Hunger.

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For a specific food.  My family version of spaghetti, with meat tomato sauce.  From time to time, I have it.  With regular spaghetti.  I prefer, by size, regular spaghetti to thicker spaghetti noodles.  Angel hair thin is fine, from time to time.  But I don't generally like other noodles.  If I want, say, goulash, that takes different noodles, and... even if I use the same sauce, the flavor is totally different.  With goulash, I might want shells, or a very few other noodles.  Oddly, no matter the sauce, the noodle used can change the taste so as to be a different type of meal.  And, no, linguine simply isn't a spaghetti type meal either.  Actually, oddly, I really don't like linguine, regardless the sauce?  Strange but true.

Still, I am trying to get to keto.  I have been having a problem though.  No matter how "keto" I have tried to eat, I still get bumped from ketosis.  Smaller amounts, particular ingredients, this, that, the other thing.  It hasn't seemed to matter.  As well, I lose and gain on this diet.  Even when eating very little.  So, for about a year, I have been pouting.  When I haven't been too ill to manage a diet of any real sort, just eating... as lately... whatever possible.

Anyway, recently, I noticed videos on how to cook spaghetti squash.  I have heard it is a keto version of spaghetti.  And, that there were various ways to cook it.  Still, while I have looked at various ways of cooking it, I have never really been sure of any real way.  Nor was I sure that it was truly keto.

Tonight, while blinding browsing, I saw this first vid.  Okay, four different ways means if one way is blocked, the other ways may well work.  Just... opportunity.  I can never be sure.  With four ways, the opportunity is much higher.  After viewing this one, I looked for one on whether spaghetti squash is keto.  Half the carbs of potato?  That means it is, on a light volume.  Enough?  If it tastes anything like pasta, even given the givens, yes, maybe it would work.

More?  In the second video, I... get it.  Yes, eating anything can kill ketosis.  Gah!  Even at an 80 to 90 percent ketosis consumption, sometimes, for good reasons or bad, or none at all, I will lose ketosis!  Gah!  So, there it is.  And, rarely am I able to even hit the 90% range, on a single meal or snack, unless it is single item snacks.  My usual, in honesty, that I can maintain without running into the hills, looking for pizza, candy bars, or else, is in the 50% to 70% ranges.

I have gotten to where good, right, veggies can be added.  Some meats do well.  And I can get pretty keto eating.  But not the really high fats, at least without going so far over the calorie count at which point it simply doesn't matter.  I can get pretty keto, even if it doesn't always show it.  And, just one bad move, can throw keto off for weeks.  It will take me two weeks to get over this Halloween splurge.  Though, I was glad to hand out candy to the kiddies this year.  I missed last year.  I will pay that price.

Anyway...  I don't have the squash.  I have been afraid of it, as I just didn't think I could cook it.  I have never cooked it before.  But, this cooking video?  Yea, I think I can do it.  The next time get into town I will grab at least one.  Plus anything else I think I might need.  Further, when I eat keto, I usually need a lot less of any recipe.  With regular noodles, I can eat a pound or three before finding some sort of sluggish fulfillment, over four or five days.  With this?  I bet I can do three or four doses, small, over a few days.  Without having slaughtered my ketosis (too badly).  Call it a splurge, if it will do).

It sure looks good, maybe?  Now, to figure out how to keep it on hand, and the other squashes, for a longer time.  If I could keep it in house for a month, or better two or three, life would be much better.  One or two, of the various squash, to replace spaghetti and potatoes, several times a month?  That would be good.

Anyway...  There is hope that it might all work out. And, maybe, if I can get back to things, maybe that I could get back to keto.  Ugh.  Do your best, but it's a seemingly impossible string of events to tangle, or untangle, or both.  Later.