Really tired.

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Oh, finally remember bp.  To take it.  It was way late after pre-breakfast meds, so I took my night medicines and then gave it an hour... or two.  Meant to give it half that time, but... so it goes.  As it was filling with air, squeezing the arm, I wondered if it must be high.  Just... the length of time, and seeming pressure on my arm.  When it's high, it hurts.

This was a medium.  I was thinking it would be 150 to 160 over, say 100 to 110.  Tick-tock, gotta let it do it's thing.  Then, off.  A quick look, and... wow.  Very good, in that it wasn't high.  Maybe a little too low?  It is 114/74 with a pulse of 79.  And blood sugar is 114.  Okay.  And, it isn't so low, mostly, that it is trouble.  Still, if it remains this low, I may stop the 3.xxx carvedilol, and keep the 12.5 one (twice a day each, currently).  If it gets fussy, I could cut just one of them?

Now, I am feeling better.  I haven't felt this good for that long in a long while.  My only problem is I am not, yet, able to work.  I get winded thinking about it.  Seriously.  The water buckets were a marathon.  I had to sit and rest for a few hours to get some semblance of energy back.  Running low.

We will see if food, on this new program, will do.  I can't say I am feeling better, that way.  But it is too short of a program to say anything about it.  In a few weeks, but more in a few months, I may have a better idea.  What amazes me is how close I was and how little I am having to do to make it work.  Seriously, I was so very close, just running blind.  Now I have vision, radar, sonar, an accurate and precise helm, planes for verticals...  

And it is easy.  I am not feeling hunger beyond my ability to control.  I am, generally, eating better than I have in years.  Even with cutting calories, I am eating nearly every day, rather than starving and feasting in excesses.  For eating fewer calories, I am far fuller, all of the time.  And, when I do have hunger, outside of the time, I like what is happening so much that it isn't too much of a temptation.

I still don't believe I will really lose any weight.  But, as mentioned, my doubts aren't... the controlling factor, as to what I will or won't do.  And, this isn't fully about weight loss.  It is as much about general health and wellbeing, controlling diabetes, and maybe helping with the heart condition.

Ugh, a bit of a headache coming on.  It's been a long time since I have used painpills.  I may go ahead and use one or two tonight.  I don't want sleep interrupted by this stupid thing.  I still have waterers to fill, perhaps another bucket of water, chores, and a shower.  As well, slow acting insulin.  Then I can go to bed.

Oh, I did get meals planned for tomorrow.  I may tweak them as I go.  The great thing, if I continue this method, of setting things up the day before, is that I can cook the food beforehand.  Or do any preps.  When I just walk into the kitchen, without a clue, it's... risky.  Easy to eat too much meat, or too many veggies, or... it's just too risky.  I still can't believe I am eating much smaller portions of meat, and still feel stuffed.  In the past, I would have eaten the pork in three sittings.  As is, I will probably get... six or seven meals out of it... if it lasts.  Crazy, baby.  Later, or goodnight.