Awake.

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Had to claw myself out of bed.  Sassy tried to help, but that just wasn't working.  At least she got some massaging and got itches scratched for a while.  And sweet nothings.  She knows I try to wake.  She just wants food, but the attention isn't all bad in and of itself.  Why so tough a morning?

I didn't get down until 05:20 or so.  Why?  I can't say.  Later, larger, last meal... too much food, so that it was uncomfortable to go down?  Yes.  I think that was it.  But I had to eat.  Not that much, but something inside of me was terribly hungry.  So, I ate both of the meals worth of the roast that was left.  It's been days since I've had more than a light meal.  My body demanded I feed it, so I did.

Blood sugar was up and down yesterday.  Though all below 150, so... I guess that was good.  This morning it is 146 fasting, probably due to the late heavy meal.  Just a touch high.  Well, and didn't I have to react to a low sugar problem yesterday?  I think so.  Given that, this... is an excellent blood sugar.  Actually, I have had to react the last few days.  But, have been using food, and successfully.

Some of the last of the orders arrived today.  Down to storage.  At a can, or two, a day, of main entrée types and a side, I have enough for a few months.  Three?  If I went very light.  Not sure I could do it.  But... a while.  And, with what else I have, I could probably stretch it to three to six months?  Very problematically.  But... I do have something down there, more.  I couldn't feed the neighbors, which makes all storage... compromised.  Unless you have a secure living arrangement, your food isn't safe.  Then again, who is to say they wouldn't just bury you in?  Hungry people aren't always rational or kind.  

I think a lot of rich people are going to find that security isn't... what it seems.  And, being buried in with their security?  Guess who gets eaten?  It... won't be the security.  Nor will they take b.s. for long, in any case.  There isn't a magically safe world, somewhere, just because you had a lot of money or access or friends in high places, at some time in the past.  When all that is gone, you are... just you.  And that means nothing to... anybody, except you.  I wouldn't rely on bunkers to survive in a world you helped destroy.

Being singular, I would expect to be killed for my goods.  There isn't a way around it.  I can try to resist.  But... everybody has to sleep, and they know when I sleep.  But, then, everything taken will, again, be taken, by bigger fish.  Until things settle, and a dominant group forms a... more stable environment.  The weak, old, singular, will be picked off.  Heck, children will be fair game, to some... for... many things.  A gun is an equalizer for size and numbers, but only to the extent that is possible.  Everybody has to sleep.  And, as mentioned, bunker entrances can be buried, and air supplies can be shut off/down.  Expect no mercy, from the starving.

Well, food is down, anyway.  The prices keep going up, is why I pushed purchases this month.  From now on, food and some minor gear, is in the queue.  From litter, to cat food, as well.  Prices are going up?  Or is the dollar's value sinking?  What's... the difference, at times?  There is a difference, it just doesn't mean a lot to the buyer.

Rough, a bit, today.  But the soreness seems to be melting into the 'morning', as I wake.  I'll get coffee, a very small dose of insulin... say 6 to 8 cc's.  Then pill medicine, and feed Sassy... plus manage her litter.  Fresh water yesterday, so that's good.  Then just sit, attempt to wake, and try to get to some things today.  It's 68 outside and in, save this front room, which is... nope, it must have been 68.  With me here, and the machine and light on, it's just up to 70.  Interesting.

June 7th?  Wow.  Partly to mostly cloudy, and environmentally cool out there.  Even the water is still cold, through the pipes.  Usually, by now, I use much more cold to hot, while showering.  As is, I am using very little cold water, which reduces pressure.  But, to have a warm to hot shower, no choice.  All good, it is what it is, just noting the strange nature of this year.  If, as mentioned, for the most part, that... is the future.  And... it will only, mostly, get cooler... probably for the rest of my life and on, possibly, for a few hundred years.  The sun is... resting.  We've seen this before.  Sure, it could come back.  Just tracking trajectory as things really are going, on the current and rather longer trend line for the last, honest, thirty to fifty years or so.  Yea, cooling, solar, natural.  Later.