.
Fasting all day was just too much today. Why I can't say. Only, I
gave it a reasonable shot. Now, it will pass for what many consider a
day of fasting, eating one light meal and, or soon, two snacks. I
consider two to three cups of kefir, plain, with nothing added and an orange,
a snack. As well, I had a fatted coffee and soup. And, later, I
will have one more kefir. So, I did fast, and intermittent fast, but not
a nothing day. Ugh.
The temperature, last I checked, was down to 40. Not a bad thing.
Just, still surprisingly cool. Though, that it got to 78, and would have
easily topped well into the 80s if a storm hadn't barged in, does show that...
normal temps are coming. And, it will hit hard, and fast, when it does.
Our river, just to the east, is becoming eerily deep. It is up to the
bridge. Could it go over? I think that is dam water they are
letting through. The real question to that is, could they, even for a
bit, stop the dam? I'm not sure that is necessarily possible, or for
long. So... could lose the bridge to the closer town. Have lost
other passages, smaller bridges and simple roads, to the flooding
already. It could be quite worse, but... it is what it is for now.
I checked blood sugar. At 208, it is high. I didn't get a vinegar tonic in today, though,
either. Ugh. I'll get one of those, now that supper is
finished. Hot. Added carolina reaper peppers to my meal.
I... do like that. Haven't been eating food, or cooking it, where I keep
that. So had almost forgotten. I should add a little container of
that for my grilling platform... platter... what have you. It goes very
well on eggs, or even on one or two of two or three patties. I... like
it hot.
I haven't weighed in. I'll do that after my first, or second, bm
tomorrow.
I may have a tin of sardines, or kippers, with the kefir. I am...
hungry. Very hungry. Trying to eat well if I can't go
without. And lower caloried foods. Soup is only, perhaps, 105 to
135 a serving. Sardines only have, with ev olive oil, perhaps 240
calories? Kefir is in that range too, per cup? The lower end of
that range, per cup, yes.
Someone keeps... visiting. Disturbing my y.t. viewing. They seem
to have backed off. But, for a bit, they were... quite...
assertive. Odd how people are. I have heard names, such as Vlad,
The Count of St. Germain, and... others. I have even heard devil, and
forms of it. Excuses for hatred? It... doesn't work.
Though, too... A woman. Offering soothing softness. A... kind sort
of... sisterly love? Something. A woman I know, closely,
distantly, both? Though, too, a youngling. I... pray for
her. That she find a good man, marry, and... live within the graces of
that embrace. I don't need that, but... that is what women, when it
strikes them, do. When that isn't needed? Vinegar. If... I
have found great use of vinegar, in that form and in the form I add to my
water. Amen. *grins*
Share some? Maybe, or more later? If... I... can get to it.
Since no one is here, I am not sharing it with anyone. But... it's...
the thought that counts. *wink*
Ah... I did remember. There was another, recently, who brought great
hatred to me. I was on the USU grounds, and saw a young man coming to
me. He stopped, and glowered. His hatred, too, palpable. I,
with him as well, had never seen him to my knowledge. It... took a
while, but then I realized, it was Keith's son. Must have been. I
have heard of him, but never seen him. The hatred must run in that
clique. At least for me. Yes, it must.
Strange how that works. I wanted to see if they visited. They...
do... or did. Still do, I do believe. Not the only ones.
But, yes. I see you still. *rictus grin*
I don't fight because my people, or woman... women... think I should, or
could. I fight when... required. In the ways required. For a
soul worth saving, I would even allow my own death. Not... a savior,
just... one with... hope? Odd how things can work out. Turn the
cheek? Only... when that is right to do. Not always is that the
case. Not when the strike isn't a rebuke, but is meant to harm, damage,
or even kill. As mentioned, only if a soul was worth... saving. In
my... humble estimation.
Play as you will. Find out? Fuck around.
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