to death.  Things hurt in ways I can't understand.

I did find steaks, good ones and bad, in the drop in.  I tossed some of the bad, will have to toss more.  There is a real limit, especially on thinner steaks.  If you bother with thin steaks, eat them in two months, or just toss them.  They get greasy, are difficult to cook, and get frostbit very quickly.

If I ever get finances back in order (when), I want to buy my usual meat for the month, and try buying a second ribeye roast.  Then, leave that to freeze.  For two months.  Then for three.  Find the edge of how long I want to keep one.  Just so that I can keep a spare roast to cut down, in case I have a bad month.  But, at the edge of it's goodness, use it up, replacing it with a fresh roast for that month.

I know that cutting it, even thick, two months even so is as much as I would want.  Three months and it would begin being... questionable... maybe awful by then.  You just can't keep meat for as long as they say.  It really starts getting rough.  Oh, you can eat it.  But you really won't want to eat it.  With some tricks, and such, you might be able to do... something with it.  I have seen moms do wonders with three year old cuts.  But that is... talent, and horror.  Moms can't just through food, and have a pack of hungry little peoples, she loves, looking to her for... food.

Oh, yesterday, I was reaching into the cupboard, looking for something.  I have a food processor, with a swirly sharp bladed mixer/blender.  I leave the blade part up there.  I just bumped it, lightly, I swear.  I ended up with cut, half inch deep, three to four inches long.  Bleed?  It took a double wrapped extra thick paper and an hour to staunch the bleeding.  Then, washed it up, before eventually bandaging it.  Using a four by four bordered dressing, and a bunch of ointment.  My whole finger is bandaged... making typing just a bit of a minor trick.

Still feeling a bit rough.  But I think it'll work.  I'll get coffee in just a bit.  Then get the steak going in a while.  It reads 79 up here in front, which seems hot?  It shouldn't but it does.  It was 75 upstairs near me, 72 in the main.  And... that seemed hot too.  Oh, and it is still 76 out there, at 21:50?  Must have been a warm one?  Or is it just holding on to it?  Bleh.  A double shot of electrolytes tonight.

I did take morning medicine.  Now I will take night meds, minerals, and vitamins.  I did, finally, revisit vitamin B complexes.  Methylated, is what was suggested.  For a better type.  It's in the cart, but I will probably finish what I have, for good or ill.  Besides, I want to do more research on the topic.  I don't mind paying a bit more, but I refuse to spend too much.  If the only thing that is actually helpful, effective, is beyond my reach, I then decide not to take.  Although, looking at edible, food type options, is a way.

There is something for this, nutritional yeast.  If even this, you want to find it un-enhanced.  The stuff they add is as bad, or worst, than other supplements.  There is always a trick.  As well, you have to eat a fairly large amount to get what is needed.  My difficulty is figuring how to add that on a carnivore diet.  Taco "salads", or such, once or twice a week, I suppose, would make it possible, with half a cup to a cup of the stuff each time?  Probably the higher dose.  Dunno, thinking.

On to waking and thinking.  Good evening, night, and later.