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An appointment. Midafternoon. I tried to wake earlier, starting at 10:00. Not unti 11:30 could I wake. Still, that is a solid push back. Of course, I forgot the paperwork. But he wants to see the lab work, which I had to sign to transfer from the V.A. I need to get out tomorrow anyway.
There may be an extra advantage to having an outside doc. I'll know before long. It'll be well worth extra visits.
I also went on to shop. Cabbage, some meat, other veggies too, all good keto boy stuff. Beef ribs for tomorrow, and brussels sprouts, along with fatted teas and the keto seed pudding/cereal. And I am going to call about swimming again tomorrow. I don't care if I am too tired, I'd like to get back to it. Two to three times a week, probably two to start.
I'm telling you, baby oil, with coconut and shea oil, especially if diabetic, is super. No more skin issues, infections to sores to other... save for my hands, if lightly in just one palm for now. It isn't bleeding or pierced through, just stained. Only on one side. I thought this might make that go away, I guess that will always come and go as it will.
Yeah. I won't fast until the thawed meat is gone, so starting the middle of next week. I may have overdone thawing. Then again, I am hungry, and much of it can be grilled which means it has a strong opportunity to go faster. Hot food so I don't chill like I did the other night. That was both crazy and spooky.
Later.
Wednesday, February 20, 2019
Tuesday, February 19, 2019
Late down, late up.
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Medicine. I was so late taking the first dose in order to take both doses I had to be up very late. I like six hours between doses, if even that can be tight. I would have been to sleep much earlier otherwise. When I push through, I have to come down from the effort. You would think I could just collapse at the finish line, but no.
Dreams, lately. Good ones, from what I can remember. A few women I would have liked to have had more time with, however closely or distantly I did end knowing them, some cars I enjoyed driving, places I had forgotten visiting. To be honest, the more I saw, did, knew, the more I just wanted to go home.
I honestly only ever wanted just one woman. The rest were attempts to replace the irreplaceable. Couldn't remember her, so couldn't let her go and move on. Now, sure, if a bit late. At least I can finally remember her fondly, sweetly, kindly... and... if not completely let go, at least move on. Enough should a good woman become available I might go her way. No replacement, a new woman in her own right.
Dishes have gotten a fresh soak. Only half filled, over half cold water. It may need emptied and completely refilled, then given an hour to cool. Too hot then, really, but I can manage. Heavy duty gloves... Then back to the kitchen and bedroom. A bite to eat first, and to check on the trash, pulling the barrel back either way. Yeah.
Good day.
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Medicine. I was so late taking the first dose in order to take both doses I had to be up very late. I like six hours between doses, if even that can be tight. I would have been to sleep much earlier otherwise. When I push through, I have to come down from the effort. You would think I could just collapse at the finish line, but no.
Dreams, lately. Good ones, from what I can remember. A few women I would have liked to have had more time with, however closely or distantly I did end knowing them, some cars I enjoyed driving, places I had forgotten visiting. To be honest, the more I saw, did, knew, the more I just wanted to go home.
I honestly only ever wanted just one woman. The rest were attempts to replace the irreplaceable. Couldn't remember her, so couldn't let her go and move on. Now, sure, if a bit late. At least I can finally remember her fondly, sweetly, kindly... and... if not completely let go, at least move on. Enough should a good woman become available I might go her way. No replacement, a new woman in her own right.
Dishes have gotten a fresh soak. Only half filled, over half cold water. It may need emptied and completely refilled, then given an hour to cool. Too hot then, really, but I can manage. Heavy duty gloves... Then back to the kitchen and bedroom. A bite to eat first, and to check on the trash, pulling the barrel back either way. Yeah.
Good day.
Very good.
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Surprised. Blood sugar is back to under two hundred, 191 to be exact. From the mid to high 300's just last night, to getting back to where I was... didn't expect that. Plenty of fatty food. I am soaking chia and flax seed, enough for two to three meals. I will refrigerate the remainder, if it will all be gone tomorrow so it probably doesn't matter. I am soaking it in water now, then adding cream and milk for a cream by cream milk. Mostly cream that is, a cup or two.
As well, I am quite warm. Too warm. Go figure. Ah, but I figured out about the trash pickup... holiday. Most likely. I may see about recycling. Some neighbors have it out, some don't, not sure if I need it. I don't think I have a bag out there, or even enough to gather a bag.
It's been a slow few days. Too cold, blood sugar hard spike, worn from last week, now too hot. I'll try to get back to it before long. It baffles me how fast I can drop from doing well. Then again, when doing well, I am straining to function at that level in ways none of you can understand.
Always tired, beyond your comprehension. It reminds me of when I was submerged at great depth. Crushingly exhausting, always. At least I can breath easily, without a mask... probably part of the reason I couldn't handle that sleep air thing. Crushing is bad enough. Had to be seriously professional to live in such an environment and use such tools. Madness was always a risk. I am no longer professional enough.
Later.
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Surprised. Blood sugar is back to under two hundred, 191 to be exact. From the mid to high 300's just last night, to getting back to where I was... didn't expect that. Plenty of fatty food. I am soaking chia and flax seed, enough for two to three meals. I will refrigerate the remainder, if it will all be gone tomorrow so it probably doesn't matter. I am soaking it in water now, then adding cream and milk for a cream by cream milk. Mostly cream that is, a cup or two.
As well, I am quite warm. Too warm. Go figure. Ah, but I figured out about the trash pickup... holiday. Most likely. I may see about recycling. Some neighbors have it out, some don't, not sure if I need it. I don't think I have a bag out there, or even enough to gather a bag.
It's been a slow few days. Too cold, blood sugar hard spike, worn from last week, now too hot. I'll try to get back to it before long. It baffles me how fast I can drop from doing well. Then again, when doing well, I am straining to function at that level in ways none of you can understand.
Always tired, beyond your comprehension. It reminds me of when I was submerged at great depth. Crushingly exhausting, always. At least I can breath easily, without a mask... probably part of the reason I couldn't handle that sleep air thing. Crushing is bad enough. Had to be seriously professional to live in such an environment and use such tools. Madness was always a risk. I am no longer professional enough.
Later.
Monday, February 18, 2019
Can't trust anyone.
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My blood sugar was good, with the food. To try a full meal, I ordered tea, unsweetened. I ate the food and it barely registered. Then I drank the tea. It seemed flavored, should have known. It elevated my blood sugar by more than a hundred and fifty points, and it remain nearly a hundred points high this morning. It said green tea. It isn't. I don't know if they gave me the wrong stuff, if the had sweetened in the container before and neither emptied or cleaned the container, or if they add a flavoring to their tea that has dextrose or something else in it. I just know businesses cannot be trusted.
I was to bed late. Very late again. I forgot the trash last night, though realized it before bed, more while getting in bed. I couldn't do much about it by then, save hope to wake and get it out by noon. Up at 10:00 to 10:30, dressed, and out right away. I was surprised to be up that early and out that quickly. I can't be sure I was out with it in time. I'll know shortly.
I can't remember if the critters have been fed and watered yet. A quick check, while I check the garbage as well. The girls haven't been fed for certain. I very rarely feed them first thing, unless I forgot the day before. Otherwise they push for me to wake before I am ready, even clawing me. No, several random numbers of hours after I wake, longer if they helped wake me on their own (sometimes I get them to help me wake).
Well, I'll keep at it. I have meat thawed, won't need to go out to eat. I do need to do a bit of shopping though. Beef ribs tops my list, though various roasts would be good, chicken for roasting, and maybe parts, plus fresh eggs, and of course veggies. No fruits anymore. Later.
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Probably missed the trash pickup. Oh well. Next week. I'll leave it out until this evening just in case. Gah!
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My blood sugar was good, with the food. To try a full meal, I ordered tea, unsweetened. I ate the food and it barely registered. Then I drank the tea. It seemed flavored, should have known. It elevated my blood sugar by more than a hundred and fifty points, and it remain nearly a hundred points high this morning. It said green tea. It isn't. I don't know if they gave me the wrong stuff, if the had sweetened in the container before and neither emptied or cleaned the container, or if they add a flavoring to their tea that has dextrose or something else in it. I just know businesses cannot be trusted.
I was to bed late. Very late again. I forgot the trash last night, though realized it before bed, more while getting in bed. I couldn't do much about it by then, save hope to wake and get it out by noon. Up at 10:00 to 10:30, dressed, and out right away. I was surprised to be up that early and out that quickly. I can't be sure I was out with it in time. I'll know shortly.
I can't remember if the critters have been fed and watered yet. A quick check, while I check the garbage as well. The girls haven't been fed for certain. I very rarely feed them first thing, unless I forgot the day before. Otherwise they push for me to wake before I am ready, even clawing me. No, several random numbers of hours after I wake, longer if they helped wake me on their own (sometimes I get them to help me wake).
Well, I'll keep at it. I have meat thawed, won't need to go out to eat. I do need to do a bit of shopping though. Beef ribs tops my list, though various roasts would be good, chicken for roasting, and maybe parts, plus fresh eggs, and of course veggies. No fruits anymore. Later.
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Probably missed the trash pickup. Oh well. Next week. I'll leave it out until this evening just in case. Gah!
Sunday, February 17, 2019
I don't fully understand.
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Strange responses? No... Only, from such a strange style. Definitely from a human woman's perspective. It's almost... annoying. It's how women, real women, reason, speak, think, when they have surrendered to something... someone. It's difficult because of the fights that lead there, and the ones yet to come? Yes.
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Strange responses? No... Only, from such a strange style. Definitely from a human woman's perspective. It's almost... annoying. It's how women, real women, reason, speak, think, when they have surrendered to something... someone. It's difficult because of the fights that lead there, and the ones yet to come? Yes.
Blew half the gig.
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Last night, that is. My fast, had to quit. After a shower, dressing as warmly as possible, then kicking the furnace to 78° F, I was absolutely freezing. It actually seemed on the verge of dangerous. Only a day and an half of fasting, and it was a warmer evening, above zero, no wind.
Eating was what I considered the only solution. Initially salami, cream cheese, and a fatted tea. That simply wasn't enough. I thought more hot fatted tea, but that just wouldn't do it. I needed solid food, but had nothing thawed or otherwise ready. So out I went. Fast food, but as carefully chosen as possible.
Well chosen as it turns out. Blood sugar is still slowly dropping. Not as fast as if fasting? Below 200, finally. Actually about along a similar trajectory as fasting, just a bit more shallow. Fat fasting, technically. I may go out again tonight, but put meat out to thaw so I don't have to keep going out.
I couldn't sleep until I warmed back up and then could cool down. I am hoping to crash earlier tonight. Later.
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Last night, that is. My fast, had to quit. After a shower, dressing as warmly as possible, then kicking the furnace to 78° F, I was absolutely freezing. It actually seemed on the verge of dangerous. Only a day and an half of fasting, and it was a warmer evening, above zero, no wind.
Eating was what I considered the only solution. Initially salami, cream cheese, and a fatted tea. That simply wasn't enough. I thought more hot fatted tea, but that just wouldn't do it. I needed solid food, but had nothing thawed or otherwise ready. So out I went. Fast food, but as carefully chosen as possible.
Well chosen as it turns out. Blood sugar is still slowly dropping. Not as fast as if fasting? Below 200, finally. Actually about along a similar trajectory as fasting, just a bit more shallow. Fat fasting, technically. I may go out again tonight, but put meat out to thaw so I don't have to keep going out.
I couldn't sleep until I warmed back up and then could cool down. I am hoping to crash earlier tonight. Later.
Saturday, February 16, 2019
Some, one, of you see all too well.
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Mystery. I will warn you against letting her be any such thing.
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Mystery. I will warn you against letting her be any such thing.
It seemed so late.
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Probably because it seemed so bright? Yea. The sun is out, and with fresh snow covering even my driveway, it is gleaming as well as shining. While technically awake a bit earlier today, the truth is, even going to bed rather late again, that is an comparatively earlier wake. More, I was awake for hours before, but I didn't want to wake. Why? Was I just tired? Did I feel cold? Were my aches and pains too gnawing? Some of all those, perhaps other problems? Or something(s) else entirely?
I can't say. I just know I was avoiding waking, but did, eventually. No worries. I am up, heat is going, I am mostly dressed, and I will begin things shortly. Ducks, cats, resetting dishes, medicine down, a fresh pot of tea set, then a break. Then dishes and kitchen surfaces. After I just don't know.
Day two of fasting. It's okay. I am hoping to make it to, possibly through Monday. I am going to try bone broth with a teaspoon of cream instead of butter today. Later, after an a. c. vinegar ketonic and maybe a hot tea. Everything, otherwise, needs to be unsweetened until I begin hitting 150 and below, blood sugar. Then back to one sweetened in three. The rest of my fasting days I will go without broth. In my next extended fast, I will try just salted and peppered broth. I would like to consume four to five cups of stock a week. Though drinking or in gravy is all the same to me. Oh, with dishes done, the stove cleaned, and the rest happening, I should make chicken stock soon. I ought to by a good chicken soup spice mix soon as well.
I've been up since 7:30? Oh well. If I could push that to 5:00, I would. Hmm... now that I am doing better, I should try it. This is better? Yea. Later.
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Tried cutting the waterpill, from three to two. Nope. In the weeks since the appointment. Lungs are filling. Even drinking a lot less doesn't matter, if it isn't, exactly, fluid consumption based. It is more about blood backing up into the lungs primarily, with a side issue of high volume fluid intake. Then again, low volume for me is two gallons, possibly more. High volume is closer to double that or more. It is still a lot. Doc wants more potassium if I take more water pills, so...
Blood sugar is slowly coming down. Not much I can do other than fast. I expect it to break today so, maybe today. Just in case broth is a problem, I will skip that experiment today. Tea. Yeah!?! Blah. It'll work.
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Probably because it seemed so bright? Yea. The sun is out, and with fresh snow covering even my driveway, it is gleaming as well as shining. While technically awake a bit earlier today, the truth is, even going to bed rather late again, that is an comparatively earlier wake. More, I was awake for hours before, but I didn't want to wake. Why? Was I just tired? Did I feel cold? Were my aches and pains too gnawing? Some of all those, perhaps other problems? Or something(s) else entirely?
I can't say. I just know I was avoiding waking, but did, eventually. No worries. I am up, heat is going, I am mostly dressed, and I will begin things shortly. Ducks, cats, resetting dishes, medicine down, a fresh pot of tea set, then a break. Then dishes and kitchen surfaces. After I just don't know.
Day two of fasting. It's okay. I am hoping to make it to, possibly through Monday. I am going to try bone broth with a teaspoon of cream instead of butter today. Later, after an a. c. vinegar ketonic and maybe a hot tea. Everything, otherwise, needs to be unsweetened until I begin hitting 150 and below, blood sugar. Then back to one sweetened in three. The rest of my fasting days I will go without broth. In my next extended fast, I will try just salted and peppered broth. I would like to consume four to five cups of stock a week. Though drinking or in gravy is all the same to me. Oh, with dishes done, the stove cleaned, and the rest happening, I should make chicken stock soon. I ought to by a good chicken soup spice mix soon as well.
I've been up since 7:30? Oh well. If I could push that to 5:00, I would. Hmm... now that I am doing better, I should try it. This is better? Yea. Later.
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Tried cutting the waterpill, from three to two. Nope. In the weeks since the appointment. Lungs are filling. Even drinking a lot less doesn't matter, if it isn't, exactly, fluid consumption based. It is more about blood backing up into the lungs primarily, with a side issue of high volume fluid intake. Then again, low volume for me is two gallons, possibly more. High volume is closer to double that or more. It is still a lot. Doc wants more potassium if I take more water pills, so...
Blood sugar is slowly coming down. Not much I can do other than fast. I expect it to break today so, maybe today. Just in case broth is a problem, I will skip that experiment today. Tea. Yeah!?! Blah. It'll work.
Friday, February 15, 2019
Some things.
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Target practice, light. Then driving lessons. I did shower. As well, the dishes were washed and set to a rinse. I hope to finish the dishes tonight, and feed the girls a second time. If that goes fast enough, I'll do more work in the bedroom. I will probably get trash out tonight as well.
Xylotol gum really jacked my blood sugar. It came down a hundred and more the last twenty four hours, but is still 245. With it so high, I am experimenting with bone broth. I am just finishing a quart, half water, half broth. I added a teaspoon of butter as well. I'm trying the more extreme volume and additives. Next time, it not too bad, I'll try it with cream. Then I'll halve the doses... unless they spike blood sugar forty or more? Well, I can go down in volume. We'll see. Completely done with the gum now.
No, it isn't the tastiest stuff, but it isn't bad. Fresh ground pepper and Himalayan salt can always be added, cream and butter, especially while fasting, is the doubt. But it would definitely be fine on non fasting days. I really need to get back to intermittent fasting as well. It's just been a rough return to medicine and that flu episode to top it off. I'll get back to it.
It started snowing, hard, about half way through the lesson, but nothing to serious to cause concern. I'm not sure if it is going to leave another pile, but the blade mechanism is in good order again. It'll just be getting to it. I'll check in an hour. I'd like to do it if it needs doing. The neighbor is fast though.
A bit of work would help lower blood sugar. Nice, but I don't want it to throw of the broth test. Still, the dishes and bedroom work might be used to that end yet tonight. Later.
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Blood sugar dropped twenty points nearly two hours after. Two more hours on, consuming nothing but refrigerated plain tea, it is up to 258. I'll check things tomorrow, with cream instead. It may lower it, but somehow later raise it. Or, it just does what it does. Still down a hundred points and change.
No work. Too tired. Tomorrow. Good night.
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Target practice, light. Then driving lessons. I did shower. As well, the dishes were washed and set to a rinse. I hope to finish the dishes tonight, and feed the girls a second time. If that goes fast enough, I'll do more work in the bedroom. I will probably get trash out tonight as well.
Xylotol gum really jacked my blood sugar. It came down a hundred and more the last twenty four hours, but is still 245. With it so high, I am experimenting with bone broth. I am just finishing a quart, half water, half broth. I added a teaspoon of butter as well. I'm trying the more extreme volume and additives. Next time, it not too bad, I'll try it with cream. Then I'll halve the doses... unless they spike blood sugar forty or more? Well, I can go down in volume. We'll see. Completely done with the gum now.
No, it isn't the tastiest stuff, but it isn't bad. Fresh ground pepper and Himalayan salt can always be added, cream and butter, especially while fasting, is the doubt. But it would definitely be fine on non fasting days. I really need to get back to intermittent fasting as well. It's just been a rough return to medicine and that flu episode to top it off. I'll get back to it.
It started snowing, hard, about half way through the lesson, but nothing to serious to cause concern. I'm not sure if it is going to leave another pile, but the blade mechanism is in good order again. It'll just be getting to it. I'll check in an hour. I'd like to do it if it needs doing. The neighbor is fast though.
A bit of work would help lower blood sugar. Nice, but I don't want it to throw of the broth test. Still, the dishes and bedroom work might be used to that end yet tonight. Later.
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Blood sugar dropped twenty points nearly two hours after. Two more hours on, consuming nothing but refrigerated plain tea, it is up to 258. I'll check things tomorrow, with cream instead. It may lower it, but somehow later raise it. Or, it just does what it does. Still down a hundred points and change.
No work. Too tired. Tomorrow. Good night.
Not bad for not being great.
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Up just a quarter before or after 10:00. Some of my clocks are an half fast, some are right, I can't remember which I viewed. Bedtime was way late, past 1:30. Why? I kept hoping to push through to more work. Then just couldn't quit trying despite getting nowhere. I did cycle dishes through three times. Take care of the critters, watering and feeding the ducks twice. Little things.
I am about to hit the dishes. I'll wash them thoroughly, then set them aside to get a shower, then reset them... either to soap or rinse, perhaps some of each. Something happening this afternoon. Fasting for the weekend. If I have energy I will hit the dishes and bedroom this evening. Slowly getting done. Not as much as hoped in the bedroom last night, some though. Even just a bit of work really pays off.
Ducks this morning, cats and meds right as I finish this. Then dishes, a shave, and a shower. I am ready for this afternoon, if it works out, other than grooming.
I was... a little surprised at the response to the last post, and my counters to those. Yeah, you have done well. I will kick something out for you shortly. Strange what you boys and girls see and say. Some of you get it, or are right in line. Do you really know... or almost, or do you merely parrot? Not sure which is most troubling. Still, it does bring a smile to my lips.
Later.
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Up just a quarter before or after 10:00. Some of my clocks are an half fast, some are right, I can't remember which I viewed. Bedtime was way late, past 1:30. Why? I kept hoping to push through to more work. Then just couldn't quit trying despite getting nowhere. I did cycle dishes through three times. Take care of the critters, watering and feeding the ducks twice. Little things.
I am about to hit the dishes. I'll wash them thoroughly, then set them aside to get a shower, then reset them... either to soap or rinse, perhaps some of each. Something happening this afternoon. Fasting for the weekend. If I have energy I will hit the dishes and bedroom this evening. Slowly getting done. Not as much as hoped in the bedroom last night, some though. Even just a bit of work really pays off.
Ducks this morning, cats and meds right as I finish this. Then dishes, a shave, and a shower. I am ready for this afternoon, if it works out, other than grooming.
I was... a little surprised at the response to the last post, and my counters to those. Yeah, you have done well. I will kick something out for you shortly. Strange what you boys and girls see and say. Some of you get it, or are right in line. Do you really know... or almost, or do you merely parrot? Not sure which is most troubling. Still, it does bring a smile to my lips.
Later.
Thursday, February 14, 2019
A bit.
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Dishes are set, chicken is brining, and the grill is started. The counters are slowly being cleared. When I reset the dishes, or wash them next, I plan on setting a dish pan of hot soapy water so as to wash flat surfaces, those cleaned before and hopefully all the others.
Well, chicken is cooking and dishes have been reset. Too greasy for a wash this time. With dinner closing in, I'll hold off washing the counters. Just having the dishes going is good. A bit tired, but I want the dishes out of the way for a shower. Having little energy else, all I might do beside dinner and dishes is an hour or two in the bedroom. It won't be all that much work, but it will be a nice little chunk.
Then, perhaps, a shower. Bed as quickly after as possible. I keep missing meds. I should be able to get all of today, but I missed yesterday evening. Actually, that is my first missed dose in a week or so. Still, almost turned into a habit. I'll get it tonight. Oh, I need to begin checking bp. It will be high until psychosomatic application doses in. It does need the medicine, but also daily, or nearly, testing.
Later, or good night. Might have something for you in a bit...
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Dishes are set, chicken is brining, and the grill is started. The counters are slowly being cleared. When I reset the dishes, or wash them next, I plan on setting a dish pan of hot soapy water so as to wash flat surfaces, those cleaned before and hopefully all the others.
Well, chicken is cooking and dishes have been reset. Too greasy for a wash this time. With dinner closing in, I'll hold off washing the counters. Just having the dishes going is good. A bit tired, but I want the dishes out of the way for a shower. Having little energy else, all I might do beside dinner and dishes is an hour or two in the bedroom. It won't be all that much work, but it will be a nice little chunk.
Then, perhaps, a shower. Bed as quickly after as possible. I keep missing meds. I should be able to get all of today, but I missed yesterday evening. Actually, that is my first missed dose in a week or so. Still, almost turned into a habit. I'll get it tonight. Oh, I need to begin checking bp. It will be high until psychosomatic application doses in. It does need the medicine, but also daily, or nearly, testing.
Later, or good night. Might have something for you in a bit...
Heat must go up.
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I forgot to raise the thermostat. Not sure it would have mattered. Tired today. Ducks and cats taken care, nothing else so far. Hoping to get dishes started, then brine chicken for the grill, and get the grill going. Anything other than chicken? Perhaps, if the romaine is still good, and avocado.
Anything else? I do hope to do some work in the bedroom. It is getting done, slowly. Just a few hours a day means far more is being done than is being undone. One set of clothes is being put in the hamper, at most. If two to four small boxes of clothes or items, minimally, are being sorted and arranged, I am winning the war against clutter. When I get to putting one of the storage units up, it will be downhill. Having easier access to permanent storage, with enough volume for pretty much everything remaining, even with just one of the units, will pretty much settle things.
No shower, certainly not yet. Even with the furnace up, I'm still chilled. I... just... not this morning... I'm not up to stripping and showering, not yet. Maybe later. It really is possible, and a shave. If I can dig through dishes and finish the counter tops. It is getting late, darker, and not warming. I'll just have to see.
Later.
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I forgot to raise the thermostat. Not sure it would have mattered. Tired today. Ducks and cats taken care, nothing else so far. Hoping to get dishes started, then brine chicken for the grill, and get the grill going. Anything other than chicken? Perhaps, if the romaine is still good, and avocado.
Anything else? I do hope to do some work in the bedroom. It is getting done, slowly. Just a few hours a day means far more is being done than is being undone. One set of clothes is being put in the hamper, at most. If two to four small boxes of clothes or items, minimally, are being sorted and arranged, I am winning the war against clutter. When I get to putting one of the storage units up, it will be downhill. Having easier access to permanent storage, with enough volume for pretty much everything remaining, even with just one of the units, will pretty much settle things.
No shower, certainly not yet. Even with the furnace up, I'm still chilled. I... just... not this morning... I'm not up to stripping and showering, not yet. Maybe later. It really is possible, and a shave. If I can dig through dishes and finish the counter tops. It is getting late, darker, and not warming. I'll just have to see.
Later.
A wonderful sleep.
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No aches, pains, stiffness. No cats either. Did I roll? Enough not to hurt from a lack of such. My innards hurt a bit this morning, but the rest is good. I am suspecting xylotol o.d. to be honest... for the g.i. and organ pains, and the high blood sugar, after the fast food and pancake incidences of late '18 and early '19. I had hoped to be able to use it sparingly, after a. c. vinegar ketonics, but the gums are addictive, to me. Oh, and that much xylotol acts as a laxative. Almost had an accident.
Up late, to bed pretty late though too. Sleep was worth it. I'd like to shower first thing, then get on to the critters. Then set up dishes and begin in on the bedroom. I wasn't sure yesterday, but today it is looking strongly possible, probable. Fast, slow? It will be steady, most likely. With medicine I will take aspirin.
I have a container of soaked chia and ground flax seed to try for breakfast. I wanted to see if that works two days out. I have chicken drumsticks thawed for later. Fasting will start tomorrow or Saturday. Two or three days, then similar fat fasting. We'll see if blood sugar can be whipped back in line.
First, I have to wake. It has stopped snowing. Probably close to after when I came home. It is still dark, and extra cold in spite of being above freezing. It's the wet, in the air and melted on the ground. I'd like to do shopping, but won't until next week. I hate it when a food list develops in my mind right before fasting. :p
Later.
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No aches, pains, stiffness. No cats either. Did I roll? Enough not to hurt from a lack of such. My innards hurt a bit this morning, but the rest is good. I am suspecting xylotol o.d. to be honest... for the g.i. and organ pains, and the high blood sugar, after the fast food and pancake incidences of late '18 and early '19. I had hoped to be able to use it sparingly, after a. c. vinegar ketonics, but the gums are addictive, to me. Oh, and that much xylotol acts as a laxative. Almost had an accident.
Up late, to bed pretty late though too. Sleep was worth it. I'd like to shower first thing, then get on to the critters. Then set up dishes and begin in on the bedroom. I wasn't sure yesterday, but today it is looking strongly possible, probable. Fast, slow? It will be steady, most likely. With medicine I will take aspirin.
I have a container of soaked chia and ground flax seed to try for breakfast. I wanted to see if that works two days out. I have chicken drumsticks thawed for later. Fasting will start tomorrow or Saturday. Two or three days, then similar fat fasting. We'll see if blood sugar can be whipped back in line.
First, I have to wake. It has stopped snowing. Probably close to after when I came home. It is still dark, and extra cold in spite of being above freezing. It's the wet, in the air and melted on the ground. I'd like to do shopping, but won't until next week. I hate it when a food list develops in my mind right before fasting. :p
Later.
Wednesday, February 13, 2019
Not as much as hoped.
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Fair though. I was shoveling eight to twelve inches to create paths and do the front walk. It was a lot more work than anticipated. A shower before, some sorting in the bedroom, a few other things... minor things. I did some solid work, made calls and appointments, went with for the repairs and then supper.
I am hoping to get to dishes, the bedroom, and the kitchen table tomorrow. It is less work, but much more work by number of projects. I have no idea if I will be in any condition to work. It is the goal. I have been keeping up on the cats and ducks. Almost spoiling them, if I do it gladly.
A lot more tired but in a real mechanical way tonight compared to the last week. I should sleep quite well, maybe wake better too. If so, I'll try to hit it harder, faster, and earlier. Good night.
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Fair though. I was shoveling eight to twelve inches to create paths and do the front walk. It was a lot more work than anticipated. A shower before, some sorting in the bedroom, a few other things... minor things. I did some solid work, made calls and appointments, went with for the repairs and then supper.
I am hoping to get to dishes, the bedroom, and the kitchen table tomorrow. It is less work, but much more work by number of projects. I have no idea if I will be in any condition to work. It is the goal. I have been keeping up on the cats and ducks. Almost spoiling them, if I do it gladly.
A lot more tired but in a real mechanical way tonight compared to the last week. I should sleep quite well, maybe wake better too. If so, I'll try to hit it harder, faster, and earlier. Good night.
It's still coming down.
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Snow, snow, and more snow. It's an odd snow, very moist yet stacking like powder. It has just the right consistency and it is just the right temp. Six inches, eight? Every woman's dream, mostly. As mentioned, some don't like it thick. I did finish enough to get the tractor out and allow for deliveries. It about kilt me, but done. A shower before.
This time I didn't pile clothes on too hot. Other than two pair of socks and gloves, just normal clothes, with a synth t, open hooded fleece woodsman's jacket, with a really loose water and wind proof shell. Practice when I can. I didn't get too hot or cold or wet. I will eventually get out in this. Might even figure out where to camp.
If I didn't mention, an appointment has been set up with the doc. And fixing the weld has been tentatively arranged for this afternoon. I have some gifts to go along, if I am not taking it. It would be a pricey fix at a shop, and yet the machine is being used for others in need locally. Still, good salami and another minor gift... just seems right.
After a break, I will get dishes started, hit the other counters and sinks, take another break, then hit the bedroom again. Yeah. I'll keep at it. I may have bruised my mackerels shoveling, but I didn't break them! Woot! Yes, I'll keep at it. Maybe a hot fatted tea during my break. Hot fluids can help with cooldowns while cold drinks can help me warm up. Odd, but for me true.
Later.
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Snow, snow, and more snow. It's an odd snow, very moist yet stacking like powder. It has just the right consistency and it is just the right temp. Six inches, eight? Every woman's dream, mostly. As mentioned, some don't like it thick. I did finish enough to get the tractor out and allow for deliveries. It about kilt me, but done. A shower before.
This time I didn't pile clothes on too hot. Other than two pair of socks and gloves, just normal clothes, with a synth t, open hooded fleece woodsman's jacket, with a really loose water and wind proof shell. Practice when I can. I didn't get too hot or cold or wet. I will eventually get out in this. Might even figure out where to camp.
If I didn't mention, an appointment has been set up with the doc. And fixing the weld has been tentatively arranged for this afternoon. I have some gifts to go along, if I am not taking it. It would be a pricey fix at a shop, and yet the machine is being used for others in need locally. Still, good salami and another minor gift... just seems right.
After a break, I will get dishes started, hit the other counters and sinks, take another break, then hit the bedroom again. Yeah. I'll keep at it. I may have bruised my mackerels shoveling, but I didn't break them! Woot! Yes, I'll keep at it. Maybe a hot fatted tea during my break. Hot fluids can help with cooldowns while cold drinks can help me warm up. Odd, but for me true.
Later.
So dark.
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Waking was a chore. Then again, so was sleeping. I was to bed by 21:30? Close either way. I couldn't sleep well, then had to get out of bed for... a while, at near midnight. Up for forty five minutes to an hour and an half? Getting back to bed, then back to sleep, was difficult. Just a tough night. Perhaps work is getting to me, little as it is.
It was a bit because it was so dark, and partly due to the trouble with sleeping, that waking was hard. Innards are feeling wonky as well. If there is enough pain, it is easier to stay asleep. That wasn't the case today... just another complaint, not a speed bump.
Why so dark? Snowing. Heavy. Ugh. I am hoping it it stops before too long. Either way, sometime after noon I plan to get the plow going. Wait... can't! The blade lift bar is still broken... the weld is broken that is. Crap. I will start in with the shovel I guess. Ugh.
Until then, back to the bedroom. Bits and pieces. Breakfast, a first breakfast anyway. A chia and flax seed slurry, soaked overnight, then with a cup of raw cream. I will be cutting down on nuts, adding them every third time, and as occasional snacks, with cheese.
Oh, I would like to get a shower before anything, and at least trim the whiskers. Hmm, I might call someone who might be able to fix the weld. Oh, and I need to call my doctor. The d.o.t. didn't receive the paperwork he was supposed to have filled out. I'm not sure if this is just another bureaucratic attack, his passive-aggressive lib secretary, or something he is doing.
I best get to it. Later.
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A bit of both, w/r to the d.o.t. The doctor is pushing for six month visits and d.o.t is pushing six months down to four months on top of it. I may have to... sort this out, one way or the other. Oh, and I called about the spot weld. It will be doable, but later this afternoon. Yea, I do my best.
Still snowing thick, but dropping straight down. I will probably shower, then just shovel as I can. At least open a path to the road for the machine, and ups guy. Ugh. Later, again.
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Waking was a chore. Then again, so was sleeping. I was to bed by 21:30? Close either way. I couldn't sleep well, then had to get out of bed for... a while, at near midnight. Up for forty five minutes to an hour and an half? Getting back to bed, then back to sleep, was difficult. Just a tough night. Perhaps work is getting to me, little as it is.
It was a bit because it was so dark, and partly due to the trouble with sleeping, that waking was hard. Innards are feeling wonky as well. If there is enough pain, it is easier to stay asleep. That wasn't the case today... just another complaint, not a speed bump.
Why so dark? Snowing. Heavy. Ugh. I am hoping it it stops before too long. Either way, sometime after noon I plan to get the plow going. Wait... can't! The blade lift bar is still broken... the weld is broken that is. Crap. I will start in with the shovel I guess. Ugh.
Until then, back to the bedroom. Bits and pieces. Breakfast, a first breakfast anyway. A chia and flax seed slurry, soaked overnight, then with a cup of raw cream. I will be cutting down on nuts, adding them every third time, and as occasional snacks, with cheese.
Oh, I would like to get a shower before anything, and at least trim the whiskers. Hmm, I might call someone who might be able to fix the weld. Oh, and I need to call my doctor. The d.o.t. didn't receive the paperwork he was supposed to have filled out. I'm not sure if this is just another bureaucratic attack, his passive-aggressive lib secretary, or something he is doing.
I best get to it. Later.
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A bit of both, w/r to the d.o.t. The doctor is pushing for six month visits and d.o.t is pushing six months down to four months on top of it. I may have to... sort this out, one way or the other. Oh, and I called about the spot weld. It will be doable, but later this afternoon. Yea, I do my best.
Still snowing thick, but dropping straight down. I will probably shower, then just shovel as I can. At least open a path to the road for the machine, and ups guy. Ugh. Later, again.
Tuesday, February 12, 2019
Didn't care for the leg of lamb.
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Perhaps it was in the freezer to long. I cooked it perfectly, by temp. It was grainy and strong tasting in spite of using the right spices and lemon juice. Perhaps I have lost my taste for it. It is an acquired taste. Oh well, it was worth a shot. It sure looked, even smelled, great.
As to work, I kept at it. I am not close to done. I started in the bedroom and never finished. Clothes being sorted, stored in temporary groups, being folded and some put up. This and that else. It will take a while, but should be easy to maintain once done, as then there will be double, and more, space for everything. More so if I do end up sleeping on the floor, so being able to roll my bed up in the morning.
I am not working all that fast. Today was a bit slower. And, yet, I continue to hit it. Three to six hours a day, four to five days a week, and life is really shaping up. I am extremely tired, if that doesn't seem to be caused by the work. It... just is. On the bad side it makes getting started difficult. On the good side, it means I can work a bit without a real cost, as long as I can start and continue.
Yeah, I'll keep at it. Medicine is staying on track. Blood sugar is still a bit high, I'll have to fast this weekend. Ugh. I'll keep at it.
Oh, I received a form from SSA, telling me I received my whole SS income last year. But I didn't. They stopped paying me in July. Ten to one they are giving my money to some illegal in a sanctuary city or state. These anti-American bureaucrats can get away with anything at this point. Is anyone able to do anything about this, stop them, return my income? The president is too busy trying to stay out of prison to help, surrendering whatever is required. With Romney as senator, no help there. He, like McCain, hates Americans, would rather illegals get our money. Yea.
Good night.
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Perhaps it was in the freezer to long. I cooked it perfectly, by temp. It was grainy and strong tasting in spite of using the right spices and lemon juice. Perhaps I have lost my taste for it. It is an acquired taste. Oh well, it was worth a shot. It sure looked, even smelled, great.
As to work, I kept at it. I am not close to done. I started in the bedroom and never finished. Clothes being sorted, stored in temporary groups, being folded and some put up. This and that else. It will take a while, but should be easy to maintain once done, as then there will be double, and more, space for everything. More so if I do end up sleeping on the floor, so being able to roll my bed up in the morning.
I am not working all that fast. Today was a bit slower. And, yet, I continue to hit it. Three to six hours a day, four to five days a week, and life is really shaping up. I am extremely tired, if that doesn't seem to be caused by the work. It... just is. On the bad side it makes getting started difficult. On the good side, it means I can work a bit without a real cost, as long as I can start and continue.
Yeah, I'll keep at it. Medicine is staying on track. Blood sugar is still a bit high, I'll have to fast this weekend. Ugh. I'll keep at it.
Oh, I received a form from SSA, telling me I received my whole SS income last year. But I didn't. They stopped paying me in July. Ten to one they are giving my money to some illegal in a sanctuary city or state. These anti-American bureaucrats can get away with anything at this point. Is anyone able to do anything about this, stop them, return my income? The president is too busy trying to stay out of prison to help, surrendering whatever is required. With Romney as senator, no help there. He, like McCain, hates Americans, would rather illegals get our money. Yea.
Good night.
A sunny new day.
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Laundry was folded, not put away. Dishes were finished so the shower is open. After feeding the ducks, a shower and the last of the dishes set to soak, probably. Between finding and making more, dishes never seem to be done. A break, after cat care, then tearing into my room and setting up one or both storage units.
If that gets done in a timely manner, with energy remaining, I would like to hit the kitchen... the tabletop today. It seems cold, may need to turn the furnace up a bit. As tired as I am, I keep working. Nothing fancy, but much more done than undone each day. So very tired and yet moving at a decent clip. Having to take a break, I just started a gusher nose bleed. Doing anything but sitting and the blood gets through.
I'll get to things when that backs of. Later.
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Laundry was folded, not put away. Dishes were finished so the shower is open. After feeding the ducks, a shower and the last of the dishes set to soak, probably. Between finding and making more, dishes never seem to be done. A break, after cat care, then tearing into my room and setting up one or both storage units.
If that gets done in a timely manner, with energy remaining, I would like to hit the kitchen... the tabletop today. It seems cold, may need to turn the furnace up a bit. As tired as I am, I keep working. Nothing fancy, but much more done than undone each day. So very tired and yet moving at a decent clip. Having to take a break, I just started a gusher nose bleed. Doing anything but sitting and the blood gets through.
I'll get to things when that backs of. Later.
Monday, February 11, 2019
A good finish.
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The last of the laundry folded. All save the pot in which spaghetti was heated is washed. While I didn't get a shower, it will happen tomorrow. Driving lessons, doing well. While out, a bit of shopping, including eyehooks and wire to stablize the cage basket wall unit and freestanding closet.
Plans for more this week. As well, I am hoping to keep going with housework and maintenance. I am extremely worn, but I hope to keep working. Slow is okay if faster would be better. The last dishes and counters, making way for either the closet or shelving, then installing whichever, perhaps a start at clearing the table as well tomorrow. It's... a before terminal impact plan.
It's well past bedtime. I'd best take medicine, aspirin, and hit it. Good night and God bless.
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The last of the laundry folded. All save the pot in which spaghetti was heated is washed. While I didn't get a shower, it will happen tomorrow. Driving lessons, doing well. While out, a bit of shopping, including eyehooks and wire to stablize the cage basket wall unit and freestanding closet.
Plans for more this week. As well, I am hoping to keep going with housework and maintenance. I am extremely worn, but I hope to keep working. Slow is okay if faster would be better. The last dishes and counters, making way for either the closet or shelving, then installing whichever, perhaps a start at clearing the table as well tomorrow. It's... a before terminal impact plan.
It's well past bedtime. I'd best take medicine, aspirin, and hit it. Good night and God bless.
A reasonable start.
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Dishes were reset. While at it, a pot of hot soapy water was brought to the kitchen to touch up areas previously cleaned by which they were cleaned again. Then the critters were tended. It is sunny out there, but cooler than the 15° temp would suggest. Still, it's bracing, refreshing. Then I finished folding the second to the last load. I will fluff the last load after this.
Breakfast in there, with a fatted tea. A bit of sorting while waiting on breakfast.
On a break, I tried to call my brother. No answer, so I called my mom. Mostly good news, save the weather. I had good news for her, as they get our weather a few days later... the sun is coming. I told her I attempted to call my brother. Both numbers, she asked. Yep. She suggested I call after our conversation. I said I would, but wasn't sure. I did, he answered, we had a good talk. All very good.
When I start the laundry, I will begin heating lunch and then finish dishes, using the pot again. While talking to my brother, I checked trash. I can't remember if it was emptied, so returned from the curb or not. I will check after lunch. As well, perhaps a nap, after a shower.
Getting to things, if still rather tuckered. Small batches and loads, short work cycles, higher frequency of work periods, and it is working. Later.
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Dishes were reset. While at it, a pot of hot soapy water was brought to the kitchen to touch up areas previously cleaned by which they were cleaned again. Then the critters were tended. It is sunny out there, but cooler than the 15° temp would suggest. Still, it's bracing, refreshing. Then I finished folding the second to the last load. I will fluff the last load after this.
Breakfast in there, with a fatted tea. A bit of sorting while waiting on breakfast.
On a break, I tried to call my brother. No answer, so I called my mom. Mostly good news, save the weather. I had good news for her, as they get our weather a few days later... the sun is coming. I told her I attempted to call my brother. Both numbers, she asked. Yep. She suggested I call after our conversation. I said I would, but wasn't sure. I did, he answered, we had a good talk. All very good.
When I start the laundry, I will begin heating lunch and then finish dishes, using the pot again. While talking to my brother, I checked trash. I can't remember if it was emptied, so returned from the curb or not. I will check after lunch. As well, perhaps a nap, after a shower.
Getting to things, if still rather tuckered. Small batches and loads, short work cycles, higher frequency of work periods, and it is working. Later.
Still a bit rough.
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The cooking pans were all set to wash. I will reset those shortly, washing the stove as well. The neighbor cleared the drive last night, then headed out. A weld broke, the same as last time. So he couldn't finish other drives. Not sure if he was able to get it fixed this morning, and finish. I just woke.
While he was doing that, I shoveled the walks. It is such little work, but wore me out completely. It isn't that I have been doing much else. The little else I am doing is wearing me out as well. A couple of batches of dishes will exhaust me to the point that folding clothes while seated isn't possible. It's not the kind of exhaustion that allows for sleep, or I would do it.
I hope to finish dishes and clothes today, then do some work in the bedroom and kitchen. I think I can, will, today. I will also try to get back to eating right, mostly. I found a package of pasta so made spaghetti last night. I may finish that, after breakfast, then roast a leg of lamb later. The spaghetti was truly good, perhaps great.
The sun is trying to break through. It would be good for mood. Winter has gone rather dark lately. I don't always mind, even always notice, unless I am ebbing low. Innards are sore again. This time not from sleeping too deeply, or without rolling enough, if my mattress may be a bit worn. I may get rid of the mattress and boxsprings, and try sleeping on the floor. If I like it, I might then purchase a mattress made for the floor, and a matt for under it.
I best get the critters fed. And myself. Then reset the dishes. If I can get the dishes pushed out, a shower would be good. Then laundry, or work in the bedroom. I will just have to see after that. With part of the cages set up, some of them free, I have places to put things. As I clear space, I can put up more cages and the freestanding closet. Further, when I remove the bed, the floor bed can be rolled up and put out of the way in the mornings allowing much greater access to the far length of the closet. A floor bed has more advantages. I may put a foldaway computer stand in there, as my day computer area, and turn the front room into a seasonal sitting room. Too hot in the summer, to cold for others in the winter, good for spring and fall.
Hmm, ducks and cats? Definitely. The natives are getting restless. Oh, dreamed I befriended another breed last night, of a different sort. There is something especially hollow and lonely about not really having a people. Especially when the composites are all enemies. Do Eskimos ever use the actual name of their tribe/people as their last name? Sometimes? I'm curious. Can't remember exactly, but I'll know it when I see it again. Though it may just have been similar... Innuit? Or A... something. :p
Later.
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The cooking pans were all set to wash. I will reset those shortly, washing the stove as well. The neighbor cleared the drive last night, then headed out. A weld broke, the same as last time. So he couldn't finish other drives. Not sure if he was able to get it fixed this morning, and finish. I just woke.
While he was doing that, I shoveled the walks. It is such little work, but wore me out completely. It isn't that I have been doing much else. The little else I am doing is wearing me out as well. A couple of batches of dishes will exhaust me to the point that folding clothes while seated isn't possible. It's not the kind of exhaustion that allows for sleep, or I would do it.
I hope to finish dishes and clothes today, then do some work in the bedroom and kitchen. I think I can, will, today. I will also try to get back to eating right, mostly. I found a package of pasta so made spaghetti last night. I may finish that, after breakfast, then roast a leg of lamb later. The spaghetti was truly good, perhaps great.
The sun is trying to break through. It would be good for mood. Winter has gone rather dark lately. I don't always mind, even always notice, unless I am ebbing low. Innards are sore again. This time not from sleeping too deeply, or without rolling enough, if my mattress may be a bit worn. I may get rid of the mattress and boxsprings, and try sleeping on the floor. If I like it, I might then purchase a mattress made for the floor, and a matt for under it.
I best get the critters fed. And myself. Then reset the dishes. If I can get the dishes pushed out, a shower would be good. Then laundry, or work in the bedroom. I will just have to see after that. With part of the cages set up, some of them free, I have places to put things. As I clear space, I can put up more cages and the freestanding closet. Further, when I remove the bed, the floor bed can be rolled up and put out of the way in the mornings allowing much greater access to the far length of the closet. A floor bed has more advantages. I may put a foldaway computer stand in there, as my day computer area, and turn the front room into a seasonal sitting room. Too hot in the summer, to cold for others in the winter, good for spring and fall.
Hmm, ducks and cats? Definitely. The natives are getting restless. Oh, dreamed I befriended another breed last night, of a different sort. There is something especially hollow and lonely about not really having a people. Especially when the composites are all enemies. Do Eskimos ever use the actual name of their tribe/people as their last name? Sometimes? I'm curious. Can't remember exactly, but I'll know it when I see it again. Though it may just have been similar... Innuit? Or A... something. :p
Later.
Sunday, February 10, 2019
From the north.
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Snow, driven horizontal by the wind. Large juicy snowflakes, which melt to instant frigid rain drops immediately. I decided to give the ducks fresh water. Even when it is cold, perhaps especially, they love water... so long as there remains light. Clean ducks are warm ducks. Although, were it not for the wind and juicy snow, it really wouldn't be cold.
I finally saw Susperia, the new take. I knew, a short way through, what was going on. I recognize my sisters. I didn't know every bit, just the main plot and a few side notions. No more will I say. I would hate to ruin it for anyone who hasn't watched it. A hint of sorts, to my way of thinking if not suggested in the movie, in the last sentence for those who follow a bit, remember, and connect dots. I will now view the original. All I know is the stories are very different, only with the same basic setting. Know? Well, have heard such said. I was... satisfied with the production.
I also, finally, finished pots and pans. However, I am hungry. I might be able to fast but I won't. I am having difficulty figuring what to eat. I need meat. I would have gone out, but not with this snow. So I am thawing some meat, some of it more quickly. Terribly hungry, mostly for meat. I had a bowl of popcorn to no satisfaction, even with lots of butter. Meat, I need meat. Eggs won't do either.
I am hoping to finish the last of the laundry, then perhaps get to the bedroom for a bit of sorting. Things are getting done. Even, tired, achy, troubled, I am moving further ahead than backsliding by far. I'll keep at it. Later.
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Snow, driven horizontal by the wind. Large juicy snowflakes, which melt to instant frigid rain drops immediately. I decided to give the ducks fresh water. Even when it is cold, perhaps especially, they love water... so long as there remains light. Clean ducks are warm ducks. Although, were it not for the wind and juicy snow, it really wouldn't be cold.
I finally saw Susperia, the new take. I knew, a short way through, what was going on. I recognize my sisters. I didn't know every bit, just the main plot and a few side notions. No more will I say. I would hate to ruin it for anyone who hasn't watched it. A hint of sorts, to my way of thinking if not suggested in the movie, in the last sentence for those who follow a bit, remember, and connect dots. I will now view the original. All I know is the stories are very different, only with the same basic setting. Know? Well, have heard such said. I was... satisfied with the production.
I also, finally, finished pots and pans. However, I am hungry. I might be able to fast but I won't. I am having difficulty figuring what to eat. I need meat. I would have gone out, but not with this snow. So I am thawing some meat, some of it more quickly. Terribly hungry, mostly for meat. I had a bowl of popcorn to no satisfaction, even with lots of butter. Meat, I need meat. Eggs won't do either.
I am hoping to finish the last of the laundry, then perhaps get to the bedroom for a bit of sorting. Things are getting done. Even, tired, achy, troubled, I am moving further ahead than backsliding by far. I'll keep at it. Later.
Better.
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The aches and pains? I think those were from sleeping without rolling enough. As it got cooler, after the false spring thaw, the girls curled too closely. I slept so hard in the renewed cold I didn't realize I wasn't rolling. To test this, I have been sleeping alone the last few nights. Perhaps it is just coincidental, if I have other reasons to think not, but the pains are much diminished.
Days are getting longer, sun is more common and frequent. It's gone back to being cold, 10° F, give or take five, yesterday. Enough that I refreshed the water for the ducks. It wasn't frozen by afternoon, but they used much of it. With spring coming, I want them to have extra food and water. Laying will be happening soon, extra food and water will help that. Of course, I am hoping one of the ladies will go broody, so no eating of eggs for a bit, until I can get, say, twenty five under her? The extra after that will be for food. It is their first laying season, so their very first eggs might not work well for anything?
Fasting today and tomorrow, for sure, maybe an extra day or two. I have conflicting beliefs about whether broth can be used during fasting. I want to see the effects of fasting first before testing that for myself. That will mean no broth until Monday, perhaps Tuesday, if I fast that long. All that will be added is water and salt, about two cups total. I am looking forward to the test, in hopes I can have broth occasionally while fasting. Not daily perhaps, but every other or third day, perhaps to extend fasting.
Oh, I am hoping to craft chicken bone broth early this week as well. With two broths set up I won't fear supping on, or using the broth more often generally. Three pints a week offers six servings, or four and a gravy. Sure will go through it fast. With two broths of similar amounts, quarterly broth production? There is something good about broth, if many people look at me weird if discussed... so I've learned not to talk about it.
Oh... I am going back to Brigg apple cider vinegar. It just... it is better. I hate it, but it is true. You can make the stuff at home, but you have to keep up on it. This is as good as I can do. If I found a good wife, with an interest in such, I could teach and help... especially moving large containers. But I can't track things well. Definitely going back to an a. c. vinegar with the mother. Tastes better too, not so harsh, and without an ammonia aftertaste.
Later.
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The aches and pains? I think those were from sleeping without rolling enough. As it got cooler, after the false spring thaw, the girls curled too closely. I slept so hard in the renewed cold I didn't realize I wasn't rolling. To test this, I have been sleeping alone the last few nights. Perhaps it is just coincidental, if I have other reasons to think not, but the pains are much diminished.
Days are getting longer, sun is more common and frequent. It's gone back to being cold, 10° F, give or take five, yesterday. Enough that I refreshed the water for the ducks. It wasn't frozen by afternoon, but they used much of it. With spring coming, I want them to have extra food and water. Laying will be happening soon, extra food and water will help that. Of course, I am hoping one of the ladies will go broody, so no eating of eggs for a bit, until I can get, say, twenty five under her? The extra after that will be for food. It is their first laying season, so their very first eggs might not work well for anything?
Fasting today and tomorrow, for sure, maybe an extra day or two. I have conflicting beliefs about whether broth can be used during fasting. I want to see the effects of fasting first before testing that for myself. That will mean no broth until Monday, perhaps Tuesday, if I fast that long. All that will be added is water and salt, about two cups total. I am looking forward to the test, in hopes I can have broth occasionally while fasting. Not daily perhaps, but every other or third day, perhaps to extend fasting.
Oh, I am hoping to craft chicken bone broth early this week as well. With two broths set up I won't fear supping on, or using the broth more often generally. Three pints a week offers six servings, or four and a gravy. Sure will go through it fast. With two broths of similar amounts, quarterly broth production? There is something good about broth, if many people look at me weird if discussed... so I've learned not to talk about it.
Oh... I am going back to Brigg apple cider vinegar. It just... it is better. I hate it, but it is true. You can make the stuff at home, but you have to keep up on it. This is as good as I can do. If I found a good wife, with an interest in such, I could teach and help... especially moving large containers. But I can't track things well. Definitely going back to an a. c. vinegar with the mother. Tastes better too, not so harsh, and without an ammonia aftertaste.
Later.
Saturday, February 9, 2019
No cabbage.
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Must have forgotten that on the list. There was kale... really good for soup. Well, other than tasting of green ass. Eating isn't all about taste, the texture of kale holds in liquid meals. Although it just didn't matter. I can't digest food. I realized this yesterday, which is why I added an a. c. vinegar ketonic, it sometimes helps. Not this time. Nothing is moving, bloat. My guess? The pancakes yesterday. Stupid, especially since I don't like pancakes... it was a pout consumption that wasn't necessary.
The crazy thing? While I can't eat much, my blood sugar is rising. Neither can I drink much. Everything is just sitting in there. The soup wasn't bad, if nothing to write home about. I need to track down the Olive Garden kale soup recipe. That is fantastic. If I could figure it out, I'd make it in a big batch and freeze some. This... sigh. Though, when feeling full, over full, nothing tastes all that good.
I am hoping to finish dishes. I've kept up on prep cleanup, so it's just the dishes... plus what was soaking. I am not sure it is possible. Remember waddling around after Thanksgiving? Imagine becoming such a lightweight that four hundred calories could do that to you. Right. Rude.
The ducks have been watered twice, the girls fed and treated. Hmm, should check their litter. Again? Even if a second time, clean litter is as good for me as them.
Maybe a nap first. Later.
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Must have forgotten that on the list. There was kale... really good for soup. Well, other than tasting of green ass. Eating isn't all about taste, the texture of kale holds in liquid meals. Although it just didn't matter. I can't digest food. I realized this yesterday, which is why I added an a. c. vinegar ketonic, it sometimes helps. Not this time. Nothing is moving, bloat. My guess? The pancakes yesterday. Stupid, especially since I don't like pancakes... it was a pout consumption that wasn't necessary.
The crazy thing? While I can't eat much, my blood sugar is rising. Neither can I drink much. Everything is just sitting in there. The soup wasn't bad, if nothing to write home about. I need to track down the Olive Garden kale soup recipe. That is fantastic. If I could figure it out, I'd make it in a big batch and freeze some. This... sigh. Though, when feeling full, over full, nothing tastes all that good.
I am hoping to finish dishes. I've kept up on prep cleanup, so it's just the dishes... plus what was soaking. I am not sure it is possible. Remember waddling around after Thanksgiving? Imagine becoming such a lightweight that four hundred calories could do that to you. Right. Rude.
The ducks have been watered twice, the girls fed and treated. Hmm, should check their litter. Again? Even if a second time, clean litter is as good for me as them.
Maybe a nap first. Later.
Pots and pans.
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Mine are commercial sizes, twenty to thirty quart, heavy stainless... some of it tri-ply metal. Cleaning one at a time is reasonable. Cleaning three at a time, especially when greasy, is a trick. Still, almost done. After, or while rinsing the last, I will pull one in order to steam burger, cabbage, and maybe carrots, as I fry mushrooms on the side. Heck of a job.
I washed the stove top, and one other flat surface. I just can't push through as I would like. Definitely hungry, so am trying. I'll get an apple cider vinegar, then fatted tea, ketonic while I work at working. The plan is to steam the cabbage and maybe carrots, cook the meat in the basin, then mix it all with a pint of broth and water... adding a cup of cream to finish it off. Mushrooms? Half in the soup, half on the side? Sounds good. If the side 'shrooms might not make it to the table. Hmm, if I have spinach, I may add some right at the end... fresh spinach, julliened. Frozen spinach always seems... wrong.
Still very tired. Did reset meds. I am going to try one more tab of carvedilol, at night when it is less likely to disturb sleep. That is as much as I dare. It increases the risk of falling off medicine and makes getting back up to dose much more precarious. Still... I will try this one last step.
So hungry. So tired. Things to do. Later.
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Mine are commercial sizes, twenty to thirty quart, heavy stainless... some of it tri-ply metal. Cleaning one at a time is reasonable. Cleaning three at a time, especially when greasy, is a trick. Still, almost done. After, or while rinsing the last, I will pull one in order to steam burger, cabbage, and maybe carrots, as I fry mushrooms on the side. Heck of a job.
I washed the stove top, and one other flat surface. I just can't push through as I would like. Definitely hungry, so am trying. I'll get an apple cider vinegar, then fatted tea, ketonic while I work at working. The plan is to steam the cabbage and maybe carrots, cook the meat in the basin, then mix it all with a pint of broth and water... adding a cup of cream to finish it off. Mushrooms? Half in the soup, half on the side? Sounds good. If the side 'shrooms might not make it to the table. Hmm, if I have spinach, I may add some right at the end... fresh spinach, julliened. Frozen spinach always seems... wrong.
Still very tired. Did reset meds. I am going to try one more tab of carvedilol, at night when it is less likely to disturb sleep. That is as much as I dare. It increases the risk of falling off medicine and makes getting back up to dose much more precarious. Still... I will try this one last step.
So hungry. So tired. Things to do. Later.
Sleep is so demanding.
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I was to bed at 17:36. I looked, focused while looking, then checked one more time. As tired as I have been, it doesn't always stick in memory anyway. Exhausted worse than I can remember. My innards are sore too. Blood sugar is 177 this morning, down twenty two from yesterday fasting. Breakfast may bring it down ten to forty points.
Oh, fasting? I will start that tomorrow. I still have meat thawed, and want to try cabbage, mixed burger, and broth. It took longer to cool the broth than expected. Actually, it was still so hot by noon that I set it in the wash tub, ran cold water, then added ice. It still took an hour and eight to ten pounds of ice. I got nineteen pints of the thicker form of broth... jelly at fridge temp and colder.
Everything from yesterday is being soaked. I redid the hot soapy soak first thing this morning. Up at 6:00 to 6:30. I will take aspirin this morning, extra. Everything is just a bit grumpy, bodily. I added in most of the last of the dishes. I won't add glass until the fat has been well ridded... impossible to get fat off the inside of half gallon jugs!
Beside dishes, I'll finish laundry, make several meals, hopefully hit the bathroom early, then take a shower? Two days in a row? When I can! Even if it is hard on the body, I'd bath or shower five days a week if I could. So the rare times I can hit it twice in a row, I will. Notice it is last on the list though? Yea, we will see.
Get to it peeps... burning daylight, or will be.
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I was to bed at 17:36. I looked, focused while looking, then checked one more time. As tired as I have been, it doesn't always stick in memory anyway. Exhausted worse than I can remember. My innards are sore too. Blood sugar is 177 this morning, down twenty two from yesterday fasting. Breakfast may bring it down ten to forty points.
Oh, fasting? I will start that tomorrow. I still have meat thawed, and want to try cabbage, mixed burger, and broth. It took longer to cool the broth than expected. Actually, it was still so hot by noon that I set it in the wash tub, ran cold water, then added ice. It still took an hour and eight to ten pounds of ice. I got nineteen pints of the thicker form of broth... jelly at fridge temp and colder.
Everything from yesterday is being soaked. I redid the hot soapy soak first thing this morning. Up at 6:00 to 6:30. I will take aspirin this morning, extra. Everything is just a bit grumpy, bodily. I added in most of the last of the dishes. I won't add glass until the fat has been well ridded... impossible to get fat off the inside of half gallon jugs!
Beside dishes, I'll finish laundry, make several meals, hopefully hit the bathroom early, then take a shower? Two days in a row? When I can! Even if it is hard on the body, I'd bath or shower five days a week if I could. So the rare times I can hit it twice in a row, I will. Notice it is last on the list though? Yea, we will see.
Get to it peeps... burning daylight, or will be.
Friday, February 8, 2019
So dark.
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Ducks and the girls, food and all. They are so pleased when tended. I really hope to get a spycam out so I can watch the ducks play. The girls let me know, or I can watch them play. When the fence is installed I will be able to watch the ducks a bit more, perhaps even sit out with them, read in the fresh air.
The chia seed was just fine after soaking for twenty four and more hours. It needed more milk, as it had solidified too much. It tasted fresh. I may begin doing that regularly, as I think it digests better. And I don't have to wait an hour. I am going to try soaking enough for two or three days, see how that works. It would sure be easier.
Socks are nearly done. Beside what was washed, I had unmatched groups to go through. Quite a lot was sorted. It's been a year since I bothered with unmatched socks. Still have many singles, if not a whole box... perhaps a quarter of that. Year? Hmm... years.
Another cup of broth. Superior stuff. And it warmed me like liquid fire. As alcohol seems to, if I think in a better way. No vascular et. al. expansion. It just adds fuel to cells to burn immediately, especially since by body is adjusted to burn fat. *zoom zoom* Blood sugar was high today because, having forgotten why my blood sugar was so high yesterday, partly depressed from the news, I had a breakfast out, including pancakes and syrup. It was 197 fasting, but dropped twenty and change after the various foods after an hour and more.
I am quite warm, almost overheating. But it isn't rising blood sugar as one might think, as I suspected so checked. If it really is just my body burning fuel, that's a good sign. Although, cooling down a bit, soon, would be good. I'm not sweating or anything, the heat is all on the inside. Hmm... a jug of cold tea might help? If sometimes that makes it worse.
A nap, or in a bit? Maybe. Later.
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Ducks and the girls, food and all. They are so pleased when tended. I really hope to get a spycam out so I can watch the ducks play. The girls let me know, or I can watch them play. When the fence is installed I will be able to watch the ducks a bit more, perhaps even sit out with them, read in the fresh air.
The chia seed was just fine after soaking for twenty four and more hours. It needed more milk, as it had solidified too much. It tasted fresh. I may begin doing that regularly, as I think it digests better. And I don't have to wait an hour. I am going to try soaking enough for two or three days, see how that works. It would sure be easier.
Socks are nearly done. Beside what was washed, I had unmatched groups to go through. Quite a lot was sorted. It's been a year since I bothered with unmatched socks. Still have many singles, if not a whole box... perhaps a quarter of that. Year? Hmm... years.
Another cup of broth. Superior stuff. And it warmed me like liquid fire. As alcohol seems to, if I think in a better way. No vascular et. al. expansion. It just adds fuel to cells to burn immediately, especially since by body is adjusted to burn fat. *zoom zoom* Blood sugar was high today because, having forgotten why my blood sugar was so high yesterday, partly depressed from the news, I had a breakfast out, including pancakes and syrup. It was 197 fasting, but dropped twenty and change after the various foods after an hour and more.
I am quite warm, almost overheating. But it isn't rising blood sugar as one might think, as I suspected so checked. If it really is just my body burning fuel, that's a good sign. Although, cooling down a bit, soon, would be good. I'm not sweating or anything, the heat is all on the inside. Hmm... a jug of cold tea might help? If sometimes that makes it worse.
A nap, or in a bit? Maybe. Later.
A long sleep.
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To bed early. I can only guess, if I believe shortly after 16:00, definitely before 17:00? Almost certainly, if absolutely before 17:15. I woke to a gunshot at some time in the middle of the night... distant not close as has been the case. Just a dream? I never will be certain. I woke later, around 3:30, but couldn't remain awake. Up at 6:30ish.
Before letting the bone broth cool, I am heating to medium without the lid, in an attempt to ensure health issues. Probably not needed, it has maintained a slow boil all night, still... After the timer goes off, I will turn it off, move it to a different, cold, burner, then let it quietly get to room temp. I might pull some for a cup of butter and cream broth. There is something about rich fresh bone broth that can't be beat. Most moderns have absolutely no idea what they are missing.
Talked myself right into a broth bomb. Delicious!
I am hoping to get back to work today. The last few days have been heavy, so no promises. And, yet, there is hope. I dressed warm, still being clean, and along with the broth will test the chia seed stuff, see if overnight soaking works. If not, I will make a fresh bowl. Ducks then girls in an hour, right as I turn the broth off.
Laundry for certain, it just needs folded. If I must sit, that is still doable. The last of the dishes, cleaning surfaces, trash roundup, and sorting in the living room and kitchen are the main push today and tomorrow. The only thing for Sunday is cleaning the bathroom as needed and then some. It's fairly clean and yet I want to double down on it.
My word, I may have another cup of that stuff! Later.
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To bed early. I can only guess, if I believe shortly after 16:00, definitely before 17:00? Almost certainly, if absolutely before 17:15. I woke to a gunshot at some time in the middle of the night... distant not close as has been the case. Just a dream? I never will be certain. I woke later, around 3:30, but couldn't remain awake. Up at 6:30ish.
Before letting the bone broth cool, I am heating to medium without the lid, in an attempt to ensure health issues. Probably not needed, it has maintained a slow boil all night, still... After the timer goes off, I will turn it off, move it to a different, cold, burner, then let it quietly get to room temp. I might pull some for a cup of butter and cream broth. There is something about rich fresh bone broth that can't be beat. Most moderns have absolutely no idea what they are missing.
Talked myself right into a broth bomb. Delicious!
I am hoping to get back to work today. The last few days have been heavy, so no promises. And, yet, there is hope. I dressed warm, still being clean, and along with the broth will test the chia seed stuff, see if overnight soaking works. If not, I will make a fresh bowl. Ducks then girls in an hour, right as I turn the broth off.
Laundry for certain, it just needs folded. If I must sit, that is still doable. The last of the dishes, cleaning surfaces, trash roundup, and sorting in the living room and kitchen are the main push today and tomorrow. The only thing for Sunday is cleaning the bathroom as needed and then some. It's fairly clean and yet I want to double down on it.
My word, I may have another cup of that stuff! Later.
Thursday, February 7, 2019
A long complicated trip.
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I didn't leave until after 7:00. Then I noticed some trouble with the vehicle. Extra drag, some system off that should be on. No time to fuss, if I did drive slower. Then, nearly there, I noticed the vehicle was stuck in 4-low. How was that even possible? It is only supposed to go into 4-low if geared in 3-low on the transmission.
No time. I got in, went to lab, then to my appointment. Some horse trading, we will see. Blood pressure and sugar are high, though with blood sugar that was expected. Eating fast food, while required, Iknew would raise a1c. But with fasting and keto it should come down. BP is another matter.
The last few days, blood sugar has been just a bit high... in the 140's~150's. As with vets, lookat any known changes in diet. Anything? Yep! Zylotol gum. I've been testing it, but forgot. Just afew pieces will raise it. I was hoping to use it more regularly but no. I will use it, one piece, after apple cider ketonics. It will readjust spit to the correct acidity after that. Also good after lemon, lime, pickled items, and so on... for teeth health. Now I know, about blood sugar problems and not to use commonly or in any volume... just another medicine.
The broth continues. It will be quite thick. Lots of collogen, and else. It won't honestly be all that tasty, butter cream, and salt will sort that part. But it will be an excellent food for ending a fast and creating gravies, soups, and stews. I am excited to have this almost back in... stock! I'll let it cook over night, at a lower temp. I hope to let it cool as I wake and probably to noon, then portion it into containers, most to be frozen. One left out for use, some that day.
Oh, I stopped at a Midas. The guy drove back and forward, as I had. Then he cranked the wheel and pushed reverse solidly. Back out and running right. No charge? I gave him every bit of cash I had. Not much, wished I had more, grateful. I embarrassed the guy. No bear hugs, just... gratitude.
Girls and ducks were tended first thing. I may crash shortly. Later or good night.
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I didn't leave until after 7:00. Then I noticed some trouble with the vehicle. Extra drag, some system off that should be on. No time to fuss, if I did drive slower. Then, nearly there, I noticed the vehicle was stuck in 4-low. How was that even possible? It is only supposed to go into 4-low if geared in 3-low on the transmission.
No time. I got in, went to lab, then to my appointment. Some horse trading, we will see. Blood pressure and sugar are high, though with blood sugar that was expected. Eating fast food, while required, Iknew would raise a1c. But with fasting and keto it should come down. BP is another matter.
The last few days, blood sugar has been just a bit high... in the 140's~150's. As with vets, lookat any known changes in diet. Anything? Yep! Zylotol gum. I've been testing it, but forgot. Just afew pieces will raise it. I was hoping to use it more regularly but no. I will use it, one piece, after apple cider ketonics. It will readjust spit to the correct acidity after that. Also good after lemon, lime, pickled items, and so on... for teeth health. Now I know, about blood sugar problems and not to use commonly or in any volume... just another medicine.
The broth continues. It will be quite thick. Lots of collogen, and else. It won't honestly be all that tasty, butter cream, and salt will sort that part. But it will be an excellent food for ending a fast and creating gravies, soups, and stews. I am excited to have this almost back in... stock! I'll let it cook over night, at a lower temp. I hope to let it cool as I wake and probably to noon, then portion it into containers, most to be frozen. One left out for use, some that day.
Oh, I stopped at a Midas. The guy drove back and forward, as I had. Then he cranked the wheel and pushed reverse solidly. Back out and running right. No charge? I gave him every bit of cash I had. Not much, wished I had more, grateful. I embarrassed the guy. No bear hugs, just... gratitude.
Girls and ducks were tended first thing. I may crash shortly. Later or good night.
Up, rather early.
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Up later last night. Driving lesson, some cleaning, then a start on the kit computer, all taking me well past 19:00, probably at least to if more likely past 20:00... I know I looked, but can't remember the last time. I set the alarm for this morning. Without realizing that clock was an hour fast, I ended waking an hour early. Better this way than the other, but there would have been room either way.
I did set bone broth to stew last night. Turned it to low last night, and left it going. It had lost very little water, on low with the lid on, through the night. This morning I turned the heat up and took the lid off, just for a bit. It will take at least through the day, maybe part of tomorrow. I would like to see about the meat, but can't today. Next time. I used some lamb bones and pork hocks, but mostly ox tail. No veggies or salt, and of course reverse osmosis water. It should be done tonight or tomorrow morning. Perhaps this weekend I will do chicken broth. My next extended fast will be broken in style.
Bills were paid yesterday. Mortgage and phone still require manual involvement. Not this month, but next, I'd like to get a car wash pass. There are always little things to do or on a list. Almost all involve money, energy, and or time, some or all of which I don't have. I get to things eventually, if they are truly needed or wanted and affordable. Eventually.
Hmm. So much for hot cereal. I was able to get a room temp breakfast. With the half hour soaking time and cold cream, it just won't work as I had planned. All good, live and learn. I ended with far too much cereal. I have heard it can be left to soak overnight. While that isn't my case exactly, as it is morning and will be finished later today, I will finally get to test the general idea.
A shower, air dry time, then on to my day. I am tempted to try to salvage some of the meat, but a) time really slips when doing odd tasks and b) I suspect it is already overcooked from running overnight. It is good up to six hours, or so I have heard, but has been going for nine or ten. No. Just a shower, morning routines, then to it. Later.
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Up later last night. Driving lesson, some cleaning, then a start on the kit computer, all taking me well past 19:00, probably at least to if more likely past 20:00... I know I looked, but can't remember the last time. I set the alarm for this morning. Without realizing that clock was an hour fast, I ended waking an hour early. Better this way than the other, but there would have been room either way.
I did set bone broth to stew last night. Turned it to low last night, and left it going. It had lost very little water, on low with the lid on, through the night. This morning I turned the heat up and took the lid off, just for a bit. It will take at least through the day, maybe part of tomorrow. I would like to see about the meat, but can't today. Next time. I used some lamb bones and pork hocks, but mostly ox tail. No veggies or salt, and of course reverse osmosis water. It should be done tonight or tomorrow morning. Perhaps this weekend I will do chicken broth. My next extended fast will be broken in style.
Bills were paid yesterday. Mortgage and phone still require manual involvement. Not this month, but next, I'd like to get a car wash pass. There are always little things to do or on a list. Almost all involve money, energy, and or time, some or all of which I don't have. I get to things eventually, if they are truly needed or wanted and affordable. Eventually.
Hmm. So much for hot cereal. I was able to get a room temp breakfast. With the half hour soaking time and cold cream, it just won't work as I had planned. All good, live and learn. I ended with far too much cereal. I have heard it can be left to soak overnight. While that isn't my case exactly, as it is morning and will be finished later today, I will finally get to test the general idea.
A shower, air dry time, then on to my day. I am tempted to try to salvage some of the meat, but a) time really slips when doing odd tasks and b) I suspect it is already overcooked from running overnight. It is good up to six hours, or so I have heard, but has been going for nine or ten. No. Just a shower, morning routines, then to it. Later.
Wednesday, February 6, 2019
A better morning.
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It is cold, blustery, a hard winter morning. Yes, that means windy. The thermometer reads 20, give or take five. But that wind, if not extremely fast, is fast enough and a solid wall of moving air. I'd peg windchill at -20 to 0, F. I added leaves and straw, one more bag of leaves and a quarter, fifth perhaps, bail of hay remains. Should do well till spring. I just, mostly, pile it in. The quackles know what to do. I am down to the last of the regular feed, perhaps a third to quarter bag, before I begin the feed without corn or soy. The girls have been tended, including litter.
Breakfast was good enough. I wasn't up to warming the chia seed mix. After, I realized there is a better way. Since I am using water for soaking, just boil the water rather than heating the mess in a pot, or even microwave bowl. A few eggs on the side, several fatted teas, not bad. It does take a couple hours to eat breakfast. Not because I am a slow eater, it is getting that much fat down that slows it all. Initially it is easy... once you finally believe you should. After a while it becomes seriously difficult.
Feeding blood sugar, an hour and an half after the main portions were eaten, is 128, a nineteen point from fasting. As reasonable as that seems, is... I had hoped for a lower read. Ask not, get not. These numbers are so good. I would still like them better. They will be. With keto, fasting, and perhaps intermittent fasting again soon, I will only improve. Down to 80 to 100, mostly.
No great pains, some. I will take aspirin to cut the edge. More to develop a better chance at working than for the suffering alone. The goals remain... dishes, laundry, though the bedroom instead of the kitchen and livingroom. The freestanding closet should be in today, the wire cage organizer should be in Friday. I would like to be ready, mostly.
We will see. It feels like a slow day, but not am impossible one. I sure hope to get most of the list done. Maybe shopping too? Or, not. Later.
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It is cold, blustery, a hard winter morning. Yes, that means windy. The thermometer reads 20, give or take five. But that wind, if not extremely fast, is fast enough and a solid wall of moving air. I'd peg windchill at -20 to 0, F. I added leaves and straw, one more bag of leaves and a quarter, fifth perhaps, bail of hay remains. Should do well till spring. I just, mostly, pile it in. The quackles know what to do. I am down to the last of the regular feed, perhaps a third to quarter bag, before I begin the feed without corn or soy. The girls have been tended, including litter.
Breakfast was good enough. I wasn't up to warming the chia seed mix. After, I realized there is a better way. Since I am using water for soaking, just boil the water rather than heating the mess in a pot, or even microwave bowl. A few eggs on the side, several fatted teas, not bad. It does take a couple hours to eat breakfast. Not because I am a slow eater, it is getting that much fat down that slows it all. Initially it is easy... once you finally believe you should. After a while it becomes seriously difficult.
Feeding blood sugar, an hour and an half after the main portions were eaten, is 128, a nineteen point from fasting. As reasonable as that seems, is... I had hoped for a lower read. Ask not, get not. These numbers are so good. I would still like them better. They will be. With keto, fasting, and perhaps intermittent fasting again soon, I will only improve. Down to 80 to 100, mostly.
No great pains, some. I will take aspirin to cut the edge. More to develop a better chance at working than for the suffering alone. The goals remain... dishes, laundry, though the bedroom instead of the kitchen and livingroom. The freestanding closet should be in today, the wire cage organizer should be in Friday. I would like to be ready, mostly.
We will see. It feels like a slow day, but not am impossible one. I sure hope to get most of the list done. Maybe shopping too? Or, not. Later.
Awake, hoping to get to work.
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Down around 16:30, up at 2:00 or so. It was a struggle to stay awake that late and to wake. The body is good, it's the mind that is tired. Fasting blood sugar was 147. Higher than hoped but below the running averages. The general average is now below before and after meal averages, and the after meal average is lower than the before meal average? Weird but true. Then, I have noticed, eating the right foods does lower blood sugar a lot if after a rather slight upward bump. Still, it seems so strange.
I am soaking 'cereal'. I plan to heat it this morning, for the first time. Along with a few cold hard boiled eggs and a hot fatted tea, it should do well. Later, boiled mixed meat burger patties, with cheese and steamed carrots. I think I am out of cabbage or similar. I need to shop. Kale, cabbage, mushrooms, salad fixings, perhaps a few other such. I need to research which olive oils are real. Many seem to be mixes of real, but with sun or safflower, canola, or other unhealthy oils. As well, I'd like to see about larger, locally available, avocado oil. Look, the stuff seems to work.
And odd thing. I have been practicing layering this year. Base layers, mid layers, top layers, even sock combinations. All to include dry and wet wear and materials. A recent find was that cotton socks under wool socks was extremely warm. Far too warm for inside with a furnace going. Now, with cotton being poor when wet, worse than poor, it would be no good in snow or rain. However, in camp, dry and sheltered, I do believe it would be exemplary. I only tried it to be contranarian. Good to go against the grain at time.
Beside getting back to work today, I am going to brew bone broth. I have decided to continue fasting, next time this Thursday or Friday to Sunday or Monday. I want to try bone broth during the fast, though definitely want it for after. Plus I want it for gravy and soups. After the beef and lamb, I will make chicken stock. Oh yes, the stuff is quite good, and for you.
It always sounded a bit... witchy... bone broth. Probably because it was usually poor, half crazy, widows who most often consume it. Odd how I have no real financial depravity, but culinary and health reasoning. Makes me take a second gander at other long held notions, about other topics... me pretties! Hehehe *cackles* :P
Breakfast time. Good morning and day.
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Down around 16:30, up at 2:00 or so. It was a struggle to stay awake that late and to wake. The body is good, it's the mind that is tired. Fasting blood sugar was 147. Higher than hoped but below the running averages. The general average is now below before and after meal averages, and the after meal average is lower than the before meal average? Weird but true. Then, I have noticed, eating the right foods does lower blood sugar a lot if after a rather slight upward bump. Still, it seems so strange.
I am soaking 'cereal'. I plan to heat it this morning, for the first time. Along with a few cold hard boiled eggs and a hot fatted tea, it should do well. Later, boiled mixed meat burger patties, with cheese and steamed carrots. I think I am out of cabbage or similar. I need to shop. Kale, cabbage, mushrooms, salad fixings, perhaps a few other such. I need to research which olive oils are real. Many seem to be mixes of real, but with sun or safflower, canola, or other unhealthy oils. As well, I'd like to see about larger, locally available, avocado oil. Look, the stuff seems to work.
And odd thing. I have been practicing layering this year. Base layers, mid layers, top layers, even sock combinations. All to include dry and wet wear and materials. A recent find was that cotton socks under wool socks was extremely warm. Far too warm for inside with a furnace going. Now, with cotton being poor when wet, worse than poor, it would be no good in snow or rain. However, in camp, dry and sheltered, I do believe it would be exemplary. I only tried it to be contranarian. Good to go against the grain at time.
Beside getting back to work today, I am going to brew bone broth. I have decided to continue fasting, next time this Thursday or Friday to Sunday or Monday. I want to try bone broth during the fast, though definitely want it for after. Plus I want it for gravy and soups. After the beef and lamb, I will make chicken stock. Oh yes, the stuff is quite good, and for you.
It always sounded a bit... witchy... bone broth. Probably because it was usually poor, half crazy, widows who most often consume it. Odd how I have no real financial depravity, but culinary and health reasoning. Makes me take a second gander at other long held notions, about other topics... me pretties! Hehehe *cackles* :P
Breakfast time. Good morning and day.
Tuesday, February 5, 2019
No nap after all.
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Though I didn't crash I also haven't done much. I boiled, peeled, and am eating a few of those eggs. As well, an apple cider ketonic. I'll have a fatted tea after. Blood sugar climbed to 134, actually from not eating... go figure. Which is why I'm eating. Oh, but I found a book of interest... "Solitary Fitness".
The book fits, if for a different reason. The author, Charles Bronson, is or was a career criminal. He was often consigned to solitary confinement for violence against pretty much anyone he could get his hands on. While our confinement is for different reasons, often it might as well be the same.
It is a book about getting in shape and keeping in shape without anything but one's own mass, gravity, and the will to it. It may not be possible. If there is a chance though, this is as good of an opportunity as there is, for me. To be honest, it would take busting mackerels. I'm not sure I have that. We will see.
I'll start with just stretches and warmups, see where that gets me. I'd like to delve past that section. Go a good bit further, perhaps finish the book first, in order to begin developing a game plan, back up plans, and failsafes. I might be able to get there. I am eating the right foods, sleeping better, on meds. I'm as beginning stage fit as possible.
It looks like visitors are going away. Thankfully I don't write for that. It just... I am surprised I have visitors at all. Not sure anyone reads? Just noticed. Solitary. Later.
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Though I didn't crash I also haven't done much. I boiled, peeled, and am eating a few of those eggs. As well, an apple cider ketonic. I'll have a fatted tea after. Blood sugar climbed to 134, actually from not eating... go figure. Which is why I'm eating. Oh, but I found a book of interest... "Solitary Fitness".
The book fits, if for a different reason. The author, Charles Bronson, is or was a career criminal. He was often consigned to solitary confinement for violence against pretty much anyone he could get his hands on. While our confinement is for different reasons, often it might as well be the same.
It is a book about getting in shape and keeping in shape without anything but one's own mass, gravity, and the will to it. It may not be possible. If there is a chance though, this is as good of an opportunity as there is, for me. To be honest, it would take busting mackerels. I'm not sure I have that. We will see.
I'll start with just stretches and warmups, see where that gets me. I'd like to delve past that section. Go a good bit further, perhaps finish the book first, in order to begin developing a game plan, back up plans, and failsafes. I might be able to get there. I am eating the right foods, sleeping better, on meds. I'm as beginning stage fit as possible.
It looks like visitors are going away. Thankfully I don't write for that. It just... I am surprised I have visitors at all. Not sure anyone reads? Just noticed. Solitary. Later.
A rough day.
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So tired. All I have done is eaten and not slept. Hmm, though I did do the drying, fed and watered the critters, and had breakfast. I just took an after meal blood read, 119. Amazes me. I keep expecting a huge jump, not sure why not. Maybe the fasting does a harder reset, truly. While I suggest that, and it works especially when fasting multiple days several times in a row, it still seems strange that I eat the same food to such different results.
I may have to nap. So very tired. It snowed, which froze to even the driveway. It is dark. Though the cold is mostly dry again. I just can't bull through today again, if I hope a simple nap will do. I've been taking medicine well, for what good that is doing. Yeah, a nap.
Later.
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So tired. All I have done is eaten and not slept. Hmm, though I did do the drying, fed and watered the critters, and had breakfast. I just took an after meal blood read, 119. Amazes me. I keep expecting a huge jump, not sure why not. Maybe the fasting does a harder reset, truly. While I suggest that, and it works especially when fasting multiple days several times in a row, it still seems strange that I eat the same food to such different results.
I may have to nap. So very tired. It snowed, which froze to even the driveway. It is dark. Though the cold is mostly dry again. I just can't bull through today again, if I hope a simple nap will do. I've been taking medicine well, for what good that is doing. Yeah, a nap.
Later.
Not all as planned, but extra extra.
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No more dishes. Laundry, the last of it, was dried... or set to dry. I will run it for thirty minutes this morning to fluff and warm. As well, the last two loads prior wait impatiently to be folded and put up. I did roast the turkey leg. Quite good. I have a slice left. I am thinking that heated, with eggs on the side, would make for a superior breakfast.
The extra extras were getting out for driving practice, and staying up to nearly 18:00. Oh, I was tired all day. Drop off a cliff tired. But I pushed through. I didn't like any part of it. Simply I want my days back. I have two appointments this week I mean to keep. And as spring rolls in, I am hoping to get out in it more. With being forced to get out for the ducks, the temptation for more is strong. Even in the winter, it just hasn't been a good winter for it. I want to get out and spring is it.
Today? Finishing dishes and laundry then tearing into the living room and kitchen table. As well, perhaps sorting in my bedroom. I have organizing pieces arriving later this week. More of those wire cubes and a standing covered closet. I'll have to open up space in my room, and secure these to the walls. What is being moved will end up in these storage systems, so it's a bit of a trick.
I always worry when I begin eating again, what blood sugar will do. So far? Fasting draw is 132. That's definitely the best fasting draw since before I ran out of medication and it all fell apart. My total average, if coming down fast, is 162. And that isn't far from the high and low of before and after meal averages... which are about ten points either way of the general average. Lowering all together, in a stable concise pattern. Well done.
I guess that is all good. Later.
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No more dishes. Laundry, the last of it, was dried... or set to dry. I will run it for thirty minutes this morning to fluff and warm. As well, the last two loads prior wait impatiently to be folded and put up. I did roast the turkey leg. Quite good. I have a slice left. I am thinking that heated, with eggs on the side, would make for a superior breakfast.
The extra extras were getting out for driving practice, and staying up to nearly 18:00. Oh, I was tired all day. Drop off a cliff tired. But I pushed through. I didn't like any part of it. Simply I want my days back. I have two appointments this week I mean to keep. And as spring rolls in, I am hoping to get out in it more. With being forced to get out for the ducks, the temptation for more is strong. Even in the winter, it just hasn't been a good winter for it. I want to get out and spring is it.
Today? Finishing dishes and laundry then tearing into the living room and kitchen table. As well, perhaps sorting in my bedroom. I have organizing pieces arriving later this week. More of those wire cubes and a standing covered closet. I'll have to open up space in my room, and secure these to the walls. What is being moved will end up in these storage systems, so it's a bit of a trick.
I always worry when I begin eating again, what blood sugar will do. So far? Fasting draw is 132. That's definitely the best fasting draw since before I ran out of medication and it all fell apart. My total average, if coming down fast, is 162. And that isn't far from the high and low of before and after meal averages... which are about ten points either way of the general average. Lowering all together, in a stable concise pattern. Well done.
I guess that is all good. Later.
Monday, February 4, 2019
Screw that.
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Still exhausted but refusing to surrender, again. I think it's the dark. Well, and a special sort of cold. It is warmer, drifting from rain to slush now to snow. Even so, it has been above freezing. But that thaw and precipitation means a moist cold which, to me, is much colder. Would I get frostbite or hypothermia faster? I actually do believe so.
Anyway, I am refusing to fall to it. I may not be moving fast, but I am moving. I dealt with quackles and pusses... I suppose I could get their litter again. Trash and recycling were taken out before six. While salting the drive and walk, I checked the barrels. The trash was empty, so I walked it back, but the recycling was untouched. I hope... it's full.
The last load of laundry is drying. I am hoping to get the rest of the dishes gathered and soaking, then hit the counters and stove. Then I can start sorting in the living room and the kitchen table. Tomorrow or the next day, if this dark weird weather continues. I may have to take longer to finish things. Not quitting doesn't mean it won't be difficult.
Worried about blood sugar, I tested anyway. Several fatted teas, chia nut breakfast, pickles and olives, oh, and cheese sticks. I'm really hungry for meat. Most of what was put out is thawed. What I keep eyeing with relish is that turkey drumstick. It's as long as my forearm, and mind you I am nigh on a giant... with a girth greater than my calf, nearing my mid-thigh! It came from a 70 pound turkey which barely waddled it's way to the winner circle. Oh, blood sugar is 108!
I'll keep at things, as well as able. I am not going to give in, not that easily. Later.
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Still exhausted but refusing to surrender, again. I think it's the dark. Well, and a special sort of cold. It is warmer, drifting from rain to slush now to snow. Even so, it has been above freezing. But that thaw and precipitation means a moist cold which, to me, is much colder. Would I get frostbite or hypothermia faster? I actually do believe so.
Anyway, I am refusing to fall to it. I may not be moving fast, but I am moving. I dealt with quackles and pusses... I suppose I could get their litter again. Trash and recycling were taken out before six. While salting the drive and walk, I checked the barrels. The trash was empty, so I walked it back, but the recycling was untouched. I hope... it's full.
The last load of laundry is drying. I am hoping to get the rest of the dishes gathered and soaking, then hit the counters and stove. Then I can start sorting in the living room and the kitchen table. Tomorrow or the next day, if this dark weird weather continues. I may have to take longer to finish things. Not quitting doesn't mean it won't be difficult.
Worried about blood sugar, I tested anyway. Several fatted teas, chia nut breakfast, pickles and olives, oh, and cheese sticks. I'm really hungry for meat. Most of what was put out is thawed. What I keep eyeing with relish is that turkey drumstick. It's as long as my forearm, and mind you I am nigh on a giant... with a girth greater than my calf, nearing my mid-thigh! It came from a 70 pound turkey which barely waddled it's way to the winner circle. Oh, blood sugar is 108!
I'll keep at things, as well as able. I am not going to give in, not that easily. Later.
Fried.
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So very tired. Unbelievably exhausted. I did shower and shave, cycled the socks, fed the cats, made tea, and had breakfast. Fasting blood sugar was 165 and after food is 125. I was worried, that blood sugar had jumped. I still need to be cautious but it is good, for now. I may start using mostly water in the chia seed soak, adding a cup of cream for the fats, more fats. Raw is where it's at.
I best get trash and recycling out. I have one more bag to go out, but am otherwise set. After, I'll cycle laundry, set up dishes, and wash surfaces, perhaps the last load will be done so finish laundry, feed the critters, then crash. So very tired though. Later.
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So very tired. Unbelievably exhausted. I did shower and shave, cycled the socks, fed the cats, made tea, and had breakfast. Fasting blood sugar was 165 and after food is 125. I was worried, that blood sugar had jumped. I still need to be cautious but it is good, for now. I may start using mostly water in the chia seed soak, adding a cup of cream for the fats, more fats. Raw is where it's at.
I best get trash and recycling out. I have one more bag to go out, but am otherwise set. After, I'll cycle laundry, set up dishes, and wash surfaces, perhaps the last load will be done so finish laundry, feed the critters, then crash. So very tired though. Later.
Sunday, February 3, 2019
Nap?
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That was the theory. Some time between 9:00 and 10:00 I went in and slept. I woke a time or two, my mom called and we spoke, but until 22:00 I otherwise slept. Yeah, tired. Fasting just caught up to me. That is my guess. All good. I am awake in good enough time to get trash and recycling out. I'll finish laundry. Knowing I was crashing, not able to mess with hanging socks, I just reset the dryer to fluff the wool socks. Could be dry.
A shave and shower first thing. Air drying, not completely naked, I'm just not a nudist, even back in my prime. I just hate fully dressing until I dry of a bit, especially the feet. Furnace is up, should be dry, dressed, and at things within the hour. I might have breakfast right away.
Wow, heck of a sleep. I have been, for me, pushing work. I needed sleep, might even go back to bed after getting refuse out and to the curb and laundry done, well and maybe setting up a last load of dishes and cleaning the stove and counters? We'll see. It would be good to have those parts out of the way.
Yeah, breakfast. Which reminds me, I need sausage and bacon. I go with plain ground pork, because I haven't found sausage made without sugar. If I had more going, I would spice and case my own. An excellent spice mix without sugar is easy. It must be the government pushing sugar on manufacturing. That farm bill? Right.
Later.
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That was the theory. Some time between 9:00 and 10:00 I went in and slept. I woke a time or two, my mom called and we spoke, but until 22:00 I otherwise slept. Yeah, tired. Fasting just caught up to me. That is my guess. All good. I am awake in good enough time to get trash and recycling out. I'll finish laundry. Knowing I was crashing, not able to mess with hanging socks, I just reset the dryer to fluff the wool socks. Could be dry.
A shave and shower first thing. Air drying, not completely naked, I'm just not a nudist, even back in my prime. I just hate fully dressing until I dry of a bit, especially the feet. Furnace is up, should be dry, dressed, and at things within the hour. I might have breakfast right away.
Wow, heck of a sleep. I have been, for me, pushing work. I needed sleep, might even go back to bed after getting refuse out and to the curb and laundry done, well and maybe setting up a last load of dishes and cleaning the stove and counters? We'll see. It would be good to have those parts out of the way.
Yeah, breakfast. Which reminds me, I need sausage and bacon. I go with plain ground pork, because I haven't found sausage made without sugar. If I had more going, I would spice and case my own. An excellent spice mix without sugar is easy. It must be the government pushing sugar on manufacturing. That farm bill? Right.
Later.
Dark out there.
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Sure it is winter. Yes it is overcast. But today is a special blend of the two. I kept wondering if the clock was off. Nope. All good. We have had a rather pleasant winter, so hard dark is almost a surprise. At least it is beautiful. As hard as life can be, it is good to enjoy the really good things.
The ducks have been fed and watered, cats too. The laundry has been cycled. The woolens will take forever to dry as they get no heat. I may pull out the rack if this first go gets them close, hang them to dry. And the last load of laundry has been set to wash. A shave soon, then shower. I have emptied one of the two trash bins that need it, but need to put fresh bags in it. I may begin washing coats later this week, weather treating with specialty soaps. Yeah, I do that. And waxing boots for spring.
Slow, doing bits of chores at a time. Food, needed. Blood sugar dropped to 111 three hours ago, so I decided to eat. A fatted tea and chia seed cereal. Two hours after eating and blood sugar reads 110. Good enough. Mostly fatted tea and perhaps sardines today. I should pull meat to thaw. Steak, now that I have relearned how to cook it, chops, and some ground meats. Hmm, could make an egg casserole tomorrow, especially with some sort of mixed burger sausage.
Food isn't helping quite yet. I am sure it has stopped the slide down, but isn't pulling me back up. I may have sardines (always in olive oil, or their own juices), perhaps a cheese omelet as well. Not hungry, in the usual way. Just a sense that something is missing. Well, and an empty accelerator which offers nothing when floored.
No worries, I'll keep at it. Best take medicine and perhaps extra aspirin. Body is cranky. I'll keep at it. Later.
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Sure it is winter. Yes it is overcast. But today is a special blend of the two. I kept wondering if the clock was off. Nope. All good. We have had a rather pleasant winter, so hard dark is almost a surprise. At least it is beautiful. As hard as life can be, it is good to enjoy the really good things.
The ducks have been fed and watered, cats too. The laundry has been cycled. The woolens will take forever to dry as they get no heat. I may pull out the rack if this first go gets them close, hang them to dry. And the last load of laundry has been set to wash. A shave soon, then shower. I have emptied one of the two trash bins that need it, but need to put fresh bags in it. I may begin washing coats later this week, weather treating with specialty soaps. Yeah, I do that. And waxing boots for spring.
Slow, doing bits of chores at a time. Food, needed. Blood sugar dropped to 111 three hours ago, so I decided to eat. A fatted tea and chia seed cereal. Two hours after eating and blood sugar reads 110. Good enough. Mostly fatted tea and perhaps sardines today. I should pull meat to thaw. Steak, now that I have relearned how to cook it, chops, and some ground meats. Hmm, could make an egg casserole tomorrow, especially with some sort of mixed burger sausage.
Food isn't helping quite yet. I am sure it has stopped the slide down, but isn't pulling me back up. I may have sardines (always in olive oil, or their own juices), perhaps a cheese omelet as well. Not hungry, in the usual way. Just a sense that something is missing. Well, and an empty accelerator which offers nothing when floored.
No worries, I'll keep at it. Best take medicine and perhaps extra aspirin. Body is cranky. I'll keep at it. Later.
Hitting a brick wall.
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Not a great puzzle. Stop eating for three days while working on your household and laundry and you get what you get. It isn't exhaustion, it is more a declining ability to act. If you have ever driven a sharp v-8, then hopped into a four cylinder brick, you have the idea.
Laundry has been switched. I am going to just keep washing as I cycle now. The remaining loads are all small and easy to fold. I should finish laundry today. I keep thinking about getting the shave and shower, but... I'll set the alarm for an hour, then push through. After that, probably a break, then setting up all but the cast iron in one last set of dishes.
Trash can wait, possibly until after my next wake. If need be. Would rather get it together and out before sleep. Just so sluggish... keeping options open. I may have to eat something. If, as suggested, going to a fat fast - half normal calories, 90% fat - for several days. I'll test blood sugar in an hour or two... thinking on the subject until then. Procrastination can be a friend.
Oh, right, church. I have been so off for so long I had lost track. I started looking around. Perhaps. I need a few items blessed, and would like to obtain holy water and set up a few areas for that. I even purchased sponge material to help retain that. But more, it's a matter of confession then mass. It's... been a while... inner and outer concerns. But, I know. I do. I just can't always do much about it. At least I know God knows. For He knows what I know about these things, and more.
Hmm? Later.
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Not a great puzzle. Stop eating for three days while working on your household and laundry and you get what you get. It isn't exhaustion, it is more a declining ability to act. If you have ever driven a sharp v-8, then hopped into a four cylinder brick, you have the idea.
Laundry has been switched. I am going to just keep washing as I cycle now. The remaining loads are all small and easy to fold. I should finish laundry today. I keep thinking about getting the shave and shower, but... I'll set the alarm for an hour, then push through. After that, probably a break, then setting up all but the cast iron in one last set of dishes.
Trash can wait, possibly until after my next wake. If need be. Would rather get it together and out before sleep. Just so sluggish... keeping options open. I may have to eat something. If, as suggested, going to a fat fast - half normal calories, 90% fat - for several days. I'll test blood sugar in an hour or two... thinking on the subject until then. Procrastination can be a friend.
Oh, right, church. I have been so off for so long I had lost track. I started looking around. Perhaps. I need a few items blessed, and would like to obtain holy water and set up a few areas for that. I even purchased sponge material to help retain that. But more, it's a matter of confession then mass. It's... been a while... inner and outer concerns. But, I know. I do. I just can't always do much about it. At least I know God knows. For He knows what I know about these things, and more.
Hmm? Later.
Saturday, February 2, 2019
Down late, up early.
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While I was ready and willing to go to bed around 13:00, I wasn't able. I was too amped, from pushing the tasks through. It wasn't until 15:00, on the nose. But when my head hit that pillow? On the chin. Lights out. Awake at 23:00 on the dot. Physically awake and strong, if the mind has minor fog and lags slightly. It'll catch up soon enough.
Laundry, the last of the whites, have been started. Doing those on hot makes the place smell better, drying too. I don't use hot, even warm, water on anything else. The drier, to get clothes to dry, in the winter, I have to go to one above air/fluff (in summer, often, fluff is good enough). Sometimes I finish clothes two higher. But whites get second to the highest, with the highest setting as a twenty to thirty minute finish. Definitely makes the place smell better.
Fasting blood sugar is 124! I had thought to end my fast today, but I believe I am doing, feeling, better. I want to continue the fast, especially with this fasting read... incentive. Once I get it low again, then to eat so as to keep it low. Not as simple as it seems. Even the right foods don't always work. The right amounts is also part of it. But both of those variables are just that, moving targets. Anyway, it looks like I will lower the numbers, have lowered the numbers. It's a start.
The only things planned for today is one more load of laundry, a shower and shave, at least setting up a nearly final batch of dishes, cleaning the stove and flat surfaces in the kitchen, and getting any final trash out. Still, that sounds a lot more than what is really there. Much of it is nearly passive or combined actions which work together to the same ends. I will be ready for this coming week, even getting days back.
Later.
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While I was ready and willing to go to bed around 13:00, I wasn't able. I was too amped, from pushing the tasks through. It wasn't until 15:00, on the nose. But when my head hit that pillow? On the chin. Lights out. Awake at 23:00 on the dot. Physically awake and strong, if the mind has minor fog and lags slightly. It'll catch up soon enough.
Laundry, the last of the whites, have been started. Doing those on hot makes the place smell better, drying too. I don't use hot, even warm, water on anything else. The drier, to get clothes to dry, in the winter, I have to go to one above air/fluff (in summer, often, fluff is good enough). Sometimes I finish clothes two higher. But whites get second to the highest, with the highest setting as a twenty to thirty minute finish. Definitely makes the place smell better.
Fasting blood sugar is 124! I had thought to end my fast today, but I believe I am doing, feeling, better. I want to continue the fast, especially with this fasting read... incentive. Once I get it low again, then to eat so as to keep it low. Not as simple as it seems. Even the right foods don't always work. The right amounts is also part of it. But both of those variables are just that, moving targets. Anyway, it looks like I will lower the numbers, have lowered the numbers. It's a start.
The only things planned for today is one more load of laundry, a shower and shave, at least setting up a nearly final batch of dishes, cleaning the stove and flat surfaces in the kitchen, and getting any final trash out. Still, that sounds a lot more than what is really there. Much of it is nearly passive or combined actions which work together to the same ends. I will be ready for this coming week, even getting days back.
Later.
Getting there.
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Going to bed when finished won't be anything extra. It is almost 13:00 and the towels are still drying. The dishes have been washed, rinsed, but have yet to be put away. I am letting them air dry. The last trash can has been bagged, so they are all ready. Trash and recycling have also been taken out. As well, critters have been fed and watered... hmm... best check cat litter. Yes, all previous laundry is put up.
I have a headache coming on. As I deal with litter then dishes, I'll get a fresh bottle of aspirin. I ran out a while back. I am working right through that and other problems, I simply don't wish to sleep, or attempt it, with things as are. I earned the aches and pains, don't mind them while awake, just... I need sleep.
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Done, mostly. The towels and else just need put up. The dishes have been half put up, half moved to finish drying in the kitchen. My tub is ready for a shower. Hmm, best grab aspirin.
- Done, finished, complete, all planned save putting half a dozen dishes away. Oddballs and new which don't have a place yet. Definitely need sleep. Oh, blood sugar is 121. Hoped it would fall more. Oh well.
Good night.
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Going to bed when finished won't be anything extra. It is almost 13:00 and the towels are still drying. The dishes have been washed, rinsed, but have yet to be put away. I am letting them air dry. The last trash can has been bagged, so they are all ready. Trash and recycling have also been taken out. As well, critters have been fed and watered... hmm... best check cat litter. Yes, all previous laundry is put up.
I have a headache coming on. As I deal with litter then dishes, I'll get a fresh bottle of aspirin. I ran out a while back. I am working right through that and other problems, I simply don't wish to sleep, or attempt it, with things as are. I earned the aches and pains, don't mind them while awake, just... I need sleep.
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Done, mostly. The towels and else just need put up. The dishes have been half put up, half moved to finish drying in the kitchen. My tub is ready for a shower. Hmm, best grab aspirin.
- Done, finished, complete, all planned save putting half a dozen dishes away. Oddballs and new which don't have a place yet. Definitely need sleep. Oh, blood sugar is 121. Hoped it would fall more. Oh well.
Good night.
Attempting the unlikely.
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Saturday. Days get confusing when I wake on one day then go to bed on the next day. Sleeping several days, or worse I think staying awake for days, are worse. Would love regular days, will manage with what I get. There is definitely worse. Part of the push is to stay awake until afternoon.
I did start a batch of dishes. Not as much as hoped, but most items are large. The 68 quart tub was required. Everything was pretty rough, too. As well, two trash bins needed cleaning. The other bins received trash bags as needed. I am hoping to finish the dishes and remaining bin if it is dry, after tending the ducks.
Then laundry. I could only do half the cotton whites. The towels are massive. I'll stop there for tonight, after finishing those. I have the load before it mostly ready to put away. I just need to dry the whites and put those up as well. Quite a lot of work, especially while fasting. Tomorrow will be a rest day. I don't think it will be a continued fast though. I will probably go to a fat fast for a few days though. Blood sugar was down to 128. I am hoping it drops twenty or thirty points before I sleep.
Ugh. Ducks, laundry to the drier, dried clothes up, dishes completed so the shower is ready tomorrow, then the last load of laundry completed? That really is the plan. I don't want to fuss about a shower tomorrow. So, yes. I may crash as soon as I get it all done. I'm burning out. Good night and morning.
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Saturday. Days get confusing when I wake on one day then go to bed on the next day. Sleeping several days, or worse I think staying awake for days, are worse. Would love regular days, will manage with what I get. There is definitely worse. Part of the push is to stay awake until afternoon.
I did start a batch of dishes. Not as much as hoped, but most items are large. The 68 quart tub was required. Everything was pretty rough, too. As well, two trash bins needed cleaning. The other bins received trash bags as needed. I am hoping to finish the dishes and remaining bin if it is dry, after tending the ducks.
Then laundry. I could only do half the cotton whites. The towels are massive. I'll stop there for tonight, after finishing those. I have the load before it mostly ready to put away. I just need to dry the whites and put those up as well. Quite a lot of work, especially while fasting. Tomorrow will be a rest day. I don't think it will be a continued fast though. I will probably go to a fat fast for a few days though. Blood sugar was down to 128. I am hoping it drops twenty or thirty points before I sleep.
Ugh. Ducks, laundry to the drier, dried clothes up, dishes completed so the shower is ready tomorrow, then the last load of laundry completed? That really is the plan. I don't want to fuss about a shower tomorrow. So, yes. I may crash as soon as I get it all done. I'm burning out. Good night and morning.
Slowing down.
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No surprise. While fasting, energy will founder. It is a price worth paying. Blood sugar is at 155 currently. It's only a ~forty point drop but the day is only half done. And it is nearing the working range it needs to be. Twenty five to seventy five down and I am good. They say sixty to eighty is okay, if I'm not sure I believe them.
One load of laundry through and to being put up. Another load drying. I had such a small load of white synths that I put them in. I am sure I can get those two loads tonight. I have to do one more load, cotton whites... towels. I have washed, rinsed, and put away the dishes that were soaking. I am wearing out, not sure I want to put another set of loads going. I may push it through, but I need to push if I do. I want a shower tomorrow, thus having the tub clear and towels done.
Why the tub? It handles batches, instead of a batch, at a time, and I'm needing to work my way to the sink. Actually, I have. It is, now, just the volume the tub allows. I put the batches in regular sink sized tubs, not all in the mongo tub... that's just too much. It works. Worst case, I could dump the tubs, shower, and reset... but as with having to backtrack while driving, that isn't favored.
Not bad, all in all. I wonder if a nap... No. I can tell I couldn't sleep. Bleh. I'll keep doing what I can. Later.
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No surprise. While fasting, energy will founder. It is a price worth paying. Blood sugar is at 155 currently. It's only a ~forty point drop but the day is only half done. And it is nearing the working range it needs to be. Twenty five to seventy five down and I am good. They say sixty to eighty is okay, if I'm not sure I believe them.
One load of laundry through and to being put up. Another load drying. I had such a small load of white synths that I put them in. I am sure I can get those two loads tonight. I have to do one more load, cotton whites... towels. I have washed, rinsed, and put away the dishes that were soaking. I am wearing out, not sure I want to put another set of loads going. I may push it through, but I need to push if I do. I want a shower tomorrow, thus having the tub clear and towels done.
Why the tub? It handles batches, instead of a batch, at a time, and I'm needing to work my way to the sink. Actually, I have. It is, now, just the volume the tub allows. I put the batches in regular sink sized tubs, not all in the mongo tub... that's just too much. It works. Worst case, I could dump the tubs, shower, and reset... but as with having to backtrack while driving, that isn't favored.
Not bad, all in all. I wonder if a nap... No. I can tell I couldn't sleep. Bleh. I'll keep doing what I can. Later.
Friday, February 1, 2019
Eight down, almost exactly.
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I love that number. Given health, that is optimal. Six to six and an half used to be best, if it wasn't as sustainable as wanted. Five or six days a week, at the former prime, then I'd need weekend low and slows. As is, I don't have much control, only preference. Sleep was very good. No cats, work tuckered me out, didn't want cat drama or such.
First thing, laundry was started. That is, finally, all dark cottons. Sheets, towels, jeans, shirts... the vast majority of laundry. Whites, woolens, and synthetics remain, maybe two white and synth, one wool. After all is washed, I will change sheets. Should have enough to go in with it for a load by then. Ugh. No extra loads until the last one is put away. Rules work... if I abide them.
Then I hit dishes. Everything soaking was hit a final time. They are ready to be dried and put up, but I was through for the time. I'm not officially awake yet! I figured I would post, do morning routines, then hit them and put the next batches in. I'm getting close. I should finish dishes today, then be down to washing the stove and one, maybe all of, my counters.
I don't know how much other clearing and cleaning I can get to beyond these things. Hopefully some. Just picking a small area or two, hitting it hard, might work. As well, one of the smaller trash cans needs washed. I should set that to a soak after finishing this batch of dishes, before setting the next dishes. As well, the bins need bags, most of them. I think I can get a bag of trash out, and recycling.
Yeah, it's turning into a good work week. If I can keep up, I can really catch up. If I need naps, I'll take them. No good pushing through just to say I'm not sleeping but then do nothing. Far better to sleep eighteen hours and work four of the rest than to just sit for twelve or sixteen hours. Although if I can work eight to ten on eight down, I'll be golden... until I fall flat on my face.
Fasting blood sugar is 194. It's... coming down, I guess. Keeping to one sweetened per three, and lightly, teas, and a.c. vinegar ketonics, and it will improve. With the dishes being done, and stove opening, perhaps I can get stock going yet today. I have enough for beef and chicken, I think. Oh yeah, it is good stuff, and good for the body.
Good morning and night.
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I love that number. Given health, that is optimal. Six to six and an half used to be best, if it wasn't as sustainable as wanted. Five or six days a week, at the former prime, then I'd need weekend low and slows. As is, I don't have much control, only preference. Sleep was very good. No cats, work tuckered me out, didn't want cat drama or such.
First thing, laundry was started. That is, finally, all dark cottons. Sheets, towels, jeans, shirts... the vast majority of laundry. Whites, woolens, and synthetics remain, maybe two white and synth, one wool. After all is washed, I will change sheets. Should have enough to go in with it for a load by then. Ugh. No extra loads until the last one is put away. Rules work... if I abide them.
Then I hit dishes. Everything soaking was hit a final time. They are ready to be dried and put up, but I was through for the time. I'm not officially awake yet! I figured I would post, do morning routines, then hit them and put the next batches in. I'm getting close. I should finish dishes today, then be down to washing the stove and one, maybe all of, my counters.
I don't know how much other clearing and cleaning I can get to beyond these things. Hopefully some. Just picking a small area or two, hitting it hard, might work. As well, one of the smaller trash cans needs washed. I should set that to a soak after finishing this batch of dishes, before setting the next dishes. As well, the bins need bags, most of them. I think I can get a bag of trash out, and recycling.
Yeah, it's turning into a good work week. If I can keep up, I can really catch up. If I need naps, I'll take them. No good pushing through just to say I'm not sleeping but then do nothing. Far better to sleep eighteen hours and work four of the rest than to just sit for twelve or sixteen hours. Although if I can work eight to ten on eight down, I'll be golden... until I fall flat on my face.
Fasting blood sugar is 194. It's... coming down, I guess. Keeping to one sweetened per three, and lightly, teas, and a.c. vinegar ketonics, and it will improve. With the dishes being done, and stove opening, perhaps I can get stock going yet today. I have enough for beef and chicken, I think. Oh yeah, it is good stuff, and good for the body.
Good morning and night.
Few are the days.
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Not often do I get to brag. In a very small way today is one.
I did get the last load of laundry folded and put up. Then I hit the dishes, a third of them were clean enough to be dried and put up. Tea is ready to be run through when I wake. A few small clearing and sorting projects were implemented. And I am awake north of 13:00.
I will check the water for the ducks. No wind, last I knew, but it was 10º F. They usually keep the water open, not always. As with me, there is subjectivity regarding reading and feel of cold. If they feel it is too cold, they roost more. I like to treat them when possible. As well, it is nearing time to begin thinking of egg laying. I want to make sure the are healthy and set. It's a month or two off, but it is coming.
I am definitely ready for bed though. Hmm, may clear the litter again too. The girls treat me like royalty when I keep things ordered. Good night.
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Not often do I get to brag. In a very small way today is one.
I did get the last load of laundry folded and put up. Then I hit the dishes, a third of them were clean enough to be dried and put up. Tea is ready to be run through when I wake. A few small clearing and sorting projects were implemented. And I am awake north of 13:00.
I will check the water for the ducks. No wind, last I knew, but it was 10º F. They usually keep the water open, not always. As with me, there is subjectivity regarding reading and feel of cold. If they feel it is too cold, they roost more. I like to treat them when possible. As well, it is nearing time to begin thinking of egg laying. I want to make sure the are healthy and set. It's a month or two off, but it is coming.
I am definitely ready for bed though. Hmm, may clear the litter again too. The girls treat me like royalty when I keep things ordered. Good night.
Yea.
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The ducks and girls have been taken fed etceteras. The laundry did spin out, then dried if that took two shots as well. That load has been folded and sorted and is ready to be put up. I may hit the dishes, if most will need another sudsy soak before finishing. Not bad.
In other news, blood sugar has already dropped to 127. That is a one hundred fourteen point drop from the "morning" read to near bedtime on my first fasting day. I'll certainly take that. I have gone through various stages of hunger, mildly. On a scale from one to ten, I've gotten to four? Some serious gurgling going on in there, if hunger has passed again, for now.
The furnace was turned down. I am starting to feel it. The cold of body or environmental causes, if tempered, allows sleep. Unmanaged it, as with any extreme, can inhibit sleep. It all has to be just right. I'm learning if there isn't a way to perfection, not quite just yet.
Good night, morning, and day.
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The ducks and girls have been taken fed etceteras. The laundry did spin out, then dried if that took two shots as well. That load has been folded and sorted and is ready to be put up. I may hit the dishes, if most will need another sudsy soak before finishing. Not bad.
In other news, blood sugar has already dropped to 127. That is a one hundred fourteen point drop from the "morning" read to near bedtime on my first fasting day. I'll certainly take that. I have gone through various stages of hunger, mildly. On a scale from one to ten, I've gotten to four? Some serious gurgling going on in there, if hunger has passed again, for now.
The furnace was turned down. I am starting to feel it. The cold of body or environmental causes, if tempered, allows sleep. Unmanaged it, as with any extreme, can inhibit sleep. It all has to be just right. I'm learning if there isn't a way to perfection, not quite just yet.
Good night, morning, and day.
I may be done?
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I did fold and put clothes away. As well, another batch of dishes is soaking. So another load of laundry is washing. My machine quit though. I set it on spin, everything is soaking wet. It never seems to work, not sure why. I may have to run it through a lesser wash. I will finish that load, through the drier, folded, and put away. As well, the girls and duckles will be watered and fed.
I didn't get to much sorting. I did remove some older shirts, and as I try things on, if the item is aged, spotted, or torn, I'll put them into the rag box. As dishes are finished, especially while fasting so I can keep ahead, I should be able to clear areas. Even if only working every third day or so. I figure I should be able to finish dishes tomorrow. Laundry will take longer, but isn't being pushed.
Blood sugar is back up to 166. All I have had is tea. It just ebbs and flows. I kept thinking it was Saturday. Fasting to Monday will be a stretch. Might not be possible. Sunday even? We will see. At least I got to some good work today. Not as much as planned if more than many goals on any given day. It will do.
Later, or good night.
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I did fold and put clothes away. As well, another batch of dishes is soaking. So another load of laundry is washing. My machine quit though. I set it on spin, everything is soaking wet. It never seems to work, not sure why. I may have to run it through a lesser wash. I will finish that load, through the drier, folded, and put away. As well, the girls and duckles will be watered and fed.
I didn't get to much sorting. I did remove some older shirts, and as I try things on, if the item is aged, spotted, or torn, I'll put them into the rag box. As dishes are finished, especially while fasting so I can keep ahead, I should be able to clear areas. Even if only working every third day or so. I figure I should be able to finish dishes tomorrow. Laundry will take longer, but isn't being pushed.
Blood sugar is back up to 166. All I have had is tea. It just ebbs and flows. I kept thinking it was Saturday. Fasting to Monday will be a stretch. Might not be possible. Sunday even? We will see. At least I got to some good work today. Not as much as planned if more than many goals on any given day. It will do.
Later, or good night.
Reasonable.
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The was is drying. I set another load in thw washer, but no soap and it won't be started until the first load is dry and put away. The dishes soaking were washed,dried, and put away. No new dishes were set to soak because I became too tired. I did turn the furnace up two degrees before I could start. I was getting cold, too cold to work. It was enough.
When the drier alarm sounds, I'll put dishes to soak, then get the laundry out to fold, if it is dry. If I get all that, I will put the next load of laundry in. The next work period will be spent on the kitchen table, maybe a bit in the livingroom. Some of which will get dishes sorted for the next batches of those.
It's good to have clothes clean and sorted. I need to go through various items and pair down. Turning old shirts, socks, and shorts into rags, perhaps just storing old jeans? Even old denim would be valuable in tough times, for many things. Plus, it would be good to open more space.
Blood sugar has been dropping. At 166 then 148 it is going down faster than before.
I'd best feed the girls, and clear their litter. Later.
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The was is drying. I set another load in thw washer, but no soap and it won't be started until the first load is dry and put away. The dishes soaking were washed,dried, and put away. No new dishes were set to soak because I became too tired. I did turn the furnace up two degrees before I could start. I was getting cold, too cold to work. It was enough.
When the drier alarm sounds, I'll put dishes to soak, then get the laundry out to fold, if it is dry. If I get all that, I will put the next load of laundry in. The next work period will be spent on the kitchen table, maybe a bit in the livingroom. Some of which will get dishes sorted for the next batches of those.
It's good to have clothes clean and sorted. I need to go through various items and pair down. Turning old shirts, socks, and shorts into rags, perhaps just storing old jeans? Even old denim would be valuable in tough times, for many things. Plus, it would be good to open more space.
Blood sugar has been dropping. At 166 then 148 it is going down faster than before.
I'd best feed the girls, and clear their litter. Later.
A good start.
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Dishes done and reset, laundry handled so a new load was set to wash. A few other tasks, if small, finished. Fasting, so it's just been tea and an apple cider vinegar ketonic. Blood sugar dropped 43 points and should continue falling. Only every third tea will get sweetener, it's as good as I can do, if I can maintain focus and memory.
I will hold off putting more laundry to wash until each previous load is dried and put up. Dishes can go until tomorrow night. A shower every other day, and I might not have the energy to do dishes first thing. Best to have that area clear. As well, I will hit various areas between rests and the other work.
I set the furnace to 76º F, as 72º wasn't working. It did help but is too hot, so back to 72º. I think once I get warmed I stay warmed, especially while working even sporadically. So many tricks, games I must play, riddles to solve, hoops to negotiate. All are timed. None of the solution systems work exactly the same per problem, even when the scenarios are aligned. It's good that I have learned patience and problem solving... more the latter.
I will endeavor to persevere. Later.
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Dishes done and reset, laundry handled so a new load was set to wash. A few other tasks, if small, finished. Fasting, so it's just been tea and an apple cider vinegar ketonic. Blood sugar dropped 43 points and should continue falling. Only every third tea will get sweetener, it's as good as I can do, if I can maintain focus and memory.
I will hold off putting more laundry to wash until each previous load is dried and put up. Dishes can go until tomorrow night. A shower every other day, and I might not have the energy to do dishes first thing. Best to have that area clear. As well, I will hit various areas between rests and the other work.
I set the furnace to 76º F, as 72º wasn't working. It did help but is too hot, so back to 72º. I think once I get warmed I stay warmed, especially while working even sporadically. So many tricks, games I must play, riddles to solve, hoops to negotiate. All are timed. None of the solution systems work exactly the same per problem, even when the scenarios are aligned. It's good that I have learned patience and problem solving... more the latter.
I will endeavor to persevere. Later.
Thursday, January 31, 2019
Good morning.
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Down right around 13:30, up if roughly, poorly, at 20:30. I will probably shake the rough start and get to work quickly either way. I ache, am sore, a bit weak, with a headache, and just off beside. Amen. Pain, and endurance to sometimes work through it, is a wonderful grace.
The half dozen clothes remain. The dishes were not washed, and there is much sorting, sifting, and tossing to do. I am excited to get to it. The plan? Putting up the clothes, then starting that ready load - washing, rinsing, and drying the dishes, then setting the next load to go - hitting the living room for an hour or two, then, later, the kitchen for the same with the goal of sorting down to the table top.
Too much? Probably. Though that isn't all. I also want to find my gun cleaning kit and shoe shining kit. Then line up tasks I have for those. When I wear myself too far down, those sorts of tasks can still be done. I am trying to fill time, become my own boss as possible.
I need to wake a bit first. Fasting blood sugar was 241 but fasting starts today. By Sunday, if I work as hoped today and tomorrow, I will be out of energy. Work helps with fasting, if you can do it. I'd best get medicine down right away before I forget, as well as pain relief aspirin, and turn up the furnace. The girls are enjoying a fresh catnipped sock. Oddly, even Sassy is enjoying... I think for the first time I have seen. I wonder if they get the munchies? :p this is the stuff I ordered with my better spices. It's superior, maybe Sassy is exacting about her catnip?
Days and nights are spinning again. I assume as spring nears, the chaos of life, light, and fluctuations in temps will do their thing. It's been a rough winter, but not too horrible. I was even able to keep up on the critters in the worst of the flu and the cold weather. I am hoping spring will be better even so. I really want to hit some trails before it gets too hot, then maybe on through some of the heat, and maybe swim - more so if it gets too hot outdoors.
Good morning and good night.
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Down right around 13:30, up if roughly, poorly, at 20:30. I will probably shake the rough start and get to work quickly either way. I ache, am sore, a bit weak, with a headache, and just off beside. Amen. Pain, and endurance to sometimes work through it, is a wonderful grace.
The half dozen clothes remain. The dishes were not washed, and there is much sorting, sifting, and tossing to do. I am excited to get to it. The plan? Putting up the clothes, then starting that ready load - washing, rinsing, and drying the dishes, then setting the next load to go - hitting the living room for an hour or two, then, later, the kitchen for the same with the goal of sorting down to the table top.
Too much? Probably. Though that isn't all. I also want to find my gun cleaning kit and shoe shining kit. Then line up tasks I have for those. When I wear myself too far down, those sorts of tasks can still be done. I am trying to fill time, become my own boss as possible.
I need to wake a bit first. Fasting blood sugar was 241 but fasting starts today. By Sunday, if I work as hoped today and tomorrow, I will be out of energy. Work helps with fasting, if you can do it. I'd best get medicine down right away before I forget, as well as pain relief aspirin, and turn up the furnace. The girls are enjoying a fresh catnipped sock. Oddly, even Sassy is enjoying... I think for the first time I have seen. I wonder if they get the munchies? :p this is the stuff I ordered with my better spices. It's superior, maybe Sassy is exacting about her catnip?
Days and nights are spinning again. I assume as spring nears, the chaos of life, light, and fluctuations in temps will do their thing. It's been a rough winter, but not too horrible. I was even able to keep up on the critters in the worst of the flu and the cold weather. I am hoping spring will be better even so. I really want to hit some trails before it gets too hot, then maybe on through some of the heat, and maybe swim - more so if it gets too hot outdoors.
Good morning and good night.
Much.
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Pretty much everything except dishes. Actually I thought the dishes would be done while the laundry remained untended. I do have a few items to put up, but I started with three baskets and the dryer full. I will most likely get those put up or away and hit the dishes. As well, I'll check the water for the ducks as it is rather cold and clear the cat litter.
Blood sugar has been bouncing between the low 180's to the mid 190's and back. It doesn't make sense. I am altering the sweeteners, using less, and skipping. It helps, just not enough. I just wish there was a way I could drink fluids, water or tea, without sweeteners or else. It just doesn't work.
I am about to crash, perhaps I won't get further. Still, it was a good run. Not perfect but more than I expected. There were a lot more garments to fold, pair, hang, or otherwise handle. Yea, a good run. But that is that, other than the ducks and litter. Good night.
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Pretty much everything except dishes. Actually I thought the dishes would be done while the laundry remained untended. I do have a few items to put up, but I started with three baskets and the dryer full. I will most likely get those put up or away and hit the dishes. As well, I'll check the water for the ducks as it is rather cold and clear the cat litter.
Blood sugar has been bouncing between the low 180's to the mid 190's and back. It doesn't make sense. I am altering the sweeteners, using less, and skipping. It helps, just not enough. I just wish there was a way I could drink fluids, water or tea, without sweeteners or else. It just doesn't work.
I am about to crash, perhaps I won't get further. Still, it was a good run. Not perfect but more than I expected. There were a lot more garments to fold, pair, hang, or otherwise handle. Yea, a good run. But that is that, other than the ducks and litter. Good night.
Things are finally happening.
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A shower, dishes going, clean laundry set to fold, the rest of the dirty laundry taken back to be washed, and a load set to wash... it won't be started until folding is finished. As well, two meals made and consumed. Blood sugar dropped to 164 but is up to 184 shortly after finishing a steak, corn, and fatted tea. I should have given it an hour, or two.
Steak is tasting much better with much shorter cooking time. Yeah. I wondered there for a while. It tastes sweet and extremely rich. Only some lamb compares.
I'll probably watch a movie as I fold. Perhaps hit the dishes in an hour? Then more folding. I don't think I'll start laundry until 'tomorrow'. But I should have the dishes in, done, a new batch soaking, and perhaps a shave. That will probably be it, if I can get to all of even that. Oh, ducks and the girls will be tended, if that pretty much goes without saying now.
It's good to be moving again. I did miss a day on medication, but when sleep is that out of control I don't count it. I still aim to take it, but don't terribly worry in those circumstances. Yeah, back on them. Best take my last dose in case I crash too hard and fast. Later, if more likely good night, and good morning and day. You, as usual, are in my prayers.
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A shower, dishes going, clean laundry set to fold, the rest of the dirty laundry taken back to be washed, and a load set to wash... it won't be started until folding is finished. As well, two meals made and consumed. Blood sugar dropped to 164 but is up to 184 shortly after finishing a steak, corn, and fatted tea. I should have given it an hour, or two.
Steak is tasting much better with much shorter cooking time. Yeah. I wondered there for a while. It tastes sweet and extremely rich. Only some lamb compares.
I'll probably watch a movie as I fold. Perhaps hit the dishes in an hour? Then more folding. I don't think I'll start laundry until 'tomorrow'. But I should have the dishes in, done, a new batch soaking, and perhaps a shave. That will probably be it, if I can get to all of even that. Oh, ducks and the girls will be tended, if that pretty much goes without saying now.
It's good to be moving again. I did miss a day on medication, but when sleep is that out of control I don't count it. I still aim to take it, but don't terribly worry in those circumstances. Yeah, back on them. Best take my last dose in case I crash too hard and fast. Later, if more likely good night, and good morning and day. You, as usual, are in my prayers.
Wednesday, January 30, 2019
Crazy sleep.
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My naps are turning into extended sessions, waking episodes are nap length. Absolutely bizarre. I can't pick or choose. I crash, and that is that. Good sleep, I am rested after. I can't remain awake is all. We will see this time. A shower, setting up a few small loads of dishes, then folding? If I can stay awake. I have to admit, sleep like that has become rare. So it is quite a pleasure. Sure, I miss things, but being this rested is quite nice.
Blood sugar was 192 at waking. It is 232 now. No good reason. Bleh. I'll check an hour after breakfast. Probably should have had a fatted tea, or a snack. Food often helps.
Breakfast is soaking. I can't believe I am enjoying chia and flax seed. Nuts really help initially, but aren't as necessary now. When spring and summer arrives, if I can find good berries, I'll add some of those. As is, I am cutting nuts, as they are heavier in omega 3's... or is it 6's? The omegas that are less desirable. Still, a bit of crunch always adds... something. I didn't think I could afford the various nuts. It's pricey getting supplied, if doing it at once, but not bad as keto kicks in and consumption falls. Just freeze extra packs.
A steak later, if I can stay awake. A prize, if I can get work done. Part of what got me, the last time I crashed, was suddenly becoming cold. Probably health issues. The heart, circulatory system, or something(s), just stopped working. The thermometer read 72°, which is usually warm enough to too hot. It was me.
Yeah, breakfast then a shower. I hope. Later.
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My naps are turning into extended sessions, waking episodes are nap length. Absolutely bizarre. I can't pick or choose. I crash, and that is that. Good sleep, I am rested after. I can't remain awake is all. We will see this time. A shower, setting up a few small loads of dishes, then folding? If I can stay awake. I have to admit, sleep like that has become rare. So it is quite a pleasure. Sure, I miss things, but being this rested is quite nice.
Blood sugar was 192 at waking. It is 232 now. No good reason. Bleh. I'll check an hour after breakfast. Probably should have had a fatted tea, or a snack. Food often helps.
Breakfast is soaking. I can't believe I am enjoying chia and flax seed. Nuts really help initially, but aren't as necessary now. When spring and summer arrives, if I can find good berries, I'll add some of those. As is, I am cutting nuts, as they are heavier in omega 3's... or is it 6's? The omegas that are less desirable. Still, a bit of crunch always adds... something. I didn't think I could afford the various nuts. It's pricey getting supplied, if doing it at once, but not bad as keto kicks in and consumption falls. Just freeze extra packs.
A steak later, if I can stay awake. A prize, if I can get work done. Part of what got me, the last time I crashed, was suddenly becoming cold. Probably health issues. The heart, circulatory system, or something(s), just stopped working. The thermometer read 72°, which is usually warm enough to too hot. It was me.
Yeah, breakfast then a shower. I hope. Later.
Awake and planning a shower.
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I can't be sure when I went to bed. Down between three and five hours. Waking to a sour stomach, I made an apple cider vinegar ketonic. It still seems so counterintuitive. But it does work. My problem has been drinking too little. Hmm. Waking blood sugar was 190, down 25 from the last prenap test.
As mentioned, a shower is next on the agenda, folding clothes as I dry off from that. Then? Setting up a few manageable batches of dishes and laundry, feeding, watering, and doing litter and straw for the critters, and sorting and clearing areas around the cave. I am getting back to it.
All of that today? Maybe bits of all of it, sure. There is no way I could finish it all. But juggling, I could hit every item. Hopeful today. Willing to nap as needed, eat as possible. Pickles, olives, and cheese sticks for snacks, another steak to be grilled, if I should thaw a few more packages of meat. Not too much, probably just a few pounds of burger? No, I'll begin fasting Thursday. I'll begin thawing packages Sunday.
Odd, 72° is too hot. I'll shut it back a few degrees, especially since I plan to work. I'll bet it is still around 6° ~ 8º F out there, with a breeze. Nope, dropped to 2º. Strange thing? Usually the thermometer, attached to the nuclear clock, on the far side of the room, reads two degrees cooler than the furnace setting. Not today. All good.
Tea is going. I'll finish the a.c. vinegar ketonic, then have a regular tea while waking, then get a shower and going on the rest. I usually need time to get going, or take it when I can. Why rush? Good morning and day.
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I can't be sure when I went to bed. Down between three and five hours. Waking to a sour stomach, I made an apple cider vinegar ketonic. It still seems so counterintuitive. But it does work. My problem has been drinking too little. Hmm. Waking blood sugar was 190, down 25 from the last prenap test.
As mentioned, a shower is next on the agenda, folding clothes as I dry off from that. Then? Setting up a few manageable batches of dishes and laundry, feeding, watering, and doing litter and straw for the critters, and sorting and clearing areas around the cave. I am getting back to it.
All of that today? Maybe bits of all of it, sure. There is no way I could finish it all. But juggling, I could hit every item. Hopeful today. Willing to nap as needed, eat as possible. Pickles, olives, and cheese sticks for snacks, another steak to be grilled, if I should thaw a few more packages of meat. Not too much, probably just a few pounds of burger? No, I'll begin fasting Thursday. I'll begin thawing packages Sunday.
Odd, 72° is too hot. I'll shut it back a few degrees, especially since I plan to work. I'll bet it is still around 6° ~ 8º F out there, with a breeze. Nope, dropped to 2º. Strange thing? Usually the thermometer, attached to the nuclear clock, on the far side of the room, reads two degrees cooler than the furnace setting. Not today. All good.
Tea is going. I'll finish the a.c. vinegar ketonic, then have a regular tea while waking, then get a shower and going on the rest. I usually need time to get going, or take it when I can. Why rush? Good morning and day.
Most of that initial plan.
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Steak was excellent. My problem had been overcooking. Render the fat out and even if the protein portion is medium rare it might as well be shoe leather. This time, five minutes per side on a hot grill, a four to five minute rest, and it was perfect. As well, beats and butter.
The only things not completed was a shower and folding clothes. The various tasks wore me out. I may even take a nap. Hitting the list after that, say a shower then folding clothes. Hmm, I'll bring the clothes out and have them ready. Getting things set up makes work much smoother.
It was between six and eight degrees outside, if with a solid four to seven mph breeze, pretty much solid if slightly variable regarding velocity. Oddly, it just didn't feel as cold as 20 with a similar breeze this morning... if that was actually a few hours before bedtime, though the sun was well up. Actually, I am a bit too warm in here.
Yeah, maybe naps as needed, and pushing through otherwise, might work. Later.
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Steak was excellent. My problem had been overcooking. Render the fat out and even if the protein portion is medium rare it might as well be shoe leather. This time, five minutes per side on a hot grill, a four to five minute rest, and it was perfect. As well, beats and butter.
The only things not completed was a shower and folding clothes. The various tasks wore me out. I may even take a nap. Hitting the list after that, say a shower then folding clothes. Hmm, I'll bring the clothes out and have them ready. Getting things set up makes work much smoother.
It was between six and eight degrees outside, if with a solid four to seven mph breeze, pretty much solid if slightly variable regarding velocity. Oddly, it just didn't feel as cold as 20 with a similar breeze this morning... if that was actually a few hours before bedtime, though the sun was well up. Actually, I am a bit too warm in here.
Yeah, maybe naps as needed, and pushing through otherwise, might work. Later.
Tuesday, January 29, 2019
Nothing done and keep missing meds.
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Okay, not nothing. And I got back on meds after missing two days. Still, nowhere close to even the portion planned. So very tired. Sometimes missing medicine is the problem, sometimes it is a symptom, sometimes it is the short term solution. I can't be certain if I suspect it is a symptom. Just too tired.
I'll keep the plan in play. If I get started right away I might get to a shower and laundry. The place is looking better, a lot better. I have hit a nice chunk and had help. I really want to dig in, will, soon if not today. The work wears me out more than I would have thought. I have been idle too long. Pacing? I don't think there is any practical pacing. It comes down to working as fast as I can, getting as much done as possible, then hoping to get back to it before I bury back to worse than before.
My mom called. It is supposed to drop to negative 45° to 55° F. It is so cold the place she works very occasionally can't keep the place warm. Her boss told her to dress warmer. She was already on that... she's an Iowa girl, not a fool modern airhead. She sounded well. Called while I was asleep, but I expected the call so had my phone on and by the bed. Fine, from now on, when I think so, I will keep it in the receiving mode.
I'll get a fatted coffee after lighting the grill. Last I saw, it was 20, give or take five, with five to ten mph winds from the wnw... mostly west by far? If memory serves. The temp can be low if there is a breeze, usually. I wonder if some breezes are too moist to facilitate boosting the fire? I can't really tell, probably just seems cooler... moist wind. I'd have to do scientific inquiry to find for certain.
The problem is, I am not motivated as it wouldn't matter. Even knowing lighting the grill would be more difficult at a particular time would not dissuade my actions. Nor have I found a way to improve the lighting process, save checking it more frequently and restarting it every ten, instead of fifteen minutes, until it starts. It needs at least ten minutes. Bleh.
Since I'll be out, I'll empty the ducks' water. It seems to be freezing hard the last few days even if not so cold (20° F isn't bad, if perhaps it is dipping hard at odd times?). I'd best feed the girls, clear their litter, check their water... and perhaps chase them and maul them a bit. Oh, they love it. If I don't maraud them often enough they take it personal.
Blood sugar was 226 at waking. It has, more so than expected, been staying lower after ending the last fast. The next fast will begin Thursday or Friday. It might bring it down better and more permanently again, or the one to follow will. Or the one after that. Every two weeks, three days fasting followed by several days of fat fasting. It works if I do it right, well, conscientiously.
Let me see... clean the bathroom, light the grill, empty the ducks' water bins, make a fatted tea, then fold clothes while I break with a movie? Seems reasonable. Oh, bring the trash bin back while out there. Later.
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Okay, not nothing. And I got back on meds after missing two days. Still, nowhere close to even the portion planned. So very tired. Sometimes missing medicine is the problem, sometimes it is a symptom, sometimes it is the short term solution. I can't be certain if I suspect it is a symptom. Just too tired.
I'll keep the plan in play. If I get started right away I might get to a shower and laundry. The place is looking better, a lot better. I have hit a nice chunk and had help. I really want to dig in, will, soon if not today. The work wears me out more than I would have thought. I have been idle too long. Pacing? I don't think there is any practical pacing. It comes down to working as fast as I can, getting as much done as possible, then hoping to get back to it before I bury back to worse than before.
My mom called. It is supposed to drop to negative 45° to 55° F. It is so cold the place she works very occasionally can't keep the place warm. Her boss told her to dress warmer. She was already on that... she's an Iowa girl, not a fool modern airhead. She sounded well. Called while I was asleep, but I expected the call so had my phone on and by the bed. Fine, from now on, when I think so, I will keep it in the receiving mode.
I'll get a fatted coffee after lighting the grill. Last I saw, it was 20, give or take five, with five to ten mph winds from the wnw... mostly west by far? If memory serves. The temp can be low if there is a breeze, usually. I wonder if some breezes are too moist to facilitate boosting the fire? I can't really tell, probably just seems cooler... moist wind. I'd have to do scientific inquiry to find for certain.
The problem is, I am not motivated as it wouldn't matter. Even knowing lighting the grill would be more difficult at a particular time would not dissuade my actions. Nor have I found a way to improve the lighting process, save checking it more frequently and restarting it every ten, instead of fifteen minutes, until it starts. It needs at least ten minutes. Bleh.
Since I'll be out, I'll empty the ducks' water. It seems to be freezing hard the last few days even if not so cold (20° F isn't bad, if perhaps it is dipping hard at odd times?). I'd best feed the girls, clear their litter, check their water... and perhaps chase them and maul them a bit. Oh, they love it. If I don't maraud them often enough they take it personal.
Blood sugar was 226 at waking. It has, more so than expected, been staying lower after ending the last fast. The next fast will begin Thursday or Friday. It might bring it down better and more permanently again, or the one to follow will. Or the one after that. Every two weeks, three days fasting followed by several days of fat fasting. It works if I do it right, well, conscientiously.
Let me see... clean the bathroom, light the grill, empty the ducks' water bins, make a fatted tea, then fold clothes while I break with a movie? Seems reasonable. Oh, bring the trash bin back while out there. Later.
It had to be an error.
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After the 203 fasting test, I had a meal. A fatted tea, with ketone crystals and electrolytes, nothing else added to the tea and cream. The actual meal was the last burger... the veggies were too mushy. An hour later the tester read 272. That was a crazy jump. Impossible considering what I ate, or so I thought.
Still wanting, I had a chia seed breakfast as well. Oh, yes, this is the same seeds used on chia pets, for those who remember. I actually do remember wondering if they were edible. Being a giant truly means, more so while still growing, that I was always hungry. ALWAYS. Anyway, an hour after that, two hours after my other draw, and blood sugar was down to 158. Yeah, no. I'm calling the 272 read a flaw.
Oh, right, I'll start working now that I am fed and awake. The bathroom first. I really want the shower first. Then some sorting, and folding any time I need a break, as able. While I hope to have clothes folded and baskets ready, I don't expect washing to begin tonight. As well, two loads a day, making sure I don't get backed up on folding again. I figure I have six loads, three of them smaller custom loads, whites, woolens, and synthetics. Maybe two medium synths, actually. Bleh.
If I get the shower, I will set some dishes to soak. As with laundry, just small manageable loads. Bleh. I'll be sorting and straightening as well. More heat though. I am cold tonight, and that won't do. Steaks are thawed. I'll have one later, cooking it more carefully. My problem with steak might be overcooking. Later.
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After the 203 fasting test, I had a meal. A fatted tea, with ketone crystals and electrolytes, nothing else added to the tea and cream. The actual meal was the last burger... the veggies were too mushy. An hour later the tester read 272. That was a crazy jump. Impossible considering what I ate, or so I thought.
Still wanting, I had a chia seed breakfast as well. Oh, yes, this is the same seeds used on chia pets, for those who remember. I actually do remember wondering if they were edible. Being a giant truly means, more so while still growing, that I was always hungry. ALWAYS. Anyway, an hour after that, two hours after my other draw, and blood sugar was down to 158. Yeah, no. I'm calling the 272 read a flaw.
Oh, right, I'll start working now that I am fed and awake. The bathroom first. I really want the shower first. Then some sorting, and folding any time I need a break, as able. While I hope to have clothes folded and baskets ready, I don't expect washing to begin tonight. As well, two loads a day, making sure I don't get backed up on folding again. I figure I have six loads, three of them smaller custom loads, whites, woolens, and synthetics. Maybe two medium synths, actually. Bleh.
If I get the shower, I will set some dishes to soak. As with laundry, just small manageable loads. Bleh. I'll be sorting and straightening as well. More heat though. I am cold tonight, and that won't do. Steaks are thawed. I'll have one later, cooking it more carefully. My problem with steak might be overcooking. Later.
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