I...

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Yes.  She is on my mind.  A woman.  All I will say for now.  Yes.  I saw her.  Yes, I know... what is being considered.  I see... much... too much.  Or... something like that.  Oh, believe me, I know.  And... the thought is... intriguing.  Tempting?  Though, affordability, reality of the option, and... other things.  And, yet, I have been... contemplating Saint Joseph recently.

Called to a form of humility.  And, yet, a station of grace.  Could have cast Mary out, and rightly in a worldly way.  Did not.  I could not travel his whole road, but perhaps some of it?  I... don't know.  Then again, and again, affordability.  I don't know.  But, I do see what lies before me, as a potential.  I do see what is being offered.  Right, wrong, true?  I...

I know what I have been saying.

I see what she is offering.  Never... what it seems, but... not completely devoid of the notion.  A promise for a possibility, hope, thought.  Is it the thought that counts?

Does she know who I am?  Though, women?  Women seek their doom.  If... to... they seek it in hope?  Odd... creatures.

While I do come from the shadows, from darkness perhaps... born evil immaculate?  Evil without having to act?  Nephilim?  Maybe.  If so, called to... a different place, station.  Called from out of the dark.  You... have no idea what it takes for one of my kind to try to come this way.  I do.  I do.

And, yet, I... can't tell which she is.  Which I am.  Such... oddities.  Nothing I can do for it.  But I... definitely am... considering.  Next time I see her, I... will speak, for a bit.  See if this is just a doomster fancy, or a potential reality.  Then, begin parsing a future based on a potential.

Such things can be sorted out in time.  Wouldn't be the first time.  Though, with and in God, could be... the last time?

Terrible things.  More so for such a one.  And, yet, God called.  I listened, wrestled, lost, and now kneel.  If it is to be, so be it.  Terrifying, mind you.

I finally understood what has been... crashing my mind.  But... that couldn't cause the strange music pops.  Odd... how that happens.