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I took 8 cc's of fast acting insulin with lunch, which will be the heavy meal of the day. It was good, again. Not a bad leftover. Heated it just right, forty minutes, in an oven just set to 400, so it was heating as the oven heated, then whatever else time at temp. I did add just a bit more cheese, to freshen it, and a bit of salt, as I hadn't added all that much salt. Very good again. Maybe not quite as good as when fresh, but still a good, filling, warming meal.
As I am getting ready to have a cheese sandwich and else, I checked. Blood sugar is at 109. I am doing well with insulin. I won't have insulin with this next meal. Not quite hungry yet though. Let me see, started at 9:00, with breakfast, I think. Then noon for lunch. It is 15:00, so... six hours... I have an hour, really, or an hour and an half, to eat. The latter only if I can eat in an half hour... which I probably can. I am, as friends have noted, a very slow eater. That is actually a practiced thing. I am procrastinating so that I might feel full enough to stop before I finish food. Well, that's the idea. If I can't eat, and I may not be able to, then I will just not have a second meal. Perhaps a fatted coffee, if a meal doesn't look likely. And, really, it doesn't look likely.
I turned the furnace up. I was cold enough to not get to things. Doesn't seem to matter. I turned it up even more, just in case. Nope. It just isn't helping. That isn't the problem, or all of it. I am sleeping well at night, and warmly, so... that isn't the problem either. And, I am sleeping so very well. I am not kicking, rolling, and else. My blankets aren't getting ripped up, thrown, misaligned, and else. Very strange, but very good. And, yes, I feel more rested. That, too, doesn't seem to be the problem.
I'll keep working on it, trying to dig my way out, sort what the problem is. I just want to work! I want things done, as well to do things. I like to work. I like to have things done, even if I have to do them. It's just a matter of not being able to sort through to the doing. I try, and pray. It's... what I can do. Later.
Since you're doing so well lately with meds and glucose levels, maybe your body is taking time to adjust to this new and regular level of good. When this becomes the new normal, then your body can begin making energy/strength. Maybe?
ReplyDeleteI can hope so, Jean. I've had to struggle to get to this point. And, now that I am here, I just thought what they promised might at least be showing up a bit. I mean, maybe the reason they tried to just have me die, without treating the condition is because it really doesn't, ever, get better?
ReplyDeleteI do wonder about that. Maybe people with my conditions, and through the mechanism, never really improve. I tend to think they believe that. I've been just smart, clever, quick enough to avoid them killing me, and just strong and stubborn enough that the illness hasn't. I'm just not typical equipment.
Still, I sure hope you are right. And I will approach life as if that is true. Even if it never pans out, I simply won't quit trying. Thanks for the well-wishes. I'll take them.