Up late, as usual.

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It is becoming usual.  Though last night... well... there were reasons.

I got to town.  For financial reasons.  And to do some minor shopping.  Salad, cheeses, a few other things.  I had meant to get eggs, but forgot.  I'm not sure if my source still has them.  Will check today, because I forgot to get eggs.  I was using them, then not, now will be using them again... or that is the plan.

But, too, I got some beer.  Regular, and lambic beer.  For the night.  And, saved the strawberry lambic for midnight.  I was up just a bit later.  As well, I got a burger and fries while in town.  I know, but I wasn't cooking.  The only place I could find open was the five brothers, or such, burger joint.  The rest were closed.  I took what I could get.  Not bad burgers, just... buns.  I am beginning to like burgers on lettuce, to be honest.

I was worried about blood sugar this morning.  And, at 147 fasting, it isn't what it should be?  But, given the givens, not bad.  I did have a dose of insulin, with supper... the burger and fries, but nothing more.  I had 25 cc's with, in case I had to eat bad.  Used it all.  I even forgot slow acting.  I'll get it in this 'morning'.  Well... early afternoon.  And, I forgot all meds yesterday.

No, I'm not being recalcitrant.  I just had a rough day, start to stop.  And, am going through something... confusing.  Sleepy?  Brain fog?  More of a tired state?  All I know is my memory and will to do things is weak.  I can try all I want, but like a car with a dead battery, it won't turn over.  I'll do my best, with what I have, but... it's just as it is.  

I bought a variety of sorts of, probably shoulder, pork chops.  Two packs, they looked really good and were affordable.  Hamburger was nearly five a pound, and chuck roast was over seven a pound.  I can't do that.  They have to be tossing a lot of chuck, and even burger.  No one can afford that.  Pork is up to where beef was, but if this is good, I will do it.  If not, I'll... find something else.

My trouble with food is that I simply can't get enough protein in to reduce fat.  My budget, ability to buy cook and clean as well, simply doesn't allow for that much protein.  If money isn't an option, and you trust your local fishmonger, that might help.  Well, and you have the time and energy to cook and clean up after that much meat cooking?

I have looked at powders, but for 20 doses, $50?  No, that's just way too expensive.  But there is one option I haven't fully explored, but will... egg whites.  Trying to eat enough calories, without eating too many fats or carbs on top?  And being a bit cautious of lean meats, which have their own problems... including absolute lack of flavor...  It's a trick.  All I will say is that I am leaning that way.  I know I am getting far too few proteins in my diet, most Americans are as well.  But, to get enough proteins is quite a trick.  By my raw weight, I need 224?  Ugh.  So, I thought I'd be clever, and go by my ideal weight (and I went low at that).  By that, I need 300!  Akch!  Well...  My guess is most Americans, save those who have good coin and a penchant for staying fit, don't even have the coin to keep up with that sort of protein needs, without getting too much fat or carbs, or both, with it.  And, no.  Bodybuilders, at my ideal weight, would be looking more at like 400 grams of protein, at my ideal weight, as a basement starting figure.  And, yes, they have trouble getting that much protein in too.  Well, more trouble than I have.  But they must have day jobs and spend just about purely on their crafts?

Such a messed up world.  I still haven't been able to get back to work, even doing the little house things.  I am still rather lame.  I keep it on my mind, keep planning... to work, to clean, to open up areas, do things.  And... keep failing.  Keeping up on the cats, rabbits, and my own food, mostly.  Just not much more.  Would more protein in the diet actually help?  Maybe.  Assuming fats and carbs were kept in check?  I just don't know, but would like to try it for a month.  If I can find an affordable means of doing so.  Later.