A few things.

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Brother called.  Cool.  I think, as with mom, do to health and wellness issues, they... can only make contact... when they can make contact.  I simply can't judge.  I... am similar anyway.  Just because I have been doing a bit better lately doesn't mean I haven't gone through long droughts where contact wasn't even possible.  Fair enough.

I wanted to brag, a bit.  Getting blood sugar below 200, without but changing diet a bit (more) and vinegar.  And being below 260.  I gained weight, from yesterday.  Up 2.6 pounds, to 258.8.  Doesn't surprise me, metabolism probably crashed while eating so little.  Further, I haven't had a bm in days.  Just not enough... volume?  Something like that.  Volume in.  No volume in, no volume out.  Not worried, it's... just how it goes.  Avoid excesses, in either direction?  Moderation and all that?  Yes.

Blood sugar wasn't great either.  At 179, at least it is less than two hundred.  I am disappointed, but... when you fuck with find out, you fire!  Or... something like that.  I... fired.  Or did I fuck around?  Ah, the latter.  The former is the price.  Even so, not at all worried.  This will be sorted in time.  I am on the right track, just... it's bumpy.

I have roast and steak seasoning as I write.  I'll roast them both, for a bit.  Then sear the steak while the roast finishes.  Maybe just sear half the steak?  It's... a thicker one.  I got mostly thin, but a few thick, steaks.  Very rare treats.  Probably just have half?  Probably.

It is staying cool.  It is just at 65, at noon.  Still, that... is warmer than lately?  A bit?  It is warming, slowly, over time.  It might well hit 70 to 75 today?  If... it doesn't completely cloud over and rain again.  It... very well might.  Has that feel.  We are still well into the water cycle.  If so, it may well drop into the 50s, even 40s if... it really hits.  All good.  I am nearly used to it again.

I have been seeking places to buy coffee.  I want a certain brand.  Won't buy it where I used to buy it.  There is a man, there, who dresses as a woman.  Look, if you wish to be delusional, don't... do it in public.  I almost feel sorry for them, to a degree.  Was it Aristotle who said it?  If a child goes astray, strike the parent(s)?  Right, whoever said it got it right.

Is it difficult to correct a child?  Does it even hurt the parent?  Yes, to both.  But it must be done.  This man was not corrected when it was still possible.  Now he is a public twit.  Not a twat, a twit.  And, in time, in probably many ways, he will pay.  He will never be a woman, just... a twit.  So, I won't buy from that place anymore.  Creepy, truly.  And, from me, that... is simply understanding truths.  On the good side, I did find a source.  It may even be less expensive.  

Though, really, two twelve ounce bags (used to be able to buy it by the pound) gets me through over a month, perhaps six weeks?  Close.  So, yes, I... can and will afford it, even at the current price.  My water costs a lot more, r.o. is a bit cheaper, but... that comes with the cost of water softener expenses... if that isn't just for the r.o. water.  A happy happenstance along with it.

Oh, and, today?  I received the scoby, for creating kombucha.  Why?  I already have kefir, and vinegar.  Because, I... want to see how it works.  Sure, but that could have alcohol in it?  It's a risk, with fermented goods.  But, I like things on the... shall we say sharper side?  There won't be much.  And, if there is, I'll quit the stuff.  Not looking for a mother's little helper.  Just want to see if I can add another product to help with digestion and general health.  Will be tracking blood sugar, weight, sleep, and else.  If it helps, and is good, I will keep it.  If it it a problem, I won't.

I need to make tea.  And sugar it.  Hmm, don't think I have sugar.  Crazy, but... no.  I need to go to town anyway.  I need to get a card out, and purchase coffee.  So... yea.  I can get the tea going later.  But first I need to let the meats finish seasoning, get them in the oven, pull the steak to get a sear on it.  Ugh...

Maybe I can get to town today.  Bleh.  Running slow, behind, etc.  Working on things.  So hungry, I don't think I can... get in too quickly.  But should be able to make the day?  Maybe.

Hmm?  Someone almost has to be... watching.  The watchers do what they do.

The trick to the next?  Ah... but there is... only one girl, not two stars.

Someone remembers a few things, and connects the dots.   I suspect.

Oh, I know you are there.  Here.  You even see, literally.  Sometimes.

Is it brother?  Doubt it, but... there is... always potential.

Neither of us is without... sin.  Amen.

Things seem so much... more clever... on a screen, with the best angles of people too skinny to be real, saying lines scripted, presenting them with labored practiced intention... which isn't their own.  Or, sung to a tune, with lyrics that make some sort of sense to the target audience.

And, yet, the truth of things is rather clever.  Not that being, or existing, clever, is... all that much.  I mean, it isn't... a contemplated creation of a reality, just the realization of said?  We don't craft clever.  Sometimes, at best, we notice it.  That's all.  Sometimes far superior to clever.  Sometimes we even see wisdom, and choose to attempt to employ it.  Sometimes we see evil, and avoid it.  Sometimes, even better we see goodness as a divine thing, and employ it's graces.

Clever?  Isn't much.  Though, on some days?  It is enough.