Waiting, or hurrying.

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I keep checking the stock.  I want the top to be solid.  It will get there, just not quickly.  Tonight?  Definitely by tomorrow if I may take a nap between now and then.  I'm not really up to laundry.  I have been sweeping, though.  Clearing more of the kitchen table as well.  Mostly little things.  Boxes and laundry are just a bit too much.  Little things, or even stock just to finish that, sure.

I have looked on amazon for 32 ounce containers, and have them in my basket.  Along with other items.  I finally broke down, this month, and ordered a stereo.  Not a boombox, though not a component system.  Everything is bluetooth and wi-fi today.  I don't want any of it.  I had to hunt and peck to find a shelf system that didn't have flashing lights, if I still can't be sure.  So many things to check... headphones?  Bluetooth.  What type of cd's?  Will it both play and record to thumbdrives?  Does it HAVE a cd?  Radio?  How does it sound?  Can I crank it up, down, how is the middling?  Is there a   I can't really find these systems.  I suppose Best Buy.  They used to, if you didn't buy their insurance (which was useless), take the item back out of view.  It was suggested that they had been told to take it out and drop it.  Or trade it for one that was on the skids and had been brought back.  I don't know how true any of that was, or if it still is.  Though the last time I bought something there, as the cashier grabbed and seemed to be heading off I almost just went out the door... he just, or then, moved it to a place to set it.  Then again, amazon is also trying to sell it's warranty.  That, it is suggested, is where they make their money.  It's a bet, a racket, they can't lose?

The rich and the poor around the world might hate Americans.  I doubt if they have any idea how much, through their actions, that is reciprocated.  Though there are more of them, that was kept in check by tech.  But now the rich have brought more of them in than there remain of us.  This will get bad, probably for everybody.  Online you can never tell which one is truly on which side.  No, not even close to the big names.  Lots of honey-pot traps and haters pretending to be frienders.  Watch your step, friends.  While you might not like what you read here, always... just know that is as true as I know, as honest as I can put it, if too I can change my mind.  And will, and do change my mind.  Of course, I realize that paints a target on me.  As I've mentioned, there has been one on me since before I was born.  If she couldn't hit the target, the world couldn't, and I couldn't...  Still, you are quite welcome to step up and give it a toss.  I wouldn't mind, in one sense.  Save for your soul.  It's a long, long, road back from hell from a murder.

Nap time?  Maybe.  Oh...  I also went through the refrigerator.  I tossed what was bad.  I decided not to toss the yogurt, though I could toss the greek yogurt.  While it is fine for bean soups, especially after fermenting with kefir, I have enough of the other stuff that I don't really need that.  Hmm... though... I wonder...  I ought to test which of the three is better for carbs.  My guess is it will be greek and kefir derived creme fraiche.  I'd bet good money on it, if I were a betting man.  Anyway... nap?  Not quite yet.  Later.

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At 3:26, without anything else in since the cream tea and liquid stevia, blood sugar is at 159.

I would like to nap now, but without having done much more, I believe I will go ahead and do the dishes.  I had been holding off on those until stock, but stock just isn't moving along fast enough.  The dishes and pot in three, then maybe a shower, then a nap.  The shower is optional, though either before I sleep or both then and after.  Just because.  I have lowered the temp on the little refrigerator.  I'll check on it before I sleep, but if the tallow has fully hardened, I will raise the temp just a bit.  Not trying to be tricky, just avoiding freezing it twice... or such.  It's not good for things, and I am done waiting for it.  I don't have the energy to do it and what else I really want to do.  Good... morning, night, nap... not sure.