Not quite a true fast.

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Or, not how I fast.  For some, fasting includes a few light meals and snacks.  I... don't go that way.  If, actually, that is about what I have done today.  One kefir, so far.  Probably another later.  A fatted coffee, with cream as well.  And, several grabs, about three ounces of various baked nuts, in two different portions through the morning and now into the early afternoon.  One more kefir, if I have anything else.

I may do this again tomorrow.  Whatever happened yesterday, that meal through me way out of kilter, with everything.  It is, pretty much, a similar meal to what I had Monday.  That had no effect, none at all.  Strange.  And, yes, I had vinegar with my tea at the end, again, this time.

As for the weather, we have already gotten rain.  And it is cloudy.  I checked the temps earlier.  It had gotten to 52 by about when I woke, a bit before ten.  Then it seemed to warm up.  Then a minor storm blew in, and between the rain and dark, it kept the temp lower.  Just checking, it was 53.  So... probably cooled off even more there for a bit.

I had opened the house at the first check.  It looked more pleasant out there, with 'weather' just... on the periphery.  That changed.  When I checked recently, I shut it all down and turned on the furnace.  It was just getting too cool.  All good, though.  At least I received a few hours of fresh air in.  There is that.

I am hoping to be to bed much earlier tonight.  I have the alarm set for four, though I may alter that, more or less.  My sleep score, for last night, was 49.  Not good, but better than yesterday night, with a score of 40.  I would like to be to bed in time to give myself at least ten hours.

I won't sleep that whole time.  I wake, often.  And I... sleep a disturbed sleep.  One of the things I was curious about is whether allowing Sassy up there caused more problems than not.  Nope.  It looks, generally, as if my disturbances are similar.  Which, to be honest, surprised me a bit.  I'll keep looking at the data.  I should track the nights, exactly, and look at the details more thoroughly.  Still, it would be difficult to exclude Sassy.  Only when I have ac going up there, or all the cold air just goes away with the door open.  No choice.  However, I may find the need to sleep longer?  If she disturbs?  Maybe.

Yea.  Another kefir.  Then time to begin preparing for bed.  At 17:00 to 18:00 I want to be in.  No shower today.  But I've had five or six this last week.  I don't mind one day off, on a down day.  Would have liked to have made it to church, but wasn't able even though I was awake.  Eventually I may make Sunday instead of Saturday.  If I can keep it together as summer heat arrives.

Oh, and no... I don't count this as a failure.  I have been sleeping so poorly, pushing so hard, and getting some things done, so that a drop on the weekend I won't count as a failure.  I consider myself to have two weeks under my belt toward the four to six month goal.  Even the other days, where I had to... negotiate waking, changing the alarm times... that is fine.  Especially as I push, and am just starting up.  The main goal is to hit five days a week, for certain, awake before six or so, and a few days a bit longer.

I may well fail.  Especially with the cold, or if the heat piles on.  But, if I can get back to it, and keep going, I'll just start over.  I have... some strong hopes that I might make things work, get them to work, and perhaps get some employment going.  Don't know.

Kefir.  Kefir, kefir, kefir.  Then I'll have vinegar tonic.  And, check blood sugar right before bed.