Waking a bit rough.

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Ten or fifteen before five,  Cleared the girls' litter, cleaned out the pee jug.  It is taking four to five days to fill the thing, decided to use bleach on it, each time I clear it.  Not even filling it all the way.  Though my hope of not needing it anymore seems to be fading.  Then again, I seem to be drinking more than I had been.

To that end, I am trying to just take a sip ever so occasional, rather than attempting to quench thirst all at once.  Thought there are times when I seem to need a lot of water all at once.  Even then, I am trying to just take sips, separated by as much time as possible, to limit fluid intake.  But when your life is full of little tricks, to try to manage your world, from eating to drinking, how much time is left for living?  Ugh.

I was sure blood sugar would be high this morning.  A whole extra meal, after the allotted time too, outside of the intermittent fasting schedule... if not by much.  I am working so hard to do right, and yet, here I keep finding myself.  Testing... proved otherwise.  Blood sugar is 115 fasting this morning!  Food is definitely the way to go... if I can, have the time and ability.  Even so, I really need to be careful about insulin intake.  I keep overcorrecting.  Lesson... lessons... learned?  I can hope.  I don't even think I remembered slow acting insulin last night?  I definitely forgot pill meds... taking them this morning, hoping to catch up on the cycle through the day.  Ugh.

Well, I keep trying.

He got the scoop on the lawn tractor, so... if I see snow, and am able, I can get out to it.  I probably can't do the frontage area out front, but I can get the driveway itself, and maybe get a path to the outbuilding.  I may try that later today.  It's not the fastest, but it does rather well, to be honest.  It has been the best ~1k I have ever spent.  I couldn't afford it these days.  But I think the government wants the disabled completely dependent.  They don't want us to be able to solve our problems.

Back to intermittent fasting.  I purchased thick cut chops, a sort of rare item locally.  It has been showing up in the shops lately, I've seen them every third time I have been out.  We called them iowa chops.  Uhrm, in Iowa.  But I really love those.  I have been wanting more meat on the menu, and, so, it is.  As well as the steak cooked, and quickly, I want to try a chop.  The steak was over done with six minutes on one side, and eight on the other, at 400.  It was still good, mind you, just not rare, medium rare, or even what I would call rare.  Oddly still delicious.  I'll lower the temp, next time, to 350.  Chops and steaks are similar.  Same time, 350, we'll see.  And, that will be lunch, not supper.  Just cheese sandwiches, or a salad, for supper.  And chia will remain my usual breakfast.  It works, it's easy, and I like it.  Might begin adding nuts to my "cereal".

I am trying to eat denser food, and completely get away from snacks.  That may take time, but intermittent fasting may help with that.  More calorie, fat, and nutritionally dense meals also helps with that.  Oh, and with my weight obtained yesterday, I will begin with that food logging programming today.  It looks like I have 36 pounds to lose, of 276, to my first goal.  At that point I will do a reassessment.  My bet is 220 or even 200 is where I may need to be.  At which point, I may try to work out.  I simply can't work out well with all this extra weight on top of my condition.  Maybe all a pipedream, but... it's what I've got.

I best get to refilling waterers.  I need that done before morning feeding as the sun comes up.  Well, a bit after.  I like it to be as light as day allows before feeding and watering.  They may not need much food, given that they still had food and I added to it last night.  Even so, I will make sure.  And, the girls are set to be fed at eight, a three hour wait after I wake.  Little turds, sometimes, but learning...  Later.