Up before dawn.

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Morning continues to slip.  When I was able to get to a regular day, I was awake early.  I maintained it using the alarm clock.  Initially, the two times were set at three and five.  That has been helping, if slipping.  First slip was having to change to five and seven alarms, now six to eight.  This is the longest and best regulated sleep I have had, or close to it.  Unfortunately it is about to fail.  Control is slipping.

I woke this morning after the first alarm had run through snoozes.  There are five, the initial at time zero, then one every ten minutes until the last, forty minutes later.  Some days I remember none, save the waking one.  Some rougher days I remember every single one, as ladder rungs painfully slipping through my hands.  This morning was a bit tough, but far from the worst.  The difficult part this morning is that I am still painfully tired.  So tired that waking has flared the ringing in my ears.  Up at 7:30, which is slightly before actual, if valley, dawn.  Oh, and it is right at 20° F this morning.

I fight to wake during the first alarm set.  Waking between them is more difficult, waking the last set is worse.If I know I won't wake, I may skip the whole set and even change the last alarm, adding an hour or two.  I have been trying to control sleep for decades.  I don't think it is possible.  For today, though, I am awake.  Dawn is blossomed full at 8:13, maybe a minute or two ago.

Tea is brewing, the furnace is up, if the body hurts everywhere.  Sleep was good.  I didn't get a shower, but wasn't as frigid as I had feared but enough to take a while to wrap enough to warm so as to sleep.  I was simply too tired to shower.  Stalling sleeping any longer in hopes of getting a shower were futile and would only have led to insomnia.  I know this game well, if knowing isn't always enough.

Tea, then a shower and shave.  Medicine has been taken.  Blood sugar was 152 fasting, the final check was 100 at 20:47 last night.  It looks like, if I correct strongly first thing, then I can relax later on.  Or, mostly.  Eat a heavier first meal, correct stronger, then just go easy on food and insulin.  Difficult on travel days though.