On to the tonic.

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It's something.  It is filling.  I am hungry.  That works.

It was still 70 just a quarter to half an hour ago.  Being so mild, pleasant, I decided to open up the windows... three of them anyway.  While showering, I got caught up on compression socks and underwear.  Odd things, but they are easier to wash while I shower.  They need to be hand washed.  And, I can just take them off while I am getting in.  They dry within a day.  Underwear I try to wash every day, or every other day, depending on showering.  But change daily.  Socks are washed after three of four wearings.  By manufacturing suggested practices.

Moving air helps those dry.

I had the fans on last night.  One pointing into the room from the far window, one pointing at me, and then also generally, off a wall, toward the opposite window from the pulling fan.  I think the fan, on me, helped with sleep the most.  Though, I haven't had fans on recently, being a bit too cold out.  While 40 is well above freezing, as the days warm, my acclimation point changes.  And, 40, now, is the new 26, by feel.  But I sure like a fan.  Hmm... might consider getting a smaller fan.  Like an office desk fan, for up there.  With or without an ac running.  Just... a little face air.  Love that.

Getting tired.  Again.  Not sure I'll make it to much else.  Rather than fight it, I may just go on to bed, doing some reading while up there.  Beyond the workout book, I may begin in on Spanish.  I purchased a serious grammar book, and workbook to go with it.

To be honest, the grammar is probably well beyond my capacity for it, in Spanish.  However, having mastered several other languages, including one latin, and having started another, with Spanish having been taken in high school, I... may have a better shot at starting at this level.

As mentioned before, one of the biggest tricks to learning a foreign language is to regain a serious understanding of your own language.  It is difficult to compare these a known and unknown language without knowing the first language.  I am not sure they even teach formal English anymore, though.  They don't bother.  Further, they have been eroding the English language, in America, to the point that it... may not be teachable, at least not to the young.  What is the average, for even grade-level comprehension, currently, at any level of "education"?  50%, 30%?  

I was reading at 12th grade comprehension by the 7th grade.  If... I was a freak.  Reading, and understanding, the King James version of the bible by then, as that was the version I read first, and seconds I think.  I don't expect that even from kids my age, but I do expect 8th graders, 6th grades, 3rd graders, to mostly read at their level... at least in the 70% to 80% level.  Education has failed.  But... the question I have, is, how dumbed down have they made English?  Does it even have rules anymore?  Bleh... Start where you start, I suppose.

Oh, found suspenders.  As I am losing weight I am needing something more than belts.  Well, as I lost weight.  Hopefully that isn't over.  But... that will be sorted in time.  Anyway, so am trying it out, with my pajamas today.  I had to seriously size it down.  It was sized to when I first moved in, and between 285 and 300.  While the weight difference at 260 doesn't seem much, it is all from the torso.  So, yeah, it makes a huge difference.  I'm thinking about buying a few more, for variety.  And, because I lose things.  Or they get stolen.  Lots of things.

The thing I do note, however?  Is even if I lost twenty seven to thirty pounds from the last time I weighed in, before beginning to lose, I am still rather large.  A big belly.  Odd, though, that as I lose weight, it actually looks worse.  But, being ugly to start, I have never been doing this to become magically handsome.  Actually, as mentioned, that is a side effect from trying to eat better, for my health.

Hmm.  With the watch going, and the app to check and try to change things, I really should get back to the food app.  Just to... see if I can change my diet even more.  Plateauing sucks.  Especially when I thought I was doing well.  I need to look closer, see more.  I am... hungry to lose weight.  The food app did help.  It just wasn't enough, alone.  Nor is the tracking watch and app.  Together?

I'll have some problems.  Diet isn't enough.  Medicine wasn't enough.  Sleep tracking and else isn't enough.  Even all of those together will not be enough.  I have to try to get to exercise, and better sleep.  I have to change more than this.  Some people are healthy enough, even if way overweight, to lose weight.  I am not, not without exercise.  My problem is my health will preclude that, sometimes.  Perhaps often, not allowing it because I just can't.

However, with exercise when I can, intermittent fasting, proper eating within that window, tracking food, tracking health and exercise, all as able, when possible, and to whatever level possible, I... might be able to push through.  Or not?  I have mentioned I am a doubting Thomas.  But, that... doesn't stop me from trying anyway.

I may fail.  And fall back.  But only to see why I failed, and try a different tack.  If one way doesn't work, or another, or another, perhaps package the options.  If hiking alone won't get me up the mountain, what about roping, rock climbing, swimming, or losing weight and getting more fit?  Or the whole thing.  I... want to get up the mountain, even if just to die.  Now I feel I have places to go.

Yes, beside reading, I will see if I can find the app, get it installed.  I won't sign up for the whole thing until next month.  Yes, it's worth having a full membership.

For now, though, upstairs I go.  Then down for some rest.