I keep hoping to get to more.

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So tired.  I mean, just... not able to think past sitting in the chair.  Looking through a very small part of the internet.  Examining news from the sources I bother sousing.  Look at youtube, if currently that is pretty much blocked.  Looking through amazon, for good prices and things which might help in my plans... from food to gear.  And... watching prices.  Somethings go nuts, but mostly short term.  To be honest, it looks like gouging, at times, if they think their is a scare going on, or very temporary price hikes for whatever reason.

Those of us who buy in larger amounts, and watch the prices closely, are staying away from higher prices.  There are some things where the prices do continue to rise, and we realize that.  But, often, even recently, there is a lot of headfaking with prices going on.  If something goes ugly, I either live on what I have or go without.  I... can go without.  I am even changing from perrier to mostly simple r.o. water, now that I have a system that works, well, cleanly, more efficiently, and in batches for very easy use.  If the prices of that doesn't come down, I'll just quit it altogether.  It has become a luxury, if one I really enjoy.

I called my mother, to check in.  She is still having trouble with the sticky nature of the blockage.  I reminded her what I had used, and explained why it worked.  Not sure she will take the advice, but that isn't my problem.  Trust your doctors, if you really must.  Then again, she might take my advice and never tell me about it.  She's... like that.  I'm not worried, now that she is through the majority of it.  Still, would like to see her life improve a bit.  What was it?  Leading a horse to water.  Right.  Can't do more.

Blood sugar was okay, at 119 after the meals, and a 138 average for the week.  I'm having a fatted coffee now.  Will have a bit of burger, cream of mushroom, and palm heart or konjac rice.  Now that I am truly over the need for the pasta kick, these things really do work well.  And, with the two or three types I have, variety and mood preferences can be played.  I'll probably have another small dose, 8 to 10 cc's, of fast acting with the meal.

Getting to the point where, maybe, I can let up.  But not quite yet.  On fast acting insulin.  Not sure why.  The extra sleep?  I am doing very well with keto menu choices.  I do have bags of rice, bags and cans of beans, and cans of soups and stews, plus else should carbs be needed.  And, I will probably obtain pastas, regular sorts.  But, I don't use them, won't unless there is a major collapse in availability of any/all foods.  Well, and from time to time, just to use some of what I buy.  Gotta.

I am feeling... better... about what I have in stock, available.  Even to tp, dish soap, shampoo, and regular body soap.  Could always use more.  Actually, could use a lot of pasta.  I'm nearly totally out of that.  Haven't been buying it at all.  Even if using it rarely, that's enough to make it all go away, mostly.  So it... became scarce.  If nothing else, it is a good trade or charity item.  Well, sugar and salt are next on the list.  Sugar, mostly, for trade.  But salt?  Absolutely priceless, and actually a physical need.  I have some molasses and maple syrup, but want more, and raw honey.  If, for myself, I am well stocked on keto sweeteners, of several sorts.

Bit by bit, building my kit back up.  I only feel better, still... a bit behind.  I lost track, had some fun, ate the stores, and... then realized what kind of a mess we are in.  So... I keep shopping.  Window shopping, and sorting the basket, until the next payday.  Perhaps picking up little things on the way.  No time to save, currently.  Money isn't worth what it was yesterday, and eventually that will be showing up in prices.  Dump cash for actual goods, as much as possible.

On to... something.  Or nothing.  At least, with it being cool and dark, sleep has been pleasant.  Crops are going to fail, hard.  But will be in a mellow mood as that happens.  As for running out of food?  Only if they decide to dump it, on the ground.  Which they might do, if you keep refusing to buy box cereals and sugared foods.  Though, there is zero difference between high fructose corn syrup and sugar, or honey, or... it's just the general fast carbs.  All, pretty much, the same.  They just have people who aren't ready to cut those hopping on the same foot, swearing they are different.  Even organic cane sugar, raw honey, none of it is one iota different.

Yea, but... on to... something?  Or nothing.  I am hoping to get fed sooner.  Maybe take another shower.  Perhaps get dishes and laundry going.  And, hopefully, make it to bed early.  Thanking God from time to time, for the opportunity, and wherewithal, to do what little I can do, and plan for a tomorrow, even if it isn't for mine?  Maybe.  My real tomorrow is already managed.  All I have to do is accept it.  Later.