Hungry.

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This would is "dinner time", I suppose that is part of it.  Though, perhaps, chewing regular gum until the other arrived was part of the problem?  Maybe.  Well, and I fell behind in drinking.  Tea does help cut hunger.  I suspect it has something to do with caffeine, though also simple fluid volume.  No worries, I'll make it through.

I wanted to see about size, waste size.  So I looked through the pile of jeans.  I have 38's (which while I may have been able to put on, technically, I really never could wear since I've purchased them) all the way to the 44's I was almost outgrowing when I first arrived.  I went straight for the 38's, hoping that they would be loose.  Or at least that I could get in them.  In them easily.  They fit like my 40's were fitting.  Of course, every time you put on thinner jeans they make you look fatter again.  No concern there, for me.  Further, I suspect I will be going to 36's within a month or two.  I am pretty sure I will keep up on this.

Blood sugar?  We'll see.  it was above 300 at noon, right as I changed to the new gum.  Yeah.  I can probably have a regular gumball, or six.  But anything beyond that and it'll get me.  That will be a problem until I figure out not just doing the right things, but what the right things are.  I suspect, if I can keep the blood sugar bellow 200, and show it for a while, I might... have some argument for an issue.  Insulin sure wasn't working.  Not sure what would have worked, if anything.

To be honest, having seen blood sugar as low as 195 fasting, from a high of 326~336 fasting?  There might be something here.  I'm pretty sure that wouldn't be natural variance in such a short time.  It hasn't been a full week yet.  I'm not sure if weight or size will continue to come off, if those are secondary.  I am curious about weight, but will weigh in sometime at the first of the week... as soon as I remember.  Monday through next week, or month, I suppose.

Reading is next.  I've finished the section on rappelling and am starting ascending.  I don't know if this book is general, or if it is more for rock climbing, spelunking, or based on one of the coasts, but... it seems different.  It isn't as I remember things.  Then again it was written a decade or so after I was in the game and several decades ago from current time.  And there were and are many many ways and riggings and tools.  More coming out almost daily.  Some are just improved, though directly replace other items.  Some simply are unlike what most would have seen.  I'm not sure what was available, but I think I was using equipment that was top of the line, with a top of the line physique to go with that.  Yeah, it makes a world of difference.  If care, professionalism, has to be there.  Dreams?  Maybe.

My mother lost everything in a house fire, but she used to have a pair of jeans of mine, 31 waist, 38 inseam.  She remembers them.  I wonder if she remembers that I was 240 when I wore them?  Well, she has part of it, or used to.  She bought the jeans as a gift.  I kept them, for a while...  I guess as a memory, a goal, a hope?  Yeah, I'll never get to a 31 waist again.  But I could get to 240, maybe 220.  Some things are just gone.  I wouldn't mind getting to 36, or better 34 waist though.  I do think it's possible.