It just didn't work as proposed.

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I didn't get down until 23:30 or so?  It beats a 2:00 to 3:00 bedtime, but it isn't what is planned.  Why?  I don't know.  I'll keep at it.  I might be struggling but... I AM struggling.  I am trying.  And there is some form of success.  Up, late, this morning.  Again, not from lack of effort.  I had both alarms set.  One for seven, one for eight, and I kept hitting snooze... a miserable thing.  I guess they eventually timed out, if I don't really remember.  Up at 10:30.  Ugh.

Dreams, of high school, early childhood, and people I knew, as I remember them.  More a reliving than a dream.  But, with the perspective of an adult.  Oddly, peer pressure didn't work on me much better when I was younger than now.  I made allowances, for some people I liked, but let them know it still wasn't true, I'd just not debate it with them.  Especially girls.  I... always liked girls, some more than others, before sex was really a contemplation.  But I didn't just go along, ever.

I fought boys, befriended girls, mostly.  Always had a small pack of girlfriends, some closer, some more distant, only a few I didn't like.

Blood sugar is 106 fasting.  Not bad.  I'll do bp later.  Chores first thing, then litter.  I'll set the time for an hour, then get the cats.  Food, already begging, they know better.  Or should, by now.  Hmm?  Make it two hours.  I don't... want them thinking what they shouldn't.

Breakfast is going to be a whole chia breakfast.  I wonder what adding flax in will do?  I may play with that, adding flax, or replacing one of the tablespoons of chia with it.  At least with this meal, I don't get overfull, and it usually doesn't make me too full for later.  For lunch, a can of sardines and 11 to 13 grams of carbs from those keto crackers... three... if I need three.  Or less if two will do, or even one.  Then, supper will be some portion of pork roast based on my needs at that point.

Next week, I think a beef chuck roast will be the main.  Though, maybe, with chicken drummies or thighs as an occasional alternative, or additive.  Salad, tuna or plain, as another.  The salad is getting long in the tooth, but still, so far, holding out.  Oh, and I want to crunch one or two of the keto crackers, as croutons in the salad.  I really miss croutons, and these should work quite well for it.

Well... on to chores.  Then breakfast.  Getting it set up by the time I finish, anyway.  Noon is meal time, and darn tootin', I plan to eat right about then, or very close to it.