Just standing is difficult.

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It's not just leg strength, it is air.  I can't seem to get enough.  I had thought, after yesterday, I would be doing better.  Vision is, mostly, better.  Everything else has become difficult again.  As difficult?  Maybe.  I would more say air and muscle seem slightly better by part, but worse in whole.  I am having a lot of trouble just standing.

Oxygen should be good enough, but it really isn't.  The reading says it is good.  I checked again, it is at 96.  Checked twice.  I just went down for a bit, but then is back to where it started.  I'll check every one in a while, see if it drops, and how far, from time to time.  Perhaps I really am different enough so that "good readings" just really aren't good, for me.

A shower, if I can get to it.  I did feed the girls.  Twice, now, I think.  Ugh.  I'll see about food, when I can.  I have meat which should be thawed.  Brats, a cornish game hen, and... some other stuff should be thawed.  Maybe just oven roasting.  It's the easiest way to cook, leaving me on my feet for the shortest times.  I have sauerkraut in there.  Perhaps something else?  Not hungry, but honestly know I need to eat.  Not sure keeping it down would be easy though.  I should be able to keep it very keto.

I have a few things I really want to do.  Just maybe I may be able to do some things.  I am, as well, beginning to try to gain more control of hunger and thirst.  I suppose I could drink most of my hunger away.  I probably have been.  But that may be part of why I am so week.  You really do have to take in food, enough of it, to have energy to burn.  I really may be starving.  Even when I was eating candy bars, I was only eating 500 to 800 calories a day.  Nauseous from that, actually.  Hated eating those, but it was... something to eat.  As well, the calories weren't good burning calories.  I'm not sure they really provided much... like wood which burns very quickly... you end up going through it fast, and while it seems hot, it's really, over time and volume, cold.

Well, and even since I went back to keto, I am eating far too little... in the 500 range.  So, yeah.  I need to figure out how to eat more.  Feeling better, in a lot of ways, but starving.  Drinking more water won't help, even if I don't feel like getting up and cooking.  I better figure out how to get more calories, as much fat and more protein.  Carbs truly aren't needed.  If vitamins and minerals that come with some vegetable carbs really are needed.  I can take vitamins and minerals, but eating them seems to be the best... unless, like potassium, I need a dose which isn't possible to eat, because of other medicines I take causing a massive imbalance.

Yes, food.  I will... try to sort out getting more food!  I am almost certain that is what is wrong.  My cells are trying to burn what just doesn't exist.  Something, quickly.  Cheese and ham, I think, and a fatted coffee.  But, then, figure out something for a few hours on, and set the timer to cook it...  Two... three hours.  Gotta have some food, and gotta eat up a bit.

Once I get food to a point where my body begins to work, then I can begin intermittent fasting again... just eating when I actually need food.  Not want, not thirsty, but need.  I really think eating just because it is a time is part of my problem.  I noticed that in one of the videos.  I have... wrestled with that a few times.  I think she may be right.  Whether I eat once or thrice a day should depend on felt need.  Though, sometimes, that will mean eating even when I may not feel hungry, but know I should be.

Tricky damned process.  With the business, or health issues, or whatnot, we seem to have begun ignoring our natural signals.  I am on the machine, too often, when eating.  I am trying to learn hot to listen while hot, though.  Maybe will work.  But having to cook, clean, process, buy, transport, and else... all the food... while ill on top of it, makes this a tricky widget.  Still, I am going to begin trying.

Now for a bite, and sip.  Later.