A crash.

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I attempted to stay up later.  Couldn't.  I was afraid, if I slept, I would sleep for hours, a day perhaps, throwing everything off.  I know it is slipping.  I just, in spite of my claims... if I could keep to a schedule, I would.  I have slipped five to seven hours in the last month, but... it is better than... it can be.  I have done better.  But this is pretty good.

I could not stay awake.  No choice.  So, down I went.  I must have crashed.  After finally settling, I don't remember anything.  When I woke to weak light, I was pretty sure it was later afternoon.  It was, 16:30.  It was an hour and an half, maybe ten minutes more, down.  I had set a timer, right before surrendering to the nap... for two hours.  Sometime less than ten minutes after waking I noted twenty minutes remaining.

The alarm was set to check blood sugar.  I had a bite more to eat and a larger dose of insulin, after the really high unexpected read.  I just went ahead and tested since I set the alarm at least half an hour, but probably an hour or more after eating and dosing.  I... was concerned, expecting another high read.  Nope, 83 even after a nap.  Sleep usually raises the number.

I am having a bit of milk mixed with a third of fatted tea.  That was part of dinner, couldn't finish it.  The rest was two ounces of salami, pepperoni, and cheeses melted together... five minutes at 350° is about perfect.  No excessive crisping or fat separation.  Small, fatty, tasty.  Should have had a few olives, or put a few mushrooms in.  Both!?!  It was good as was.

I gave the girls treats right after waking.  Not enough?  Or, not enough for the young one.  Ugh.  There isn't a good way to negotiate between little ones.  I truly feel for parents of actual children.  Hungry for food, attention, money... there is never enough, it can't be equitable, there are favorites, and guilt.  But... I think that terrible group of curses is a big part of the blessing.  Learn as you live.  The difficult lessons offer the most grace.  The greatest sins recovered from, offer the greatest real hope.  Twerps!

Later.