All right, problems.

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Sleep sucked again, last night.  No need to check the app.  But, it shows a pretty poor sleep anyway.  Not the worst, in the 50s.  Which... is actually above average.  For whatever reason, my sleep hasn't been good this week.  Well, part of it is trying to push to wake early.  Failing, but making the attempt.

Not enough sleep.  Not good enough sleep.  Rolling, kicking blankets off, pulling them back up.  Not getting deep enough sleep, not enough rem sleep.  Depends on the night.  Deep sleep seems to usually be very good, the rest is variable.  I may just have to let go, and let sleep do what it does.  No fighting, no fussing.

I have been sleeping with the windows open.  It is just 62 outside, and in, this morning.  So, I have been sleeping colder.  I just don't want to turn the furnace on!  I keep expecting it to get hot out there, and then be hot in here.  And, one day, that will happen.  But, for that reason, sleep has been sucking.  Bleh.

Blood sugar was better today, at 165 fasting.  That may be, or close to, the lowest fasting blood test since starting.  Within a point or two either way.  I still worry that the vinegar has stopped working, or is nearing it's limits?  Don't know.  Though, without food, maybe it just didn't have anything to work with?  Oh, and I had stopped eating kefir.  Fell behind in consumption, and resetting it.  Will be starting that up today.

With real food back on the diet, kefir going in before the meal, vinegar going in after the meal, I am nearing back to being back on schedule.  Though, too, it may take a day or two to get everything functioning as it should.  I may be back to 260, or more, as well.  It'll take a while for my body to begin... pushing food through the system, and on out.  Plus, filling the pipeline, a bit, on the way.  Ugh.  Nothing for nothing?  Something like that.

Ah, about that.  Just went, stripped, and weighed in before eating or even sipping.  That may be why I "gained" so much weight yesterday.  A coffee, and a couple of waters, before weighing myself.  Though, did I have that much to drink?  Can't be sure.  But, today, I know I had nothing before weighing in.  And, I am right at 257.8.  Which means I dropped a pound from what I weighed yesterday.  Whatever, there is that.  I am so relieved.  As much as I "gained" yesterday, I feared I would be back up to 260 today... or more.

Yes, I know it's not about the weight.  But, now that I have started losing, I am becoming... jealous, of the lower weight.  I... didn't think I would care, or that it matters.  But it does.  Crazy.

Anyway, on to today.  So very tired though.  I need to sleep, so that I can be more fully awake, when I am awake.  Ugh.  Got to... do some things.  later.